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Blues Boating Home

Human history is difficult;
hard pressed,
discovering
and rediscovering,
connecting
and reconnecting feelings
about therapeutic needs
and sacred wants
for peace
trust
joy

Through co-empathic singing passions
which may,
too often,
feel stressful

Irritating
depressing
stormy
before unconditional win/win regard
for Self AND Other
reconnect,

Like EgoTheistic re-ligion
and EcoMatriarchal
indigenously multicultural
wisdom

Of Ego/EarthTribe mutual becoming
more green therapeutic together
than win/lose competitive
dissociating
controlling and too egocentric
and too anthro-dominant
held too LeftBrain supremacist
apart.

On my drive back
to my blue turbulent home,
I struggle with postpartum depression,

Common when I separate
from spiritual sojourner musicians,
fellow wandering sacred wonderers
would-be soul-full,
not hopelessly ego-engorged, harmonizers
and intuitive dancers,
expressively embodied movers
and economic-political shakers,
mindful ecological leaders
and GoodNews infused chorus girls
and everyday win/win polyphonic boys,
maturely compassionate men and women
and exotic in-between
bodhisattva polytheists.

Why am I feeling irritated
against you?

What could I have said
and gestured,
and shared,
and done,
and not done
to let you know,
to let you in
on how unheard
unseen
and unappreciated I am feeling
as this evening,
this mortal life,
this sacred opportunity
slides
and swims
and sails by.

In more recent weeks
our original intent
to listen deeply
with informed compassion
for wounds
becoming unweaponed,
for win/win communion therapies
that join
conjoin
rejoin past win/lose traumas
feels unraveled,
sidetracked,
drydocked
in issues about pain,
suffering,
loss of control,
severances overwhelming renewals,
universal climatic turbulence
flooding remaining hopes
for unitarian green/blue EarthTribe
boating peaceful home.

Why do you seem so triggered
by alpha stressed competitions
with our sometimes surprisingly controlling
too egocentric
capitalistic spiritual director,
sacred leader,
ecopolitical peace activist,
theological love teacher,
ecological panentheistic mentor,
health-is-wealth core care facilitator,
multicultural mediator,
operations conductor
of musicians, at our musing
and amusing best,
and not cacophonously win/lose strategists
at our distrusting
and mistrusting worst.

I become curious
about why you want to control
our musical mountainous expression
of plain and solid standing
to sing together
by remaining distant
from my inside rolling oceans
of peak sensory
musical movement experiences.

Why do you seem less curious
about how I struggle to joyfully continue sailing
never, ever having known safe harbor
or healthy home portal,
on this straight white privileged place?

Sailing on this epic journey
for positive regard
that I know,
without shadows of depressing doubt,
will stand
and sit
and lie,
listen and speak and sing with me
as I am embraced
with all my woundedness
and all our co-empathic sacred brilliance
to joyfully celebrate,
quietly appreciate,
gratefully acknowledge
everyday sacraments
of kindred sailing souls

Making our blue ways home
under stars of full moon heavens
embracing revolutions
of therapeutic light
and traumatic night,
wondering

How frightening it feels
to age away from peak mental
spiritual
physical
natural control

Facing inevitable mortal degeneration
threatening to steal back
my sureness
that below Me
and within
We feel no motion,
no terrifying emotion
while standing firmly in control
of this plain
everyday
yet mountainous
musical event

Of rolling co-operations
and conflicts,
voiced and hidden,
in overwhelm surviving mode
so not able to access confident
curious co-thrival
co-passionate means
to deeply listen
and appreciate
being born to sail this Earth
together in this time
of climatic changing
blue boat swamping terror

Within the fathoms
of our turbulent oceanic universe,
traveling salt-teared Earth
driving home
wondering why you are now less curious
about why my fluidly
legato love story
requires a cappella blues,
reflective repetitions,
emotive nuances
as slow
and widely engaged,
deeply felt
as floating thoughts
diving into EarthTribe’s most sacred
peak systemic experiences

Blue blues
rolling through oceans
of warm
salty wet Earth tears
of universal compassion

ReMembering
human history is difficult,
hard pressed,
discovering
and rediscovering,
connecting
and reconnecting feelings
about therapeutic needs
with sacred wants
for peace
trust
joy
sacred mused harmonics.

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Brass WindChimes

Brass windchimes
ring melodic time
backed up
and down,
back
and forth
by boisterous breeze voices
blowing somewhat more silent choices
below

Before benighted rejoice
reprise to rise
and fall
wounded fail
yet again

Melodious inside intentions
to ring true
love’s restoring stories
of local justice circling
dynamic spirals inside
looking resounding out
virally
conspiratorially
anticipating healthier life within
Mother’s sensual gusts

Overpowering peaceful chimes
global resting
arresting rhymes
with powerful enculturing space
enlightened green spring out times
up happy,
healthy

Driven by bountiful breeze
and this northbound tidal
grey-blue iconic river
flowing drifts back
and surging forth,

Downstream
yet again back up
in-between
indigenous natured out
spirits in

Chiming outside colonizing industrial windows
noticing
re-connecting stressful winds
and anxious tides
of not so well chimed
compassionate green change
loudly rang

While icecaps,
empowering South
and enlightening North,
silently
soundlessly
melt integrity’s just right divine
and humane left

Eastern Earth greets Western Sun
chiming resonant hospitality
of eco/theo-logical nurturers
nourishing brass rounds
of resighted
respited
holy sounds.

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Wandering Through History

I wonder
about wandering into sacred history

Back
remotely far
in collective memory
before humanity,

When EarthTribe regenerativity
was all compassionately gifted
divinity,

Panentheistically expressed
in ecofeminist panting Earth’s
great rapturously gifted
economic ecology
of volcanic infilling relationships.

I wonder,
back before male religious cultures
and anthrosexual climates
were our elders sensory
linguistically
meaningfully sacred prime co-relationship
then LeftBrain purposely
separated

In a precisely either/or
dissociative producer/consumer way
away from divine/human companionship
as were sensuality
of morally healthy polycultures
democratically balancing
nonviolent co-governing
communication,

Long
long
before Earth’s great wondrous turning,
before verbal dominance
when religious dogma
overcame spirited natural experience
felt like communioned
EarthTribe reconnection

With all creatures here below
awake outside
riding on sacred Earth,
a land
and sea
of rich communications
enveloped in resonant
musical companionship.

I wonder
if all mammaling muses asked
invited
absorbed animally within
among each creaturely Other
inviting nonviolent hospitality
in healthy democratic return
of wealthy multiculturally religious
sensual
politically empowering communications

Of economically enlightened
theological companions
celebrating co-empathic
real time gifts

Wondering
as we wander
into sacred polycultural
history
of healthy ecosystems

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Dervish EarthDance

I sometimes reconsider
all our politicians
and economists,

Not as party-line teachers,
or even dogmatic preachers,
instead of future forecasting,
co-infesting deep past
and present listening
with compassioning
co-empathic
therapeutic intent
to laugh and sing.

Who is not
at least a private health care politician
seeking to empower our constituencies
and not to disempower?

What responsible adult
is not at least a personal wealth economist?
Praying for divine enlightenment
and not so much
inhumane
depressing endarkenment?

Who has been
cause-effect
effectively recausing
counter-culturally
exposed to Buddhist master laughter?
Meditation in silly groups
feeling nearly giddy
with short-term relief
from mountainous depression
valleys of despair

Surprised,
perhaps dismayed,
that such a fake
pretending dervish exercise
might portend more
than our species’ economic
political
anti-ecological demise.

I further wonder
if all Earth’s depressed
suppressed
oppressed
repressed muted muses

Silenced
stunned
sunk by political sadness
dispiriting badness
economic madness
of Earth’s Great Transitional Pandemic

Might discipline our lonely
lethargic
neglected bodies
to dance
until our minds remember how to sing
and ring
ping and ding
a liturgy of sacred laughter things
together regathering

For re-empowering compassioned muses
enlightening sacred ecstatic economists,
co-investing companies and choirs
of moving
mindful
musicality,
harmony,
synergy,
win/win cooperative energy,
sufficient for eco-politically heart-felt
lung-filled integrity

To more reflectively reconsider
all our singing polities
and EarthDance economies
sanctifying dervish universities.

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The Choir Audition

Why does she know
laying our music down
raises musicality
reality up?

Does she also know
why my lips prefer to sing
in resonant Oh,
Oooooooh…
oozing round O’s
and singular Ah’s
free of mapping static lyrics

Lines sung
hung
rung right or wrong,
good marching when uniform,
bad when too shy
of improvising bold
multiculturing unity

Harmony musing
amusing spontaneous drifts
and rifts
of EarthTribe’s light
bright woke-up
out loud power focus

Searching out deep whole-sum liturgies
of octaved musicality
we share
when fine-tuned to listen
for our not-so-silent breaths,
anticipating life’s next cooperatively felt
and politically co-empowering
story.

Songs of sacred circling lines
and whole systemic spaces
clever linearly written,
yet never speaking totally predicted sounds
resonant transcendent
anticipating in-between joy
and silent
nonviolent
resilience.

I wonder if she feels
as I sometimes can do
that muses nurture music
as abusers remain
narcissistically
patriarchally
capitalistically competitive,
unsympathetic

Lacking indigenous co-empathic wisdom,
Yang universal
Yintegral unitarian
musical integrity

Of Earth’s sound tribes flowing
songs and rhythms patterning
natural narratives,
curiously intimate Earth Day
anthems

Dancing spirited
taoistic breaths
bicamerally cooperative
contemplating solidarity
sung clarity

Under a zillion twinkling
zen core inkling
starlit choral nights.

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Sacred Musings

If muses
have sacred meanings
deeper
and before secular evolving purposes,

As vocations
are to painful employment,

Then what music
would
could
should we prefer outside
to health care inside
digest?

Together peaceful
in resonance

Deeper
and before traumatic
warring
wearied
worn out dissonance.

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Fiddler’s Womb

If I were a poor woman
I would dance and sing
through basement boogy woogy bars
all these days and nights
of EarthTribe healthy men

Winning
not measured in applause
but absorbing painful bunions
in glad support
of Earth’s healthiest worn-out pause

Performing songs with peace
inviting massive choirs
composing mother muses,
matriarchs of deeply felt integrity
dancing EarthDay’s cause.

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EarthMuse Fusion

No one loves alone,
sings EarthMother Muse.

No individual person
no isolated incorporation
or musical composition,

No monoculturing society,
No individual nation
or religious denomination,

No Father’s WhiteTheistic
Orthodox
ChosenPeople Church
or SinFree Synagogue
or Patriarchal Mosque
or Black Lives Assembly,

No transcendently triumphant Kingdom Hall
lives inside health resonantly
while outside remains entirely wealthy
with runaway dissonant loneliness,
despair
depression
oppression
suppression,
lack of multiculturally systemic impression

Neglecting cognitive opportunity
to grow deep intuitive feelings
of integrity

Loving inside EarthPower
and outside Heaven’sLight
resiliently

BiPartisan bilaterally
ego/ecosystemic brilliantly

Panentheistic holonic spirited
democratically
universally co-enlightened Left
co-empowering RightBrain wealthier expressions
of Earth’s polypathic Muse

Fusing and fuguing
toward polyphonic songs of synergy
found in healthy incorporated bodies
anticipating curiously communal
wealthy win/win minds.

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How Many Holidays

How many times have I heard?

The family that prays together
stays together

And, the family that eats together
stays together

I know from personal Holiday
and every day
experience,
neither of these is necessarily true.

However,
I wonder if the family that sings
and/or dances together,
does stay together,
if only in our dreams.

And how many times have I thought,
and sometimes said?

If not broken,
do not fix.

If Holiday celebrations
are not broken,
then no reason to start singing
and/or dancing
now,
avoiding climatic catastrophe
by creating
and recreating
EarthPeace eucatastrophe.

Only fix fractures
when crumbling climates
are painfully obvious losses

Is a profound example
of LeftBrain Business As Triumphantly Usual
bipolar idealism

Either we are depressingly broken already
Or we are not yet sufficiently flawed
in our current competitive consumer mania

Polarized thinking
predicts selfishly predative feelings,
like marching in vicious squares
rather than choosing
to sing in virtuous circles.

Reduced to merely secular
devolutionary devotion,
Or not yet feeling naked loss enough
for a sacred solstice
revolutionary caroling
song and dance
midnight flashmob
massive howl event.

Fracturing doubts
perilously ignore intuitive warnings:
feeling masked alone,
so not extended family exposed,
never threatening to sing a kind line
or dance risky emotional steps
toward resonant healing

LeftBrain doubts
about losing control
of soberly reasonable celebrations
reminds me that most thought
and felt relationships working now
are threatened by unraveling climate decay,
by natural organic lifetime limitations,
by dysfunctional silence,
by mortal fears
and breaking anger disorders,

By denial of sufficient individual survival
through self-perpetuating love
sufficient for fixing Ever After.

Frequent flyer Left lyrics
devoid of Right rhythmic tone,

Secularized monotheism
not yet open toward sacred panentheistic
song and dance systemic communications
co-arising cognitive/affective resonance
feeling verbalizing thoughts:

If not yet unhealthy broke,
zero-sum bankrupt,
in traumatic competitive
shouting consumptive hate
and all-consuming anger
and consumer fear of crisis,
then what?

Perhaps deep listening
for feelings sung
and needs danced out
with those who do appreciate
individual sacred egos
are win/win made
to become half Other warm
ecosystemic environments
of wellness planning
unbroken,
undivided,
reassociating Trust

Reconsidered in here
healing musical space
through eternal now not hurting,
killing,
hurling time

Win/Win bicameral
dipolar co-arising engagement
ego/eco-systemic
resilient unbroken anthro health
is true resonant holiday
and every day wealth,

Earth environmental deep learning
from win/lose brokenness
toward future win/win reweaving
song and dance

LeftEgo/RightEco therapeutically cooperative
mending mindfulness
of integrity’s potential
for resonant healing
individual isolating events
of felt broken climates,

Pre- and/or Post-traumatic stress
inherited from past falling short,
narrow,
shallow everyday present awareness

Intuitively wanting to fix future
traumatic lose/lose awkward
and malforming breaks
and win/lose competitive risks
threatening long-term consumer malfunction,
and win/win synergetic mondbody integrity
of ego songs
and fire circle eco-dances
recycling cooperative
EarthDay and Night
resilient musical consciousness.
and win/lose risks

With winBody/winMind synergetic integrity
of ego dancing
eco cooperative singing
compassionate NewYear consciousness.

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Why Systems Comfort

What do healthy systems,
naturally spirited,
ecologically enlightened
and ego-politically empowered swell

Wellness
anthro-economic networks
wonder,
often wander around
what do wealthy mindbody systems do
when the Body squarely says
“I’m doing all I can comfortably do”

And the unsatisfied Mind asks
“Why is my need for healthy integrity
neglected
deflected
ignored
unrestored?”
at least half
my less than thriving
time
in your embodied space

In musical pace
and game place
and systems empirical
lyrical theory embrace,

This BodyMind feels a dissonant gap
between a comfortably expected
repetitively resonant accord
in music narrative compositions
as traditionally played
and replayed pitch perfect
military march uniformity
with RightBody empowered control

Over-riding a deeply serene
enlightened LeftMind unity
preference becoming contenting content
of EarthTribe’s sacred stereophonic
story, systemic

Waiting curiously,
and thereby less impatiently
win/lose pushing individual performance,
self-prophetically solo lonely

Waiting for our next cooperative
muse amusing immersion
peak climatic experience
designed
orchestrated
choreographed

Win/Win improvisational
in sacred
therapeutic scores
and scales
of resonant empowering harmony
enlightening multi-lateral symphony
in keys of bicameral rhapsody,
health/wealth systemic
ecstasy.

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