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Following Our Rules

In our Sharing Circles
we have a ground rule
to share a one speaker at a time floor
and unitarian silent listening support

And rules to not verbally share uninvited commentary
suggestions
agreements or disagreements
during, and after,
this formalized Circle.

Speakers are invited to share from experience only,
not from someone else’s story,
experiential and/or theoretical,
parental and/or academic,
personal and/or professional.

This is a Closed Circle
of verbal communications,
a rhetorically autonomous inside job
only silently noting our egalitarian
nonjudgmental
side by sideness
of authority
responsibility
compassion;

Help,
Thanks,
Wow!;

Truth,
Beauty,
Silent Passion…

If we are a composition,
we enter an historic symphony of solo voices
implicitly singing our universality
experiencing time’s nurturing
and severing qualities
and relentlessly insufficient quantity,
except when anyone else is speaking
business as too coldly
or too warmly
usual.

In our Reading Circles
our implicit ground rule culture differs
more in favor of the spontaneous spoken word,
this good news,
extemporaneous,
and bad fake news,
distemper-odious,
gospel we scribe together,

Usually one voice leading
a sustained melodic theme,
sometimes harmonic and splendid,
sometimes dissonant and diminished,
inviting in compassionate responses,
major and minor,
listening for counter-melodies,
for analogies
metaphors
curious oxymorons,
outrageous internal pun fun,
rhymes
and maybe the occasional reason,
held with soft determination
and not hard determinism.

Participants are invited to share
harmonic voices of MeToo
and to gently question why
my own dissonantly deviant choice
traps me in feeling detached,
uncertain,
less certain,
more certain we must be missing
some counter-balancing dirge of risk
and full-circle opportunities
for evolving peaceful revolutions.

We sing in Open Circle rounds
of theory meets experience
greets political philosophy
and primal attachment theory
applications to all relationships
ego logical and unlogical and anti-logical
and dis-passionate,
conscious and unconscious and suppressed consciousness
and more dispassion,
and ecological and ecosystemic
and healthy climate logical
for growing reading circles
into speaking and listening communion rounds
of timeless symphonic conversation,
dia-logos about favored/unflavored mythos.

Cooperative conveners
encourage each other
to speak from felt experience
of belief and disbelief
in some published teacher’s expression of experience
with timeless patience and time-heavy impatience,
of joy and sorrow,
courage and curiosity,
compassion and dispassion,
intimacy and repulsion,
about some subject’s story,

Where it does and does not meet our own time
chosen and not chosen
political and personal
economic and ecological
natural and spiritual
secular and sacred
regressive and progressive
inhaled and exhaled
patriarchal and matriarchal
competitive and cooperative
vulnerable and transparent
longing and belonging

New yet old
wealthy when healthy,
democratic when not kleptocratic,
integral when not fragmenting,
unitarian when not too universally closed
to further sacred gospel co-inspirations,
co-passion,
co-presence,

Timeless unity
yet eternal open university,

Secure rounds
yet within freeing surrounds,

Cultural sweet spots
within historic raw plots.

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Queer Music

They lived across from each other
on and off the center floor dorm hall,
both on the much discussed
controversial LeftWing side.

Yang perused Yin’s CDs,
“I see you like that queer music,
Elton John
and Luther VanDross
and George Michael.
I didn’t notice that before.”

Yin responds quietly
calmly
amused:

First,
I don’t believe music is gay or straight,
but most everything related in-between
harmonic and dissonant,
diminished and replenished.

Lyrics may be queer or predictable
but usually flow well
either way
telling co-relating creation stories
of nature’s neural positives
and negatives
surfing back and forth
in and out
before and after
here and there
now and then
and yet to climax
polypathic health
as polyphonic wealth.

But, Second,
Feels to me all music,
maybe all muses,
are queer
when I think holistically about it,
us,
them,
verbally thought and non-verbally felt,
internally touched

By a rhetorical moment
we curiously know as music
without noticing how radically unlikely
regenerative processes
compassionate evolutions
could ever reproduce such homo-ingenious sounds,
rhythms,
patterns,
colors,
textures,
stories,
epic original empathic creations
and co-empathic octaved recreations
within such a LeftBrain heterosexual white privileged
RightWing capitalistic
narcissistically greedy
UnQueer Marching Against
the Great Historic/Futuristic muse and prophets
of harmony,
despite dissonance,
resonance,
despite fading resilience of Baby Xers,
polyphonic yin-mused light,
despite polynomial not not
climate of touch and feel dualdarkness.

Meanwhile Yang
couldn’t hear too well
since opening the window
facing spring
listening
to a cranked up RocketMan,
while athletically dancing to hot not unqueer music,
and Yin’s ears swayed tenderly after and before
queer musing
straight talk.

 

 

 

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Timely Death of a Muse

My muse died today.
Although how could I lose
abuse
or amuse
what was never mine to use
as I see fit,
hear fitness,
feel fitfully?

This muse dies tonight
not from old age
as I had long predicted
must be my sad and unread case,
but for a new voice
or vice,
for deeper lyrics
and wider melodies
and globally local choreography
perhaps a ridiculous younger person’s game.

They say
not to write, unless you must;
Not to paint
or sing
or dance
or become a prostitute
unless you would otherwise eco-bust
ego-lust away this lifeline.

If you can live with something,
most anything, else
to occupy your time
and pay the rent,
then do
and be those more civil relationships instead.

It never occurred to me
perhaps because They didn’t say so,
I might do most everything else
so I could retire into writing
and reading
and singing
and dancing

But not prostitution
because no one would pay
for what I can not give away
with integrity intact.

I miss this muse already
but doubt she even remembers me,
a right hand
useful
responding to her labored demands
too ponderously telling,
psychic yelling,
when I longed to show in grace
integrity’s newest face
rhythm pattern pace
divinely humane race
robustly timeless space
without dissonant disgrace

Showing
not telling,
Belonging
not longing,
Dancing
not marching,
Singing
not shouting
to and with and for
tomorrow’s mute muses,
today’s deaf listeners,
amusing to move on
with overflowing emotions
not mere museless motions.

Now I have broken
my only two rules of unself-conscious writing.

1. Never mention the muse aloud
or dead
for She abhors a nonvacuum
of light,
and

2. Never write
about writing,
For the same non-reason
that optimal sexual
sensual
neural experience
cannot happen
if my sole
and sold-out purpose
is this Great Orgasm.
of we-consciousness.

My more retiring amusement died today.
Although how could I lose
abuse
or ever timelessly muse
what was never mine to use?

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Climate Work in RolePlay

I know this sounds like theater
of the absurd,
but I wonder if healthy role play
might be left-brain’s work ethic
inviting right-brain’s first and last impassioned word.

We might pretend our LeftWing
loves to play
irresponsibly back and forth repositioning
while RightWing
is crazy busy with win/lose economics
and disempowering politics
of arduous fragmentation,

Where God would paradise play
with roles of humane-divine
mutual infatuation,
cooperative ego-deferment
unto obsequious giggles
of “Oh no, you first.
I gracefully and divinely insist.”

AntiGod does hard vocational work
to teach pagan pilgrim players
and idle, irresponsible nature worshipers
to get back to harvesting souls
to be drained of daylight hours
manufacturing need and greed
to build our deadly war machines
and our ever higher and mightier towers
of anthro-hubris Babel.

Babel sounds like a healthier place to play
with natural sounds
and spiritual languages
for hide and seek with God
as scriptured, sure,
but also unscripted role play
between too autonomous to be realistic Egos
and too interdependent to be ungooey-theistic EcoLogicians.

I hear lose/lose ecopolitics
of hard work polarization
sounds dramatically absurd
while I continue to listen more imaginatively
to ego-eco
inside-outside
co-passioning play

Muse of RightWing stern capitalistic vocations
underplaying Win/Win co-arising
LeftWing wealthy health creations.

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Dear Evangelical Brother

Dear Brother,

When we were children
adults often asked us
What do you hope to be
when you grow up?

But, our brothers and sisters
were more likely,
and probably more wise,
to ask
Who would you most hope to become?
To be like?

Which implies, to my unformed ear
and eye,
Which of these adults you know,
or know of,
do you like best
as a mentor
for your own happiest and healthiest,
and most prosperous
future?

I am about to finish reading Iain McGilchrist’s
“The Master and his Emissary.”
And, if I had known Master McGilchrist
as a sixteen year old,
I would probably have said
I want his life
and that’s the guy I want for my BigBrother!
I would be his most zealous emissary.
He’s the one I would become
just alike,
twins if possible.

Twin careers.
Twin ideas.
Twin knowledge and wisdom.
Twin naturality and spirituality
and natural law
and ordered sacredness,
emotionally intelligent communion.

But, that was then
and this is now.
And I wonder if I ever asked you,
not what kind of evangelical Christian
white privileged Western capitalist
doctrinaire thing do you hope to proficiently do
when you finally grow up?

But, instead,
to find the courage to ask you
Who would you,
embodied in Christ,
become like
when you are suffering servanting
in your thirties?

We might have had a lifelong dialogue,
not about creeds and dogma
and theological departures from win/win co-redemptive
cooperative economies,
compared to win/lose capitalist business as secularly usual,
compared to lose/lose degeneratively devilish and bearish economies,
more disempowering long-term climate trends
than empowering hope
faith
love.

We might have thought out loud together
about how Suffering Public and Private Servants
are like a Messiah
like a Bodhisattva Peace Warrior
like a PermaCulture CoOperative Designer
like a Restorative Justice and Win/Win Peace Advocate
like a Green STEAM architect,
a resilient engineer,
or prolific teacher
and skilled listener,

We might hope to combine
gospel references to right-hemisphere Revelationary Sacred Rapture
and healthy left-hemisphere climate preferences
for Evolutionary Secular Promise,

A promised return to sacred/secular
RightWing and LeftWing
become whom we would most like to hear
as faithful health scientists and wealth musicians,

Disciples of sacred wealthy
best means secular healthy
reborn again
reweaving
returning
resiliently recombining
global green Body of Christ experience,
feeling,
thought,
optimally appealing.

I’m sorry for not asking
how I could be a healthier and wiser
gay Christian-Taoist-ZenBuddhist-Native Nature/Spirit Wisdom
inspired and inspiring
younger brother,
more sure with your trust
and inner truths
than without you.

I’m sorry distant homophobic fears
and perhaps anger?
envy?
repulsion?
fear of predation?
(this part remains unclear)
seem to have kept us from mutually asking,
Who would we most like to become like together
when we are in our sixties
and seventies?

And now,
When this question seems more plausible,
and immediate,
I wonder how different, and yet the same,
are our opportunities to experience
this sacred potential
for re-creating loving Earth, together,
fertile,
healthiest wealth of HolySpirit embodiment
celebrating Her sacred historical birth Brother,

Unlike Jacob and Esau,
reconnected by sacred Matriarchal Wombs
culminating in reborn virginal brothers
saved/not-not saved from lose/lose perdition,
partition,
through both universal-human/unitarian-divine
natural Messianic win/win Spirit,
consiliently sacred,
resiliently secular,

Heavenly stardust Fog
embracing global oceanic dark waves,
currents of timeless
flowing potential color and multicultures,
rhythms and patterns and flow designs,
Living Waters,
truth with trust,
Wombs with Ways toward necessary Light,
nights and co-redemptive days

More WiseElder for sinister sacred Right retributive Judge
and golden secular Left restorative Advocate,
still listening compassionately together,
less fundamentally apart,
with good evangelical humor,
more than bad.

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Colorful Cultures

White is fundamental absence of color,
as is evangelical black.
But, white is colorless
due to emptiness
while black
because of good news fullness.

Transparency is presence of visibility
as is not darkness
but transparency is void
where opaque is dense.

Life is absence of death
as death is absence of life.
But, life is full and dense
while death is empty and void.

Promising evangelical integrity of all motions and emotions
actions and reactions
presence and co-presence
in-between radically sacred
and fundamentally secular
cultures of dualistic meaning
evolve courageously bright
with loads of curious light.

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Escape

When we play
Either I need to win more
Or Other needs to lose
without getting quite so sore,

Our entertainment screens offer escape
into alternative ego identified images,
Respite from feeling “loser” identity concerns,
issues postponed while immersed in technological silos
away from Earth’s sacred ecology
embracing win/win sanctuary.

Lost in our dominating indoor
on screen
apartness,
we forget to touch
feel
smell
taste
know
hear
see
reflect
reassuringly hug our own skeleton-framed selves
playing DNA healthy speciated games
as win/win co-passioning specialists.

We forget to reinvest
in dipolar co-arising conversations
while distracted by ego-inflating gossip,
light entertainment at unlistening Other’s victimless expense,
criticizing Other’s obvious lack of win/win co-redemptive wisdom,
while fueling,
feeding and watering
our own win/lose complaining
and other unmindful lose/lose unlistening
to win/win communion’s
more co-passionate opportunities.

We can program
a right-brain bell
for win-left/win-right co-passion
in our dipolar co-arising processor
of incoming/outgoing in/ex-formation,
as every breath and bicameral heart-beat listens
to emotion’s motions
to stop lose/lose
to go back
to our win/win bicameral think/feel/rethink
listening zero-zone skeletal identities.

Digestive systemic ego-breathing in yang
and out yin
to release win/lose toxic tensions,
lack of win/win nutritionally creative intention
in our left-brain dominant bodies
and our redemptive co-present right minds
as we curiously,
yet courageously,
continue our win/lose inside role play.

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