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Healthy Life v UnWealthy Death

In the Tibetan Book of Living and Dying,
Sogyal Rinpoche writes, unconvincingly,
to my left-grained dominant ears,

“No suffering,
however dreadful
[and even mortal]
is
or can be
meaningless
if it is dedicated
to the alleviation
of the suffering
of others.”

This abstract act of “dedication”
sounds suspiciously left-engrained
global monoculturing dominance
to me,
Looks like over-rationalization,
denatured theory of hypothesized sublimation,

Feels like arguments
for a spiritualized view of
disemobodied “sublimation” of sexual desires
that would merely replace,
by act of superego-divine willpower,
one disconnected set of sensory attractions
for another.

As if left-preyed reason
could control our natural
and spiritual flow of hormones,
the multicolored elixirs of right-trained connecting
and disconnecting feelings.

Anyway,
[kinda got lost in my analogy
which is more of a right-strained metaphoric
metphonic
polypathic
polyphonic non-verbal search for felt connections,
primal reconnections
preconnections
unconnections
co-relations
positive and negative
attachments and aversions
empowerments and disillusionment],

I can imagine:

No suffering
loss
humiliation
excommunication
death of organic
left-prayed dominant EgoSystem,
however dread-filled,
is
or can become,
meaningless
if this event
can be connected,
and constantly reconnected
to enlightening
and thereby empowering
the alleviation of Others
ecosystemic suffering
loss
degradation
disconnection
apartheid,

Death of an organic
right-light prominently absorbing
Whole Open EarthSystem
of spiraling
revolving
Life and Death

Reweaving
ReGenerations,
MultiRegenerations,
InterConnections
of life systemic
sacred Power

Secularized Light,

BiLaterally resilient
Positive Universal-Unitarian
Strong-InterFlowing
Yang-Yin Energy,
BiCamerally Bright.

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Revolutionary 20/20 Power Spirals

Revolution is to ReEnergizing Spirals
as Evolution is to EnergyWaves
for those with 20/20 revisioning skills.

Tibet’s Buddhist teachings
include a bicameral conscious practice
called Tonglen,
which might summarily be described,
by a systemic win/win GroupGame Organizer,
as breathing in
with competitive win/lose leftbrain dominant
privileged awareness
AND breathing out
with cooperative win/win rightbrain prominent
integral BothLeft/AndRight co-empathic
information/exflowation wave-linear spirals.

For a multicultural mediator
of diminishing community negative debate energy
AND expanding positive dialogue synergy,
Tonglen practice quickly identifies
the mediator’s own empathic bias,

Usually for the “underdog,”
the most vulnerable,
most at unhealthy risk,
the smaller minority of marginalized yin roles
over the larger majority of established,
more privileged,
more empowered,
more competitively invested,
Yang corporate trolls.

However,
this seems to reverse
in the case of an economically
and politically
conservative narcissist.

For example,
Trump activists
are comfortable with bullying
already marginalized populations
because of their apparent past sins
and impoverishing
threatening fearful failures,

Not because the monocultural narcissist knows,
and has experience empathizing with,
these yin-Outsiders
as feeling/thinking compatriots,
potential economic and political allies,
within a healthy multiculturally inclusive democracy,

But because this privileged
individualized
alien-bullying narcissist
is defensively,
conservatively invested in saving ego-face

As one of the great self-empowered
bootstrap enlightened egos
of win/lose capitalism’s patriarchal
competitively hierarchical
StraightWhite
leftbrain privileged historic enculturation,
dogmatic capitalist education,
retributive social humiliation,

Which assumes competitive debates
overpoweringly trump win/win cooperative dialogue
between individualized
polarized sectors,

Too independently perceived and heard,
ego-centered identities

AND too protective and defensive
of orthodox win/lose evolutionary dogmas
rooted in technocratic capitalistic incorporations
of economic power
to even suspect
concomitant politically privileged dark Yang
overdog-manic energy.

Darkly competitive Yang supremacy
seems to become overdog preference
by egocentric individuals
more culturally miseducated
to not see and hear 20/20 deep learned

Cooperative Yang/Yin
Left/Right,
secular either/or bipolar thinking
WITH
Sacred Both/And dipolar-eased feeling
non-violent communion
community
communication of integral possibilities

Throughout Green Commons
reweaving Yellow/Turquoise spirals
revolutionary Permaculture HealthSystem Design

Revolving 4D spiraling maps for
Left-space/Right-time
holonic
polypathic/polyphonic dynamics

In multi-encultured
bicamerally intelligent
bilaterally waving evolutionary
revolutionary 20/20 dynamic
eco-political spirals
of polypathic/polyphonic
polynomially languaged
meta-paradigmatic energy flowfields
for resiliently respiraling
non-violent green new deal
peacefully resonant EarthCommunion.

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Privileged Cultures AfterThought

It feels fascinating
that horny voracious passions
dissipate in the presence of ego-centered fear
of pain and suffering
and ego-defeating loss,
disability and predative performance anxieties,
wounds,
death,
short-term through permanent
degenerating energy,
absence of active hope
for future holistic integrity.

In this time of climate degeneration
fear and cultural distancing need,
frustrated leftbrain dominant
StraightWhiteMale monoculturing horniness
looks culturally privileged like,
sounds prejudicially like,
feels and touches sacred EarthMother like,
smells and multiculturally
creole tastes like
manically monoculturing
predative redmeat energy states
of fear-and-anger inducing rabidity
rather than restorative green regenerative passion
for multicolored
trans-generational
testosterone/estrogen
yang/yin
pansexual win/win
inclusive cosmic integrity

Of cooperative green/blue energy
power
EarthPeace compassion.

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An Anxiously Anticipated Event

Dear John,

All day
yesterday
I loaded up with a cascading river
of mixed anxiety and anticipation
about what to safely and kindly,
transparently and vulnerably
compassionately, so non-violently, share
communicate;

Which narrative tributaries to choose
within this vast spacetime stream
of choices
directions
felt depressions and erections.

Do you remember
communication theory
framed as Rhetorical Events?

Our initial walk and talk,
eating together,
rather than my refrigerator foraging
brunchtime usual rawfood practice,
is a graced green,
rain giving way to blue, memory for me,
and, I hope, for we
these sacred walking
secular talking
people.

Successful rhetorical events,
as I recall,
and have co-passionately experienced
with ecstatic thrills
and mysterious chills of anticipation,
wanting more and more
cascading throughout my too isolated life,

Are cooperatively held spaces
resonant and verbal and non-verbal places
longing to become resilient
as ultra-violet light
in phosphorescent mystical night,
bright
and warm
without ballistic fright,
inviting sounds of sight.

So I drove home
basking in such rich
potentially resilient
transparent and vulnerable
articulate yet impassioned
felt experience
confirming all my own ego’s grand theories
about win/win non-violent
Rhetorical compassioning
Events.

My anxieties spoke later
about mutual physical
natural, yet also spiritual,
attraction–
this smell and taste neurological chemistry
of touch exhaling
to co-empathically predict
our romantically felt quality
inhaling integrity’s great resilient passions,
shared loves
communal,
deeply green cooperative,
that rhetorical day
as true and beautiful for us.

It has been thirty years
since my last first date,
with a man who became my unanticipated husband,
partner
spouse
lover
quarreler
critic
listener
emotive voice
co-investor
political ally
communicator
miscommunicator
long-term rhetorical event
cooperative space-holder,
mediator
not really quite green enough
for resonant felt
and thought co-passionate experience
near our end
of cohabitation.

Nearly half my lifetime,
thirty years,
and I feel anxious
I have not yet learned
appropriate new old person rules
of transparency
and vulnerability
to be clear
and kind,
compassionately clear
about my natural/spiritual
physical/metaphysical attractions,
anticipations,
anxieties.

When I last dated
a gay encounter of the first kind
either ended nakedly together
or with a scheduled second date
with a bed
or a sling
or a deserted moonlit beach
front and center on our anticipated menu

Or ended in disaster,
no connection,
no further warm and resonant communication,
no passing green light Go!

I did not “date”
men who lived so very far away,
out of state,
unless one of us was planning to relocate
or both of us were anticipating
an extremely resonant
one hot night stand
lying down together,
exploring all the vertical
and horizontal dances
we could imagine ever wishing we had done
to further gather
future’s warm anticipations.

I am anxious
because I do not want to disappoint you
or me
about our embodied
non-verbal communication
and passion together.

My own nakedness
lies nowhere near my vulnerable
and transparent self-esteem
as was the case
when I last dated
and I do not know
what to do
and not do
with that.

I have no mentors,
no wise teachers,
no therapeutic facilitators,
no sex therapist
to talk and touch me through
this anxiety.

But, I do anticipate
an unfortunate comparison
I met on our silvered dating site
the same day I first heard you
connect climate pathological effects
with capitalistic causes,
which immediately won my curiosity
to know
just how deeply knowing
we might go
together,
and not apart.

I met another singer
another meditator
another deeply
physically connected
to Taoist sensory communication
yangly verbal and yin non-verbal,

More physically incarnated
and less metaphysically abstract
less theoretical
merely rhetorical
more mature
aged
connected like wine with cheese
and re-connected
than my own experience
in how to mutually
yet maturely
please.

Last evening we talked.
His voice sings and rings,
warmly chills and quietly thrills.

And, he is closer.
Teaches dance.
We anticipate learning together
how to tango horizontally
without creating an entangled mess
at our ripe old average age
of 69

Which,
when I last dated
was a cooperatively rhetorical
erotic position
and not an age
which we sensually anticipated
without great anxiety
about resilience
of sensual resonance.

For me,
this need not be a win or lose,
either-or situation.
Even less so
if I thought the two of you
would appreciate each other
in this partner searching
lifeline rivered
shivered way,
but that is not what I would anticipate
either of you would say.

So, that is what is on my mind
and heart
and root chakras
this another deep green
ego-centering
and ecosystemic rhetorical day.

Said my vertical horizontal way,
physical and metaphysical
natural and spiritual
secular and sacred
love with you
and hell to pay,
anxiously anticipating
your kind
non-maligned
response.

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The Pleasure Principle

I’m not sure what Freud’s Pleasure Principle is all about,
or was about Health and Safety;

Whether it’s in
or out,

Whether hedonistic
and narcissistic
or the mundane
secular
capitalist
corporate product
of efficient sexual therapy
and heartless entertainments.

Whether the Principle is applicable
only to secular masters
for optimal “sacred rights” experience

Or also accessible to sacred slaves
as our secularized vocation
to provide for our nasty property owners,

Whether it is the primary purpose
of capitalism’s efficient,
if ruthlessly competitive,
corporate monocultural deformation
into post-climax apathy
and cynicism
and cruel and unusual punishments,

Yet, somehow,
as I merge into this stream
of organic fossils
still miraculously refueling,

I am sure this Pleasure Principle,
Beacon of Health and Safety Bliss,
Paradise Pursuit

Could only be entered
by those wise enough to recognize
it is cooperatively
globally
multiculturally owned,
managed interfaith communion,
interdependently experienced
and multiplied

Into raptures
of organic/cosmic
internal/external climates
of and for personal
political
economic
ecological
theological
neurological win/win Climax

Of spaciated bilateral Time
dynamically equals revolutionary bicameral Space
in NonZero-Sum
open-holistic yet still emergent
equipoise waves
of self/other co-conscious
co-passionate
co-empathic
co-intentional
co-operative comm-union comm-unication.

Well,
thanks for sharing all that.

De nada;
my Pleasure.

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Silent UnPrivileged Stories

When I was a Big Brother
for Jason,
an African-American 10 year old male,
we went into his apartment
so he could look around
for a long overdue library book.

As I accompanied him
from room to sparsely furnished room,
looking in nearly vacant closets,
cupboards,
drawers,
the only book we found
was a phone book,
looking silently neglected
much more than actively abused.

My first white male privileged
feelings about his Mom
had to do with blaming her
for probably not even feeling ashamed
for her irresponsible choices
while economically and politically administering
their bookless house
in this pre-WWW information age.

But, then I began asking questions.
What could Jason tell me
about his Mom’s life
when she was his age?

What were stories
familiar to her,
read
or retold
or experienced
and re-experienced,
therapeutic or traumatic?

Through this widening narrative moment
of multigenerational conjecture,
hypothesis,
questioning,
contemplating,

I also learned to question
what traumatic straight white male stories
are experienced by gay
and bisexual
and transsexual 10-year-olds,
regardless of racial identification,

And by 10-year-old girls,
perhaps regardless of racial identification,
or even further amplified
by being doubly,
and silently, outside
straight white patriarchal privilege.

I found myself
suddenly
tearfully
incapable of briefly imagining
much less deeply,
unflinchingly contemplating
the trauma
of growing up poor
and lesbian
and black or brown
or too red
or too yellow
without any books
or stories,
read
or retold
or experienced
about how her 10-year-old life will matter,
could be healthy, someday,
would ever be felt safe,
unless held shamefully silent,

Not appropriate material
for books
or retelling
or experiencing straight
white
male dominant stories,
economic
and political narratives
about retributive trauma
and not multicultural
restorative
democratically inclusive therapy.

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Defending Democratic DogLives

Dear Thom the Train
Attorney Page,

Defender of all Creatures
here below
in these DisUniting States
of throwback uncivil disunion,

What is your root foundation
for a constitutional argument
that all living residents
of these remaining United Democratic States
have a right
to restoring healthy justice,
to resiliently retaining healthy life?

Is this sacred democratic Source
inter-related with values
like well-being
prosperity
liberty
public health optimization,
declarations of defensive rights
for all Creation
to freely seek democratic empowerment
and liberating enlightenment?

Non-royalist
non-fascist
non-authoritarian
non-patriarchal
non-colonizing
non-racist
non-demonizing
non-anthropocentric,
non-xenophobic
non-narcissistic
non-egocentric
and, thereby, pro-green new and ancient win/win deals.

I am not a lawyer,
as you can clearly already hear,
but more of a constitutional
polycultural historian,

So, how do you briefly argue
in courts of your licit choosing,
an evolutionary theory
of democracy still healthily emergent?

Starting with straight
white
patriarchal property owners
of
African and Native American
domesticated and feminized
economic and political
natural and spiritual slaves,

Moving multiculturally out
to include prisoners
and homeless shelter dwellers,
human
and now our imprisoned
and life-endangered dogs
and cats,
horses
and cattle,
birds
and guines pigs
of democratic tensions
intentions
extensions
of dominating fraternity
and liberating sorority.

History shows
where our constitutional democratic story began
with white straight male slave-owner privilege,

But, how do you predict where
and when this evolving
expanding
emergent cooperative health-wealthing
cooperative reality
should
or could
or would globally end?

Or,
it is your brief courtship win/win position
that we must expect no such end
to this multiculturally revolutionary
democratic 20/20 revolution?

Moving from more Straight White Patriarchal
independence days
toward more resiliently fulfilling
Earth InterDependence Days
and sensory moonlit nights

Of freely orbiting stars
and planets
from democratizing Positive/Negative
Yang/Yin Energy

Empowering health,
Enlightening true and beautiful
polycultural
trans-historic
epic green
democratic wealth.

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Wanted: Master of Awe and Wonder

From birth,
I,
and perhaps others
from rebirth,
seek a spiritual master

With profound male maturity
to connect spiritual mastery
with natural sensory mastering events,
narratives,
non-verbal
and verbal relationships
bonding
double-binding
birthing
and rebirthing co-passionate story,
mundane
and cosmic events
integrally felt and known together–
impossible apart

With mature disciple
disciplined reception
masterfully given
potential for mutual pleasure
to please me,
compassion’s please
pleasing perpetual integrity,

A journey from local
through global,
back
and forth,
in
and out,
rising
and falling again

Immensely deep
and dark
wide multiculturing explosions,
preferred master powers
imploding copassionate integrity,

Of felt sensory awareness,
sensually touched consciousness
spiritually grasping enlightenment
sexually gracing co-empowerment.

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God Is Love: Love Is God

A problem with using scripture
as a spiritual guide

More prominently
more fundamentally
more evangelically
than establishing a relationship with a mentor
a teacher
a spiritual director
facilitator
mediator
between egocentric LeftBrain dominant reading
and ecosystemic RightBrain sacred listening
for integrity
synergy
interdependent nuance
healing
divinely restorative justice,

When we first hear,
“God so loved Earth”
we naturally conclude
such compassion is incompatible
with God so loved all of Goddess Earth’s
living indigenous Tribes
regardless of colors
like green
red
yellow
brown
purple
violet
ultra-violet,
even burnt orange,
and black and white
which are more about oppositional contrasts
of light
and melanin
than any color
shade
tone brilliance or dullness
of left or right mind.

Then, later in the same verse
beloved by monoculturing missionaries,
we read
“Whosoever believes in God’s Son
will not perish
but have eternal life.”

As if these words also read,
“Whosoever does not LeftBrain hear
about God’s Great Messianic Historical Event
will perish
and will not have eternal life.”

Which RightBrain feelers for integrity,
listeners and discovers
of Win/Lose redemption-committed multicultural mediators
like Holy Spirits
universal Win/Win lovers,
compassionate teachers
and healthy resilient ecofeminist leaders
can transparently
and vulnerably hear
as a false negative corollary,

An illicit LeftBrain sin of omission
inappropriate for a universal EarthLover God

Made in humane LeftBrain verbal images
of judgment
Straight White Patriarchally entitled
to blame
and shame Others for ignorance
sin
failures of win/win universal principles
to remember to keep sacred
as Sabbath and Scripture
all Golden Rule everyday compassions

Both LeftBrain true Facts
and RightBrain beautifully interdependent Relationships
of Inform/Export-Communic-ation

Communion
Tran-substantiation
Creolization
Re-Ligion
PolyEmpathic Integrity
of individuals’ secular thoughts, local
and synergetic sacred feelings, global.

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For Greener Salvation

Merely personal green salvation
is necessarily incomplete,
All by myself,
sure to face sinful defeat.

Yet universal climate redemption
cannot become sufficiently replete,
to help my heart feel
less ignorantly stuck on re-delete

For monocultural remediation
we historically
and culturally at least try
multicultural mediation,
nonviolent communication,
polypathic emancipation,
polyphonic optimization.

Personal comparisons
and interpersonal companions
and ego/eco-bilateral
environmental habitual passions
can be divisive
dismissive emancipations

Competing religiously dogmatic theory
and natural/spiritually felt experience
schizophrenically competing
bipolar dissonance
empowers secularizing
minimizing
separating
dividing
unnatural desecration
anti-religious negativity
supremacy
missionary zeal
evangelistic violently prophetic communications
of natural environment mortality
and sinful conspiracy theories
and other bipolar forms and fields
frames and functions and flows
of dissociative bad news.

And,
internal spiritual v natural external contrasts
can yet distinguish analogical resemblances
between nurture and nature

Complementarity of open holistic religious systems
can become complexly unitive,
integral
negentropically cooperative

Rightbrain polyphonically prominent
redeeming our children’s healthy climate
through mutually cooperative
communicating positive wealth
of bicameral energy

Suggests leftbrain dominating
disempowering negativity

And
internal/external contrasts
distinguish metaphoric
multicultural resemblances,
complementarity of whole,
open
non-zero sum systems
can be complexly unitive,
integral
negentropically cooperative

Rightbrain polyphonically more prominent
actively working and playing for green redemption
of healthy bicameral positivity,

So,
Merely personal salvation
is necessarily incomplete,
All by my leftbrain dominant ego-self,
sure to face sinful defeat.

Yet open, whole Earth climate redemption
cannot become sufficiently bicameral replete,
to help my heart feel resonant,
less ignorantly stuck on sinful
short-term profits
unresilient
re-delete,
permanent social-cultural distancing
is also experienced as eco-political apartheid.

For pathological climate remediation
we historically
and culturally at least try
multicultural health mediation,
nonviolent communication,
polypathic emancipation,
polyphonic optimization
restoring green ecofeminist pacification.

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