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Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

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Green Boat Home

Though within me
I feel red motions,
Burning up Earth’s mountains
and plains,

Far away from Earth’s green-blue ocean,
Still this red blood heart can sing:

We are sailing,
All EarthTribes now,
never health harbor
or safe port have we known.

Our Anthropocene
surfs the ocean we travel regathering
red ironclad Earth
blues our green
boat
home.

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Might Be An Isn’t

So,
she autistically
and powerfully
said,

One me
plus one you
makes two

And we two
minus one me
leaves you one

Which feels like not
quite enough
for ego sufficiency

But one whole lot more
than zero deficiency

Because Dr. Seuss sings
of zero BirthDay rings
and EndDaze spirited non-things

“If we didn’t have birthdays,
you wouldn’t be you.
If you’d never been born,
well then what would you do?…

Why you might be a WASN’T!
A Wasn’t has no fun at all.
No, [s]he doesn’t.
A Wasn’t just isn’t.
[S]he just isn’t present.
But you…You ARE YOU!
And,
now isn’t that pleasant!…

If you’d never been born,
then you might be an ISN’T!
An Isn’t has no fun at all.
No [s]he disn’t.
[S]he never has birthdays,
and that isn’t pleasant.
You have to be born,
or you don’t get a present.”

And sacred co-prescience

One me
plus one you
makes two,
and now
aren’t we pleasant
co-present?

Note: Dr. Seuss quotes are from “Happy Birthday To You!”, 1959, when I was celebrating seven sacred birthdays.

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Parts and Holes

“You are a part of me
I do not yet know”
claims interdependent Valarie Kaur

And I wonder,
Is she speaking to me?
Or rhetorically asking any stranger
except me,
already known
because I feel her same unitarian way
already grown

Ego/Eco-centering balanced
symmetrically integral
as a social individual

And not so much economically
and politically privileged,
lethargic,
overfed
and drowning in domesticated leisure
overgrown inside
ruminating infamous monoculturing nightmares.

I hope Valarous curiously speaks
quietly yet surely
with hope tomorrow
having turned from overly familiar
anthro-privileged yesterday,
still a part of haunted
and blessed me
I do already know
less optimistically,

And I am awed
inside this great faith transition
and timeless merciful humor
passing by a personal premonition
tomorrow may be already written
rhymed,
numbered and counted,
bought and sold,
accounted yet too messily empowered

Speaking in a language learned
by well-hearted healthy hope
in new starlight
night promised memories

Premembering to continue regenerating
indigenously wise Earth
continues writing
and restructuring DNA recultured feelings
on this beautiful and precious known landscape
formed from yesterday’s most cooperative subclimates,
collaborative EarthTribe economics
empowering intersectional politics

Whose future energetic numbers
are embedded in prime multitudes of creative
and recreative organisms

LeftBrain labeled history
and RightBrain Win/Win
future bicameral integrity
Blue/Green EarthCommon Squared
enlightenment poly-rhythmically
empoweringly commodified
in yesterday
and tomorrow’s Yang Yintegrity
unitarian
universal knowing
cognizing
recognizing

Prime NonZeroZone space
and polyculturing time
eco-deductive and theo-inductive
spatiaLeft/TempoRight felt
compassionate 4D-fractal regenerative co-relationships

Restoring polypaths
between wealthy unknown tomorrow
and healthy felt yesterday
was today
tomorrow’s
short-term memory
statically sustainable
in this sadistic stuck satiation
silent station.

Here
and Now
my internal doomsday fear
against more global Loser queer
anthropocentric eco-politics over valued
while EarthTribe organisms
also die to Lose
tomorrow’s anthrosupremacist
dipolar eco/theo-logic
unhealthy in/unwealthy out
disvalues

Do not sanctify,
in fact, desecrate,
any cooperatively owned timeless corporation,
any intersectionally eating and living
giving and taking organism

Any numeric
iconic One-plus balances
(not-not) negative dipolarity
in a NonZero binomial development zone
for systemic health

Not from reading
memorizing
reiterating God’s one true holistic wealth
mathbook,
as if calculating
and deducing LeftBrain verbal communication
were the last alone apartheid Word
of yesterday’s final bottom zero-lined zone
not also tomorrow’s
Trust as Yintegral Beauty

In a WholeEarth
universal Open EcoWomanist
EgoPatristic SubSystem
choosing tomorrow’s healthiest win/win game

Fulfilling Her HistoEcological
Multicultural Health
promising today’s remediation
for resilient Blue/Green Wealth,

A part of tomorrow
I could not yet feel
alone
a part of me
I do not yet anxiously know
how to anticipate.

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MultiCultural InFormation Systems

Cognitive intelligence
may powerfully speak
in proudly conserved language

While intuited interdependent consciousness
feels more humbling liberating histories
of political economy enlightened
healthy democratic cooperative choice,
herstoried
multiculturally felt
robustly inclusive
co-investments,

Transparent opportunities
to lead with win/win voices
necessarily co-invested
in vulnerably re-creating risks
of further sympathetic/co-empathic loss

As living could have no experientially preferred meaning
without risk of dying
not only as individual loss of ego’s opportunities
but also as Earth’s failing climatic ecosystems.

Abstractions and distractions
and boredom
follow ego’s left out
and behind
inside loneliness
as win/lose monoculturing stupidity
and kleptocratic cupidity
lead us to capitalize
on patriarchal greed

While ecofeminist
cooperatively spiraling revolutions
for co-enlightenment
breed and feed

Whole open
interdependent
multiculturing wombs
through tomb polyphonic systems
of regeneratively felt
health-wealthy opportunities
for bicameral co-empowerment
engagement
entertaining solidarity

Of secular leftbrain
win/lose purpose
and sacred rightbrain
win/win meaning.

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Deep ExFormation

I fear
my dear
I know nothing of deep states
for red revolutionary thunder
but deep digital information systems,
statically atomic
as seen transcendently outside
perceiving choices,
Earth-patriotic
NonZero Souled voices
are either All
or Nothing leftbrain messages,
monopolizing all claims
to reasonable
and seasonable
Health and Safety InFormation

While AnaLogical
1/0 numerological
biological
ecological
multilogical
polycultural outside/inside
organic ecosystemic integrity

Plasticity
creolization
transubstantiation of polyphonic in/ex-flowation,
processive
progressive bilateral waves
in and out toward fractal
and octaved bicameral reiterative circling
cycling sensory-neurological

Recycling
spiral daytime seasons of
nighttime revolutions,
living outside time
between dying inside nighttime,
egotime
in ecosystemic YangOutside Space/Yinside poly-theological Time

Win/Win regenerative
Positive/Negative ego/eco-reflections
on pubnlic health and safety optimization

Inhaling/Exhaled
synaptic climax/aptic outflowation
complexly metaphorical
ecological/theological polypathically binomials
emerging dipolar co-arising
Both/And bilateral not-not curiously heuristic messages
of BiCamerally CoPassionate In/ExCarnation

Back through pre-historic
EarthTribal
DNA-regenerative
Win/Win neurological ReMEME EarthTribe herstory
of cooperative left hemisphere empowerment
and green feminist older-integral
indigenously eco/theo-felt
right hemisphere 1/0 binary boundary-balancing enlightenment.

My left hemisphere mind speaks
in atomic-digital Truth analogies
what my right hemisphere body feels
in wave-spiraling
flowing Beauty metaphor

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A Healthier Patriotism

My own patriotic U.S. extended family,
historically,
and currently
remains StraightWhiteMale privileged
in our collective memories,
if not imaginations,
of spiritual communion
with all the more privileged saints
present,
past,
and future

But, we have also suffered
from rather too much faith in capitalism,
which, like democracy,
is frequently faulted as miserable,
but also lauded as better
than all the socialistic
communistic
devilistic
totalitarian
fascist
foreign
threatening
terrifying
anger-inducing alternatives.

Capitalism of our encultured
multigenerational minds
with left-hemisphere dominant brains
favoring natural secularized competitions
between saints and sinners
of diversely threatening monocultural privilege,
persuasions fundamentally supremacist
for democracy in theory
so long as not in perceived conflict
with self-serving capitalism in daily personal practice,
natural and spiritual,
secular and sacred,
ecological and theological.

We are egocentric
sometimes narcissistic
always bootstrap individualistic
evangelical redemption ecopoliticals
but focused on BadNews
of our need to invest in violent self-defense
against Marxist communism out there
in Hell

Not to be confused with commitment to GoodNews
of sacred divine communion
within our privileged StraightWhiteMale places
of apartheid worship
in awe and wonder
dogmatically committed to our StraightWhiteMale God

Made military-industrialized
in our best capitalistic,
not really quite so democratic paternalistic
image of left-hemisphere
StraightWhiteMale rightfully empowered
historical/cultural dominance.

So, there we have it,
this chaotic bilateral dissonance
between our powers of political democratic enlightenment
through whole open-systemic dialogue,
and our confusion about economic uncooperative self-empowerment
at the necessary (either/or thinking) cost of Other disempowerment,
gone sadly win/lose awry
through endless polarizing debate assumptions

That if someone wins,
then all others playing our eco-political game
must lose,
which sounds very much like
survival of the fittest
rightest
left-brain dominant species
OVER AGAINST
Earth’s whole open system
green/blue
ecological/theological success.

Like our dominant left-hemisphere academic theory
of secularized win/lose evolution
is more anthropocentrically capital-headed
and self-righteously defensively effective
than Earth’s sacred WINblue/WINgreen
ego/eco-politics
of polypathic political dialogue
empowering through GoldenRule democratic resilience,

And right hemisphere
polyphonic economic enlightenment
co-invested through Golden Octave Ratios
in interdependent multicultural dialogue,

Holonic nonzero sum,
polynomially left GroupTheory
and polyvagally bicameral right/left Win/Win GameExperience

My extended global
multicultural family
history and future
with more resonant
healthier cooperative democracy
embedded in Earth’s ecosystemic wealth,

Co-invested across multi-generations
of MotherEarth’s wise-dialogue
win/win eco-political
eco-feminist regenerators

Not of colonizing political
and anthropocentric economic privilege
but of democratically co-invested integrity
in sacred green/blue communion.

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