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When Profound Feels Sacred

My youngest
of three AfricanAmerican adopted sons
has profound nonwhite
nonstraight
nonverbal cerebral palsy.

Profound
in at least not being privileged
or victimized
by internal LeftBrain dominance,
violent micro-aggressions,
zero-sum competitive thinking

Either positively True and Good
or negatively False and Bad,
laughable
or humorless

Sacred indigenous consciousness
feels more Right-Elder brainstem
bodymind nondualistic synergy
friendly energy
which is my son’s political blessing
and his capital secularizing
segregating
colonizing
economic disabled curse.

Youngest son communes
with music
more fluidly co-empathic
than linguistic communications

He touches
and sings
and chants
through echoing shouts
and exclamatory barks,
short nonphonetic phrases,
lip smacking,
and belly laughs.

When he cries,
which is seldom,
he cries silently

No vocal cords

Profound inhaling wet gasps
and exhaling sad sacred shakes.

He laughs unconditionally
from his root chakra
warm unguarded soul
and cries
from his buddha
bicameral eyes.

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Treasuring the Educator

A former friend of mine
tricked me into becoming
something I am not

The volunteer President
of our condo association,
a position I clearly cannot afford
midst trifling disassociations.

We were starting our Autumn tradition
of arguing about next year’s budget
which typically continues
until we recommend something utterly preposterous
to our membership
which they will certify
remains inevitably inept
and fail to ratify.

As usual
I had brought my manicure
and pedicure kit
and was just starting to work on my nails
when I noticed our Treasurer
became more animated
whittling his thick stick
as he became more concerned
about what residents are losing

More than interested
in what resilience we all might gain
by cooperatively discussing
what we hoped to win
by remaining together to complain
rather than lose
by fostering further
whittled down polarization,
debate,
predative Patriarchal Capitalist
zero-sum economic games
not for the faint hearted to explain
and weak-nailed to refrain,
furthering our political apartheid
without EarthJustice
therapeutic rebate

Our parsimonious Treasurer
operates from a presumed strategic position
of holding Aces
in all four empowered
and enlightened suites,
empirical voices,
win/lose trumping win/win choices:

  1. Legal institutional document authority
    which provokes a yawn,
  2. Political membership voting power
    with an 88 to 5 majority
    on his oppressive side,
  3. Economic responsibility
    to our tax and fee paying majority
    with neglected cuticles, and
  4. social-cultural expectations
    for rational
    Straight White Male privileged
    self-interested
    capitalist business behaviors
    like playing golf
    and paying lap dancers
    to do what I would gladly do for free
    if I could avoid these dreadful
    defeating meetings.

While switching to my feet,
I also noticed
our tax-payer responsible Educator
vigorously responded
while vehemently knitting two
and furiously purling three

She moves away from
prior win/win positions
favoring therapeutic strategies
when she votes against
a loan for beat-down residents
to fix our leaky
crumbling corporate problems

Rather than abstaining
because now,
unlike last week,
she has become unclear
about whom
and possibly why
the Treasurer
and the Accountant
and the Bookkeeper
will debit just the 88 Residents
or the 5-vote School
for improvements
exclusive to the residential side
of our sadly governing equation.

I also notice
our scarf-knitting Educator
has moved away from supporting
a win/win trade formerly championed:
White Mansion for the School
and Glass Factory for the Residents

Now she contests this even-steven
to invest in another strategic competition,
win/lose backpedaling,
now claiming disproportionate future values
for bargaining,
debate positioning,
repolarizing
while she rips out yet another ribbing row,
another year too ripped off
not grow

Perhaps,
one day in our dismal future
we will see where this might go

More cooperatively thawing
drawing toward win/win center
for indigenous sacred wisdom values:

  1. licit equity of whittling natures
    and knitting medicine spirits,
  2. politically crafted co-empathy,
  3. economic health-nailed co-investments, and
  4. socially therapeutic
    restorative justice
    favoring win/win strategic right
    and left-handed
    and footed
    health is polyculturing wealth
    communication

Because clearly this night
we are not having our best
multicultural non-fright
cooperative mediation
of momentary delight

Wherein we retain well-manicured focus
on what we anticipate
moving forward more beautifully together
rather than lost in whittled down anxiety
about what we will never support

For lack of egocentric
anthropocentric
monotheistic
monocultural predative gain

As our corporate Treasurer’s win/lose strategy
to some better deferred peace day
EarthJustice regain
without all our polarizing
hocus pocus

To retain a more regenerative win/win wedding
less autonomously win/lose divorced

More cooperatively
and therapeutically discussed
of course
while I re-examine my left pinky
with absent minded disgust

About a now former friend of mine
who tricked me into becoming
some hang-nailed treatment
I am not.

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Sacred HerStory

As ancient matriarchal polytheism
of local, domestic economic circles
gave way to patriarchal elite empire-builders,

Transcendent monotheism not only overwhelmed
immanent herstoric polytheism
but this had the further historical effect
of secularizing nature’s evolving narrative
and desecrating anthro-exceptionalist verbal nature

LeftBrain Powers of persuasive speech
fallen from an original animated experience
of indigenously wise win/win resonant sounds
harmonic songs
spoken legends
inspired myths
of polytheistic GoldenRule Paradise Lost
disharmonious evil
retold dissociations
bedeviling competitions

Wealth Spirited Man v Health Natured MotherEarth
Natural Mono-Man v Spiritual PolyTheistic Earth,
AnthroHistory v Her Indigenous EarthStory
Transcendent White Patriarchy v Marginalized NonWhite EcoMatriarchs
History v Her Indigenous Story

Lost in misty herstoric myths
of formerly sacred EarthMothers
with wiki-powers of healing,
nurturing multicultural humane
RightListening empowerment

Through nutritional
polyculturally divine
LeftUnSpoken enlightenment

HerStoric feelings
needs survival
wants thrival
shared by strong-rooted plants
soulful spirited animals
including bicamerally balanced people
populating EarthMother’s sacred
polytheistic
health-wealthing planet.

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Another Storm

Another storm threatens to come in,
feeling my responsibility
for uncaring
and unresponsive history

Fearing you
more than loving us

Setting out your pails
and plastic tubs
to catch cold
and dreary drips

Impaled remembering
past wet enemies
becoming darker spots
as moisture threatens,
building mold untold
as yet
by angry lips

Dripping windowed frames
and ceiling fixtures
of your felt losses
not equally carried
by more comforted me
opaque with tender crosses

Buried
in how lonely
love can feel
hidden in Earth’s evolving top,
improbable to see

Our together threatening
leaky roof may drown,
which you would have fixed
some months ago,
if you could do so
on your own.

This storm pauses
and brighter rays suggest
a sun still shining
behind dark uncivil distress

Clouds could uncover
our disassociation,
poor and hovering
coveting a sun-drenched nation

Calculating our cost in cash,
but not in minds and bodies
to stop stormy smothers
of inside raining
draining issues,
deep core tissues
thundering crash

Warning we must get this done
before another wild wet storm
fearing you
more than loving us,
undone

Darker clouds build to leak again
while I explain why
you still can’t trust me
to invest in unstormed peace

A contenting roof
unconditionally done

So all EarthTribe
can safely put away our pails
and nails,
defensive weapons,
buckets,
overflowing pans
and spans of climate panic

Now rumbling receding thunder
of fearing you
more than loving us

Turns toward replacing damaged health,
repriming stains repainting wealth
of more warmly wild respect
while together musing
about who is bare surviving
and is not thriving
with what prestorming care,

Remembering who is dry
and fair
and prosperous
and why
we fear this tragic storm
more than loving weathered warm.

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Raptor’s Eye

EarthCare Elders
repurposed our red brick industrial
BrownField

Including a rusted metal box
the size and shape of a giant’s coffin
orange and dingy brown
metallic flakes
floating toward sacred ground
along river’s sweeping bed.

Here lived a m other racoon
as had her Elder EarthMother
before her,
members of an indigenous EarthTribe
with river wisdom
long before our anthro-privileged
patriarchal/matriarchal political
and capital economic divisive time.

Because of Mother Racoon’s prior claim,
our Elders could not remove this blatant blight
from their waterfront views
when they salvaged the metal roof
beneath it
to install solar panels
and repurposed metal blades
for wind turbines
facing south
toward Long Island’s soundless waves
and marshy breezes,
rapture to the raptors.

So, instead of decapitation
the rusted tomb for racoon’s rest
was brushed,
redressed high up
above our healing river
and painted firey red
with a black raptor’s feathered eye
guarding west
across autumn’s sky
relentlessly watching
our rivered valley
as trees burn orange
and rich crimson
and mellow yellow.

Our sacred river eye
of gratitude for River Gaia’s flowing
watch back through transportive time.

She brought us rich soil,
luscious drinking water from the North,
seeds of grass,
raspberry and blackberry vines,
mountain laurel,
blueberry and cranberry bushes,
maple and oak and chestnut
and evergreens,

Edibles and ornamentals,
mushrooms and nuts,
berries and squash
and melons,
herbs and strawberries,
squirrels and frogs and b ears,
cats and wolves,
bats and eagles
flowing and following upstream sometimes

But, mostly down deep under,
sprouting magical thunder
awe and sacred wonder

All this
before our Raptor’s Eye
for those who see
what other’s hear
of EarthTribe’s mystery.

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NonDelusional Illusions

A temporarily useful illusion,

like Wall Street knows something
about inevitable climate pathology
disvalues of anthrosupremacism
worth illusive core investment value

is not necessarily
a merely utilitarian delusion
about timeless principles of value

like human dignity
and organic integrity
and profoundly polycultural beauty.

A temporarily useful illusion
may have long economic
and robustly deep political roots
in universally integral illusions,
round robust reflections,
gut feelings,
intuitions of past fruition
regenerating win/wins
and not degenerating
LeftBrain Loser deductive logos
and RightBrain Loser inductive
merely threadbare mythos

Languaged thoughts about useful things,
like narrative knitted feelings
from thriving co-relationships,
derive from articulating threads
in allusive indigenous wisdom

Long felt panentheistically
and/or enthymematically
not not yet
does not quite illuminate positively present

Win/win round cosmic
holonic, organic, systemic
rememory of Yangfull Trust
loves Yintegral Beauty

Usefully refines,
illustrates
polyculturally win/win
healthy democracy’s peak wealth illusion,
valleyed allusive delusion
in-between implicit wisdom
and explicit knowledge,
empowerment
and enlightenment

Circling
spiraling whole open
systemic energy
non-zero summoned
cooperative illusive experiences
non-zero summed
energy systemic
open whole spiraling
encircling dismembered delusions.

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ReBuilding Paradise Lost

Paradise
like Rome
is not built
and not rebuilt
and rebuilt
and redeveloped
and healed
and redeemed
in one 24-hour
cycle
and recycle
and revolving
round day v night,

And/or
appreciatively regarding both day
and dualdark
rich and fertile
souled and soiled
night.

So too
my personal
and political
and economic
and ecological
and theologically reformed
unconditional win/win regard,
like God’s
and not EarthMother’s
and not Buddha’s
and maybe not Allah’s
and not Atman’s
and not Gaia’s
and not Diana’s
and not Blue Heron’s
and not Dragonfly’s,
has become Christian Reformed Evangelistic
LeftBrain dominantly complicated
to resiliently hang onto cooperatively coinvested peace
for more than a day,
or even an hour

Instead
we are distracted
dismayed
by chronic win/lose stress,
By early childhood trauma experiences
of community original win/lose sin

Capitalized by zero-sum competitive
closed cause/effect linear
either/or bipolarizing fundamentalism,
either unconditionally regarded
as saved,

Or discontinuously disregarded
as damned:
too sacredly holistic,
too round paradoxical circling,
too wide open-systemic
intuitive ecofeminist
panentheistic goddess worship
womanly unmanly mysticism
wicked womb witchery
emasculation
slutty butchery.

Original sin
remains monotheistically addicted
to fear and anger
about panentheistically sensuous
Eve
and big black seductive Serpents
offering MotherEartha’s Apple Pie.

Various Mosaic Law reformers
of Patriarchal-Capitalism
LeftBrain dominant commercial imbalance,
including Jesus of Nazareth,
have suffered and died
to powerfully
panentheistically
indigenously
return to wisely rooted
win/win bipartisan co-passion
and active co-investment

Deep rooted in dualdark soul
and soil of love’s co-present
peakish causes
and valleyed effective
affective
and reflective experience

Reforming my win/lose original zero-sum
competitive
predative
judgmental
self-righteous
greedy assumptions
about humanity’s essential step
away from win/win Paradise,
our mortal Achilles’ heel
of ego-self v. eco-other,
rather than ego+eco sacred EarthMother,
primal potential
for lose/lose disintegration
and for win/win regeneration,
and all not-quite-so-original
win/lose in-betweens,

Round Win/Win
Win/Lose
Lose/Lose octaves
of whole
open sensory
globally universal
organic paradising neuro-systems
nested and networked
working cooperatively co-invested
co-passionately
co-relationally
co-intelligently
co-therapeutically together
better than monotheistically divided
judged,
poles apart.

A win/win Holy
Open Whole EarthSystem,
non-zero sum cooperatively co-invested
Original Paradise Theory
of polycultural communion
feels like it could multiculturally attract
inter-religious
and meta-paradigmatic health and safety advocates
scientists
artists
musicians
muses
comedians

Integrating our capital,
our gut,
and our sacred grown round root,
and full core intelligent curiosity
pregnant with polypathic paradigms,
both secular and sacred narratives,
myths about integral Paradise potential,
transcendent Heavens
of original win/win systemic
sensory
sensual
sexual Paradise potential
for regenerative
unconditional healthy regard,
resilience
through robust wealth
of cooperative resonance.

Yet,
somehow,
despite all our narratives
that healthy Paradise of Love
overpowers unhealthy demons of hate,
God’s monotheistic
anthrosupremacist
not at all unconditional
win/lose judgmental disregard,
like my own,
remains patriarchally
and capitalistically addicted
to long term degenerative trends

Like suicidal ideation,
Traumatic Stress DisOrder,
corporate and corporal greed,
loneliness,
repression,
ecofeminist suppression,
nationalistic straight white exceptionalism,
monoculturally self-righteous genocide
and, now, sacred EarthMatricide

Blind
and deaf
to natural
spiritual feelings
longing for Earth Matrimonial Paradise

Needing resilient health and safety
panentheistic global systems of care,
unconditional regard
wanting universal salvific health
through unitarian yintegral wealth
of cooperatively co-invested
PolyCultural-Communion

NonViolently communicating
win/win panentheistic
Here/Now
Space/Time
Body/Mind
Nature/Spirit Paradise
fomenting virulent indigenous wisdom
restoring unconditionally resilient regard

Which,
like Rome
and like Peace,
is not built
and rebuilt
in one 24-hour day.

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The Mural Project

Education Secretary Ellen,

Some of us
on the EarthCare Team
and also the Transport Solutions Committee
for special projects
are wondering
and, frankly, hoping

Your green STEAM students
and teachers
might research,
design,
and help residents paint
a historically accurate
AND polyculturally exquisite
series of murals

On our two-tiered
upper, more transcendently hopeful,
and lower, more historically faithful,
retaining walls

After our crumbling concrete parking pads
and steel-framed industrial artifacts
are hauled away
with respect and gratitude
for future repurposing

Our Transport Solutions
and EarthCare Elders
hope to use this transitional moment
to divert water runoff
to north and south bermed
and graceful descent
down toward our sacred RiverGaia,
rather than continuing to run
race
to disgrace our wet unhealthy basement

Thereby diverting soiled water stains
from historic runoff narrative face
retaining walled epic paintings,
perhaps combined with etching,
to tell a true and beautiful tale
about this sacred place
where we live
and work,
garden
and enjoy our EarthCare classroom
residence,
inside and outside

As did indigenously wise
Elders before us

And RiverGaia
learned Her future shape and flow
from ancient predative
cold
relentless icey white glaciers,

As will future natural construction
and deconstruction regenerators,
Thermal students
of green STEAM polyculturing Elders,
including co-invested us

Learning new Truth
and old Beauty Stories

Of how EarthCare givers
and health-care receivers
survived mistrust
to compassionately,
nonviolently
exquisitly thrive together
more better
than apart.

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Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

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Caring Communion

We care for our cooperative
incorporated Community
of health and safety faith
by caring with
and for sacred
regeneratively hopefilled
Earth

ReMembering
fertile orgasmic Earth
and serene Water
shared EarthCare
to bare our mammaled sensory
sexual
sacred emerging intentions
born of EarthMother wombs

Incarnating matriarchal eggs
and patriarchal sperm
into safe
and healthy aging
EarthTribal caring minds
with trusted bodies.

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