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Together Will We Part

Cells work is play
to resiliently thrive
only in organic systems.

Individual yolked cells
each with her own ego-governor
survive healthy together
and divide tragically apart

More like symbiotic regenerations
of surfing cantilevers
than degenerations
outside predations
storming waves
recolonizing cancers.

Transgendering
transubstantiating
transitions can be both

Too hard on ego yolks
and too soft for ecobodies
become some One boundaried else
while too soon severing
into not yet Zero

Sacrificed for tomorrow’s
unconditional regard
organically in-between
One secular EgoZone
and not yet Zero sacred
systemic EarthTribe soul

Remembering past memories
mindful of mind-cell fullness
side by side solidarity
re-imaging severed cells

Crests of history’s
great transitioning wave
from individual hot burning stars
to seas of cold
dead
dry dust

Awaiting wetter rust
for light and power
to co-arise
more resilient lust

Inside crusts
of ego loving centers
and their living eco-kin
becoming back and forth,
together and apart
again

Enlightenment
and death,
empowering cantilevers
losing out to expatriating cancers

Co-invested
ego risks of past power
and eco loss of future opportunities

Individuating
systems for regeneration
and recycling seasons
of privation

Therapy
and trauma,
health
and pathology

Unconditional regard
and conditioned
hardening cells
of disregard

For innocent Othered cells
whose work is also play
to resiliently thrive

Only in organic systems
unconditionally regarding
this enlightened
empowering day

Swings of Yang bright light
empowering Yin’s eternal sway.

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Repair Justice to Restore Peace

Before restoring perfection,
perpetual pleasures
of prosperous peace

I remain responsible,
compulsively responsive,
habitually receptive
to repairing win/lose
past competitive aggressions,
negatively suppressive
non-communications

My resilient repentance
must include self-forgiveness
for over-stressed addictions
to trauma repressors,
for failing to do my best
on a bad day

I usually fail to trust win/win strategic play
and work my best truth
healthiest way,
wealthiest co-managed gift
of sensory sensate
not always so elderly sedate
indigenous life

Among compassionate EarthTribe
redeemed through co-empathic curiosity
impressed by organic co-invested communication.

I struggle toward win/win intentional
restorative justice
adeptly mediating win/lose
bipartisan conflicts
exploring nonviolent communionations

At peace
remaining cooperatively responsible
responsively receptive

Quietly
anonymously
relentlessly repairing wounds
of AnthroSupremacist elitist cold regard
felt both outside blaming
and inside shaming

For cashing out of warm wet pleasures
of unconditional regard
too cheaply
too quickly
too sadly

Even for LeftBrain verbal narcissists,
smugly patriarchal
dishonorable corporate pirates

Champions of retributive poverty-punishing
justice of mercenary prison/court/police/military
monocultures
preying on our young
homeless,
stressed,
terrorized
and traumatized

Left rightwing outside
StraightWhiteCorporate patriarchal visions
of never needing to repair
vicious win/lose circles
growing capital monopolies
rooted in monotheistic true health values
for win/lose survival
of the RightWing anthropocentric
inhumane bigoted fittest

Devolutionary pathology
inviting further monoculturing climates
tipping toward
ecocidal trauma ideation,
warm and humid stress
fire and wind wilding
while wicked partisan polarization issues
distract my highest and best
therapeutic intentions

Before restoring perfect
perpetual communication pleasures

And prospering bicameral
dipolar co-invested balance

Cooperatively invested
in co-empathic curious gifts
for a more resonant
resilient
EarthTribe sacred peace.

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Cooperative Journeys

It interests me,
this journey into the garden
each spring
to notice how diverse vegies
and flowers,
edibles
and ornamentals,
pollinators
and soil enrichers,
work cooperatively together
when they can

My own planning part
notices potential competitions,
for light
water
deeper top soil,
but these pursue
optimizing cooperation
to jointly thrive,
not competition
to barely survive
trauma,
stress,
pain,
loss,
duress.

While sitting in the shade
looking over a host of community gardens
enlivened
and enriched
by cooperative community gardeners,

I recall business
and even public sector classrooms
worshiping at the win/lose altar
of capital investment

Sure,
without responsible question,
that at the end of our lifetime journey
we will be celebrated by our successful oppressions,
suppressions of the vanquishable
repressions of the feminist weak
within ourselves
our gardens
our families
and compassionate friends.

This has not been my experience,
that I am celebrated by,
and for,
those I have divested of
like obstacles to overpower,
mere consumer subjects
to satiate into silence,
to financially abuse,
to emotionally neglect.

Whether contemplating
another spring season
of cooperative community gardens
or harvesting reasons
at the end of a long midsummer dream

In which we are religiously celebrated
for our multicultural passions
and polycultural communion,
participating in EarthTribe’s
cooperatively redemptive journey
back toward green
pristine Eden.

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HealthCare Requiem

So here we are
now together in this eternal circle
around death’s latest victim
in our apartisan lives.

We pause,
each to invite a quieter humbling access
to silent comfort
from this ministering circle

Each, and together,
facing this our inevitable personal
frighteningly human,
naturally spiritual
and inspirationally natural trauma

Asking forgiveness from ourselves
and each Other in this soon parting Circle,
letting go of flawed relationships
in which we have done and said,
and too often not peacefully done
and said,
harm to ourselves
and to these encircled Others

Here doing our health and wellness best
we can
knowing some days and nights
like this death day,
with nighttime fears
and angers against cruel
and unusual mortality,
we will add to our shared ecology
and theology
of Trauma:

[invite Circle to add their own feelings]

Loss
Suffering
Pain
A degenerating climate
Hopelessness
Despair…

Yet, also in this Sacred Pause
before dispersing
shared Death’s hard inevitability,
we may also invite remembering
this our circling resonance,

When,
in our most robust compassion moments,
health care giving
is also wealth receiving resilient
brilliant,
physically empowering
and spiritually enlightening

We embrace
and celebrate our recircling Trauma facing
sacred place
warmly regarding space

For all that we have said and done
and have not said and not done
from heart-felt compassion
with ____;

[full name of deceased/ing]

This inside silent day
and dark night,
and those before
and yet to come
trusted truths
and healthiest beauty
circles gathering Earth’s compassion
celebrating this sacred pause in Life.

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Thoughtful CoOperative Experiments

Einstein had his mathematical
Thought Experiments,
as did Bucky Fuller.

Eisenstin has our cooperative economics
feeling sacred Win/Win CoInvestments,
as did Jesus of multicultural New Nazareth
and Gautama traveling Buddha.

We all naturally have spiritual Thoughts
with natural organic Feelings,
experiments and curiosities
polyculturally ecopolitical
scientifically noticing ecological systemic empowerment
regenerates
religiously poly-theological enlightenment
through compassion stories
and nonviolent principles of secular health purpose
with sacred green wealth meaning.

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Self-Unfulfilling Prophecy

Mental
mortal traumatic anxiety
is a metaphor for physical pain experience

As anticipating personal therapeutic healing
is analogically connected to absence
of win/lose cultural pathology
in a bad air
anxious atmosphere
climate.

Atheism about sacred healing Benefactors
is not so much a theological position
as it is a disconnected memory,
disembodied experience,
dissociatively anthrosupremacist,
non-panentheistic

In a secularizing monocultural climate
often PatriarchalCapitalist nationalistic,
fear and anger-rooted
cognitive/affective chronic dissonance,
dis-ease,
stress,
detachment from Whole Systemic Healthy EarthMother’s
traumatic
laborious
nihilistic experience
of autonomously stressed-out
disordered monotheistic humanity.

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Should Would Could

May I
always remain too damn interested in understanding
what you do feel
and think

To waste our co-investable time
in trying to persuade you
about what you should feel
and/or think more rationally instead

Of what I don’t yet understand
about how you do feel
and might feel differently
if you and I
were more WeConscious

Feeling about me
and you
and any thing else
and any other win/win integrity
win/lose biological
and ecological relationship
and/or lose/lose divestment away from
our bicameral thought/felt
pro-healthy WeLife
nonviolent communication.

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Progressive Health Intentions

The opposite of pain
is not ease.

An apposition of ease
is ecstasy.

The difference between pain
and pathology
reflects transparent
appositions between gaining ease,
green global peace,
and health caring ego-individuations
aiming past win/lose easy privilege

Straight white patriarchal
leftbrain ego’s verbal encultured supremacy
capitalistically communicating tolerated ease
with win/lose
cognitiveLeft/affectiveRight
eco-politically painful dissonance

And yet in-between
win/win tipping points
dipolar co-arising narrow Ways,
Yang left secular health power
embracing sacred wealth light
right/reverse-left interdependent web
of green cooperative
ecofeminist life Yintegrity

Of win/lose impatient tolerance’s complexity,
a nonzero zone
heuristic both/and anticipation
of win/win green cooperative health benefits
for wealthy ego/eco-systemic balance
rebalance
prebalance
anti-balance
disbalance
misbalance
violent lose/lose
through compassionate win/win
bicamerally cross-communicating

The opposite of ego-recentering pain
is not ecosystemic win/lose
chronically competitive unease
about further predative,
patriarchal,
dissociative apartheid,
monoculturing degenerative weedpatch experiences,

Slipping toward vague discomfort
with pain and distant
yet inevitable
autonomous ego mortality.

An appositive win/win reverse
of egocentered anthro-supremacist
leftbrain dominant disease
of chronically assuming
presuming to WinEgo
ZeroSum logically requires
Losing EcoHabitat health optimization
for all Earth’s Others

Is not yet Win/Win Yang/Yin
green cooperatively eco-political
global climate of healthy democracy care
sharing ecosystemic ecstasy
with individual ego identity
refined within systemic integrity’s
EarthEcstasy Green EcoPolitics

Also becoming personal
cooperatively preferred EgoClimate
of Earth’s sacred green/blue paradise

Resilient for future regenerations
compassionately re-communicating
local through global
green peace potential.

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Rain Begetting Lightning

Little fields have big fields
Upon their backs to bite ’em,
And big fields have bigger fields
And so ad infinitum.
(Alan Watts, 1966)

Little systems have open systems
Upon their boundaries to bite ’em,
And open systems have ecological metasystems
And so ad infinitum.

Within systems have withouting systems
Upon our boundaries to right ’em,
And withouting ecosystems beget withining coarising consciousness
And so ad infinitum.
We are raining,
withouting leading withining.

We are thereby paining,
withining leading withouting.

Responsive straining and explaining,
withouting dissonating withining.

We are training
Left-withouting leading Right-withining.

We are lightning
withining confluating withouting
confluating withining…

Little withining raindrops beget big withouting light.

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Regenerative Life ConScience Lessons

I said to my prodigal son
who stole from me,
it is not competitive economic strategies
that dominantly empower life;

Competitive ecologies and economies
are dominantly decomposing monocultures,
just the opposite of regenerative synergetic praxis
and intent to cooperate polyculturally.
Monopolistic internal cancer-culture
develops into decomposing organic systems
dissonant cognitive and emotive and neural and digestive systems
diseased health and well-being socioeconomic and political systems,
all negatively trending toward closed-entropic,
swollen monochromatic dismay replacing former systemic array.

They are cooperatively dominant economies and ecologies
integrating revolutions
that endo- and ecto-symbiotically evolve
nondual co-arising life regenerating systems.

Competitive critical events,
like stealing from and stolen from,
struggling between painful suffering of ego-self consciousness
and “positive deviant” stress,
self co-arising right-brained redactive eco-consciousness,
contention seeking bicamerally balanced contentment,
joint cooperative ego-eco echoing
waves of double-regenerationed comprehensive consciousness.

Primal stealthy hunt and structure
of cosmological information
evolves binomial-analogical,
bilateral-temporal,
binary-digital,
as polynomial information co-redeems
dual-transparently co-arising
Self+Other discernment.

“All money is a matter of belief”
said Adam Smith,
As all value is energy for relief from self-isolating sorrow,
said NowTime to HereSpace.

Transparent matters of belief
square-rooted in herstoric culture’s transparently coregenerating energy,
co-gravitational relief from dissonating stress.

I love my prodigal son,
perhaps somewhat more than he yet has capacity
to love his prodigal dad.

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