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Compassionate Revolutions

YangEgo grows endosymbiotic
as Yin EcoHome flows ectosymbiotic
allied with YangEgo EarthMother solidarity.

These two faces of cooperative change
dipolar synergetic exchange,
transubstantiation,
metamorphic re-acclimation
within as without

Interior landscape evolution
resembling exterior climates
of great and small
transitional
co-empathic
co-acclimating mind/body
crown/root chakra
spirit/natured
want/needed

Left to right
co-passionately pleasing
revolutions.

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Planning v Praying

Prayer’s wealthy positive potential
is not as substitute for healthcare planning.

Prayer might be a prelude to planning,
and might be an appropriate postlude
to fully implemented plans,
whether psalm of gratitude
or requiem of remorse
depending on healing or diseasing outcomes.

Even better,
some gratitude and humble remorse,
held together,
demonstrating we have learned something
from our nondual co-arising trial and error
and yet continue improving
our loving healthcare refinements.

But, whether my life plans are what happened
while Earth continuously revolved in other distressing directions,
or I continue learning to plan somewhat more cooperatively
and multiculturally
and polyculturally
and polyamorously

Inductive prayer and deductive plans co-arising
integrally more than separately,
hopeful prayer is the faithful planner’s co-redemptive bookend,
Alpha and Omega double-binding points
of interreligious
peaceful reorientation

Not my personal How to Save the World book,
much less evangelically seminal scripture.

Prayer is my yeasty bread and liturgical garnish,
embodied needs to rise and dance,
mind wants to sing romance,
but not the red arteries and blue veins
of ego/ecologically balanced
lovely heart-care planning.

Something defenders of the 1st
and 2nd Amendments
might want to hold together

You have no authentic freedom of speech
or rights of interreligious
interdependently polyamorous
polytheistic expression
if I have the right to aim a gun
at monotheistic
monocultural caste preservers,
monopoly players
who disagree
unarmed.

And I have no authentic prayer
for victims of ballistic violence
that doesn’t include
intercessory planning.

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Good Journey

I have heard many moms repeat
“You never stop being a parent.”

Sadly, I don’t see or hear that quite so much from the dads,
although I know of remarkably nurturing exceptions.

I thought of this as my impossibly young,
yet oldest son,
nearly twenty-two,
stopped by for an early birthday present, cash,
before heading out in his car
with a fellow rap artist friend
on their way from this Atlantic coast
to that San Francisco Bay.

D.B. never drove away to college,
or flew off on a great summer excursion,
or even went off to a technical school,
nor the military.

He did try to make Job Corp fit.
But, two suicides
and one stabbing on his dorm floor
and he decided not to return
after Holiday vacation that year.

He has been the last driver of not just one,
but two, of my totaled cars.
The second crash he walked away from
was when a drunk young white male
hit him head on
in the middle of a gorgeous New England sun-bright June
afternoon
as he was coming home from his first,
and last,
out of home employment
busing tables in a casino diner.

D.B. was approaching the end of his three month probation period
when they let him go,
primarily for his ADHD challenges
with getting to work on time
with all the pieces of his uniform
clean and intact.
But, he also had trouble showing up
ready to set aside the dramas of his personal-political life,
which often feels like a race
and age
and gender profiled
and marginal
and commodified life.
It was hard to stay focused;
to be there when he was there.

Tomorrow D.B. and his friend since high school days
will see a slice of these continental States
from coast to coast and back again
for the first time.

I am ravenously happy for him.
I wish I could have given him wings,
some outrageous pile of cash.
My heart stops
when I notice how he is so vulnerable
exposed
raw
too often despairing and perhaps even terrified
more about himself
than intimidated by a hostile world closing him out.

Closing ranks
on all the ways his particular black life will not matter
in Earth’s vast history.
Not significant enough to be sure if it could become possible,
or even safe,
to love himself,
to allow himself a long and warm regard,
as I embrace him.

I don’t know if I could finish being a child
without becoming an everyday
relentlessly caring and nurturing parent.
I can think of nothing so binding both feet to Earth
yet so free flying impossible to control.

For many reasons,
whether despite or because of my single gay male identity,
I chose the second class Mommy Track
instead of going for the Ph.D.
And not just the Mommy Track;
I adopted only the older wounded kids
who would never safely drive or hold a job,
or would never talk or walk,
or would never thoroughly clean off her own poop,
or sleep through the nightmare night,
or would not feel safe outside our home,
stalking the boundaries of life while high school friends head on and out
to colleges and new friends
while he struggles to tolerate
two on-line classes each semester.

It feels good to know I am needed
but frightening to realize I cannot retire from this parenting profession
except through my own growing incapacity.

These four charges of mine
remind me we are each such a precious gift
for each other.
I have never regretted my more generous choices
rather than less magnanimous.
Not necessarily because the return on investment has always been better for my kids,
but because those were the moments standing out most clearly
in my column for Fully Living,
rather than continuing to draw out a stingy half-life,
under invested in our shared future regenerators.

I hope D.B. and friend have the time of their young lives
as I have had mine,
and even better,
even better.

It is so much easier,
and comforting,
to have old and happy memories
when we have had both young and generously happy times,
seasons,
reasons to smile
and greet each fleeting dawn.

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Standing on the Side of Mental Health

My cerebral palsied Fetal-Alcohol daughter
asked her teacher if she could be her Substitute
while said teacher will be absent next week.

I was asked for my opinion
on the wisdom of accepting this offer:

While volunteering with grand Cinderella intentions,
she will Deep Drunken State rule
with Ugly StepMother tyranny.

She emulates President Trump’s monotheistic style
of King Midas vs Disobedient Rabble.

With her, we call it Oppositional Defiant Disorder.
With him, we call it Chief Executive DisOrder.
Same mental-emotional-behavioral healthcare indifference.

I can look at the two of them Right side up
and see Health and Safety Disorder
may be why “patriotic” things
are as they capitalistically are

Monotheistically monopolizing
monetized
anti-religious Value v DisValue.

So that Oppositional Defiant Disorder
has become the singular unsung purpose
of the Department of [Not]Justice
and the Department of Homeland [In]Security
and the Department of [Mis and Dis]Education
and the Department of Health and Human [Dis]Services
and the Department of [Violent]Defense
has reformed
to become, once again, the Department of [Anti-Peace]War

Valuing [not]human and [not]civil and [not]religious Rights

[vs polytheistic Wrongs]

Disvaluing humane
and civil
and inter-religious Leftovers

Which,
when coldly unappealing,
often get thrown against the nearest wall

Left,
although not right,
for Cinderella to clean up

Which is her thankless
health and safety
civil service job.

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Sexy Sacred Mess

Efficient communication,
despite its practical virtue,
is not a priority
or even an objective,
when practicing orgasmic events

Solo,
or Other wise.

Transformative communication
may prefer sacramental rituals
communing within organic Gaia’s
holiness

Peace-making communion
matures Crown/Root chakra
hypostatic God/Gaia union

Re-enacting Wind and Water’s
first fornicating night
becomes enlightened day

Agape and Eros
rebirthing philoprogenitive
sacred sexy’s compassion
peaking nonspeaking communications

Admitting dark Philo
lightly haired
scaped

With no head turn
toward my praises,
only drawn to swarthy nights
for root chakra worship

Wet
warm
welcome Wind,
despite impractical vices,
matures communion’s healthy
indigenously sacred
watered Wisdom.

Purity,
like safety,
less favored values
for happy Crown
and healthy Root
sexsensual organisms

Unable to read,
much less remember,
delusional healthcare messages
that safety,
like purity,
secures monogamy

Our best ecstatic
spiritually virtuous
natural sensuality.

My less solo Crown/Root experiences
suggest other virtues wise

Wondering if monogamy has spawned
a hobgoblin of patriarchal Crowns
wed with capital investments
in breeding caste-privileged
straight male dominant,
and not necessarily safe,
offspring.

How passionate and pleasing is monogamy,
and monotheism,
and monoculturalism,
for natural
physical Rooting,
and spiritual
mental Crowning,
neurosystemic healthcare?

All these monolithic control issues
assume much deeper pantheism
and wider polyamorous compassion
are less virtuous

As Crown caste privileges
dominate monotheistic ideologies,
divorcing cobinary genders of sexiness
from Crown/Root dispassion-abolishing

Compassionate communications
of reconnecting
religious sacramental rituals
pleasing Root/Crown polyamorous
peace invocation.

Philo
turn your brown eyes
left and right
north and south
forth and back

Into pre-Crown dominant history
of Gaia’s sexual spirituality.

Monogamy,
like Agape v Eros monotheism,
has been a more modern strategy

Not normative
in organic biosystems
nor within Gaia’s ecosystemic network
of AgapeCrown/ErosRoot communications,
neurosystemically felt and touched
passionately heard and pleasure seen
sacred sensory mating relationships

Singing
humming
hooting
croaking
buzzing
a cacophony of lusty need
every warm month
WindSeed conjoining WaterBearer
night.

While Biblical patriarchs preach
monogamous marital relationships
for virtuous virginal WaterBearers

Patrimonial fidelity
invests more clothing optional
for WindSeed pleasure patronage.

Philo,
my brown-skinned
sacred sexual icon
of love’s transforming health pleasures

Has never once root-woken up
or crown-spoken out
for more patriarchally efficient sexual service,
despite its capital investment virtue

Not a Crown/Root win/win priority
or even a passionately pleasing objective,
when polyamorous practice makes perfect
sacramental orgasmic events

Monotheistically solo,
or pantheistic non-Othered
Holy Agape/Eros wise.

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Adventures In Happy Endings

Throughout 2016 I have been reading Rob Brezsny’s Pronoia
Is The Antidote For Paranoia
now ending before I reach 2017.

This postmillennial bible of multiculturalism
ends with several questions or statements
with space to write in my responses.

I am about half through these end pages.
Here is a condensed version of this conversation,
to date:

“Imagine that you get three wishes on one condition:
They can’t benefit you directly;
they have to be wished on behalf of someone else.
What would they be?”

  1. Peace and justice throughout sacred Earth’s more cooperative organic Tribes.
  2. And economic and political goodwill for ecofeminists,
    matriarchs of Earth’s extending families.
  3. And all Gaia’s (0)riginally Sinless win/win newborns.

“Comment on this thought:
Imagination is more important than knowledge
and play is more interesting than belief.”

And imagination is not accessible without memory
and play feels more accessible with trust
than distrust.

And role-play is better for deep learning
cooperative v competing beliefs
about how to become a more peacefully communicating
multiculturally-adept
adult.

“Pronoia is a gnostic art.
Everyone is potentially a visionary
capable of revealing more of its mysteries
Write your oracles and definitions of pronoia here.”

Pronoia co-passioning designs
rather than
paranoid conspiracies of autocratic anthropocentrism
engage indigenous wisdom
of restorative justice
and resilient peace.

“‘When I grow up,’ wrote Ramona McNabb, ‘I want to be a river.’
What impossible magnificence would YOU like to be
when you grow up?”

A two-headed tornado
bilaterally communicating
mirror reverse-revolving
co-powering funnels
ingesting Earth’s complexity
exhaling anthropocentric chaos
through appositionally equi-valent dipolar tails
feeding on and off each other’s co-impassioned
bicameral synergy.

“Tell what techniques you’ve discovered
about feeding honey to crocodiles.”

Waste of sacred time
and organic space.
Like feeding pearls to swine
who would much prefer to eat me.

“What would you have to do in order to keep getting smarter and smarter?”

Invite my egocentric, and anthro-centric, hubris
to become humbler and humbler,
until entirely co-passioned
to keep becoming trauma-informed polyamorous integrity
and feeling polyvagal painless peace.

“What’s the single most important question you’d like to resolve
before you die many years hence?”

Why didn’t Me v We paranoia die sooner
so Me+We could pronoia thrive sooner?

“‘Bodhisattva’ is a term used by Buddhists to describe a saint
who has developed spiritual equanimity
and a consistent ability to act with wisdom and kindness
but who nevertheless postpones his [sic] ascension into nirvana
in order to help free all other beings from their suffering.
In Beauty and Truth Lab parlance, a ‘dissident bodhisattva’ believes that existing political and cultural institutions must be overthrown
and replaced
in order to liberate all beings from their suffering
and achieve spiritual equanimity.
Write a story in which you are a dissident bodhisattva.”

Better to resonantly love
this deeply resilient co-passionate communication
of truly felt compassion
and beautifully peaceful pleasures.
Bring non-violent communication
to Whole EarthSystem incarnation.

Although,
before pronoia imagining our healthiest
and richest
and deepest bodhisattva incarnation,
I suppose it’s always good to prepare our most co-intelligent
PolyCulturing ReGenerative Design.

So, perhaps positively deviant co-messiahs
of cooperative economic and political bodhisattva (0)-zone polypaths
might passionately begin with writing down how I would like to feel
0/1-prime cobinary indigenously wise nondualistic dipolar relationship
over the next 12 AnthroMind/EarthBody
Passion/Pleasure years

I could anticipate having sufficiently (0)-woke left
before I 1-Whole EarthBody right retire,
when I will hope to learn why I didn’t retire now,
before I co-passionately sing
and coitally dance
while rewriting ecotherapeutic EarthTribe’s
BodhiSattva ReCreation Story.

“You are Ruler Of The World.
What three decrees will you immediately issue
to begin the mass healing?”

  1. All public and private investments,
    both impassioned time and pleasing money,
    currently supporting competitive
    WinnerCasteWe v LoserCasteThey preservation
    of monoculturing monopolistic monotheistic grandeur
    and corrupting wealth,
    rather than multicultural health
    and polycultural wealth,
    are now democratically,
    yet not officiously,
    reinvested in cooperative WinWin
    ecopolitically viral and virtuous
    EarthTribe Climate HealthCare Games,
    and other forms of nutritionally recreative
    deep learning inter-religious passion play,
    ecopolitically green transformative partying.
  2. All Patriotic and Paternalistically dominant anthrocultures
    are now officially,
    yet not autrocratically,
    also Matriotic and Maternalistically prominent
    Earth as SacredMother
    Golden Rule nurturing meritocracy.
  3. All males and females,
    heteros and homos,
    upper and lower castes,
    conservators and liberators
    are now virtuously positive,
    and not viciously negative,
    on the EarthTribal full-transgenderal Octave Spectrum
    of multiculturing polyamorous panentheistic
    indigenously wise polypaths
    toward deeply exotic/erotic
    prime peak experienced
    wealthy neuro/ecological cobinary
    prime 1 SunGod MonoThesis = 0 EarthGaia HypoThesis
    compassionately communing
    upper/lower recaste
    transformational relationship.
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Positive Political Psychology

I wonder if win/win game theory might positively correlate
positive neuropsychology
and healthy environmental relationships.
Does this too facilely root anthropological thriving cultures
within a Whole Earth ecology of climate health?

Intersections of sociology and psychology are academically commonplace.
I have a friend with a doctorate in social-psychology.
From this social/individual combined view,
we might not expect a healthy, democratically inclusive, social environment
to produce an unhealthy, autocratically exclusive, elitist anthropocentrism.

All adult humans have experienced both political-psychological elite and non-elite childhood memories;
empowered as compared to younger children, at least,
and unempowered compared to adult authority.
Unwealthy, unstraight, unwhite individual neuropsychological experiences
reinforce empathic capacity for associating non-elite inclusive multicultural political values
with democratic health
and dissociative elite exclusive monocultural political disvalues
with autocratic pathology.

Social/economic disinvestment and politically disempowering experiences further reinforce non-elite neuropsychological trauma triggers, including histories of
emotional neglect
verbal abuse
bullying
dissociative prejudice
lack of felt associative regard.

Longing for power advantages of those socially/politically trusted
for demonstrating vigorously healthy compassion values
may be a universal neuropsychological experience,
and yet more deeply impressed
for those with attenuated histories of feeling peaceful
contented neurosystemic belonging.

We can all, elite and non-elite, extend neurosystemic capacity
to empathize with organisms vulnerable to dispassionate and discomforted
disempowered margins of democratic health positive neuropsychological values,
as virtuously favored
rather than viciously disfavored
autocratic unhealthy negative neuropsychological disvalues.

Individual neurosystemic lives chronically confined to dissociative non-elite boundary issues experience higher vulnerability to both authoritarian and anthropocentric disempowerment triggers, from others and from within;
higher anxiety risks in response to disempowering oppression,
feeling repressed, mistrusted

With multigenerationally inherited psychological roots
in chronic paranoia about surviving elite-autocratic abandonment
in an anthropocentrically competitive economic and political
win v lose,
right v wrong,
polarizing unhealthy ecology of dissociative disvalue
dispassion
chronically triggered neurosystemic displeasure.

By contrast, positive correlations between socio-political thriving
and neuropsychological health,
explored in the positive social-psychology paradigm,
could become dipolar appositionally articulated as
Therapeutic v Traumatic Interior NeuroPsychology
AND
Democratic v Autocratic Exterior Political Ecology

This bilateral paradigmatic lens might recognize individuals empowered by positive neuropsychologically healthy
multiculturally inclusive values
are positively correlated
within an environmental climate
of politically and economically empowered anthropocentric elites.

A Whole Organic Earth associative worldview
may neurosystemically empathize with more marginal non-thriving victims of autocratic elites
vulnerable to ecologically dissociative health risks
of chronic social-psychological neurosystemic trauma.

Non-elite social-environmental political status
chronically darkens and fades into vaporous margins
of both Self and Other dissociative depression
as our economic and political distrust perdures,
cancerously producing neurosystemically disturbing paranoia
co-arising mental distress within
and failure to thrive physical distress
feeling non-competitive,
non-elite
without social-political value without.

When I awaken in the morning, sometimes I feel anxious,
maybe about insufficiency of time

Not anticipating this day’s potential for empowering healthy relationships
or gratitude for more economic fruition than destitution.

At the end of this day
will I feel more like I have been struggling against environmentally toxic
dispassionate
and unhappy autocrats,
or struggling with how to contain and sustain anticipating more extended healthy
ecologically cooperative
compassionate
and thriving organically neurosystemic democrats
feeling
and smelling
and deeply listening
for ever-expanding neurosystemic ecopolitical trust?

Do I wake up to another autocratic elite-defensive competitive day
seeking advantages by disempowering less elite needy others
or co-invest compassionate neuropsychological abundance
with democratically trusting
compassion neurosystemic wealthy
ecologically healthy pleasured others?

Psychological and political healthy values
are drawn to democratically robust abundance
for multiculturally co-empowering all organic lives
by letting go of paranoid anthropocentric elitist baggage
of 0-sum WinAnthroMind v LoseEarthBody
disempowering autocratic defensiveness.

Both the psychological and political problems of LeftBrain Either/Or polarizing dominance trace back to two source-roots.
In science, regenerative Win-Win evolutionary thrival trends favoring cooperative organic natural values have been unmathematically presumed less successful than Win v Lose survivalist norms under high-stressed environmental imbalance conditions.
What is ecologically normative cooperation has been psychologically and economically and politically usurped by a model of evolution that assumes ecological health is rooted in anthropocentric elitist dominance of economic wealth v ecological health.
Were this the actual historical case, then we have no way of explaining how natural relationships could evolve into self-regenerative organic systems of memory and increasing co-empathic communication;
co-intelligent democratic integrity.

The other root source goes back to the origins of religions as co-empathic trust in sacred powers.
Human neurosystemic nature favorably responds to active faith in passion-mind and pleasure-body nondualistic powers as benign, pronoia, non-violent communication health values; and not dissociative, condemning, vengeful, greedy autocratic, anthropocentric disempowering disvalues.

The gods and goddesses of love have always fertilely engaged cooperative empathic trust in Earth’s democratically interdependent regenerative future.

The demons and unkind gods and unfertile goddesses of condemnation, too often re-enacted by tough-love parents, and monoculturally xenophobic politicians, and 0-sum devolutionary economists and anthropocentric capitalist value assumptions,
provoke further non-elite neurosystemic trauma about our unenlightened and disempowering inadequacies within,
and further anthrosupremacist-monotheistic theology rather than regeneratively cooperative organically sacred ecology.

To paraphrase Buckminster Fuller,
geopolitical wizard of synergetic systems theory,
it is easier to become a neuropsychologically healthy humane cultural organism
when we live in a democratically wealthy,
polycultural climax-anticipating,
compassionately communing climate.

But, for most of us mere mortals,
that is a lot to wake up to positively anticipate
on a chilly pre-dawn morning.

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Caring Communion

We care for our cooperative
incorporated Community
of health and safety faith
by caring with
and for sacred
regeneratively hopefilled
Earth

ReMembering
fertile orgasmic Earth
and serene Water
shared EarthCare
to bare our mammaled sensory
sexual
sacred emerging intentions
born of EarthMother wombs

Incarnating matriarchal eggs
and patriarchal sperm
into safe
and healthy aging
EarthTribal caring minds
with trusted bodies.

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ReWeaving ReLigioning ReConnections

It seems unlikely
Left Hemisphere’s
Either 100% Positive-On
Or 0% Negative-Dormant circuitry

Could change
toward polypolarizing
Right Hemisphere’s
Both Full
And NonZero Empty
CoPassion
And Silent Soul feelings

Devoid of unilaterally dissonant monoculturalism,
monotheistic judging voices,
depressing anthro-supremacism,
predicating overwhelming chaos,
underwhelming complexity
of unnatural lose-Me/lose-We despair
for fading
formerly healthy memories
of ecosystemic robust climates

For our already wounded children
and their affective climates
of high lose/lose risk
negatively correlated
with fading win/win opportunities
to rediscover
great Green EcoFeminist healthcare

For our future poly/mono-cultural
health of LeftHemisphere rational
verbal appreciation

For RightHemisphere wealth
of green eco-systemic
regenerative
resilient body-health/mind-wealth
strong/flowing
mountain/valley
convex-ego/concave-ecology

Ritualizing sacred green redeemers
Prophets of holy panentheistic
regenerative healthcare

Composed of dynamic spiraling revolutions,
emerging systems
remembering lunar ecocycles
of LeftHemisphere enlightenment,
RightHemisphere both/and co-empathic
passionate wisdom,
dipolar co-arising light/dark

Reweaving health/wealth
ReConnecting co-empathic evolutionals
like Yang/Yin
liberal love/conservational mental yintegrity
co-investing Left/Right
in Green poly-systemic health
resilience of hidden appositionals
in co-operating co-passion

BiPolar sexual orientations
including dipolar co-arising transcendent Saints
AND TransPanTheistic seductive Sinners

Straight poles
and transgender holes,
tops and bottoms,
aboves and belows,
co-enlightnment and affective wise empowerment
together seeking blue/green global climates
of health-caring balance

In a NonZero systemic zone
Open to secular holistic
AND sacred panentheistic understandings
overwhelming global
bi-hemispheric
health/wealth care
both Eco/Theo-Logical

ReWeaving
ReConnecting
ReGenerating similarities
in double-negative equals positive balancing
win/win optimizing
resilient global healthcare
openness,
open wounded nest

That positive Polynomial (P) worldviews
LeftHemisphere dominant
are also
negative NotPolynomial (NP)
views of RightHemisphere
win/win healthy v lose/lose pathological
heuristic both/and theoretical experience

DiPolar co-arising
liberal Yang lovers
and conservational-integral
GreenBeauty ecofeminist
global healthcare
eco/theo-logically
enlightened/empowered

To inter-religiously interconnect
multicultural values for health
with our polycultural STEAM experience
of resilient green ecosystemic
resilient
global
Open Systemic
holistically healthy-wealth

ReWeaving
ReConnecting
ReGenerating
mountains/valleys
convex/concave
complex/chaotic
holistic/empty narcissistic ZeroZone
for EarthTribe’s global wealthshare
equivalently balancing
green/blue healthcare

ReConnecting
ReWeaving
interdependent red-blooded
USA patriotism
for Green MotherEarth,

reconnecting
reweaving
sweet
sacred Home.

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Make America:

Does
Make America Great Again

Also mean
Make America Straight Again?

How about
Make America White Again?

Maybe
Make America
AntiFeminist Again?

Another possibility,
Make America
Christian Evangelical Supremacist
Again?

And,
more elaborately,
Make America
Business As Usual
Patriarchal/Capitalist
Autonomously Empowered
and Exclusively Enlightened
Again?

GREATness
is soooooooo much more
morally ambiguous
than public HEALTH
and global climate SAFEty.

I would feel so relieved
if my RedRight friends
and family
would patriotically fly
and pleasantly post
Make America Healthy Again
banners,
hats,
bumper stickers,
condoms,
masks,

And MAHA foreign
and domestic
green policy statements.

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