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Addictive Mediations

Addiction is what happens
when mediation doesn’t happen.

Addiction is what happens
with my feelings
when mediation doesn’t happen
in MeWe conscious thoughts.

Addiction is what happens
with bipolar up and down
dipolar co-arising feelings
when compassionate mediation
doesn’t happen in ego/eco-systemic
bicameral Both/And thoughts.

Addiction
to hearing oneself chatter away
is what happens
when more modest mediation
doesn’t happen.

Addiction to fast-paced competition happens
when cooperative mediation doesn’t.

Addiction happens
when mediation
doesn’t, quite so much.

Addiction
to mediation
doesn’t do much.

Mediating
addictions
does all else.

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A CoInvested Intervention

A multicultural proposal
for a bipartisan Intervention,
not to be confused
with drilling a nervous root canal.

  1. I take responsibility

What I am feeling
about myself.

What I believe I need
for my health
and safety.

What I want
from you.

Then
What you are feeling
about yourself.

What you believe you need
for your health
and wealth of thriving resilience.

What you want
from me
to support your journey.

  1. I embrace curiosity

What I am feeling
about you.

What I believe you need
for your health
and thriving sense of safe resilience.

What I want
for you.

Then
What you are feeling
about me.

What you believe I need
for my health
and safe resilient wealth.

What you want
for me.

  1. We support compassion

What you are now feeling
about us.

What you believe we need
for our here and now health
and co-invested wealth.

What you now want
from and for
us.

Then
What I am now feeling
about MeWe communal Us.

What I now believe we need
for longterm resonant health
and resiliently balanced
mindbodied wealth.

What I now want
from and for
sacred
co-invested
Us

Doing win/win better
than addiction to avoiding
and then angrily drilling
yet another nervous root canal.

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Widowed ComPassion

Said the old widow cook
to the drag queen son
feeding his/her dying abusive dad,
while offering her nurturing donation:

“I don’t want your money.
We’re not savages, yet.”

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Holistic Choices

There probably are some psychotropic meds
helpful with win/win rerooted thinking
reconnecting within feelings,
positive and negative

But meth
and alcohol
and heroin
and depression
and anxiety meds
are not among these.

Nor are behavior management practices
hoping to fade out robust addictions
to substances
and victim spiritualities
against healing
without replacing shame
and blame
and self-loathing
with regenerative health
is also natural/spiritual wealth
ego/ecosystemic
thinking Left and feeling Right
solidarity systems
of compassion
for wounded
MeWe timeless
co-identity.

MeWe wants to live
in green eco-centric identity
humbly not anthrosupremacist,
instead multiculturally loving
with fully polyvagal,
deeply positive polyphonic,
widely polypathic
integral possibility

Here being
also Now becoming
enlightened thought Left
and eco-empowered Right
bilateral deep and wide healthy feelings
friendlier with mushrooms
or cannabis
or carefully calibrated LSD
or even Molly

All better choices than alcohol
and allies
for love rerooting
a more expansive
MeWe life

Resilient resonant recovery
lives and loves in-between
positively felt conviction
and negatively experienced condemnation

Contempt,
and wounded appreciation.

Despair,
and active hope.

Loser traume
and Winner ego/eco
MeWe
bicamerally communicating therapy.

A difference between
monotheistic organized religious formation
and interdependent
inter-sectional spiritual experience:
Religion LeftBrain dominantly teaches
that Elders have the exclusive wisdom
to define and prescribe Jehovah’s
self-righteous love
for autonomous
wounded soul
Me

While naturally spirited RightBrain
MeWe feelings
reconnect with ElderEarth
inclusive peak experiences
to refine and describe
EarthMother’s timeless love

As life within interdependent
reconnecting MeWe
dipolar co-arising NonZero BiPartisan Zone

Full and Empty
compassionately wounded
and rewounding panentheistic Souls

Healthy
strong
opulently flowing
non-anthrosupremacist
co-passionately non-violent
non-zero interdependent
communal peak natural/spiritual experiences

Of actively convicted hope
in timeless face
free of MeWe condemnation.

Free for unconditional
co-passionate
timelessly resilient
warm regard,
and joy;
don’t forget the natural passion
of spiritual compassion.

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Fear of Failure

I know you don’t want to hurt
or even disappoint
me

And I know you don’t want to hurt
yourself.

Yet still your shame
and self-blame hurt

Your self-judging
punishing closet frame
suffocates our transparent life
my caring curiosity craves,
and mutual vulnerability
our sharing courage braves.

Addiction to feeling happy
is not free
and connected to sensory satisfaction
nor to ego significant gratification
and certainly not natural and spiritual bilateral wealth
of healthy feeling substantiation,

Which, as you know,
I also recognize as body and mind healthy
choice voices.

Before you even small voice object,
I also recognize you may feel natural
or spiritual choice
has nothing to do with driving off
without “goodbye,
see you safely soon.”

If no physically tolerable choice
of resources to feed serotonin
and water dopamine,
I know, from years of isolated,
neglected experience,
how frightening loss of lonely ego-powered control
can feel.

Speaking not of choice,
but inside swatting interminable Voice
never still
until you self-shame
and blame
hiding hurts
and unfree frames
us both,
unhappy you,
not Here,

And me
loving enough for Us,
not yet Now

Still worrying
what will voiceless nonchoice happen
disempowered There
and unenlightened Then
suddenly Amen

Our silently uninvited End.

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Peak Communion Addiction

When struggling with addiction
to uncontrolled
and biologically controlling agents
and competitive outside agencies

Earth is helpful in mentoring patience
with failures of humane self-control
to extend,
feed and water
and grow mindbody wealth
of unwalled health.

So, when possible,
as possible,
extend your compassion
away from impatience
with your own owned egocentrism,
from which we all LeftBrain dominantly suffer,
and, instead, turn toward actively felt RightBrain
curiosity

About understanding your addiction cycles,
addictive relationships
vacillating in-between fear and anger
over inadequately safe and nourishing
cooperative humane attachments,

Like, for instance,
the primal neuro-sensory positive
happy
healthy resonant co-empathic
co-relationship you ego-shared
with your original eco-EarthMother
red-blood empowering

And enlightening green MotherEarth cooperative
co-invested
co-passion.

This active curiosity
about your own history of feeling lonely,
unwanted,
detached,
shunned,
marginalized-marginal
unnecessary
dispurposed,
depressed

Is not where
and when
and how you might also remember feeling
curiously connected,

High seratonin
and deep dopamine enriched,
resonantly and resiliently climaxing
health optimizing ego/eco-mother
bilaterally enlightened connection

Re-connection to our Universal Sacred Promise
of each integral Ego’s portentous meaning,
secular purpose,
re-connection to pre-historic memories
of perfectly compassionate nature inhaled
and spirit exhaled

Naturespiralation warm and active
high and deep
light empowering internal/external
natural and spiritual
scientific and aesthetic
Truth and Beauty

Here and Now
resiliently co-climaxing
curious impressions

Of secular addictions
to sacred resonant re-attachment.

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Liberating Addiction

I need to talk about addictions,
about my addiction issues,
and maybe yours.

Addiction gets a deserved bad rap
but that doesn’t mean we have no more
than mean-spirited possibilities.

Our first addiction,
and, for the lucky ones,
the functional extended multigenerational
multicultural families
and liberating tribes,
also the last,
is love.

Love,
hidden or wide unwalled open
for another human,
another species,
another culture,
another part of Earth,
and other, costly
medicinal substitutes,

Drugs and alcohol,
guns and loud danger,
cars and sex,
coffee
and comfort
and convenience,
beauty
and enlightenment
and luxury,
notoriety
and money
and security,
all poor substitutes
for the nurturing feel
and natural touch,
nutritional smell and taste,
native sight and sounds
of love.

I have two issues
with addiction.
One is my obsessive-compulsive need
for my next, even better, fix
what’s broken.

I find it humbling
to be cravenly overpowered
by physical and mental,
natural and spiritual, want,

By my longing to climax
resiliently
resonantly
universally embraced by Earth’s most incarnate
and eternal
esteem,
communion,
co-passion.

But, physical addiction
can be softened,
eased,
healed more readily
and stadily
if not for my shame
and hide in the closet
self-judgment,

If not for my weak
and sinful shadow nature,
My need to hide
my darkest fruit truths
about not being in control
of my own autonomous will power.

And, so it is,
I hide my greatest weakness,
my greatest internalized enemy,
and thereby feed and water feelings
of guilt,
self-blame shame,

A failure to grow vulnerable love for others
I cannot see in naked love
and truth
and transparent beauty
because I fear to meet judging eyes
and minds,
voices
conserving dismissive choices.

Secret addictions
have all my darkest powers
of steadfast
and cyclical disempowerment.

Acknowledged addictions
I can call out courageously,
then curiously explore
with my housemates,
neighbors,
teachers and parents,
children and listeners,
supportive groups of similar addicts,
medicating absence of love’s
spiritual wealth
without natural walls.

Fears and angers spoken
and named
thereby weaken
as love swells
for positive addiction,

Which, as long as not risked
stays absent,
even from our healing selves
grasping mercy
for becoming merely mortal
and expecting my birthright
of a health wealthy society
good faith community
family
with multicultural addiction values
and unlovely disvalues

Summarized in GoldenRule behaviors
and positively addicted open
vulnerable
transparent
courageous
actively curious gratitude
attitudes of cooperative disclosure.

This power of my unhealthy addictions
lies more heavily in hiding my self
secret depressions
repressions
suppressions
dark impressions
that true and beautiful,
resonant and resilient love
is too far above
my emotional pay scale,
worthy of our co-redemption,

Too big a reach
to try to open up again,
to share my weak addictions
and strong compulsions
to feel and touch
taste and see
where love was lost
while pursuing lesser
hidden things.

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Attachments and Aversions

I wonder if
what Buddhist classic meditation teachings
refer to as “attachments”
and “aversions,”
a Western medical doctor
might label with different words,
such as addiction
and dissociative diversions.

In both frames
negative illusions may be recognized
and appreciated
as deep opportunities to learn;

Negative delusions are not accurately cognized
and are depreciated
as too risky
not to repress
and hide
from any therapeutic
transporting
transparent (not self-shaming)
and vulnerable (not self-blaming)
communication
with our contemplative EgoTherapist within
and our medical-model EcoTherapists without.

Positive illusions,
attachments and/or addictions,
may be accurately cognized
as sensory attractions,

Whether smells and/or tastes,
touch and/or feelings,
sight and/or sound,
eco-reception and/or mind/body communication,
exterior and/or interior,

May have potential
to therapeutically transport
away from addiction
and toward less ego-obsessive attraction,
and away from self-serving,
potentially predative, attractions
to positive sensory pleasure,
cooperatively intended
hoped
faithed
loved,
eco-politically
and personally
and bilaterally
and bicamerally healthy wealth
of becoming completely satisfied
sufficient
simple
centered in HereLeftYangSpace/NowRightYinternalTime
and in past sensory satisfying memories
and in future images
imagination of pleasures
climatically encompassing
all of the above.

Addiction to cooperative multicultural
multigenerational
regenerational
and bicameral
bilateral peak sensory experiences
could be a healthier opportunity
than addictions to competitive ego-monoculturing
and mono-atheistic
and autonomous predator/prey
sensory risk ambivalence

Where things don’t necessarily smell
or taste inviting,
don’t necessarily feel grateful to touch
or feel inside my mindbody,
don’t necessarily transcendently transport
when compromised win/lose beauty seen
and ambiguously uninviting truth heard,
falling short of healthy co-addiction
to Earth’s vast multicolored wealth
of sensory ultra-nonviolent
compassionate
EarthTribe Yintegrity.

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Health Addictions

Health brings freedom to live
intentionally
resplendently
maturely
resonantly
integrally
regeneratively
compassionately
resiliently
kindly.

Freedom is personal,
but also social,
political
but also economic,
ecological
but also theological.

Health requires freedom from addiction
to beliefs:

Some people are born to rule
and own Earth,
while others are born to be serfs
and slaves,
laborers
and frightened/angry addicts.

Some people are born
to be born again,
while others are born
to be unredeemed,
idol worshipers,
poor,
sinners.

Some straight males are born to be White
Evangelical Supremacists,
while others are born
to be Other.

Some people are born to extract
from healthy Earth
as they choose to expand personal
and corporate materialistic “wealth”.

Others are born to be entertained by,
and sometimes envious of,
these violent stories
of capitalistic rape
and plunder.

Multicultural dreams of inclusive democracy,
expanding throughout all cooperative economic strata,
encompassing all politically engaged genders,
all nations and tribes,
all positive energy systems
to regenerate a global health network
of wealthy freedom
for all interdependent creatures
globally here below,
and those who fly,
and revolve,
and generate light
power
energy,

These are ancient
indigenous dreams
of non-addicted trust,
non-dualistic Truth,
polycultural free-trade outcomes
for EarthDwellers,
EarthPatriots
EarthLovers
EarthSabbath Worshipers.

Regardless of age
gender
race
left-brain dominant enculturation,
colonizing violent history,
capitalism’s win/lose supremacist games,
energy’s zero-sum secularizing theology,
degenerative ecological fears
and angry
unfree
fossil fuel addiction,
consumer-driven overpopulation,
lack of freedom to sleep safely,
to live healthy outside
in familial communion
with Original Sacred EcoFeminist Earth,
etc.

The Dali Lama,
born to sainthood?
a view I doubt he would support,
says his religion is kindness.

Perhaps his spirituality
resonantly respects EarthMother’s kindness
and unkindness–
much easier to do outside
than inside a dimly addictive
unfree temple.

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Don’t Give Up

Don’t give up
on precise strategic resilience
and passionate communitarians
winning here and winning now,
now already won here
with and for those with 20/20 sight
hearing
thought with feeling,

Do give up blaming
only your own internal addicted climate
without also shaming your medicine-pushing society
of left-hemisphere verbal violent domination.

Do give up blaming just your ego
for self-medicating.
Medications, intended for ego- and eco-healing,
can become addictions,
sources of longer-term ego v eco-pathology.

Do give up substances
originally nurturing medication
and now become toxic starving addiction.

Do take up
addiction to water
and organic tea
sipped from ceramic mugs
and cups
and delicate shells
of creatures addicted to saltwater.

Do become addicted
to vigorously cleaning up
shaking out
cleverly planting resonance
carefully harvesting resilience
nurturing
giving and receiving health care
for and from
your eco-politically connected environment
habitat
Earth.

Don’t give up
worshiping Earth.
I’ve never heard of pathological side-effects.

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