As I grow older
I grow colder
but also bolder
not due to insufficiency of too quickly passing time
but just the opposite,
a growing feeling that time invites our multiculturing sufficiency
necessary for suppressing younger monoculturing addictions.
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Original Invitations
Rather than Ten Commandments,
beginning with loving YHWH,
iconically accessible and yet mysterious
as ecosystemic Earth,
Native Americans
and perhaps all original people
mutually deploy Original Instructions,
both matriarchal and patriarchal,
intended to become prescriptive
only as the Golden Rule of cooperative learning
grows descriptive for each one listening
for how these creation and self/other management stories
inform our days and nights
as naked immigrants invited on and in this Turtle Island.
These creation instructions, not commandments,
begin with Gaia’s invitation
to do as She loves,
to scatter our best seeds
rooted in healthiest nutritional needs
to follow where and only as long as these grow,
developing seeds of their own to further compost scatter
and to avoid those which ossify
into full-blown egocentric
ethnocentric
anthrocentric addictions,
hoarding out what began as healthy need
and grew to dominate our habits of mind and body
becoming capitalizing wealth through pirating
what began as good times
as good seeds
but turned into transparent addictions
to self-powering over Earth’s nature,
Original Invitations to health as wealth,
and not texts and LeftBrain lists and lexicons
of not all that original commandments
to violently hoard fertile wealth
as if this were healthy self-wealth esteem.
Grace can only be truly heard as sacred invitation.
To listen for love as a command,
whether from self or God or other or Earth
as one whole deep and richly wise ecosystem,
sets up a double-bind
competing cooperation competition
between need and emerging addiction to self-idolatry,
between enslavement and self-serving aristocracy,
perennial addictions to overcoming aching loneliness,
rather than becoming cooperative rest,
listening for Earth’s invitations
into deeper and richer voiceless grace.
Doubling Boundaries
You had me at Aloha
all through Aloha again,
between banks of outdoor clouds
sailing sigh,
some lighter whiter
faster,
some darkly starkly stable
yet even these passing through
this invite and disinvite Aloha
You greet me as Shalom
through our health as wealth commencement,
fleeing indoor fleecing fleeting noise
for outside peace
flights of radiant fancy
seeing colors inside out
where we belong
in our less seething sheathed Shalom.
Are we only our indoor voices
ending at odds with where resonance begins?
Our outside voices
ending eventually within,
evenly without,
within and between
clouds both bright and dark.
Laundering Her Accounts
New England’s late May sun was long up,
and yet her laundry began to unfold
and clip onto the droopy clothesline,
while yet to warm into 8 AM.
She wore a light spring jacket
and need not think long
about why and how much of water
she consumed each day
each month
each year.
These numbers are written on ledgers of her mind
and asset hanging body.
Food
and heat
and phone service,
electricity
and water
and even some of her compost.
All off-site store
and on-line purchases.
Balancing thoughts nutritional,
sometimes toxic piles of consuming laundry lists
from diverse and fragrant markets.
This was an easy stroll
down double-entry accountability lane
compared to thinking through what she had produced.
Which reminded her to breathe
and about air.
The good air she had breathed all year.
She had no bill for services rendered,
in large part by the trees,
but the ecology and chemistry are complicated.
Still, no bill.
And what about all the bad air she had produced?
No one seemed likely to repay her.
At least not with kindness.
Yet she had also produced some good air,
and so had her daughters and sons.
And she had produced them,
without as much help as she might have preferred
for so much poopy laundry.
Come to think of it,
no one had sent much of anything
for her investments in retaining this planet
with capacity for self-naming Earth,
or any other name either
as far and deep as she could linguistically foretell.
She didn’t bring home a paycheck anymore.
That could have been a measure of her production value.
Yet she was not so sure
which part of all those hours
and years
would end up on the positive regenerative asset side
of self and other investing income
and how much was more degenerative and toxic.
Both trends paid the same in cash,
but not within her warm-washed heart.
This was her accounting problem.
She could measure consumption with her mind and body
but she wanted to balance her production values
and disvalues with her heart,
maybe only because her mind could not wrap around
the positive and negative productive garnering numbers.
What did she produce in healthy amounts?
Too much clean laundry or not enough?
And what else might she over-produce
in toxic overpopulating quantities?
Is this all her kids could be and hope for?
Her contribution to inhumane overpopulation
to further deteriorate Earth’s healthier climates.
What futures would these well-worn clothes cover?
This must not be enough.
So she talked and listened with other women she knew,
including her mother and grandmothers,
but also her daughters,
about how they cooperatively and competitively approached
their double-entry accountability issues.
One grandmother
made a conserving assumption
that all her breath was wasted,
so entered her heart-felt numbers
on Earth’s negative side–
we are intrinsically bad for other nature-spirits.
But also made her balancing assumption,
all her intakes of cash were sufficient in return.
An even exchange,
positive feedback capital
balancing all her bad breath outflow.
Her clothesline
carried only her own clothes.
Her other grandmother
spoke of a rule
her mother taught and listened to tape-measure through each day.
If she had some negative feedback to invest,
it must wait until she had completely played out
any positive feedback
she could honestly express.
In this way she could predict
her positive productions
at least 0-sum balancing
with her negative airs
and positions,
policies and partnerships,
pairs and repairs of pants and socks
and other relationships;
her economic and political productions
across her project lifeline.
She said her goal was to consume
at least as wisely balanced as she produced,
to give at least as well as she had taken.
Her daughter went on-line
to frame a women’s global cooperative.
And then she quantified her negative consumptions
of mind and body
against and with her positive heartbeats and breaths,
to see and hope and hypostatically hypothesize
thermodynamic ecopolitical balance
as 0-sum WinWin
cooperative ego/eco-systemic balance,
slow-growing her matriarchal cooperative laundry ownership
of this women and allies cooperative
transfer and exchange market
for healthier global climates.
She followed her daughter on-line
to co-mentor with her global sisters,
and allies,
how we can add and subtract,
divide and multiply
our cooperative positive mutual dividends
invested for each other
more than WinLose against.
This did not necessarily resolve her ecological balance sheet
but her daughter’s on-line cooperative intention and outcome bank
of entries,
nested by individual within local bioregion,
did resolve and resonate with her accounting
by double-entry
regenerative v degenerative 0-sum balance issue.
Now what was in and on her heart and breath,
was also expanding out through cooperating breasts and chests,
WinWin more than competitive WinLose.
What continued in patriarchal Washington,
and other capital-consuming cities,
hoarding breath ’til smoke-filled blue
denying Earth’s climating pathologies,
faded back somewhat from terrorizing view
because this hoarding vision of contemporary history
was no longer the only cooperative-competitive game in town,
and across Earth’s matriarchally treed forests,
networks,
embryonic organic networks,
regenerative and decomposing lines,
perennial spirals
recycling productive Yang with cooperative consuming yin-fractal DNA
seasonal 0-sum
WinWin reiterative primal relationships,
double-positive-binds,
not just light
but bright,
not just love
but polypathic beloving matriarchal communities
of and for healthy accounting balance sheets,
hung out to dry
on this sunny warm breeze May day.
Conversion Therapies
I could not support a ban on Conversion Therapy
to change gay into straight,
spirals into lines,
because I believe we should each be free
to pay for any alternative languages
someone might be prepared to make
and write
and speak,
with self-marketing audiences to listen
with therapeutic outcomes genuinely preferred.
If some unhappy gay person,
or lesbian longing to be not,
remains willing to invest in persuasions
to switch teams,
transfer and exchange identities,
then that’s a high risk investment
that will die its own ego-exhausting death
when conversion
levels into diverse reversions
and/or some depriving perversion of healthy cooperating love,
or inversions into repressive silos called despair
and, more likely, some of all
of the above.
But, conversion therapy for unhappy gay to happy straight
only if this becomes equally available
accessible therapies
for unhappy straight toward happy gay,
for if it can work
to teach someone into a different dominant identity,
then it could work both ways,
more bisexually.
And, if conversion therapies can,
they should,
to be fair to all those unhappy
with their current team,
or teams,
preferably multiculturing toward health,
rather than monoculturing toward further climates of pathology.
Then we might invite further Conversion Therapies.
Unhappy Conservatives
becoming wealthier quasi-progressive
Earth natural-spiritual residents again,
and vice versa,
except more ecotherapeutic conservators
of regeneratively full-steamed life.
If all it takes is investing in some therapist
to convert my unhappiest attributes
into those that would make my new best ecopolitical day,
then such therapy should not just be free
from gay to straight
and straight to gay
but equally persuasive
for all now feeling out
wanting more in toward sane integrity.
But, investors beware,
we have had many WinLose Therapists
for unhappy powers to become more capital rich,
yet only few narrow WinWin unhappy rich
to become more simply and contentedly reinvesting
away from larger WinLose anti-therapeutic tragedies.
The larger WinLose therapeutic sector
has best outcomes
only for already full-played out entrepreneurial change agents,
and their larger scale not-so-therapeutic marketers
of further competitions
within and between
our diverse unhappy identities.
Conversion AntiTherapy
would be so funny
if not so ecopolitically tragic.
Like Riding A Bike
What do I nurture?
And what do I try to control?
Do I control what I nurture?
Do I nurture control?
And what about freedom
and spontaneity?
Can I control nurturing random choices,
expressions,
entertainments,
performances,
transactions,
relationships?
How much is too much control,
no longer nurturing wealth as health?
What do we nurture through our controlled investments?
Our transactions?
Our daily relationship choices
on through to our annual self-taxing and re-assessment relationships?
And what do we try to control?
And do we control that we nurture healthier candidates
rather than more pathologically armed pirates
of and for our attention retention?
When riding a cooperative intended horse,
I nurture direction by invitation.
Our shared control
is through mutual continued re-invitation,
reweaving of cooperative intents and purposes
to continue our epic adventure
together.
Until we grow time to nurture rest
and control our thirst
and our complex hungers
for yang’s control
with and as
yin’s nurturing complicity.
ReCreating MaryJuanita
I noticed that one of the Kennedy patriarchs,
probably a Joseph or John or Ted
or Tim or Matthew or Mark or Luke,
Why do they all begin to look and sound the same to me?
Anyway, one of these informed and educated and good guys
responded to decriminalizing ingestion of THC,
cautioning us regarding potential public health hazards.
While I share some of these bleary and yet specific concerns,
Mr. Kennedy and I do seem to view these potential pathological influences
through two quite different frames of reference.
He approaches dangers of THC influence
in contrast to a population that would otherwise presumably ingest
organic goat’s milk and wild honey.
I see the prospects for a THC cooperative addicted society
in pleasant contrast
to our current alcohol degenerative indigestion
addicted to bipolar competing ecopolitical disculturation.
From a public health perspective,
given only a choice between THC or alcohol decriminalization,
the evidence of history appears to vote
for the more regenerative THC.
Now,
if we could addict honey bees to THC pollen,
and goats to voraciously forage on marijuana fibers,
and we became the land of goat milk and THC honey;
that, I suppose,
would be so much more
our healthier wealth of opportunity.
A Social Complex
What is social complexity?
asks and answers Robert Wright
which also reads just as right as
What is regenerative density?
to me
and perhaps to Bucky Fuller,
and then again Gregory Bateson’s
What is sacred ecology?
comes to reweave Laotse’s
What is self/other-regenerative abundant flow of governance?
Mr. Wright
looks back to Mr. Leslie White:
“Cultural [and economic and political and psychological] evolution,
he (White) announced,
could be measured by a single [appositional]gauge,
calibrated in terms of [regenerative/degenerative] energy.”
Mr. Wright,
quoting Mr. White-Wright creolization,
“[Multi]Culture develops
when the amount of energy harnessed
[net produced-regenerate/consumed-degenerate]
by man [and woman and all EarthTribes and Earth and all healthy developing/maturing/aging organic systems]
per [(0)-Sum WinWin] capita
per year
per life
is increased [more cooperative WinWin than competitive WinLose]”;
Mr. Wright,
about Mr White,
“He virtually equated cultural evolution
with the [ecopolitical] evolution
of [positive-WinWin/negative-WinLose] energy [self-regenerative] technology.
The [regenerative integrating-nurturing] efficiency
with which [positive] energy is captured [harvested, cooperatively invited]
and employed [co-invested]
wasn’t just a cause,
or a gauge,
but the [winwin-both/and with either/or bilateral] cause,
and the [bicameral balancing] gauge,
of [ecopolitical] [multi]cultural evolution.”
What is Earth’s ecopolitical creolizing-democratizing complexity?
What is growing regenerative health-wealth density
while shrinking degenerative EitherOr LeftBrain deductive
Patriarchal Anthro-Elitist dominance?
When I want to hear more social complexity,
I stay inside and listen to the OldNews.
When I want to see and hear and smell more global regenerativity,
climate and landscape health and safety,
I step outside
and remain there as cooperatively as possible
for as long as possible,
and usually as silently as possible,
although singing and laughter and dancing are coopratively invited.
I cannot sustain an inside voice of War against Patriarchal Terrorists,
but I can maintain an outside voice of Nurturing
with Matriarchal-WinWin Cooperative CoOwnership.
Anthro-rhetorical complexity
and regenerative-integrity density
are the same organic-systemic becoming,
both Left-WinWin regenerative and ElderRight-WinLose degenerative-antipathic distrust and co-empathic-aptic trust
in DNA’s BiLateral-CoOperative Business As Usual
on and with and of and for ever more
Yin-matriarchal/Yang-patriarchal
regenerating ecopolitical density.
Quotes from Nonzero: The Logic of Human Destiny, p. 344, Robert Wright, 2000.
Why BlackWaters Grow BrownField Boundaries
If I have this right,
and I almost certainly don’t have this Left-Deductively right,
our Environmental Health and Safety Protection Agency
and our Public Health and Safety Education Department
have recently co-invested in BlackWater WinLose EcoPolitical Empowerment
through PublicSector Piracy…
No, honey,
not piracy…
privatization.
Well, yes,
privatization of public-sector cooperative health and safety regeneration
by contracting mercenary pirates of WinWealth for me
or LoseHealth for you.
Robin BlackWater stealing from rich Empire USA cooperative Original PublicSector Constitutional Intent,
to feed the poor starving NonElite military-industrial-educational-financial-insurance Elite BiggestWin for Upper Management and StockOwner Wealth
whether or not this is good for Earth’s ecological Regenerative-Cooperative Health and Safety.
Well, when you put piracy in that Robin BlackWater WinElite/LoseNonElite context, it feels appositionally reversed,
like you see piracy as robbing from the entitled rich
to not give out to the lumpenproletariat working-class farmers,
patriarchal hunters and matriarchal gatherers,
also bicameral LeftDeductive and RightInductive CoEmpathic Health and Safety Trust DNA-enabled,
but sometimes also concerned about their thin boundaries from conjoining the
even more NonElite LoseLose homeless and hungry.
Yes, well,
that is probably where this image of Robin BlackWater,
stealing from GreenEarth disenfranchised regenerative potential
to give us BrownField-growing cognitive-affective toxic dissonance
toward ecopolitical rabidity and military-industrial blasted overpopulation
further removed from potential health and safety WinWin cooperative PublicSectors
co-owning and managing polypathic fields
of co-empathic OriginalIntent endeavor.
My Robin BlackWater iconic images began with wondering why?
Why was BlackWater our obvious international nation-state choice,
whether you reside in the Americas,
or the MiddleEast,
or China,
or Africa,
our choice for subcontracting military-industrial WinLose responses to Piracy,
theft of health and/or wealth from Elite EcoPolitical Corporations,
both Public and Private,
Cooperative WinWin EnCultured and Competitive WinLose
Elite/NonElite
Patriarchal Fundamentalist Robin BlackWaters
not playing cooperatively-regeneratively nice with
Matriarchal Radical AntiRevolutionaries Loving SlowGrowth (0)-Sum EcoPolitical EcoJustice
Yang/Yin
EgoDeductive/Eco-Inductive Integrity Health and Safety CareFlow,
Owned and Administered for Left/Right Health and Safety
Dominating Peace and Internally Equivalent RightBrain Integrative EcoJustice.
Then I realized that BlackWaters,
to create nothing more than new BrownFields
throughout what was MultiCulturing Green/Blue AquarianEarth,
are the logical LoseLose firing line
when LeftBrain would rather DominateOver than DanceWith
RightBrain’s cooperative health and safety public/private sector ownership
and management of WinWin co-regenerating
democratic Elite/NonElite GreenEarth Health and Safety PublicSector constitutions
of humane-divinely nondual co-arising
Mutual Left/Right Assured Health and Safety Optimization,
rather than more BlackWater WinLose Mutual Piracy Destruction.
This way of seeing BlackWater
as WinLose PrivateSector Piracy Experts
flirts with LeftBrain ElitistDominance of PolyPathic WinWin TruthClaims,
yet is neither intended or accepted
as merely another paranoid conspiracy theory
about the bad old Capitalist PrivateSector Elite
grabbing hard-won exhausted dollars
from the poor little lumpenproletariats,
provoking their fears of themselves becoming terrorized and enslaved homeless and hungry pathetic alcoholics
addicted to RealityShows with WinLose ethically ambiguous,
and therefore smuggly humorous,
emotionally positive-deviant outcomes
so long as our Elder RightBrain remembers to identify
only with the Elite,
and not so much the loser nonelite also ranWin to eventually Lose
rational-enlightening egoLeft/ecoRight-consciousness,
balancing cooperative visibility.
Alright love,
but I do worry about demonizing BlackWater
for so successfully becoming what our WinLose U.S. EcoPolitical Elite
AND cooperative NonElite have supported,
prevailing WinHealth Cooperative Ownership and Upper-Management
as Fully EcoLogical Wealth through LongTerm LowerManagement disinvestment from PreExisting Pathology Expenses.
After all,
isn’t that the only way for Elite PrivateSector health and safety corporations to grow further TopHeavy HealthyWealth?
You know what Jesus said,
the rich should get richer
and the poor will inevitably WinLose down to ecosystemic poorer.
Yes, well,
he more likely said
Blessed are the PeaceWaters
for they shall inherit this BlueGreen Aquarian Cooperative Earth.
I would not demonize BlackWaters by becoming my avatar of Global PrivateSector WinLose Piracy
upon NonElite PublicSector cooperative ecopolitical Original Intent.
Perhaps it would help if you could move on from what you don’t intend,
to more positively state what you do more regeneratively WinWin intend.
I think we could be more cooperatively WinWin productive
by unveiling how we see our diverse ecopolitical hierarchy,
our health and safety care as WinWin regeneratively optimal
and WinLose degenerative-dissonant piracy, predation by mercenary transfer of WinWin responsibility to WinLose competitive authority structures
with inevitable recycling of degenerating pathological climates
chaotically and often violently erupting LeftBrain competitions
struggling against
RightBrain bilateral Elite/NonElite CoEmpathic ReGenerative CoMentorship.
Elder RightBrain’s Original Health and Safety Protection Cooperative
can only become WinWin owned and contractually LeftRight eco-managed
therapeutically rotating economic/political healthwealth consumer resources
with cooperative (0)-sum production
of global GreenEarth self-regenerative balance–
not so much BlackWater to BrownFields Piracy
of lumpenproletariat co-investors.
Praying with Heschel
“To escape from the mean and penurious [competitions],
from calculating and scheming [WinLose Gaming],
is at time the parching [integrative healthy] desire
of [ecopolitical LeftBrain Dominant] man [sic]…
Prayer [RightBrain ecoconsciousness] clarifies
our [ego/ecotherapeutic] hope and intentions.
It helps us discover our true [maturing polypathic] aspirations,
the [monoculturing] pangs we ignore,
the [multicultural] longings we forget
[to expand our ego’s monocultural identity].
It is an act of self[ego]-purification…
It [regeneratively] teaches us what [both Earth and Ego] aspire to,
implants in us the ideals we [DNA/RNA health-wealth encrypted] ought
to cherish
[with even more endo/ecto-symbiotic moral integrity
of self-optimizing ego-health
as Earth’s perduring regenerative wealth].”
[Sorry, Abraham,
my LeftBrain always has to have the last bracketed word.]
No worries.
Enjoy your self-and-other perpetuating Sabbath.
Quotation is from The Wisdom of Heschel, p. 206.
