Queer Music

They lived across from each other
on and off the center floor dorm hall,
both on the much discussed
controversial LeftWing side.

Yang perused Yin’s CDs,
“I see you like that queer music,
Elton John
and Luther VanDross
and George Michael.
I didn’t notice that before.”

Yin responds quietly

I don’t believe music is gay or straight,
but most everything related in-between
harmonic and dissonant,
diminished and replenished.

Lyrics may be queer or predictable
but usually flow well
either way
telling co-relating creation stories
of nature’s neural positives
and negatives
surfing back and forth
in and out
before and after
here and there
now and then
and yet to climax
polypathic health
as polyphonic wealth.

But, Second,
Feels to me all music,
maybe all muses,
are queer
when I think holistically about it,
verbally thought and non-verbally felt,
internally touched

By a rhetorical moment
we curiously know as music
without noticing how radically unlikely
regenerative processes
compassionate evolutions
could ever reproduce such homo-ingenious sounds,
epic original empathic creations
and co-empathic octaved recreations
within such a LeftBrain heterosexual white privileged
RightWing capitalistic
narcissistically greedy
UnQueer Marching Against
the Great Historic/Futuristic muse and prophets
of harmony,
despite dissonance,
despite fading resilience of Baby Xers,
polyphonic yin-mused light,
despite polynomial not not
climate of touch and feel dualdarkness.

Meanwhile Yang
couldn’t hear too well
since opening the window
facing spring
to a cranked up RocketMan,
while athletically dancing to hot not unqueer music,
and Yin’s ears swayed tenderly after and before
queer musing
straight talk.





Classroom Loser

She intended to teach history
of philosophy,
but no history-buffed
economic or political listening philosophers signed on.

So, s/he decided to try
an empowerment class on ecological
and historical interrelationships
as found in systematic multicultural theology,
but no polycultural theologians
with divine win/win synergetic communication experience
came to actively listen
to and for each sacred Others’ feeling

So, s/he offered a space
for polypathically cooperative economists
to speak ecosystemically
among our nutritional health-networking selves,
as both teachers and listeners,
speakers and readers,
but too late–
All her potential consumer/producers
were busily writing
and marketing their own autonomously competing passions
and dispassions,
posting multi-sensory courageous
and curious selfies.

So, s/he opened a blogsite
to facilitate sharing and telling
compassionate historical creation stories
of ecological
theologically multicultural
mutually cooperative WholeEarth-gaming communication

And that was the last robust ecopolitical co-investment
and first we’ve heard
from him and her
ego and eco
left and right
western capitalistic patriarchal culture
still speaking evangelically up and out
with yang-outdoor bipolar shouting privileged voices,
and eastern compassionate inside
healing dipolar co-arising
feeling/thinking choices.

Although now lost in complexity
of robust nutritional life,
I’m fairly sure
EarthMother originally intended to teach history
of emotion-listening philo/sophia,
but no history-buffed
bilaterally listening philo-sophiers signed on
to notice her diverse sensory-neural climates.


Changing Thought Systems

It is known throughout Earth’s anonymous
unanimous Commons,
Systems are hard to change.

The more macro-competitive,
The more difficult of all conversion stories

Over pernicious decades,
We tend to add “isms”
to pathological ends
of these global systemic issues.

This polyculturalistic/multiculturalism suffix,
negative appendage,
suggests a pejorative problem
of systemistic stuckness,
where once may have lived
a potential for positive
polypathic and polyphonic change
toward Earth’s greener,
more flexible,

Ism labels warn of possible toxic contents
including racism,
of course,
and white privileged patriarchalism.

These two appear to be old friends,
as do colonialism
and Catholicism
and globalism
and monotheism,
often hiding diverse and sundry mob-rule
in sinister shapes
of secular poly-tickle-listic hyphenated atheism.

Other systemic cousins
on my networking mind
are liberalism
and capitalism
and communism
and socialism
and fundamentalism
and dualism,
separating spiritual development opportunities
from natural undevelopment risks.

Sometimes, though,
usually when I am not in crisis
but feeling emotionally vulnerable anyway,
I wonder if these impenetrable global
and nationalistic
systemic issues could call out
and in
for healthier cooperative thinking.

Not a direct assault on,
most certainly not a war against,
exterior competing systems,
But a more indirect dialogue
inviting a change in individual
and familial
and indigenous communal thinking
about win/win systems.

This cooperative bilateral thinking
scientists have labeled systemic thinking
and multicultural artists have seen and heard
smelled and tasted
touched and felt
sung and danced
as Earth ecosystemic feeling of interdependent living

integral journeys toward global meta-systemic utopia,
where naturally perfect systems thinking
syncs with
spiritually pure communion feeling.

For example,
patriarchalism becomes,
in this explicit in-between double-bounded way,
not only a chronic risk to Earth’s survival
but also an immediate everyday opportunity
to imagine aloud,
to touch with voice and hand,
to walk boldly, sometimes baldly, with feet and mind

Into a ZeroCore place
where two or more overpowering competitive Yangisms
might change evolutionary to revolutionary directions,

Directions revolutionary to evolutionary change might
grow toward one or less
matriarchal cooperative ZeroZone
of Yinistic integrity
for rebirthing regenerational
resonant happiness,
healthier nests,
wealthier eggs,

Synergetic seeds, all about potentiating possibilities
bilateral-fractal DNA discernment systems
thinking about what we are more health-cooperatively feeling

Change for wealthier harmonic becoming ecofeminist
less patriarchal,
so more yang-enthusiastically matriarchal.

Within these boundaries of vulnerable dialogue,
what have appeared to be static constipationisms,
mutual opportunistic issues,
also feel unveiled yin-flow nutritionistic
toward cooperatively appositional opportunities
to feel internal spiritual transactions,

into natural potentialistic,
not so much transcendently spiritualized isms,

Instead, macro-global systems
of Yang’s golden meta-health network
polypaths traveled,
Polyphonically felt absence
of perennially unfree spiritualisms,
primarily and primally due to a collective change of nutritional thinking
in systems growing healthier.

Cooperatively realistic lives
more powerful than competitive unreal estateisms,
acquired ownership of ismic properties
impregnably fragmented plots
and states of suspiciously marginal boundaries

By left-brain dominant apartheid thoughts
overpowering right-brain co-prominent organic nurture-systems
touching realistic baptismal waters plenty warm
and not yet boiling over power.

More transystemically webbed
natural spirits
than monoculturally walled

Nature against
co-passioned spirits
with ecological/theological integrity
changing meta-thought systems
felt as holistic networks for well-being.


Cooperative Learning

I think
and feel
it would be a good
and healthy change
if schools,
at all levels,
and parents,
of all nations,
taught our young
more about win/win cooperative
thrival passions
than win/lose competitive
survival dispassions.

Even better,
and more urgently primal,

We might become a good
and healthy climate change
if students and teachers
and children and parents
and listeners and preachers,
followers and leaders
listened to our young and old
with more win/win compassionate hugs
than win/lose competing survival detachments,
disconnected abuses
learned through lifetimes of wounds
and non-win/win potential integrity

Deeply and widely learned
from struggling unfree parents
and robotic behavior-commodified,
multiply and then divide,
left-brain dominant teachers
and schools
and monocultures
and nationalistic nonself-governors.


SuperIntentional Perry

I know you were intending
to facilitate an adult faith formation
discernment process
appropriately resonant for AllSouls,
here today
lingering tomorrow
and reborn memories of yesterday,

Then this process seemed to disappear,
Which seems curiously queer,

So, I am wondering if it is too late
to volunteer
to help facilitate
an Integral Permaculture Design
toward holistic, and interdependent,
universal and unitarian
Faithful Healthy-Wealth Formation,

A searching integrity process
designed to regenerate co-equal
health and faithful climate therapists
for transparent and vulnerable indoor places
and outdoor non-violent communicating spaces
to grow green resilience inside/outside together

If I might help
don’t hesitate,


Gerald O Dillenbeck, MDiv, MPA,
Green STEAM Teacher Certified
to facilitate public healthy-faith resilient research
and multicultural re-occupations

Still universal YangLeft
co-operative with
unitarian YinRight

Ego/Eco balancing
facilitating integrity’s win/win
self/other-optimizing opportunities.



Everything growing so wild
and faithfully beneath
the sky,
wondering why we are the terrible
part of creation

Yang privileged
to refuse our yin-feminist flowering,
our own more cooperative ownership
and transparently universal management
of yang wants,
diseased not wants,
with, and not against,
yin wealthy yet non-elite

Now suppressed absence
of healthy resilient
green echoing eco-school


Safe Home

SafeHome is not so much a real place
as a destiny longed for
on our lifetime journey toward dynamic well-being,
too healthily robust to fear growing homeless and friendless.

SafeHome is not an unchanging Paradise,
statically without resonantly changing,
slow-turning nutritious seasons,
ups and downs,
ins and outs.

Such conservative stability, uniformity
could never be my red-blooded idea
of brilliantly resilient Heaven.

So, when Earth’s climate pressures,
internally and externally competing
to my point of ego-aggression,
notice chronic stress climbing up my back
and shoulders,
brain stem and frontal cortex
concerned about politically left and personally unself-righteous depression,

When cynicism about never ever loving enough WinWin RealTimes
Real cooperative integrity walks
into co-passioning solidarity,

Then my SafeHome destined child and parent voices
prefer WinWin economic ecological sanctuary
removed from WinLose habitual habitats,
dissonant stuckness
never ever feeling like healthy SafeHome resilience.

Homes resonantly sustained
First, by dynamic cooperative resonance
with all EarthTribes
occupying cooperative health vocational preoccupations

And, Second,
actively seeking sanctuaries cooperatively facilitating,
fueling ongoing multicultural nutritional development

HealthyWealth SafeHomes
plant and harvest socially compassionate,
interdependent health-resonant relationships,
polyculturally resilient,
spiritually and naturally polypathic, nonsectarian,
democratically positive energetic, dynamic systems
forming SafeWombed
universal inside survivor memories
of cooperative sanctuary, originally outside warm wombs

From SafeWombs
emerge WinWin infants, then young and free children
who become WinWin parents and teachers and gratitude preachers,
eco-listeners and ego-speakers
longing for compassionately cooperative SafeHome returns,
pilgrimages toward universal solidarity,
unitarian SafeHome interdependence.

A long strong ZeroZone SafeHome
for robust reunification
within EarthTribe graced communions, healthy
green cooperatives,
permaculturally wealthy
deep learning lifetimes
for green STEAM educational placements,
safe ZeroBalancing carbon-based residencies
in WinWin learning civilizations.