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Funner to be Kind

Sublime unitarian longings
stewed in outdoor green/blue sunshine
produces universal solitude belonging

Within this green/blue
multiculturally resilient solidarity
I likely feel compassionate warm win/win
communication in/on Earth’s most gracefilled
vocationally sacred shared
interfaithed intent

To find every day
with green
ecofeminist allies,
mother tree nutritional systems designers
and other sacred indigenous grandmothers

Wisdom camouflaged in nonempires of translucent peace
warriors of subconscious anonymity
two-sided waiting for sufficient deep
and wide,
power
and light sounds

Of ultra nonviolet circles
spectrals pristinely nonviolent
unclapping
unwhistling
uncalling
unspeaking
unseeing
unhearing
untasting
unhistoric

Resiliently compassionate unattachment
yet re-membering ego

Individualistic Yang autonomous
competitive
without sufficient Win/Win Yintegrity

Longing for immortal resilience
yet competitively extracting capital
for furthering patriarchally red
monoculturing led
ecofeminist hunts,
predative multigenerational identity strings
of sounded white male straight things
reactively unregenerative

Punishing
revengeful empty of heart
competitive mind Win/Lose monotheistic Path
Devolutionary Lose/Lose devoted
to long-term Death Culture
as a necessary unnatural evil
for short-term capitalized spiritual gains

Desecrating Green/Blue EarthHealth
dividing secular new/from sacred old
deals co-invested in gospel recommitment
redemption

Post-millennial
post-pandemic
post-climate trauma
ego-salvation

Engaged InterFaith EarthVocations
for ecosystemic power and light
cooperative democratic,
not quite so relentlessly RightWing
LeftBrain overpoweringly autocratic,

Indigenous green wisdom
about interfaith power and lights
steer multigenerationally generously wide
of further Business Ain’t Pretty
unnecessary win/lose compromises
between business bottom green ecological lines
and religious upper
outer blue/green recycling
revolving horizons
theological

Sublime unitarian longings
natural power and spiritual light stewed
in sufficient gratitude
for outdoor green/blue solitude
reproducing universal co-invested peace
through everyday grace,
CoPassionate BeLonging.

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ReCounting Wounding Costs

I know what it costs
to parent a tyrant
24/7
52 weeks/year
and yet avoid judging,
feeling guilty,
self-blaming shame
for all I am not sufficient,
yet.

I remember learning curious distinctions
between genuine remorse
given, when LeftBrain verbally requested,
yet without RightBrain capacity
to feel even the least caring difference
between natural brown girl
and spiritual white light shame

Self blame
for why that dinnerplate
smashed so frighteningly
against my dining wall
as if my fault
my adopted child’s sense
of dad-adapting ownership,
or even complexly confusing
bipolar mixed
temporal-historical management messages
about imaginary aggressive causes
predicting unprecedented economic
and political family “out of the blue behavior,”
random effects,
effectively nurturing attention,
non-neglect,
more brown person privileged

Lack of win/win communication
not always transparently verbalize-disabled
and vulnerably, verbally examined
much less non-violently communionated.

Not until I 24/7 learned
such great sociopathic lose/lose
unfortunate chronic mental health events
are non-violently but impatiently stressed,
restrained perhaps
with short-term shunning
and close the safe-space door
temporarily dissociating–
no win/win co-adoptions
of dad-adapting co-empathic nonverbal behavior
accessible right leftbrain autonomously here
and rightbrain interdependent win/win now

Sending myself to my own private room
to re-imagine win/win multicultural remediations,
and positive psychology
ecology
neurological system restoring dreams
of Paradise Not
NonZero Souled Green
new deal rapturously global Peace
climaxing during my own aging green health inhaled
and re-inhaled
exhaling peronal EarthWealth
for feeding more resilient green summer leaves

Restoring
as Recommitting solidarity
as rebreathing solitude
reweaving

Recreating
redeeming
regenerating
re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-storing
re-integrating EarthGreenPeace
organically healthy medication
meditations
win/win Earth compassion practices
of good faith health system restorations

A little lighter thought
and more empowering feeling
active movement practicing
and even miming felt co-empathic needs
eco-politically green cooperative polypathic
EarthTribe Justice,
multiculturally polyphonic
non-verbal Language
not not double-positive co-binary

By pretending I am sociopathic her
10-year-old gay white male EarthMother
doing the best s/he patriarchally privileged can
campily dipolar Both/And re-enacting
what it might feel like
for the not so gayly old white mashed
patriarchally provisioned potatoes
to hit the battered ungrateful wall
clearly devoid of proper heterosexual
aggressively dominant appreciation
for warm buttery white unskinned

Smash! against the senseless floor,
wounded
mashed
bashed
smashed in a fetal curled up defensive mess,
writhing
and theatrically moaning,
one eye on the microphonic
monopolistic Voice of NonChoice
and the other on the bicameral rediscernment

Until she smiles.

Demands I rise again,
right here,
left together co-present now
ZeroSum terrified morally unsafe
reverse transitioned
so she can hug my steady white grand dad neck,
kiss my hope in “side with me, too”
and smarm my win/win resiliently hopeful forehead,
leaving her actively curious mark
on her brown-skin unmasked safe
and healthy communal territory,

Organic ego-gardening green deeding dad,
cooperative as win/win healthy
wealthy democratic Paradise

Which comes out leftbrain verbally,
“Can I maul your head?”
also might mean,
post critical non-cooperative climate event,
“Could we together head
toward the mall,
and co-invest in accessories?
Maybe makeup, soon? not soon enough?
which could only be rightHere/leftNow

A hair salon?
Something actually important
to a real brown-skinned bipolar egofeminist first person
sometimes critically living
in a reversed effects before narcissistic causes
world win/lose
zero-sum bottoms up
redhot
angry trapped wounded child view.

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SunLight SolAttitude

When my solitude
silently stands in sunlight
radiating GoldenRule enlightenment
and rational empowerment
through windows dawning bright,

A sharp shadow line
vertically cuts across my bridge
and brow of smell and seeing senses,

InBetween left within shadow
and right without radiance,
narrow sides of double-bonded Truth,
curious and hidden Beauty.

Right eye clearly articulating
bright prominent sight
dominantly lit up height
for best resonant enlightenment

Is blinded by bright
to not fight
automatic rays deflecting night,

While shadow Left,
not yet overpowered
with Right red-eyes blinded punishment,
benighted verbal authority,

BiLaterally
yet integrally knows he she sees
seas
and seasons dipolar co-arising contrast
best as starkest
never darkest
win/win economic dawning options
of BothLeft/AndRight gold radiating rain
in droughts known
through beatified non-pain,
bicameral light regained,
empowered feelings unslain

Again
full bicameral stereo polyphonic,
Radiantly healthy thoughts
not verbally sustained
without dark ultra winnings
winging out and in reimaged, full
golden silent solidarity
mountain-rivered,
ego-system eco-quivered,

Belonging to Earth committed bright
compassion soul
ZeroZone of full
new partial shadows
in light rememory,
undelivered solitude
for health safe night

When my solitude
silently stands in sunlight
radiating GoldenRule enlightenment
and rational empowerment
through this window just now dawning bright.

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Transcendent Taoists

Old Taoists,
anonymous
universally unanimous
unitarian EcoFeminists,
always degeneratively die
regenerating Transcendentalists

Of no practical use
to humanist Liberals
or theocratic Conservatives

Except as in-between green/red
non-violet ultra-transmediators
listening for non-violent trans-communicators,
democratic multi-dialoguers,
poli-empowering facilitators,
transcendental noticers,
witness to EarthTribe’s
Great Tragic/Comedic Transition

As seen and heard
smelled and felt
tasted and touched by AnthroTaoist
Transcendentalists

Still hanging in there
on ZeroZone ThoughtFull/MindEmptied
Phobic/NonPhobic
double-binary win/win
with OldSchool liberally conserving Tao RealTime
Health/Wealth co-arising transcendency analyzers

Anxiously anticipating multiculturally bicameral
transubstantiating cooperative feelings
absorbing
composting all kinds of multiculturing matters

Currently felt as degenerative
divisive
polarizing
partisan,
depressing
oppressing
suppressing
repressing
certainly not multiculturally impressing
Descendentalisms.

Becoming One/Zero
DoubleBoundaried Transcendentalists
more in love with Yang/Yin
deep exponential eco-political development
than Yang v Yin
widely divisive ego v eco-maniacal,
less than Whole GreenEarth
Transactional ReGenerativity.

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