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Nurturing PolyEmPathic Digestion

It feels sadly ironic,
and unwise,
to focus healthcare
on digestive system deliveries
to feed and water our bodies

And underinvest,
too rarely applaud
and enrich
nurturing nutrition communications
made through our neural-sensory systems
natural/spiritual health care deliveries
and wealth care receptions
from abundantly compassionate
panentheistic worldviews

In contrast
to nihilistically narcissistic
survivalist
monotheistically supremacist
supporting monoculturing
monopoizing LeftBrain dominance

Me v We ZeroSum
closed degenerating
segregating views

Of Earth’s health-fading
feeding bilateral watering systems,

Absorbing, then expunging
inhaled then inhaled
informing then exflowing
YangTruth in Yintegral co-arising Beauty

Universal/Unitarian
bicameral
Health/Wealth
integral TaoBalancing
inside sacred womb thru tomb
secular indigenously panentheistic
wisdom

To focus health/wealth care
on digest to co-invest system deliveries
to feed and water
our mindbody
spirit/natured EarthTribe
bicameral identities.

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Dominant Recessions

LeftHemisphere cultural dominance
is difficult to pedagogically say
without warm RightHemisphere nurturing
to win/win play
ecofeminist prominence

Each
and every Green EarthMother
cooperative day

Gathering in slow winds of resistance
fire circle disarray
gardening soils display
cleansing waters
repassioning souls foreplay

Singing Her circling say
“We Are Our WinWin World”
while easily dancing
this bicameral TaoWay.

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No Killer Skills Involved

No skills involved,
just natural instincts.

No spiritual development skills,
leftbrain worded messages
about rightbrain instinctive
natural/spiritual,
indigenously multicultural
yang-out/yintegrity resonance

Like singing and dancing,
sucking and copulating,
olding and young scolding,

Persistently historic resilient
LeftBrain verbal resonance,

Spacing and resilient timing,
short-term strengthening
long-run-on green
ego-cooperative
historic
yet microcosmic anthro-economics

Wellness-sung strong
and danced long-ecoflowing
dark sky charts
non-violet parts
of and for unstrictly feminist logic
with a green ecological swing,

Dropping her keys,
locking her knees,
ass out,
left shoulder prominently out,
open full disclosed QueenGreen Gaia,

Uncloseted,
uncovered,
temporally transparent,
vulnerable prime relationship

Non-verbal
non-violent
outrageously cooperative-inviting

Full-nonbinary spectral,
multicultural
“Think about it, grandpa,
remember, enjoy…”

But act out
only for restorative, cooperative rainbows
of healing
compassionate light
win/win ego/eco-systemic powers

Bicameral
bilateral
binomial
double-binary
not(not) ZeroSum
tipping points
of eco-politically nonviolent
communicating

In between
healthy/wealthy
co-passionate health
giving and receiving safety system
ecosystemic seasons
with theologically green progressive reasons

Light/dark
warm/cold
space/time
north/south
west/east
out/in
exhale/inhale
male/female
yang/yin
silent spring thaw/integral falling freeze
Tao NonZeroist Soul
dipolar co-arising

MultiCulturally inter-positive faith
reconnecting sacred/scienterrific
restorative win/win aspiring EarthJustice
vocational commitment
with economic co-investing intentional budgets
for peaceful green Earth resilience..

No special
sacred informational skills involved,
just natural spiritual
multicultural mediating
teaching
parenting
preaching
advocating
resisting
upstreaming win/win political dialogue
downstreaming cooperative capital discernment
ego/eco-budgetary

Singing humanely
while also dancing divinely,

Talking
while also chewing gum,

Bobbing your clueless white head
while whistling bird songs,

Everyday miraculous biosystemic
ecosystemic
HeavenlyParadise

Peacefully/pacefully resilient win/win
neurologically sacred
life systemic
polypathic
emigrating/immigrating
just plain old fashioned
bicamerally balancing
blessed
co-migrant instinct

No messianic green skills involved,
just natural/spiritual
indigenous
EarthCooperative instincts
to heal past wounds
is not to punish or reward
future patriarchal red
predative StraightWhiteMale privileged
primordial verbal and nonverbal competitive
survivalist weaknesses.

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ReCounting Wounding Costs

I know what it costs
to parent a tyrant
24/7
52 weeks/year
and yet avoid judging,
feeling guilty,
self-blaming shame
for all I am not sufficient,
yet.

I remember learning curious distinctions
between genuine remorse
given, when LeftBrain verbally requested,
yet without RightBrain capacity
to feel even the least caring difference
between natural brown girl
and spiritual white light shame

Self blame
for why that dinnerplate
smashed so frighteningly
against my dining wall
as if my fault
my adopted child’s sense
of dad-adapting ownership,
or even complexly confusing
bipolar mixed
temporal-historical management messages
about imaginary aggressive causes
predicting unprecedented economic
and political family “out of the blue behavior,”
random effects,
effectively nurturing attention,
non-neglect,
more brown person privileged

Lack of win/win communication
not always transparently verbalize-disabled
and vulnerably, verbally examined
much less non-violently communionated.

Not until I 24/7 learned
such great sociopathic lose/lose
unfortunate chronic mental health events
are non-violently but impatiently stressed,
restrained perhaps
with short-term shunning
and close the safe-space door
temporarily dissociating–
no win/win co-adoptions
of dad-adapting co-empathic nonverbal behavior
accessible right leftbrain autonomously here
and rightbrain interdependent win/win now

Sending myself to my own private room
to re-imagine win/win multicultural remediations,
and positive psychology
ecology
neurological system restoring dreams
of Paradise Not
NonZero Souled Green
new deal rapturously global Peace
climaxing during my own aging green health inhaled
and re-inhaled
exhaling peronal EarthWealth
for feeding more resilient green summer leaves

Restoring
as Recommitting solidarity
as rebreathing solitude
reweaving

Recreating
redeeming
regenerating
re-ligioning
re-connecting
re-storing
re-integrating EarthGreenPeace
organically healthy medication
meditations
win/win Earth compassion practices
of good faith health system restorations

A little lighter thought
and more empowering feeling
active movement practicing
and even miming felt co-empathic needs
eco-politically green cooperative polypathic
EarthTribe Justice,
multiculturally polyphonic
non-verbal Language
not not double-positive co-binary

By pretending I am sociopathic her
10-year-old gay white male EarthMother
doing the best s/he patriarchally privileged can
campily dipolar Both/And re-enacting
what it might feel like
for the not so gayly old white mashed
patriarchally provisioned potatoes
to hit the battered ungrateful wall
clearly devoid of proper heterosexual
aggressively dominant appreciation
for warm buttery white unskinned

Smash! against the senseless floor,
wounded
mashed
bashed
smashed in a fetal curled up defensive mess,
writhing
and theatrically moaning,
one eye on the microphonic
monopolistic Voice of NonChoice
and the other on the bicameral rediscernment

Until she smiles.

Demands I rise again,
right here,
left together co-present now
ZeroSum terrified morally unsafe
reverse transitioned
so she can hug my steady white grand dad neck,
kiss my hope in “side with me, too”
and smarm my win/win resiliently hopeful forehead,
leaving her actively curious mark
on her brown-skin unmasked safe
and healthy communal territory,

Organic ego-gardening green deeding dad,
cooperative as win/win healthy
wealthy democratic Paradise

Which comes out leftbrain verbally,
“Can I maul your head?”
also might mean,
post critical non-cooperative climate event,
“Could we together head
toward the mall,
and co-invest in accessories?
Maybe makeup, soon? not soon enough?
which could only be rightHere/leftNow

A hair salon?
Something actually important
to a real brown-skinned bipolar egofeminist first person
sometimes critically living
in a reversed effects before narcissistic causes
world win/lose
zero-sum bottoms up
redhot
angry trapped wounded child view.

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Silent UnPrivileged Stories

When I was a Big Brother
for Jason,
an African-American 10 year old male,
we went into his apartment
so he could look around
for a long overdue library book.

As I accompanied him
from room to sparsely furnished room,
looking in nearly vacant closets,
cupboards,
drawers,
the only book we found
was a phone book,
looking silently neglected
much more than actively abused.

My first white male privileged
feelings about his Mom
had to do with blaming her
for probably not even feeling ashamed
for her irresponsible choices
while economically and politically administering
their bookless house
in this pre-WWW information age.

But, then I began asking questions.
What could Jason tell me
about his Mom’s life
when she was his age?

What were stories
familiar to her,
read
or retold
or experienced
and re-experienced,
therapeutic or traumatic?

Through this widening narrative moment
of multigenerational conjecture,
hypothesis,
questioning,
contemplating,

I also learned to question
what traumatic straight white male stories
are experienced by gay
and bisexual
and transsexual 10-year-olds,
regardless of racial identification,

And by 10-year-old girls,
perhaps regardless of racial identification,
or even further amplified
by being doubly,
and silently, outside
straight white patriarchal privilege.

I found myself
suddenly
tearfully
incapable of briefly imagining
much less deeply,
unflinchingly contemplating
the trauma
of growing up poor
and lesbian
and black or brown
or too red
or too yellow
without any books
or stories,
read
or retold
or experienced
about how her 10-year-old life will matter,
could be healthy, someday,
would ever be felt safe,
unless held shamefully silent,

Not appropriate material
for books
or retelling
or experiencing straight
white
male dominant stories,
economic
and political narratives
about retributive trauma
and not multicultural
restorative
democratically inclusive therapy.

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Bad May Be Good, Someday

But probably not today
will positive neurological compassion
express without win/lose capitalistic traces
of intent,
expecting only win/win cooperative discussion
and deliberation
and bicameral discernment,
these eco-politcally empowering hopes
and dreams
and non-violent communication investments
will restore EarthTribal Peace

Earth MatriarchalPeace
is also positive
sacred ecofeminist
green power

Doors to Perception
Revolving changing nutritious light
communication
and nondualistic dark bicameral healthy memory

Restoring caretaking and caregiving EarthJustice
is also democratic grassroots inclusive energy,
positive and negative historic multiculturing/monocultural root systems.

Energy is
EmPowered Mass is
spatial place
and transportive time-power is political
whether involving the cooperative politics of a root system
or the more competitive politics of run-away monocultural
colonization by one species
against all polyculturing Other species,
cultures,
subclimates,
theocratic ecosystems,
Green Goddess YinRivers of Transport,
GrandMother Full/Empty MoonLight
SunLight ReSourced ReFlection.

Compassionate global win/win communication
light=energy=ecopolitical therapy opportunity
could restore health-optimizing EarthJustice,
multiculturally mediating EarthTribe Peace,
including GrandMother Moon,
both Full and Empty,
someday,
but not tonight.

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