Brown satin
and warm latin passions
unveil to reveal
a powerful white black tool
Polyculturally vulnerable
enlightening school
Multiculturally transparent
empowering rule
For reforming privileged sensory
thoughts
And reverse-flowing predative sensual
feelings.
A problem with breath-focused sitting
eyes hooded
closed down sensory receptor meditation,
in my peak omnipotent mindful experience
This inside passive form of seeking resilience
presumes we consistently care
about furthering our
health care vocations,
organically sacred to some,
merely biological to more chronically traumatized
emotionally challenged
by histories
of neglect
and/or multigenerational mysteries
of emotional/verbal
physical/nonverbal abuse
disregard
bullying
The opposite of nonviolent communication
to restore egojustice
and repair trauma damage
to panentheistic
yintegral ecopeace
Which is the opposite
of monotheistic
yang-supremacist ecocide
As enlightened resonance
of Sun Worship
is to dark dissonance
against Earth empowering
resilient Win/Win
health care meditation systems,
physically active
and metaphysically robust movement,
music,
mindful,
therapeutic empowering
co-passionate peak neurosensory
resilient inside/outside
meditation systems
for enlightening
co-empowering
exhausting, but not manic,
exhilarating, but sustainable
intense, but not anxious
anticipations of time-sufficient
left/right bicameral
thought/felt resiliently sacred
restorative justice
Organic co-passioning
timeless warm round
expansive light empowering
all forming and flowing
inter-religious interconnections
in-between natural/spiritual regenerations
of co-operative
co-governing
co-mediating
co-invested ecopolitical
robust and resilient
EarthTribe peace.
As she lays down her blue brush
in a blue-trimmed cream
dream stone basin
of darkening water
She realizes
inside voice has been thinking
about double negative paradox
as -x/-y
can’t win pathology
Of way too much Patriarchal Capitalist
dogmatic Business As Boorishly Usual,
monochromatic
monopolistic
monocultural
monotheistic
Describing
and prescribing her
BusyMess
is cruel
cold
calculating dismissal
disregard
don’t matter
Let her splatter!
while he eats
his white survival cake
Mindlessly unwoke
to future predative
desecration issues
promoting and marketing
trauma-inflation corporations
inviting frequent-flyer
evangelically missioned Narcissists
Who probably don’t think much
of a universal peak salvation experience
yet do feel deeply united,
maybe even energetically synergetic,
about their own sacred memories
of EarthMother’s original Win/Win
multi-colored co-invested
warm wet unconditionally cooperative
co-relationships
Through time’s changing
hue and culture and cry
LeftBrain verbally emerging
too dominant
Thereby, curiosity remains difficult to contain
to deeply listen for feelings to explain
this sound and sight for blue brushes
tinting her slowly turning water
growing
blueing
flowing sadly
back through Patriarchal
Capitalist
anthroprivileged time
Emerging blue
and grey
darkening ecocide.
Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories
Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives
Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!
Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.
My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition
Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair
Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress
All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide
Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah
Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.
My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories
Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…
Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated
Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang
AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions
Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares
Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice
Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again
BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity
Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.
Easy to get stuck inside
my heads outside
our neglected hearts
Breathing in and out togather
fumes of historically fueled
graphite sheeted walls
too all-encumbering to smell
as monoculturing trauma
Failure to wonder
nuanced appositional
non-positions,
bipartisanly dipolar
looking for mediating
median win/win dispositions
still felt alone inside
too all-encumbering
expositions
Cumbersome
for buoyant
unconditional gratitude,
sacred panentheistic regard
for MeWe potential co-passionate
co-investments.
Hard to remain unstuck
outside my self-too-serious walls
Outside my age-appropriately lust
for good-humored transparent
mind/heart bipartisan embodied
spirited natural bust
Inside my vulnerable skin,
sacred root bilateral
Bipartisan
Red RightWing integrity
of indigenously wise
bicamerally thoughtful
green positive feelings
Fresh transcending verbal-yang
and nonverbal-yin
Win/Win Green LeftWing Yang
either/or deficient
RightWing Resistance
to LeftBrain
both/and
magnificently efficient
1/0 co-binary
co-arising dipolar
Yang/Yin
Ego/EcoSystemic
BiNomial
polymathic universal
and polypathic unitarian
polyphonic octaves
of double-binding double-fractal
dialectical
health is social wealth
co-invested nutritional policy
PolyCultural resilience
non-violently win/win championed
power-with healthy bicameral democracy
for internal/external better homes and communities
Balancing inside-only
ego-claustrophobic
dissociative
Either/Or
Win/Lose
zero-sum thoughts
concerns
stressors
chronic leftbrain dominant trauma
Creolizing with GreenGaian
polytheistic
ecofeminist
polycultural
polypathic win/win
unconditional co-mediating regard
For both secular thoughts
and sacred 1+Yang/-(-0)Yin
root chakra
WuWei balanced
tipping point ego/ecosystemic balance
for co-governing health and safety
Co-arising
dialectical sacred circles
of regenerative communionation
DoubleFractal
bicameral co-binary information processing
co-passionate binomial win/win
co-binary resilient compassion structures
cooperative owned best
when indigenously managed
with ecofeminist L/R=1/0 co-empathic
ego/ecosystemic
trauma-informed
restorative ego/eco-justice
co-governing healthy democracy
Taoistically indigenous space/time
bicameral co-empathic wisdom:
Easy to get stuck inside
my heads outside
my own neglected
win/lose traumatized
RightBrain connected heart
Hard to remain unstuck
outside my self-too-serious
anthrosupremacist walls
to blessings
More universally sacred synergies
unconditionally EarthTribe co-invested
warm and joyfully trans-sectarian
copassionate regard
for unitarian health
and better LeftBrain verbally dominant
nonviolent safety
from further Win/Lose
polyvagally neuro-systemic
chronic genocidal lose/lose trauma
leading to ecocidal climate drama.
Lori Gottlieb
describes mental health mediators
and dream translators
prescribing more cost-effective therapeutic questions:
Who am I?
What do I want?
What’s in my natural health/spiritual wealth
bilaterally balancing way?
What do I want more:
to autonomously control
OR
to be part of some monopolizing,
possibly monotheistic, Thing
bigger than egocentric Me?
May morph
more effluently co-therapeutic
than affluent expertise advice
into:
What do I want
to safely control
AND YET ALSO
be part of some EarthTribe
polyculturally intelligent Relationship?
Healthier
more inclusive
and indigenous
and holistic
and organic
and resilient
than excluded
and punished
and wounded
and thereby imprisoned
and victimized Me
And my LeftBrain capitalized dominance
affluently attracts Gottlieb’s rational health
and safety questions
about wounded AnthroEgos
AND my RightBrain effluent impressions
of slow-growing ecopolitical affluent feelings
grow improved for win/win cooperative global thrival
midst monoculturing win/lose competitive survival
of local health and safety therapeutic improvement
as a resilient panentheistic stress-reducer
organically connected cooperative management
re-connecting
iEarthTribe inter-religious narratives
sacredly inviting
more effluent trickles
and streams
and rivers
and oceans
of EarthTribe living
loving indigenous waters
Descended from prehistoric
more polytheistic
matriarchal cooperative economies
of co-invested local democratic
domestic energy
Tipping toward Tao balanced
bilateral co-governance
healthy communing nutritional cycles
and recycles of ecofeminist
fertile restorative justice
regenerative healing wombs
also asking:
Who are sacred We?
feeling
when we most effluently
fluidly feel
and formatively think?
What does bicameral MeWe intelligence want?
What’s in our ancient monotheistic
anthrocentric
LeftBrain dominant
encultured win/lose dissociative
wounded
traumatized
stress-triggered
climate anxiety
Rabidly emergent RightWing
punishing
and excluding
and victimizing
denial of anthropocentric harm
and fundamental EarthHealth despairing
Lose/Lose polyvagal
neuro-systemic
binomially dissonant
+P v -NP
EitherLeftOrRight unbalanced
+1/-(-0)
BothLeftAndNotNotRight rebalancing
co-therapeutic Way?
Yang affluent
AND
Yin effluent
Ego/EcoTherapeutically
restoring personal secular Justice
AND BICAMERALLY COMMUNING
panentheistic
co-empathic sacred Peace
And maybe a little joy
now and then
becoming more faithfully
inclusively
restoratively
resonantly
resiliently
regeneratively frequent
Bicamerally communioning
co-arisingly dipolar
nonzero open
sacred
integral
WholeHolyHolonicEarth
Systemic eco/theo-logical
trust in therapeutic
not RightWing anthro-elitism
embracing
EarthTribe restorative justice
public health affluence
is also resilient sacred peace
public safety effluence,
reformatively reflowing political ego/eco-integrity,
co-empathic panentheistic compassion.
Unlike our left-hemispheres
taught
and monoculturally
RightWing capital over-invested
win/lose zero-sum assumptions,
Truly therapeutic
EarthTribe resilient polycultural wisdom
is more of an effluently joyful
Eastern bodhisattva peace-growing process
than an affluently measured
messianic critical judgment event
Which I believe
is what the New Testament
good news of Jesus narrative
is ego/eco-systemically
all Holy Nature/Spirited about
indigenously peaceful
Truth affluent
and sacred Beauty effluent,
definitely not RightWing
LeftBrain dominant,
wisdom.
My youngest
of three AfricanAmerican adopted sons
has profound nonwhite
nonstraight
nonverbal cerebral palsy.
Profound
in at least not being privileged
or victimized
by internal LeftBrain dominance,
violent micro-aggressions,
zero-sum competitive thinking
Either positively True and Good
or negatively False and Bad,
laughable
or humorless
Sacred indigenous consciousness
feels more Right-Elder brainstem
bodymind nondualistic synergy
friendly energy
which is my son’s political blessing
and his capital secularizing
segregating
colonizing
economic disabled curse.
Youngest son communes
with music
more fluidly co-empathic
than linguistic communications
He touches
and sings
and chants
through echoing shouts
and exclamatory barks,
short nonphonetic phrases,
lip smacking,
and belly laughs.
When he cries,
which is seldom,
he cries silently
No vocal cords
Profound inhaling wet gasps
and exhaling sad sacred shakes.
He laughs unconditionally
from his root chakra
warm unguarded soul
and cries
from his buddha
bicameral eyes.
Blank page syndrome
feels like full page longing
to be done with some work project
that will not slowly grow worthy
of my time
and certainly no captivated reader.
I feel victimized,
tortured, actually,
by blank page syndrome
Where I want to feel some opening
and rewarding opportunity
and not dull risk
of further unnoticed failure
to richly
and wisely communicate
warm and wild communion.
My blank pages
demand content
spilled across blue horizontal lines
with a red left side vertical
demanding
Demarking where orderly thought correctly begins
to unfold top left
unfurling cause effectively
sequentially
toward right bottom
Yet Left dominance
overpowers Right feelings prominent
circling and recycling
whirling and spinning
spiraling out of win/win control
re-membering risks
of nontransparent failure
falling brawly short
of both peaceful Truth
and vulnerable Beauty.
Yet a bleakly black blank canvas
with no red
or blue bicameral communion rules
or tools
feels most frightening
intimidating of all
unbalanced
anthro-privileged
vaporous calls
My
“I can’t draw,
or sketch,
or paint,
or write,
or sing,
or dance,
or speak out woke”
Can’t preach
or teach inside voices
ignoring outside echoing choices
to evoke
childish dreams,
daydream schemes
to become Earth’s greatest love
of blank paged warm regard
for how we flew
and walked
and swam
and grew to Here embodied
meets Now compassioned mind
Greatest
deepest
widest
trusted EarthBeauty
dipolar co-arising
all scared yet sacred Time’s unfolding
Win/Win regenerative
peaks and valley sand
defining ecstatic
aesthetic lines
refining intimate circling graced spaces
etched throughout
neuro-systemic elegant
multigenerational potential
Not not synergetic journeys
deeply and widely
back and forth
out and inside
polyculturing communion
While staring at this straight lined
and otherwise white privileged
square-cut manufactured page
Holding my green health hope
and content contented circling pen
praying for worthy inspiration.
I rediscover organic errors
hidden in co-gravitating
love language.
Gravity is easily noticed
as Apple falling toward Earth;
less visibly conscienced,
experientially remembered,
as co-gravitational
co-relational intent
As Apple’s ego-gravity core
falls drawn toward sacred Earth’s
Mothering womb
smothering tomb
once more
returning toward deeply divine
anthrosupremely verbal
overpowering EarthTribe core gravitas soul
slowly soaring
back down and out
into globally nutritional
seasonally appropriate
co-invested ecological
co-operative 7-regeneration
co-investment
From which this same sacred
co-gravitating Apple
dialectically
binomially
bilaterally
double-binary
co-empathically
historically
polyculturally potentiated
Organic life loves
win/win love
is not lose/lose
not not hate
Against continuously emerging
win/lose further obvious irresolutions
Like why we know Yang 1 Positive
dipolar co-gravitates
with Yintegral 0 Negative
Yet does not oppositionally
defiantly ignore
positive polynomial language
statements
events
narratives
Co-gravitating equitably Yang 1 Positive
balanced with not not Yintegral 0-squared
P=NP appositional
but not oppositional,
at least and at best,
not yet
[N] enthymematic multicultural
Both/And’s “not yet”
Not cogravitating dissonance disorder
climate stress
community exceptionalism distress
childhood win/lose stressors
wounds
losses
chronic anxiety
Not not P
unveils integrity’s potential
both/and right hemisphere
secular/sacred EarthMother
indigenous nondualistic wisdom
of integrity’s co-passioning
universal potential passion
When P also embraces
Left Hemisphere’s Patriarchal Capital
co-gravitating memories
of mountainously enlightening SunGod
erupting Win/Win
polynomially holistic Communion
Creolization
TranSubstantiation
Deeply empowering Right Hemisphere’s
dualdark immortal EarthMother soul
womb
tomb
soil
gloom
EarthTribal co-gravitating
absorbing
emerging future healthcare
regeneration
revolution
Gravitates toward gravitas
wellness-seasoned wealth
integral P=(N)NP
Polypathic Yang 1+
redefines, refines
(N)P not-0 exponential
indigenously wise GoldenRule
co-relational win/win
is not win/lose,
Both/And dipolar co-gravitation
is more than Either 1 Or 0 bipolar
intelligence
Co-gravitating win/win co-operative
Humane-Infant/Sacred-EarthMother
Original CoGravitational Win/Win Attachment
is not Original Lose/Lose Detachment Sin
Against Ego/Earth double-gravitating
decontextualized absence
of resilient co-gravitas peak experiences
with bicameral Yang/Yintelligence
Rediscovering LeftBrain dominant
Either/Or reductive Win/Lose errors
hidden in co-gravitating
RightBrain Both/And
language of dipolar co-arising
passion mountains
and deep [Not] not valleys.
I could know no Self
without an Other
We could have no Child
without an EarthMother
No Ego
without an Earth-bound EcoSystem
I could understand no male
linear formation dominantly prominent
without a co-responding female circling
inflowing/outgrowing concomitance
I could not know severance bipolar
of either/or discursive logic
without feeling round wombed dipolar
environmental both/and nurtiuring
spiraling
revolving
seasonally developing
ecologic
I could not form
positive 1
if not for inflowing/outgoing
co-passionate
co-invested
binomial
not not 0.
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