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Pequot River Land Trust

Once,
or twice,
maybe thrice,
surely not
not fractal

A clan of crazy ecofeminist
conspired with an 88 unit residential castle
in a historically converted
colonial-red brick bad building

With a sometimes soggy south wall school,
but not a pool

With a toxic Brownfield
to the South
disempowered
and a healthy playfield
to the North
enlightened

Overlooking Connecticut’s Pequot River,
We plotted
and mystically strategized
in sibilant circles
of reinvention

Without pretention
And also, sometimes,
without hearing much retention
of what silent Others
might, more paternalistically
have disinterestedly said
about corporate kleptocracy
of our home planet Earth

Distracted by paternalistic
colonizing over-shoot
into capital hoarding
closed and toxic dgenerating
anthrosupremacist extraction systems
of economic and politically chauvenistic
apartheid sponsored disintegrating health care
giving is also cooperative receiving
win/win resiliently therapeutic systems.

Our panentheistic worship patterns
are nuanced sacred eco-logia
subtle
avoiding dogmatically fundamental
unwoke and unwelcome absence
of over-investing
in disempowering communal Yinside DoorMats,

Externally oppressed
by prickly but ineffective predators
wiping their StraightWhite Privilege
to bow to Mammon’s narcassistic
monotheistic
bedeviling superpowers

For, eventually,
enlightening LeftBrain verbalized prejudices
against sacred RightBrrain muted
yet co-empathic trust for feelings

Of both blue sky
and green forests
co-investing with Mother’s re-membered
communal ecofeminist transporters
and nonviolently communicating
great and small transitioning
transubstantiations

Left and Right bilateral
human health balanced brilliance
relies on MotherEarth’s sacred wealth
ecoministerial resilience
of indigenously wise
ecotherapists
sharing and caring
for our tilling tools

EcoLogians
strategizing in Earth patterns
breathing in resilient eco-systems
of light
to breathe out ego-recentering networks
of win/win co-invested power

CoMediation thriving yet again
until EarthMother’s last breath rasp
echoes Her first
majestically fluid EarthTribal gasp

Win/Win Whole Open Systemic
left-ego/right-eco
in/out-side bipartisan health values

Collectively lost
momentarily and pandemically pausing
in Non-0 reverse-time
double-boundaries of sacred mythos
and secular logos
paradoxing double-negatives
equal appositional co-arising positives

Both True and Elegant
as +Positive PolyNomial Open Whole Systems
equal= -/- PolyMathic DiPolar Balancing Resolution
as +1 = -(-0-squared) CoBinary NonZero Resilient Win/Win Equity

When LeftBrain exponentially triumphant
when all bilateral hands are dealt
in positive fractal squares

In Holonic PresenceSpace
delightfully empowering
One universally panentheistic
circling
recycling
spiraling
inspiring
inspirating living planetary flow

Of eternally sacred,
and ergodically regenerative
timeless moment positive energy
reclaims not-not wu-wei
flow to grow
healthier together
than degeneratively apart
trying to remember
if this is laxative night.

More resilient,
don’t you think
empowering
and often feel
enlightened?

So, we co-invested
a People of the Pequot LandTrust
nonprofit association
for historical preservation,
including mindful practices
of Indigenous Ego/EcoSystemic
Resilient Wisdom

Unconditionally regarding,
re-communing free of StraightWhitePatriarchalCapitalist trauma,
cooperatively re-investing
for WuWei Resilient Earth-empowering outcomes
secular/sacred cultural balance,
Left/Right partisan creolization
for healthcare optimization,
+1/-(-0) ecopolitical equity

YangHealth equals Yintegral NonZero Systemic Wealth
for regenerative
usually cooperative
fair-weather days
engaging in multigenerational health governance
through wu-wei Pequot Rivered
Yang/Yintegrity
seeking up/down river
BiCameral PolyNomial Balance.

We took our Resilience Project Theory
to the Clay Math Club
supported by systemic panentheistic theology
of wise crone
Golden win/win Resilience Rule
applied organically
for ego/eco-logia health care
wealth received designs
in nonzero-sum metric balance

Where six of One,
for reasons slightly beyond
LeftBrain reductive incomprehension,
feels, rather LeftBrain precisely,
yet also RightBrain systemically,
like half a dozen of Non-0
stands in for Other times
and double-binding
mythic fractal octaves
in duo-decimal months
light/dark appositionally co-arising

Like breathing in lightenment
to breathe out dark intensely felt
and unconditionally regarded
ego/ecologically balancing

BiPartisan love of health
is not in competition
with compassion
for restoring EarthJust
global peace

At least win/win intentionally,
As our wise old transeregeneereators,
grey and white haired gardeners
reflect sun’s light
while digging yet deeper
more Resilient Organic Projects

Projecting goals in soil
and soulful LandTrusts
for historic Beauty
preservation of Rivers
and healthy EarthTribe’s Green/Blue inspiraling
panentheistic living
breathing in and out Planet

Earth
Where our LandTrust indigenous designs
take us back
where S/He started

Our 0-Zone
most valuable resilience assets
are a healthy Pequot River
and our wealthy nutritional
health care giving
and receiving
breathing in and re-seeding out
soil

And sacred ecofeminist
panentheistic Non-0
Open Whole Systemic
wu-wei Taoistic,
indigenously wise
deep listening
trauma anthroprivileged LeftBrain informed
souls for ego/eco-balanced
therapy

Isn’t trauma
as +1 Whole Holonic HealthSystem
is not -0 Closed Claustrophobic
chaotic entropic
degenerative
viciously deteriorating
genocide
matricide
suicide
ecocide

Lose/Lose global climate trauma
is not Win/Win universal
cooperative restorative justice
theory
informing nonviolent communication
intention
and health/wealth optimizing care
personal
and interpersonal experience.

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Digesting Integrity

My stomach
and lower core communionations
hope for some further feeding
consuming way
to not merely tolerate
but gratefully digest
what my gut
won’t easily
organically appreciate
and comfortably eliminate

Can only traumatically depreciate

Has trouble resonantly ingesting
what eyes and mouth
salivate to masticate

Chewing
swallowing massive trauma
to consumers so enlightened
and healthily empowered
we cannot bow
to southern fried chicken-wing
mighty bite makes digestive right
toxic dogma

Confused by preachy facile spirits
inexperienced with peace digestive therapy

Not ingesting further
poison punishments

Blames
and shames
against restoring strong stomach
and deeper digestive innocence

Unconditional regard
for nutritionally healthy
nurturing
natured grateful spirits

Long experienced souls
avoiding win/lose congestion
indigestion
by choosing win/win
cooperatively immaculate re-conceptions

Well chewed
and communally swallowed
bread and wine
of full-bodied
root health chakra
of neuro-sensory communion

Anticipating panentheistic
wealthy
sacred pre-inceptions.

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Inside Climate Mess

Inside monotheistic ego aware
feeling
outside polytheistic co-empathic

These inside enlightened intuitions
outside verbal empowering cognitions
reflecting cooperative
in-between positive co-relationship
representing explicit wants
and implied needs

Win/Win co-relational regard
awareness
noticing all genetic roads lead back
back
back

To outside EarthTribe stabilization
inside
four-dimensional whole system fractals

Winters inside dormant outside

Springing active outside leading
feeding inside wealth of hunger
and healthy thirst

Summer ego/eco-climaxing systems
nurturing nutritional
identity individuation
full Yang cooperative maturation

Falling mortal outside leaves
failing freezing young root systems,
buried inside nuts
and seeds
of potential refertility

Autumn’s harvest integrity
reflecting
fomenting inside naked souls
feeding outside depleted soil

Positively regarding balance
tipping winter solstice promise
of ecosystemic past inside
and future outside
regenerations

Yet to EarthTribe thrive
despite genocidal
climate warnings

Inside ego aware
encultured feelings
outside co-empathic.

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Rewarding Inclusion

I doubt it was a philosopher,
more likely an emperor,
but possibly both,
who first explored this sad relationship
between exclusion
and punishment,
colonialism
and repression.

I’ll bet it was a Taoist mother
afraid bad weather would smother
all hope of restoring future peace
who first engaged our glad elationship
between inclusion
and cooperative reward,
creolization
and multicultural
graceful impressions

This, our win/lose
zero-sum
retributive justice point

And yet also our win/win
nonzero-exponential
spiraling
revolving
restorative peace
counter-point

Balancing tipping points
toward cooperative polytheistic
polycultural possibilities,
secular and sacred,
for slow-growing resilient healthy seasons
and polyvagal
universal feelings
of neuro-sensory evolving
revolving safety.

Accidental exclusion
and intentional derision
of people with disabilities
win/lose dismay
disqualification
from LeftBrain
RightWing dominance

Together,
neglect and abuse
co-arise feelings of shame
self v other blame
punishing judgment
for being born
not LeftBrain
RightWing dominant enough
to earn our keep
in a commodified work force
neither enlightened playful
nor empowering peace-filled feelings

Industrially confined to slave
and prison
and asylum labor

PreIndustrially restoring wisdom
includes priority for inclusive
and incisive win/win intended
healing communication,
sustained healthy and safe
nurturing relationships,
growing multicultural
and ecopolitically rewarding trust.

Retributive justice
worships powers of royal affluence
while sacred restorying
of democratically inclusive peace
engages effluent co-powers

Of LeftBrain
RightHeart conserving
enlightened health
through resilient polycultural
anthro-wealth
of cooperative vocation

AND

For RightBrain
LeftHand liberating
feelings of safe empowering wealth
through resonant polycultural
polytheistic vacation,

Universal warm disregard
of pompous kings
and distinguished philosophers
disabled by LeftBrain
RightWing greedy punishment
exclusively disabling
anthro-integral
polyculturally resilient
tipping point balance

Rewarding inclusive RightBrain peace
restoring LeftBrain justice.

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Choosing Happy Health

My round white anti-depressants
were trying their faithful best
to listen to my ecofeminist
wise old woman
gardening neighbor,
pulling aggressive weeds

Sharing with me
her morning meditation reflection
immediately after entering dawning eyes
and before exiting her dreamy
comforting
fertile bed

Her opening
and excavating self-invitation
to choose body health nutrition
and mind happiness nurturing
which are snugly associated
for her
like peas and carrots
remembering well-versed voice
intention

But,
not so much for me,
now able to choose health
almost every dawning day
and dusky night
but still struggling
for post-traumatic omnipotence
to thrive toward happiness
by empowered choice,
even if not enlightened voice
articulating all the many thankful ways
remembering well-cultivated rejoice.

What my gardening neighbor
and I speak of
feels like my dull
and darkly present
spatial stuck unchanging place

Which she
unlike me
can also remember
as having evolved through time
from current EarthTribe regenerating days
becoming nurturing seasons
within each annual surviving incarnation

Reversing back toward warm
welcoming first dawn light’s
empowering sacred
thriving invitation.

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Planning for Integrity

Integral Permaculture Design,
like restorative EarthJustice therapies,
and compassionate communication skills training,

May become aptly applied
to both private
and public
ecological business planning
for optimizing health wealthing resilience.

So, you say,
my monotheistic creation teacher,
but these inside/outside healing classes
may require unspoken prerequisites
of openness to whole organic systems planning,
so that polycultural ecological business health planning
is also ecofeminist win/win nurturing busyness
through bicameral co-passionate wealth communications
of sacred spantheistic
neuro-sensory safe-systems
ego-body/eco-mind bipartisan design.

PermaPolyCultural Design
measures secular health
and predicts longterm sacred compassionate resilience
as anthro-privileged participants grow
more polyculturally symbiotic,
complexly ego/ecosystemic

A co-empathic system
of which we are all a polytheistic
communal
cooperative
co-invested
holonic portion

Rooted in a full nature/spirited
neuro-sensory communion core

With a nearly full octave
of spinal chakra-sensed
consciousness,
more root and gut felt
as Elder RightBrain Core
deep sacred listening
anticipating win/win
LeftBrain resonant health
and RightBrain resilient positive feeling
outcomes

Devoid of anxious about win/lose
LeftBrain dominant
and RightBrain recessive
negative incomes

Depressive
oppressive
repressive unconsciousness

Perennial monotheistic
anthro-supremacist
ego-privileged monocultures

Historically patriarchal
win/lose capitalist
white privileged
homophobic
Western predative corporate colonization
leading to pathological climate over-heating

Poisoning
rabidly over-populating
secularized RightWing mono-untheistic
degeneration toward desecrating ecocide.

Integral PolyCultural Communion Design
prefers to go in the opposite
core-systemic/root-sacred
neuro-sensory win/win
co-empathic
bicameral peak experience erection
direction

Resonant EarthHealth
and anthro-mindbody safe wealth
resiliently brilliant.

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Blank Page Syndrome

Blank page syndrome
feels like full page longing
to be done with some work project
that will not slowly grow worthy
of my time
and certainly no captivated reader.

I feel victimized,
tortured, actually,
by blank page syndrome

Where I want to feel some opening
and rewarding opportunity
and not dull risk
of further unnoticed failure
to richly
and wisely communicate
warm and wild communion.

My blank pages
demand content
spilled across blue horizontal lines
with a red left side vertical
demanding

Demarking where orderly thought correctly begins
to unfold top left
unfurling cause effectively
sequentially
toward right bottom

Yet Left dominance
overpowers Right feelings prominent
circling and recycling
whirling and spinning
spiraling out of win/win control
re-membering risks
of nontransparent failure
falling brawly short
of both peaceful Truth
and vulnerable Beauty.

Yet a bleakly black blank canvas
with no red
or blue bicameral communion rules
or tools
feels most frightening
intimidating of all
unbalanced
anthro-privileged
vaporous calls

My
“I can’t draw,
or sketch,
or paint,
or write,
or sing,
or dance,
or speak out woke”

Can’t preach
or teach inside voices
ignoring outside echoing choices
to evoke
childish dreams,
daydream schemes
to become Earth’s greatest love
of blank paged warm regard
for how we flew
and walked
and swam
and grew to Here embodied
meets Now compassioned mind

Greatest
deepest
widest
trusted EarthBeauty
dipolar co-arising
all scared yet sacred Time’s unfolding

Win/Win regenerative
peaks and valley sand
defining ecstatic
aesthetic lines
refining intimate circling graced spaces
etched throughout
neuro-systemic elegant
multigenerational potential

Not not synergetic journeys
deeply and widely
back and forth
out and inside
polyculturing communion

While staring at this straight lined
and otherwise white privileged
square-cut manufactured page

Holding my green health hope
and content contented circling pen
praying for worthy inspiration.

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A Year Ago

About a year ago,
as the COVID pandemic
seemed to subside,
then swell,
happily ebb
and yet impatiently flow

About a year ago
I was noticing cold autumn nights
bringing first frost
to my metal windowframes
and to my post-surgery tired back
and neglected aging heart.

Outside corner unit 315
my view to the south
of brownfield industrial waste
not salvaged
when converting this condo place
to residential co-invested space.

Outside all our interior doors,
a CommonsGrace ignored
for at least a decade of degeneration
now accelerating divestment
by investors seeking rental profits

And also by resident owners
who could not feel certain
that others felt shamed
by a stained
and torn carpet,
elevators that sometimes worked,
cracked and vaporously blind windows,
dilapidated doors,
impending rot
and gloom
and financial doom.

Now
a year later
our parking place
awaits demolition,
to become hauled away
dismissed
disposed of,
further disgraced,
to be repurposed
refaced
in some future highway
graveled trace.

A year later
our communication grace
is in transition
from feeling alone
victimized by our own hired hands
and by our Commons Governors
indulging an economy of capital scarcity,
patriarchal politics
of executive privilege,
an implied theology
of StraightWhiteMale
monotheistic exceptionalism,
as if godly wisdom comes down
only from an enlightened professional high,
and not from within
our sacred ecofeminist administrators
teachers
mothers
grandmothers
sisters
at least as swell.

Co-invested in cooperative
win/win resolutions,
ecologically reconnecting EarthCare constitutions,
health and safety non-prostitutions,
Yang strong and Yintegral flow
of bicamerally balancing institutions,
mindbodies for longterm healthy democracy,
transparent bilateral trust

Nonviolent communicators
cooperatively planning
and priority budgeting
to heal our side-by-side loneliness
by reconnecting cooperative care
for EarthTribe Wisdom:
a formerly healthy
polyculturally wealthy
sacred planet,
a multiculturally inviting property
for growing edible and ornamental plants
and health-minded wealth-embodied people,
enlightened LeftBrain strong and vital
empowering RightBrain co-empathic flow
of root
and gut
and sacred peak experience feelings

While planning not just to survive
our individual autonomous lives
but also to thrive
through EarthCare
for at least another 7-Regenerations
of healthier healing LeftBrain
ecological co-relations
and safer sacred RightBrain
panentheistic
EarthMatriarchal
co-empathic re-connections.

Our individual victim histories
of patriarchal-capitalism
now repurposed
to help heal our co-invested residential experiences
with PolyCultural Communion,
rejoining planet Earth’s great transitioning
climate of health and safety enterprise

Rather than hiding in self-judgment
and Othering shame
for moving in
to unhealthy and unsafe
historic property demise.

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Bruising Words

Words too often have rough edges,
bloody histories,
lines more defined
than relentlessly imaged cliffs,
worshipping sacred sunlight shades
of high hazards

Coveted risks
more than needed opportunities
to hard wall wail against wild creations
unmoved by words
without animated calling
longing
belonging
or wooing wilderness

Offending worded weapons
seducing well-schooled tools

Sounds with edges
and without

Opening and closing
edgeless sighing pause

Slowly awaiting surf’s slow
slurried
soft
slavish turn
to reach for shores
absorbing thoughtless
sand-grained
edges.

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Riding Sixties Shotgun

I was in the shotgun seat
in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed straight as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
hunting down our commercial whitebread
heavenly ThriftMart,

Wanna be a WalMart
but not Southern enough,
somehow,
to withstand straight-male competition
in fluent White Privileged culture
favoring evangelical
monotheistic
monoculturing AnthroSupremacists

Kinda like
patriarchal-capitalist
anal-retentive pathological trauma
homophobic nature v panentheistic erotic spirit
kinda unenlightened Left unhealthy
and disempowered Right unsafe colonizing wealth
win/lose hoarding
apartheid community trauma dissociative
chronic supremacist anxiety disorders
degenerating unhealthy inside whites only classrooms
contrasting this all black and brown summer outside classroom
feeling shared healthier and safer hearts.

School would soon reopen.
We were on our way to buy
back to school
shirts and jeans,
and whitey tighties
and Elvis Presley-worthy
and 3rd grade new classmate
Arturo Hernandez
disturbing white T-shirts.

A warm August mid-western
urban day
for us white family farmers
traveling East
when a dark-skinned gorgeous boy
my same eight years of age
riding his bike
right out along a cracked
and broken
tree-lined sidewalk
with other kids around
playing hot hopscotch
near a sun-baked naked curb.

He looked over.

With my window down
I felt
and smelled
his shared fragrance
for a moment brown eye to blue
so improbably in love with
you
are who I was made for.

Maybe we could become
boyfriends
and then old-school married
naked together, sometime
someday
somewhere
by accident
discovering we both explore pleasure
favored with him brown-eyed beautiful above
and me under
blue-eyed wide ginger
passionate red-curly-headed
MeWe luscious
wrapped around his waist,
both wanting to give
and to conceive

As I can mostly missionary
dimly historically remember
sounds,
dim sight,
and fertile smell
when her egg
was open-whole systemically
fertilized by spraying Yangstrong
sperm informing
incoming
integral potentiating
seed
and feed
and breed
and bleed
and need
and divine peaking deed

He drove racing athletically
just to tie
our metallic bronze-skinned Ford
sedate, seats six, sedan
on his battered red bicycle
3-speed

His only helmet a handsome head
full fuzzy, yet glossy,
glistening in noon-day summer’s seismic sun,
crow-black
tight-curled
gracious gotta-touch it
play with
feel him

His warm wet scalp massaged,
his salty lips tasted,
his breath and nether sacred
dualdark parts
breathed in
absorbed
until my breath nearly stopped

Then he fell behind,
and was gone
until I met you

And there he was
this eight year old glamorous
brown-skinned boy
now grown
into his handsome thirties

Wanting me
to love him,
and only him,
to worship if I want,
as will he
in sacred
1/0 double-Taurus
1960’s HolySpirit co-passion
for playing only win/win peak hotness
co-governing robustly resonant
co-relations

Reparations
if you will
then so will I
GoldenRule give with you
what all StraightWhiteMale
patriarchal monotheists
would most fear
slatternly given away
in lust for men of color
in that unimageable
thighs spread needy open
way

LeftBrain dominantly win/lose
either/or zero-sum competitors
Left v Right polynomials
reweaving Left-with-Right bicamerals
polyculturing communion, not monoculturing competition,
creolizing, not colonizing,
cooperating, not hunting down
for a profitable military-industrial
LeftBrain dominant
ecopolitical kill

Not yet nightmarish anxious climate imagined
when I was eight years old
in our Ford’s shotgun seat
back in 1960 Lansing Michigan
headed unstraight white
male as a harddrive
through ghettoizing “Negra Section”
distracted by our up and outing
cold cash is sacred manna
ThriftMart.

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