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Advent of Lent
All that waits within me
unfulfilled
Awaits within you
Together
appreciating what we could become
like advent
awaiting a great transformational revolution
restoring peace through inside
outside co-arising justice
But also like lent
preparing for Bad Friday,
a revolution of deadly terror
destroying ego’s last fragments
of unchanging stasis inside
outside co-arising climates
individuating identity
In all that longs lonely within you
unfulfilled
Awaits within me
on back to original regenerators
waiting
changing
waiting
breathing in
changing directions
breathing out
waiting
breathing in belonging
once again together
When all Earth’s voices wait within us
unfulfilled
I feel wrong to break my silence
When beauty invites solidarity,
commands more than limp tolerance
of nature’s diversity,
regenerates celebration of integrity
felt
breathed
beat
surfed
sung
beatified.
Lonely Nest
Loneliness,
of individuals,
families,
communities
and nation-states,
leads insufficient capacity
to prophecy everyone’s collective interdependence,
and thereby remains partially blind
to Win/Win optimal health/wealth outcomes,
which could not be monopolized
by experiential loneliness
felt internal monocultural sadness.
By inviting risk to shift,
nudge,
notice personal/political Lose/Lose depreciations,
bucket lists of long-standing tensions
causing unhealthy cognitive/affective dissonance
unresiliently stuck in slow ego-depreciating mortality,
absence of furthering resilient appreciative-inquiry belonging
within this
and each
and every
timeless Win/Win left-brain fragmenting
ego-prominent compassion-nest
self/other-perpetuating cooperative polypaths
implied within each unprophetic deeply pre-ingested
re-ingesting healthy/wealthy moment,
Irrational spiraling not not ego/ecotherapeutic self-care,
a dynamic healing ZeroZone
away from repressive solid OneNest walls
of silently atoning loneliness,
onelinest
healthy hoping toward impressive implicit webs
for pregnant metaphoric
meteoric Earthiness,
EarthTribe nest.
Mixed Taxed and UnTaxed Blessings
Those of us
who have had guilty pleasures
of owning valuable property,
like a car
and rental property
and office equipment
Office buildings,
solar inverters,
and nuclear holocaust delivery systems
but not MBA degrees
or intellectual property
or more privately owned emotional properties,
Those of us
who know the mixed blessings
of owning organic and mechanical fragments
of climate pathologized,
yet still breathing, planet Earth,
especially if taxable property,
have heard about depreciation of values
over their natural/mechanical life/utility time.
We might recall
depreciation of property value
decelerates gradually over time,
barring any unfortunate head-on accidents,
flying and melting and fragmenting damage,
accelerating astronomical crises
eliminating long-term realistic health-wealth values.
Depreciated suddenly to total loss of asset value,
now a global junk-dealer liability.
Anyway,
just as depreciation decelerates over time,
appreciation accelerates resilience
with time’s enduring health/wealth cooperative life-experience,
Organic systems accelerate robust cooperative integrity
over a deep learning nutritious multiculturing life-time
of Win/Win
ego/eco-relationships,
Growing in good-humored co-investment priorities
for story telling and listening
to Win/Win co-opportunities
Rather than continuing historic depreciated taking
and Win/Lose epic slow-losing ego/economic depressions,
Anti-systemic pathologies,
realistic predictions of global chaos.
Retributive injustice depreciations
slowly fade toward entropic disorganization
just the restorative opposite
of appreciative Win/Win compassion
Explicitly conscious
of living interdependently between and within
autonomously natural depreciative law
and polypathic open-systemic/spiritual
yang/yin multicultural
left/right psychological
self/other empowering
appreciative
spiraling
deep and wide learning order.
The Naked Emperor Intervention
Oh my goodness!
I was just thinking about Erik Erikson,
psychoanalyst and essayist,
and his social analysis thing
about the U.S.
stuck in perpetual competitive
in-grown
culture-ungrown adolescence.
And Erikson suddenly reminded me of one of my dreams last night.
When The Donald
and a few black-suited security robots
visited AllSouls sanctuary.
I was singing in the choir
to the choir
as white-privileged usual.
But, when he slurped in
our ecofeminist minister
invited him to “Grow up!”
“Stop acting like a junior high
military school bully.
Let go of the golf clubs and take up surfing.
Have more fun
without passing your unpaid bill on
to already unhappy
un-privileged
depreciated ungreat over-populations.
Go back to private life.
Learn how to actively love
and healthily entertain
your own family
with Win/Win non-violent communication games
and organic garden planning
and integral Permaculture Design practices,
and cooperative ownership,
and compassionate self-management.
Try appreciating (not depreciating)
some health/wealth organic farming property.”
“Go back to school
and learn some basic Win/Win community health-organizing techniques
for non-violent resilient communicating
with what you say
and what you listen to
and what you do
and what you choose not to do
still matters to EarthTribe’s future healthy outcomes.”
“Stop pretending to be a Win/Lose adolescent
still trying to remember your Win/Win hopes and dreams
when you were still in your EarthMother
gasping for your first in and out rebalancing breath.”
“I am not your disappointing mother!
We are not your emotionally neglectful and inaccessible parents.
Stop punishing us
for not worshiping the ground
your Win/Lose ZeroSum soul walks on.”
“Do something that might make us want to worship the ground
we walk on compassionately together.”
Then the security robots started snickering
right there in our Green AllSouls Sanctuary.
And then Donald did too
as he turned around to actually blush
(who knew!)
and a bit less slurpily exit,
just like a teenager
slouching out
almost the way he came in,
Except smiling through his blushing Win/Lose eyes
not just his Loseconomic/Losecologic
health-depreciating
critical-noneventful fake-smile mouth.
Intolerable Questions
Is it a virtue
of legal, or just plain logical, process
to tolerate the morally intolerable?
Regardless of therapeutic opportunities to communicate dissent,
loud and clearly vocalized
articulate and explicit resistance.
Is it an immoral act
to participate in the Win/Lose market for climate pathology
if you could not know whether you are recast as oil-baron predator
or as a life-long perpetual child
praying for matriarchal cover?
Is it a corrosive vice
to tolerate the intolerable?
To settle for only Win/Lose options
in a ZeroSum stingy world.
Do I tolerate, even celebrate,
most everybody except those who are intolerant?
Why does feeding openness
to tolerating change
feel so risky?
Alarming past critical events
confronting disloyal oppositions
fade into memories of chronic dis-associations
against those also intolerant in diverse ways.
Am I a good person
if my most celebrated values advocating diversity,
and my more internal integrity of voices valued
and heard,
and cared for
feel like fragment fading shreds
of intolerable wonder and awe?
Why is your here and now intolerance
of fearful-future intolerance
against accepting invitations to stretch tolerance?
Now invested in building apartheid-trusting walls
rather than win/win interdependent webs.
Why is my self-righteous intolerance
fair,
just?
Yet your fears and terrors,
impatience and suffering,
intolerable neglect
of win/win mindful opportunities
are not OK,
not healthy democratic enough,
too elitist,
too explicitly ignorant
of implicit win/win hope
remains at least non-lose/lose communication,
verbal and non-verbal,
Still open to becoming more virtuously,
and legally,
tolerable.
Appreciating Unity
I guess I have these momentary choices,
some days privileged with more
and some more challenged
by un-privileged less experience
with ego/eco-centric bilateral choice,
Do I want to know and love myself more
for how I am different and special
unique and maybe a bit brightly privileged
right now?
Or am I more self-appreciative
for not depreciating
how we are most resiliently the same
rather than mere interdependent flaring fragments
replacing original hopes for win/win synergy
with ultimate fears against win/lose sameness,
remembering both/and unity
with more gravitas than either/or uniformity
Of whole ecosystemic Earth
co-arising win/win
revolutionary radical cooperative choice
to resist those future moments
more One RabidNest felt
through dim ego shadows
of self-perpetuating unchosen loneliness.
Large Frame Painting
I used to envy still life painters
longing to see
organic geometric relationships
between full-color light
and irregular isolating forms,
These close to self-identity
and those background wildernesses
of bright and happy adventure
or dark and fear-filled
encroaching climate pathologies
unenduring nightmare epic nights.
Now I find healthier
and happier resilience
listening to biometric interrelationships
within ever changing,
not the least bit still dead,
flowing light formed Yang
nudging more or less happily
toward brightest ZeroCore
dualdark fertile pregnant potentialities
of universal Yintegrity
through sight and sound,
For polypathic touch and taste and feel
with polyphonic fragrances
of spring newborn cries and coos
through winter’s wise dream
musical-comedy/tragedy hibernation,
awaiting further new resilience days
with resonant bright sky nights
Ultra-violet souled,
witness to Earth’s great transitory emotions.
I now envy synergetic, not fragmenting,
creolizing, not colonizing
matriarchal both/and feeling
not so angry dominating patriarchal
either/or straight too queer
for mutual redemption,
resilient co-facilitators of communication
role-playing slow and GoldenRule grown
full-life revolving pictures
speaking nutritionally through cooperatively owned frames
Pursuing resilient health/wealth dreams
in ego’s foreground
as witnessed by polypathic
organic voices with rhythm
and pattern,
beat and light and darkly sung emotions
inviting bright and happy resonantly compassionate adventures
with AllSouls living,
past,
and regenerative future
Which is rather a larger
and more robust life-painting skills
integrity agenda.
Tolerating Itchiness
A healthy distance for tolerating LeftBrain dominance
is to recognize our global incarnation
into RightWing intolerant prominence
as dogma of a strictly white hetero-male privileged unkind.
A distance between silent impatience
and loud dissent
is the distance between nonverbal nonviolence
and irritatingly verbal communication.
A tolerable distinction between quieter dissonance
and boisterous intolerance
is a distance between non-violent
and full LeftBrain dominantly overtaking
and/or sado-masochistic bipolarity
and/or socio-pathology
and/or undemocratic kleptocratic
Win/Lose capitalistic intention
in a LeftBrain alpha dog eats and beats
RightBrain beta feminist…dog world
on any over-heated…itchy day
he chooses inhumanely sick
ZeroSum one-sided pleasure.
So sorry.
This started out as a quietly sedate communication
and ended in a most unfortunately aggressive
sound of furious way.
RealTalk Parties
What if political parties
all over Earth
were invited together to sign a covenant
at a We The BiCameral People Party;
A covenant to never nominate or endorse or vote for a candidate for public office
without economic
and political
and environmental
and psychological
and socio-cooperative logical training
in non-violent communication skills,
verbal and non-verbal.
This experience,
publicly documented,
multicultural design certified,
quantified,
qualifies facilitators of RealTalk
inclusive and contagious public health
to con-celebrate virtuous GoldenRule circles
and green ecosystemic
climate wealthy public/private lives
RealWalk more robust than Win/Lose necessarily tolerant voices
unheard herded, not invited,
into what RealTalk could become
a more resilient deeper learning
as a Win/Win trusting health democracy.
What if Christian Law and Moral Order Schools
required first year retributive justice Win/Lose classes
as legal baseline Business As Win/Lose Usual,
And second year restorative peace and justice
outdoor green ecogame robust nutrition classes
in moral virtuous circles
Transactional Business As Healthy Win/Win Usual,
And third year liberal-green/conservational-red
left/right
ego/eco-justice
private/public health care resilient
mediation life skill tipping-pointers
toward Win/Win co-inviters,
as favorably contrasted
against Lose/Lose long-term UnDead
UnReal ClimateWalk of death skill commodifiers?
What if health-stretching tolerance
became, again, a re-creative tension
between growing Win/Win eco-resilience
and not so much toxic Win/Lose ego-dissonance?
Instead,
compassionate left/right resonance
liberal/conservational
+1/(-,-)0 polynomial
greenblue, aqua,ultra-violet,
sometimes plainly gorgeous/monocultural imperialist red,
left-wing/right-boot
ego-march/eco-systemic fancy flight
bilaterally conservative
of ego-marching/eco-dancing balance,
Functional RealWalk Yang strength/
Flowing RealUnTalk Yintegrity,
atomic/wave-linear,
precessive/recessive (Bucky Fuller)
patriarchal/matriarchal
fragmented complexity
with an impossible fractal-holonic-rainbow understory
densely learned polypathic.
What if restorative justice,
for GoldenRule WinWin covenant violators,
were RealWalk invitations
to a reverse-potlatch,
unkleptocratic green sanctuary event
for paying Lose/Lose offender taxes
to co-invest in less Win/Lose ZeroSum violence
against Win/Win emergent organic re-membering
resilient GoldenRule cooperatives
established in our original democratic
interdependent Earth Patriotic Party
composed entirely of sacred covenanted co-relationships
To never ever choose Win/Lose candidates
hoping they won’t become another Lose/Lose nominee
for RealTalk RealWalk cooperative public office
or even private healthy-wealthy
intrapersonal left/right
Win/Win
un-sociopathic health practice.
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