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Liberating Addiction

I need to talk about addictions,
about my addiction issues,
and maybe yours.

Addiction gets a deserved bad rap
but that doesn’t mean we have no more
than mean-spirited possibilities.

Our first addiction,
and, for the lucky ones,
the functional extended multigenerational
multicultural families
and liberating tribes,
also the last,
is love.

Love,
hidden or wide unwalled open
for another human,
another species,
another culture,
another part of Earth,
and other, costly
medicinal substitutes,

Drugs and alcohol,
guns and loud danger,
cars and sex,
coffee
and comfort
and convenience,
beauty
and enlightenment
and luxury,
notoriety
and money
and security,
all poor substitutes
for the nurturing feel
and natural touch,
nutritional smell and taste,
native sight and sounds
of love.

I have two issues
with addiction.
One is my obsessive-compulsive need
for my next, even better, fix
what’s broken.

I find it humbling
to be cravenly overpowered
by physical and mental,
natural and spiritual, want,

By my longing to climax
resiliently
resonantly
universally embraced by Earth’s most incarnate
and eternal
esteem,
communion,
co-passion.

But, physical addiction
can be softened,
eased,
healed more readily
and stadily
if not for my shame
and hide in the closet
self-judgment,

If not for my weak
and sinful shadow nature,
My need to hide
my darkest fruit truths
about not being in control
of my own autonomous will power.

And, so it is,
I hide my greatest weakness,
my greatest internalized enemy,
and thereby feed and water feelings
of guilt,
self-blame shame,

A failure to grow vulnerable love for others
I cannot see in naked love
and truth
and transparent beauty
because I fear to meet judging eyes
and minds,
voices
conserving dismissive choices.

Secret addictions
have all my darkest powers
of steadfast
and cyclical disempowerment.

Acknowledged addictions
I can call out courageously,
then curiously explore
with my housemates,
neighbors,
teachers and parents,
children and listeners,
supportive groups of similar addicts,
medicating absence of love’s
spiritual wealth
without natural walls.

Fears and angers spoken
and named
thereby weaken
as love swells
for positive addiction,

Which, as long as not risked
stays absent,
even from our healing selves
grasping mercy
for becoming merely mortal
and expecting my birthright
of a health wealthy society
good faith community
family
with multicultural addiction values
and unlovely disvalues

Summarized in GoldenRule behaviors
and positively addicted open
vulnerable
transparent
courageous
actively curious gratitude
attitudes of cooperative disclosure.

This power of my unhealthy addictions
lies more heavily in hiding my self
secret depressions
repressions
suppressions
dark impressions
that true and beautiful,
resonant and resilient love
is too far above
my emotional pay scale,
worthy of our co-redemption,

Too big a reach
to try to open up again,
to share my weak addictions
and strong compulsions
to feel and touch
taste and see
where love was lost
while pursuing lesser
hidden things.

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Red Economics v Green Ecologics

HeteroSapiens have bipolar developed
miraculous capacities
to stretch and blur
legitimate moral peace initiatives
subordinate to licit legal judicial systems

Judiciously approved punishment
for misdemeanors
felonies,
cardinal
and moral
and carnal
and original sins
requiring flat fees
regardless of capacity to pay,
imprisonment,
enslavement,
lynching,
beheading,
burning at the stake,
chemical injections,

Capital disembodied punishments
NOT defined
refined
divined as unusually cruel retributions
against those creatures legitimate society
has decided to eliminate
as painlessly and personlessly,

Decontextualized from unfortunate eco-political circumstances
extending BusinessAsUsual retributive justice
because humanity continues to fall short
of commitment to global green win/win peace
non-violent communication
LifeCulture

Is not punishing DeathCulture
which remains judiciously licit
socially sanctioned
retribution

Justice punishingly nonpeace prevails,
rains down from Heaven’s Whitest
Pearly Gates
without hope or intention
of lion/lamb co-passioned win/win
green casteless peace.

Mind and body shocking actions cruelly taken
by retributively judicious
StraightWhitePatriarchal real property owners
appear historically unusual
in our socially licit extremes
of hidden torture
rape
extortion
commodification
monetization

Publicly debated
when publicly inflicted experiments
in optimal pain thresholds
and most cost-effective ways to kill

Whipping to DeathCulture
up to the limit of skin and nerves
to continue breathing
longing for peace
in a demonic
sadistic
greedy
market-serving
win/lose
capitalistic desocialized justice system
disempowering
and unenlightened
absence of active green peace hope
for win/win cooperative
co-invested options.

Licit judgmental world views
that cannot safely see
the integral
healing universally usual
uncruel potential
for win/win restorative justice systems

CoRedemptively uncriminalizing
by cooperative co-ownership
in a vibrantly healthy
interdependent wealthy democracy
inter-positive multicultural
ecopolitical EarthPeace
re-informing our sacred place
in this health-justice planet

Practicing non-violently communicated
restorative co-redemptive justice
win/win focused deliberations
rather than trying to cope
with increasingly viral chronic stress

Of avoiding cruel
and unusually win/lose suboptimizing
compromises

Of integrity’s Great GreenPeace Transition
post-pandemic prophetic
post-climate pathology profits
post-millennial proponents
for restorative justice circles

Centering on Earth’s Win/Win
ego/eco/theo/geo/bio/social/psycho-Logos/Mythos
Original NonViolent Dialogue
rooted in multicultural Creation Stories

Of green indigenously redealt peace
health-systemic ReCreation’s ReStory
speaking positive interfaith CoRedemptive Justice,

Divinely inspired
by CoMessianic humane EcoBodhisattvas
playing and working with win/win uncruel
unusually unpunishing nonviolent games,

Multicultural strategies
for legitimate compassion voices
making more peaceful LifeCulture
ego/eco/theo-logical
cooperative peace-experienced choices.

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Sympathy Isn’t Quite Empathy

To affirm and promote acceptance
of one another
and all together one
is to also affirm and promote
growing capacity for active empathy,
not settling for passive,
sometimes also ToughLove aggressive,
sympathy

The best possible outcome
being mere liberating tolerance–
which is still a big evolutionary step up
from conservative survivalist
intolerance,

Which anyone
who is in any way
not BusinessAsUsual
LeftBrain dominant
StraightWhite patriarchal
can tell you,
at probable great anecdotal length
personal
political
economic
cultural
education sadly replete
with unsystemic intolerance
of indigenously sacred
Wisdom

That win/lose passive tolerance
is NOT active
democratically healthy
wealthy multicultural acceptance,
an immensely positive moral
legal
spiritual
natural polycultural
deep immersion value

Omnipotently integral potential knowledge
of why eco-political empowerment
and enlightening wisdom
are more than mere personal win/lose tolerance

LeftBrain dominantly verbalized
capitalized
fathered YangPower
against EarthMothering YintegraLight

Of HerStoric wise-felt feeling
knowledge
co-investing in empathic Wisdom

To affirm and promote acceptance
of one another
and all together one.

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Privileged Choice ValentineVoice

My problems
include discomfort
with Money overwhelmingly talks
and talks
and talks political privilege

When not monopolistically
monotheistically
monoculturally screaming
about short-term survival issues,
international violation
of national resource systemic tissues,
long root ego-systemic win/lose fissures.

My Here/Now bigger
eco-empowering global system
concern,
our patriarchally uncivil
red-winged capitalist
runaway extractionist
EarthMother-rapist
climatic issue,

Suffering,
sense of epic historical
left and right winged cooperative loss,

Money’s monopolistic verbing Voice
thereby unilaterally revaluing
safe EarthSurvival choice
in Her claustrophobic
polluted
soul starved
dehydrating
degenerating sacred Chamber
of my own monotheistic wombed
LeftBrain-ranting mind,

Thinking about safe short-term survival
when we would be more prudent
to cooperatively feel reassured
about our long-term global win/win
thrival of love-life on Earth–
including my own EgoIdentity

Which would not silence money’s multi-polyenculturing
co-invested Voice,
empowering healthy democratizing influence
on health and safety EarthChange Choice,

Better
in a lower
and more resonant tone of resource key
for worshiping all EarthTribe Lives
copresent Here with Now

Also with those sacredly curious compassions before
and those naturally recycling nonviolent communions
yet to offer sufficient silence

So I might more actively hope to hear
our more cooperative
globally unmonetized thrival Voice
for restoring health wealthy climates
of green
HereNow
peace-graced Choice
through EarthTribe joyful justice.

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Tolerating the Intolerable

I cannot tolerate
those who are intolerant,

I cannot stand
those who take a stand
against unknown others
unlike themselves,
much less than we are truly
health and safety seekers
multiculturally alike.

I can tolerate anything
except intolerance,
most certainly including impatience with myself,
not excluding my esteeming
estimating
assessing
empathizing
sympathizing
realizing
without finalizing
self and others
as myself
in others
as myself
co-empathic within other
cooperatively tolerant relationships.

I cannot not multiculturally tolerate
monoculturally elitist tolerance
of injury to MotherEarth,
of patriarchal-capitalist
straight white incorporated privilege
of which I am so much an unwilling
and unwitting
and unwisely competing un-part.

I can tolerate anything
except intolerant exceptions
to multicultural GoldenRules
to love unto others
as I would be loved,
as I tolerantly,
yet impatiently,
without active curiosity
about afflicting win/lose experiential wounds,
love my left egoself
as eco-other

Best at loving
my more than tolerant
best and brightest ecosystemic Teacher,
Master,
Mistress,
Mother,
Father,
Outdoor GreenGodVoices and Inside Healthy EarthChoices,
CoCreators of all EarthTribes,
as my actively cooperative green Self
as part of LifeSystemic InterDependent Tolerance Habitats,

More of a right-hemisphere tolerated HumanTruth
is also left-hemisphere
awesomely unfathomable EarthBeauty

Sacred vocation into selfless worship
of His/Her barely tolerable comings
and goings,
solstice
and equinox,
inhales
and exhales,
yang tolerant strengths
and yintegrity’s intolerance
of business as usual
lack of win/win
green cooperative inspiration
inhalations,
more tolerant intimations.

I cannot remain uncurious
about my own monculturing,
dualistic,
anthro-supremacist
Sacred EarthMother denialistic
pathological
pedagogical
apartheid tolerance
and disinvestments
away from cooperative polycultural EarthHealth Systems,

Care giving and receiving
democratic
social
public
biological
mental
animated
energetic
ecological
synergetic
pedagogical
theological
eco-political
healthy multi-systemic
poly-paradigmatic resilience

And so I ask
through my intolerably insatiable curiosity,
what is the greatest experience you have had
so far,
of self
as part of other?

And, my answer
ubiquitous in original gifted,
fore-given onto Earth’s
vast green living birthday context

MultiColored in associated feelings,
ranging from
“everyday since ego’s embodied birth
continues my grateful eco-celebration
of positive healthy neuro-psychological systems”
to
“everyday since has been hellishly
wounding downhill.”

It is these latter intolerable losses
and sorrows
and sufferings
painfully defensive monoculturists,
like my egoSelf,
are most likely to impatiently challenge
my yin-flexible plasticity
toward restoring win/win active curiosity

Responding to such hopelessly naive
green optimism
with defensive win/lose intolerance
for risking active healthing hope
of wealthy faith
in lavishly liberal love

When all intolerably long debating
shouting
and highly competitive
corporate marketed evidence
of my lifelong miseducated
and diseducated unhealthy
win/lose normative economic
devolutionary
disempowering
disillusioning
inevitable and intolerable
lose only to mortally lose
nihilistic theorized experience
ignores all green signs
of fore-giving cooperative economics,
co-redemption messianic politics,
restorative justice,
non-violent communication networks,
organic polycultural systems designers,
democratizing health/wealth bicameral tolerance

Today too red egocentrically limited
to progressive green WinWinners
gifting forward political economies
supporting local win/win value communications
intentions
more than tolerant appreciations,
slow-grown sacred applications,
prayers,
anthems

To global green compassion,
far beyond mere tolerance,
for Earth’s GreatCommons,
for Her Indigenous GreenCommunion.

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Enough to be Dangerous

Do you know the concern?
“S/he knows just enough
about a through z
to be dangerous.”

I am uncomfortably familiar
with this analysis,
a weapon often wielded
from ivory towers
overly influenced by ideology
masquerading as theory
rooted in statistically measured experience,
severed from historical-cultural,
biological-neurological indigenous context.

Even so,
one feeling I am sure of
my own too robust expertise
is Intolerance.

And, now I am discovering
I have chosen to join a community
with a multicultural intention
to embrace,
or at least tolerate,
all souls,
all species,
all living systems
except those deemed too intolerant,
too wounded,
for multicultural health
as a resonant indicator
of economic and political wealth.

We are exclusively intolerant
of intolerance
because we would provide safe sanctuary
to all souls,
especially victims of monoculturing intolerance,
of win/lose economic and political supremacy,
strategy
gamesmanship.

I find a tension here
between unconditional love
and lacking sufficient curiosity
and courage
to discuss shared values
and disvalues
with those too defensive
too hurt
too lost
too conservative
to tolerate intolerably queer me,
to tolerate the alien Other.

This reactionary intolerance
of intolerant prejudice
bigotry
often straight white male supremacy,
feels like further breeding ground
for misunderstanding,
segregation,
mutual divestment business as usual,
more win/lose devolutionary anger and fear,
more potential violence,
hate,
war

More egocentric privilege
rather than universal ecosystemic love power

Actively hoping to cooperatively uncover win/win
polycultural resolutions
resiliently curious
and courageous
when in the presence of win/lose competitions
intolerant of active hope
for restoring peace
by retiring retributively inflicted punishment
shunning
non-communication
anti-communion
for past sins of intolerance.

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CoHabitating Peace

A sustained mystery for more long-term resilient cohabitation
is how to exchange high tolerance for ambiguity,
with, and not for, active curiosity about both/and ambiguity,
vulnerable dipolarity both/anding transparent bipolarity,
merging win/lose stuckness
in our emerging collective illusion
of ego-identity’s fundamental
sacred
monocultural autonomy

Autonomy of identity
as if both necessary and sufficient
before humane/divine multicultural interdependence
could grow more robustly possible,

Rather than this Other historical way around
healthy yinterdependent yindivid-yangation
prior to egalitarian sacred identity
actually co-passioning
healthy dualistic potentiality,

While still in EarthMother’s
ego/ecofeminist sanctuary
of integrity,
secular/sacred co-passioning Womb.

A more sustained mystery of more long-term resilient cohabitation
is exchanging high tolerance for ambiguity,
with, and not for, active curiosity about co-acclimating
trans-regenerations of nurturing timelessness.

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Intolerable Questions

Is it a virtue
of legal, or just plain logical, process
to tolerate the morally intolerable?
Regardless of therapeutic opportunities to communicate dissent,
loud and clearly vocalized
articulate and explicit resistance.

Is it an immoral act
to participate in the Win/Lose market for climate pathology
if you could not know whether you are recast as oil-baron predator
or as a life-long perpetual child
praying for matriarchal cover?

Is it a corrosive vice
to tolerate the intolerable?
To settle for only Win/Lose options
in a ZeroSum stingy world.

Do I tolerate, even celebrate,
most everybody except those who are intolerant?

Why does feeding openness
to tolerating change
feel so risky?
Alarming past critical events
confronting disloyal oppositions
fade into memories of chronic dis-associations
against those also intolerant in diverse ways.

Am I a good person
if my most celebrated values advocating diversity,
and my more internal integrity of voices valued
and heard,
and cared for
feel like fragment fading shreds
of intolerable wonder and awe?

Why is your here and now intolerance
of fearful-future intolerance
against accepting invitations to stretch tolerance?
Now invested in building apartheid-trusting walls
rather than win/win interdependent webs.

Why is my self-righteous intolerance
fair,
just?
Yet your fears and terrors,
impatience and suffering,
intolerable neglect
of win/win mindful opportunities
are not OK,
not healthy democratic enough,
too elitist,
too explicitly ignorant
of implicit win/win hope
remains at least non-lose/lose communication,
verbal and non-verbal,

Still open to becoming more virtuously,
and legally,
tolerable.

 

 

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Tolerating Itchiness

A healthy distance for tolerating LeftBrain dominance
is to recognize our global incarnation
into RightWing intolerant prominence
as dogma of a strictly white hetero-male privileged unkind.

A distance between silent impatience
and loud dissent
is the distance between nonverbal nonviolence
and irritatingly verbal communication.

A tolerable distinction between quieter dissonance
and boisterous intolerance
is a distance between non-violent
and full LeftBrain dominantly overtaking
and/or sado-masochistic bipolarity
and/or socio-pathology
and/or undemocratic kleptocratic
Win/Lose capitalistic intention
in a LeftBrain alpha dog eats and beats
RightBrain beta feminist…dog world
on any over-heated…itchy day
he chooses inhumanely sick
ZeroSum one-sided pleasure.

So sorry.
This started out as a quietly sedate communication
and ended in a most unfortunately aggressive
sound of furious way.

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The UnAlter Call

Our UU ecofeminist minister
was verbally accosted one Sunday morning
after celebrating multicultural peace
and respect
and integrity
sufficient to restore private ego- and public eco-justice.

This was far too much to take in,
to peacefully and holistically rake in,
for a visiting,
perhaps stalking,
apartheid anti-socialist

Whose most engaging
personable mentors and teachers
had already shared the correct win/lose answers,
either true or false,
either sacred or secular,
either spiritual strength or natural relativistic evil
of right-brain’s both/and integral tolerance-stretching levels,

Which his left-brain never over-indulges
much less dances
or sings with,
in multicultural head and heart voice.

So he angrily confronted
our UU minister
with “You must not tolerate such eclectic multicultural celebration!
These and those deviants are too wounded by original sin
for God to authoritatively save
from your universally wrong uniting perdition.
We need non-partitioned apartheid to sever us best
from those others, too wildly sensual and sinful worst
misbegotten creatures of Satan!”

“I cannot tolerate such radical integrity
or even, maybe odd, tolerance
to sing and dance,
to sit and pray,
to stand and march
polypathically and polyphonically together.
Especially on a sacred Sunday morning
when you should be worshiping God of time’s revolutionary creation,
polyculturally completed in seven 24-hour days
and monotheistic nights.”

“You should be on your knees
to the One true jealous and punishing win/lose Father!”

Our ordained covenant-keeper of universal resonance
and unitarian resilience,
concerned about whether Father MonoGod might be left-brain armed,
informed her avowed antagonist,
a clear and way too present threat
to building interdependent win/win webs
where all his win/lose walled-off answers
somberly declared ‘don’t even think about feeling deviantly
about anything!’

“Like you
I do not tolerate intolerance
when it is shouted against me,
but perhaps when morally appropriate boundaries for tolerance are asked
and invited for discussion
while actually hoping for some response
that could include all of us
if willing to change enough
to tolerate compassionate criticism
for not beginning with questions “Why?”
before providing answers to What
you and I must not find
appropriate to tolerate.”

Then she asked me to drum our drums
and sing a healing song
while she danced and shook a consecrated rattle
in smoky incensed circles
like any witch doctor might think to sternly do,

Whether tongue in cheek
or not
I could not say,
as I was singing
and beating her rhythms
with integrity of tolerance,
in mutual celebration
of great transitional nudging questions

And not not knotted paradox
of not tolerating double-bound intolerance
within as not without

And hating haters
which seems difficult for consistent self-esteem
and win-me/win-you co-integration,
or even win-left/win-right ego/eco-transubstantiation.

Our mono-supreme nationalist,
hater of radical sabbath love,
did not speak of his surprise
but effectively and affectively acted
with discomforted exit
and discomforting alarm.

I’m sure with many questions
but probably not better ones
than his pre-existing either/or condition
would allow in tolerable responses.

Which seems sad.
A lost opportunity,
for our ego/ecofeminist minister
and music me,
to nudge and stretch and grow
our tolerant co-integrity

To tolerate violating answers
to win/win questions
he, then we,
forgot to ask
about this paradox of hating haters
and only loving privileged lovers

Reminding me of several songs
about growing in love with love’s mankind,
but not sabbath people
in heat against hate,
sad about despair,
glad about integrity of wealthy mental health.

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