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Stepping Outside to ReGather

Easy to get stuck inside
my heads outside
our neglected hearts

Breathing in and out togather
fumes of historically fueled
graphite sheeted walls
too all-encumbering to smell
as monoculturing trauma

Failure to wonder
nuanced appositional
non-positions,
bipartisanly dipolar
looking for mediating
median win/win dispositions
still felt alone inside
too all-encumbering
expositions

Cumbersome
for buoyant
unconditional gratitude,
sacred panentheistic regard
for MeWe potential co-passionate
co-investments.

Hard to remain unstuck
outside my self-too-serious walls

Outside my age-appropriately lust
for good-humored transparent
mind/heart bipartisan embodied
spirited natural bust

Inside my vulnerable skin,
sacred root bilateral

Bipartisan
Red RightWing integrity
of indigenously wise
bicamerally thoughtful
green positive feelings

Fresh transcending verbal-yang
and nonverbal-yin

Win/Win Green LeftWing Yang
either/or deficient
RightWing Resistance
to LeftBrain
both/and
magnificently efficient

1/0 co-binary
co-arising dipolar
Yang/Yin
Ego/EcoSystemic

BiNomial
polymathic universal
and polypathic unitarian
polyphonic octaves
of double-binding double-fractal
dialectical
health is social wealth
co-invested nutritional policy

PolyCultural resilience
non-violently win/win championed
power-with healthy bicameral democracy
for internal/external better homes and communities

Balancing inside-only
ego-claustrophobic
dissociative
Either/Or
Win/Lose
zero-sum thoughts
concerns
stressors
chronic leftbrain dominant trauma

Creolizing with GreenGaian
polytheistic
ecofeminist
polycultural
polypathic win/win
unconditional co-mediating regard

For both secular thoughts
and sacred 1+Yang/-(-0)Yin
root chakra

WuWei balanced
tipping point ego/ecosystemic balance
for co-governing health and safety

Co-arising
dialectical sacred circles
of regenerative communionation

DoubleFractal
bicameral co-binary information processing
co-passionate binomial win/win
co-binary resilient compassion structures
cooperative owned best
when indigenously managed
with ecofeminist L/R=1/0 co-empathic
ego/ecosystemic
trauma-informed
restorative ego/eco-justice
co-governing healthy democracy
Taoistically indigenous space/time
bicameral co-empathic wisdom:

Easy to get stuck inside
my heads outside
my own neglected
win/lose traumatized
RightBrain connected heart

Hard to remain unstuck
outside my self-too-serious
anthrosupremacist walls
to blessings

More universally sacred synergies
unconditionally EarthTribe co-invested
warm and joyfully trans-sectarian
copassionate regard
for unitarian health
and better LeftBrain verbally dominant
nonviolent safety
from further Win/Lose
polyvagally neuro-systemic
chronic genocidal lose/lose trauma
leading to ecocidal climate drama.

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Addictive Mediations

Addiction is what happens
when mediation doesn’t happen.

Addiction is what happens
with my feelings
when mediation doesn’t happen
in MeWe conscious thoughts.

Addiction is what happens
with bipolar up and down
dipolar co-arising feelings
when compassionate mediation
doesn’t happen in ego/eco-systemic
bicameral Both/And thoughts.

Addiction
to hearing oneself chatter away
is what happens
when more modest mediation
doesn’t happen.

Addiction to fast-paced competition happens
when cooperative mediation doesn’t.

Addiction happens
when mediation
doesn’t, quite so much.

Addiction
to mediation
doesn’t do much.

Mediating
addictions
does all else.

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Treasuring the Educator

A former friend of mine
tricked me into becoming
something I am not

The volunteer President
of our condo association,
a position I clearly cannot afford
midst trifling disassociations.

We were starting our Autumn tradition
of arguing about next year’s budget
which typically continues
until we recommend something utterly preposterous
to our membership
which they will certify
remains inevitably inept
and fail to ratify.

As usual
I had brought my manicure
and pedicure kit
and was just starting to work on my nails
when I noticed our Treasurer
became more animated
whittling his thick stick
as he became more concerned
about what residents are losing

More than interested
in what resilience we all might gain
by cooperatively discussing
what we hoped to win
by remaining together to complain
rather than lose
by fostering further
whittled down polarization,
debate,
predative Patriarchal Capitalist
zero-sum economic games
not for the faint hearted to explain
and weak-nailed to refrain,
furthering our political apartheid
without EarthJustice
therapeutic rebate

Our parsimonious Treasurer
operates from a presumed strategic position
of holding Aces
in all four empowered
and enlightened suites,
empirical voices,
win/lose trumping win/win choices:

  1. Legal institutional document authority
    which provokes a yawn,
  2. Political membership voting power
    with an 88 to 5 majority
    on his oppressive side,
  3. Economic responsibility
    to our tax and fee paying majority
    with neglected cuticles, and
  4. social-cultural expectations
    for rational
    Straight White Male privileged
    self-interested
    capitalist business behaviors
    like playing golf
    and paying lap dancers
    to do what I would gladly do for free
    if I could avoid these dreadful
    defeating meetings.

While switching to my feet,
I also noticed
our tax-payer responsible Educator
vigorously responded
while vehemently knitting two
and furiously purling three

She moves away from
prior win/win positions
favoring therapeutic strategies
when she votes against
a loan for beat-down residents
to fix our leaky
crumbling corporate problems

Rather than abstaining
because now,
unlike last week,
she has become unclear
about whom
and possibly why
the Treasurer
and the Accountant
and the Bookkeeper
will debit just the 88 Residents
or the 5-vote School
for improvements
exclusive to the residential side
of our sadly governing equation.

I also notice
our scarf-knitting Educator
has moved away from supporting
a win/win trade formerly championed:
White Mansion for the School
and Glass Factory for the Residents

Now she contests this even-steven
to invest in another strategic competition,
win/lose backpedaling,
now claiming disproportionate future values
for bargaining,
debate positioning,
repolarizing
while she rips out yet another ribbing row,
another year too ripped off
not grow

Perhaps,
one day in our dismal future
we will see where this might go

More cooperatively thawing
drawing toward win/win center
for indigenous sacred wisdom values:

  1. licit equity of whittling natures
    and knitting medicine spirits,
  2. politically crafted co-empathy,
  3. economic health-nailed co-investments, and
  4. socially therapeutic
    restorative justice
    favoring win/win strategic right
    and left-handed
    and footed
    health is polyculturing wealth
    communication

Because clearly this night
we are not having our best
multicultural non-fright
cooperative mediation
of momentary delight

Wherein we retain well-manicured focus
on what we anticipate
moving forward more beautifully together
rather than lost in whittled down anxiety
about what we will never support

For lack of egocentric
anthropocentric
monotheistic
monocultural predative gain

As our corporate Treasurer’s win/lose strategy
to some better deferred peace day
EarthJustice regain
without all our polarizing
hocus pocus

To retain a more regenerative win/win wedding
less autonomously win/lose divorced

More cooperatively
and therapeutically discussed
of course
while I re-examine my left pinky
with absent minded disgust

About a now former friend of mine
who tricked me into becoming
some hang-nailed treatment
I am not.

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Relentless Vocation

Do you
too
grow tired?

Feeling no sufficient vacation
from your sacred
ponderous vocation
as this endless day’s resilient
wise Elder

Constantly longing for recognition,
faithfully
hopefully loving

InBetween a cognitive
emotive place

Impatient
for cooperative understanding
while curiously seeking co-empathic appreciation
for sufficient win/win resolutions
to slowly re-emerge EarthTribe’s integrity

Spiraling betwixt EarthMother’s healthy
vibrant green-blue ecology
and SunFather’s wealthy
pantheistic theology

Growing tired
from feeling no sufficient vacation
from my sacred monotheistic
ponderous vocation.

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MisGuided Meditations

I am sorry
about my judgmental,
sadly disdainful,
tone
in earlier messages.

Even worse,
I remain embarrassed
for spreading it out
for key staff
and leaders
to well-positioned see
and hear
and feel,
touched by toxicity.

My training
and experience
includes community mediation.

Within this mindful context,
I have tried to understand
what you want,
what you are learning,
what feeds and waters you
in your Presidential Position.

Your responses:

  1. that you know
    and care
    about our residential members,
    AND
  2. that you have unusual expertise,
    skills training,
    and/or Business Administration experience
    not available from other members,
    at least not any
    willing to step up
    and out into saying,
    Yes, I’ll help.

I failed to fully fit these
with past mediation interviews.

I was not as surprised by the second one,
as by the first,
because usually those seeking arbitration help
feel they live
in a high-risk win/lose
zero-sum system
punishing loss,
while looking for
their personal most loss-avoidant path
toward personal gain.

More closely regarding #2,
that you have unusual contractor,
business and project budgeting,
business management,
and significant financially successful property management experience

I was impressed
with what you bring
to our leadership table

And yet this does not,
in and of itself,
speak to skill sets
for PRESIDENT
of the Board.

On the contrary,
it seems to me
all this volunteer work
must detract from where your most cost-effective
personal focus needs to be
on your too busy workdays,
probably extending into evenings
and family/friend-lost weekends.

With regard to #1,
knowing and appreciating
win/win health and safety feelings
for residential members

This also did not sound
quite like my personal experience
could typically recall.

When I ask for personal motives,
usually what win/lose business men
speak of begins with financial motivations,
sometimes secondarily supported
by ecological concerns,
occasionally theological beliefs,
political aspirations,
retaining a positive community relations image,
community leadership aspirations,
wanting to be perceived
as a good and competent leader,
legislator,
teacher,
and/or,
in the case of religious constituencies,
wise spiritual Elder.

I have clearly failed
to understand why
you want to continue
Presiding over the Board.

This remains a mystery
shared by everyone I’ve asked.

When I share with them
your two responses to
“What’s in Presidency for you?
this fits with their
Successful Business Leader view
but raises dissonant questions

How could you afford to donate
this much time
and personal interest
without any personal financial return?

This dissonant mistrusting feeling
grows further
by those who have been residents
for many years
yet still do not feel seen or heard

So how could you know
and care about us?

As a mediator
with therapeutic,
nonviolent communication
intent

What do I do with my inability
to accurately and compassionately empathize
with you
on your journey toward fulfillment,
success,
happiness,
prosperity
and, preferably, unconditional regard?

To truly understand
and support you
in your personal and social
health and safety self-interest,
and to continue as our business leading
Presider?

I do not know how
to do both of those things,
and no one who encouraged me
to join the Board
wants me to support you.

That said,
one way sure not to help you
or me understand
and support you
is to publicly judge,
shame
and/or blame you
for circumstances beyond your responsibility
and authority to control.

If I have done that,
when I have done that,
while I am doing that,
I have not been a good person,
I have been a disappointing
multiculturally trained to listen
community-mindful mediator

And,
I have not practiced
even basic nonviolent communication skills

And,
you
presumably
are experiencing further high-risk
chronic trauma
as a result of my negligence.
For these failures on my part,
I apologize.

I often recall
a line of self-discovery
learned from a favorite
and famous spiritual director

“Who,
in your life now,
and perhaps in your past,
has been with you
at your most passionate
positive best?”

These are often romantic,
and sometimes earlier
healthy and safe parental
win/win relationship histories.

“How would that person,
or those people,
probably describe your sense of humor?”

If you have no idea,
you might want to start there
to therapeutically respond
to deeply engrained
trauma-avoidant
chronic stress disorder.

If you do have an idea,
some warm and welcoming ideas
about what helps you laugh with yourself
(not at yourself)
and with another you trust
and have found attractive,
compelling,
in some integrally soulful way,
then try to use that co-passion tool
to feel better about yourself,
your personal relationship history,
and your potential
for future healthy
and good-humored
win/win
nonviolent communication
for achieving resiliently co-mediated
health and safety outcomes.

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NonViolent Spaces

Where all humane souls repent
of contempt
for our EgoSelf
against our EcoOthers

And celebrate,
or at least commend,
express gratitude for,
our inner enlightened
and empowered
co-passionate communication,
dialogue,
discernment

Bilaterally
and multiculturally informed
by
of
and for
global climate health
and polycultural wealth
of peace.

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War Crimes

War crimes
against nations
are like pandemics
against people

And our neighborly places,
homes,
nests
and burrows,
organic host bodies
and soil
and living waters;
sacred spaces,
cathedrals for worshiping integrity
of health
becoming synergistically wealthy

Unlike militarized campaigns
against public health,
devoid of respect
for sacredly shared peace
and EarthJustice

Full of monoculturally diminishing
demolishing
destroying

Virally spreading across widely inclusive victims
of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
unable to contemplate
our own Critical AnthroRace and Gender Experience
of abuse and neglect
including people,
but also plants,
and our biosystemic
formerly healthy planet.

PTSD is an equal opportunity unemployer,
bringing long-term mental/spiritual health issues
to police,
militarized soldiers
following nationalism’s Patriarchal-Capitalist
apartisan line
of war propaganda
more invasively effective
for diminishing humanity
through inciting anger
and inviting fear

Ignoring tools for peace-making
through nonviolent communication
actively hoping to restore
climates and cultures of justice,

To engage public health democracy
for environmentaql peace
and robust integrity

Regenerating
polycultural EarthTribe wealth

Secretions of polyvagal sacred neural memory
prescribing anciently indigenous health
is also EarthWealth
re-engages peace
through polypathic wisdom

Preferring resonantly polyphonic peace gardens,
resilient wilderness sanctuaries,
sun-drenched surf sounding beaches

Hunting grounds,
vacation
and recreations destinations
for seagulls

Unfamiliar with war
and PTSD
and crimes against healthcare.

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Muse Practice

Music practice,
when I was a wounded child,
felt too redundantly mundane,
yet never merely quite ordinary,
especially within a band
or chorus learning environment

For restoring spiritual
mental
natural health,
compassionately co-invested.

Later,
as an adult wounded child,
I repeated this same
redundantly mundane
Business As Not Quite Usual
multicultural community mediation practice
reassuring ritual

Especially within a sacred
indigenous
nonviolent nature/spirit communication
health optimizing Win/Win integral remuneration
expanding EarthJustice progress
processes not win/lose patriarchal culture
please get it off my chest
still struggling with capitalist questions
How do multi-mediating clients
harmonically co-invest?

Musicians musing EarthHealth remediations
feel free to sing out loud
our EarthMuse restoring inclinations
recycling dipolar co-arising precipitations
by winning outside GoldenRules
for cooperative muse
outside music camp vacation
ecotherapeutic anticipations

Left credible
theoretical

And Right awesomely
experiential

Together transubstantiating
integrity’s potential synchronizing
principles of indigenous reverse
spirited nature bi-harmonizing

Natural music’s symphony
enspiriting muse epiphany
extending back and forth
in and out
down and up
Left EarthPowers
and Right SkyLights
healing non-pathology

Dancing
RingSinging
nondualistic co-winging
Thoughts of Muses
feeling
moving
EarthSystemic Music.

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The InterNational HealthCare NonLecture

S/he began our academic feast
in EcoFeminist HerStory Class
reflecting on the history of violent pissed communication
and nonviolent communication
between Afghanistan’s empowered
and disempowering LeftBrain StraightMale privilege

Islam-Christian creolizing cultures
in the Unitarian States
of BiNational
BiHemispheric
BiPolarizing Red/Brown South
and Green/White North

Orange hot greets AquaMarine

LightBlue bright sacred Heaven
meets Oceanic Green/Blue
Gaian EarthPower
predicting interdependent
contextual,
prime green communion

Announcing healthy ultraviolet enlightenment
Pronouncing wealthy green empowerment.

So, she begins again
less color bound
as s’he bicamerally concludes,

How would an international empowering North
and enlightened sacred South
cooperatively co-govern green
and blue
and red-heart path healthy peace?

Without investing in further environmental wealth
and international PostTraumatic Stress
Ego/Eco-Therapy,

Continuing positively healthy political psychology
without cost-ineffective militarized toxic defense,
citing, without sighting an end to,
straight white patristic LeftBrain Dominance
rabidly weaponing capitalist emergence
as if promising integral egocenters
and/or national
and/or cultural
an/ or ecopolitical
therapeutic win/win international thrival
gracing resilient health/wealth outcomes

Bringing us back again
to this conclusive transition chapter
of the first and only tools
for communicating
our highest and best public wealth agency uses

Are not ballistic weapons
aimed as per StraightWhiteMale privileged instructions
to underpaid win/lose devolutionary RightWing
Patriarchal-Capitalist mercenaries,

Our monocultural
straightforward monotheistic sacrifices
of our originally multicultural polytheistic young
to protect adult male patriarchal-capital
autistic autocraticism

Politically Correct
LeftBrain capitalized DOMINANT
verbal reward iconic systems

Rather than healthier empowering sacred metaphors
for polycultural Black/White GoldenRule Southern
potential health
and wealthier enlightening indigenous North
liberally co-passioning EarthJust communication
of enlightened
and empowering
global PolyCultural Communions

Politically Correct RightBrain PROMINENT
full-spectral networks
of eco-nonpoligical sound sighted healthy wealth
networks
doubledark communicating fractal
inside/outside octave dynamics

CoPassioning resonant South
and resilient North
dipolar depolarization
toward revolutionary EarthJustice green
red-heart blooded heat
compassionate communication
articulating ecofeminist
cooperative redevelopment
ecopolitical healthcare systems
for optimizing Anthro/Earth Wealth

Most certainly including polypathic peace
between ecowomanist Afghans
and U.S. multi-generational healthcare residents.

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TransCuriosity

That’s queer!
said transculturing Curiosity,
peering out Her sacred big-boxed window
panes of misty white fog
gently covering her view
of upstream tiding River’s
mysterious grey
reverse time flow

Sometimes,

OK, really too often,
I could use more courageous exercise

But, Other times
I’m more content, inviting compassionate awareness
of Earth’s queer tidal rivers,
surfing sacred oceans
surrounding anthropocentric privileged Kingdoms

Patristic Empires already capable of replaying WinWin
with both holy bicameral Hands
of better monetized Nature/Spirit Balance
blue/green indigenously wise reconnection
ComPassion ReEducation.

I tire of ageing while standing
inside here now still gazing outside
where all my best copassioned sexual imagination
interdependent neuro-sensory anticipation/anxiety
intersectionally unfolds,

Usually remarkably nonviolent
normatively win/win
without anthropatriarchal
StraightWhiteWesternMale
upstream privileged
reactions against TransIntegral EcoFeminists

My own uncurious RightBrain oppressed nudging
invites for healthier win/win both/and non-shunning
longs to divest of over-capitalized
RightWing patristic
LeftBrain queer dominatrix
curiously demented
EarthBound ManiFestering
GodWord Judging Justice
finds SacredEarth Rapture
compatible with TransMatricide.

MultiGenerational deep learning
ecosystemic education invites these curious Both/And
rivers of misty
RightBrain foggy felt mysteries
nuancing questioning comments
feeding and breeding
nonviolent multiculturing responses

My cooperatively owned QueenCuriosity
anticipates Win/Win cooperative dragging outcomes
predicting ecopolitical transregenderal,
scientifically inclusive,
collaborative communication research
and nutritional transitional change

For climatic rivers of resilient health
multi-tipping up and downstream points
inhaling
while already anticipating
transubstantiating win/win exhales
of re-inspiring recorrections,
great and small transtherapy
for blue/green health education
supporting our best
and brightest,
empowering
and enlightening wealth.

Curiosity naturally thirsts
for enspirited inspiring examples.
Let’s see…
Here (Laudato Si’, #102)
Pope Francis strategically asks,
“How could we not acknowledge the work of many
scientists
and engineers
who have provided alternatives
to make development sustainable?”

Strangely,
my simultaneous queer curiosity
invokes indigenous Nature/Spirit
felt trans-reversion Both/And also asks

How could healthy EarthMothers not acknowledge the work
and Win/Win strategically cooperative play
of many deductive
LeftBrain dominant exploring
capital-starving corporate scientists
and transcultural communication engineers
cooperatively designed mediation empowerers
facilitators
meditators
knowledge follows deep feeling teachers
nonviolent communicating parents
ego/eco-systemic trans-therapists

Who have, together, already provided
way more anthro-supremacist
over-capitalized patrilinear
monoculturally combative alternatives
to make militaristic
inhumane ballistic
LeftBrain On/Off technological Natures
-overpowering-
BothCause/AndEffectiveness co-arising organic-transpiraling Spirits;
thus, degenerating more unsustainable
inhumane
StraightWhiteWesternMale ecopolitical overdevelopment?

“What kind of skills will he or she need
in order to get a job,
understand what is happening around him
or her,
and navigate the maze of life?”
cooperatively researches
and competitively publishes
Yuval Noah Harari
titling 21 Lessons
for the 21st Century
in “Education” (p. 266)

Also transregeneratively asking,
to my troubled embodied
sensory-neural informed mind,
respiring information
and expiring transflowation,

What kind of multicultural communication skills
and polycultural nutrition systems
and health/wealth education networks
will we transcendently feel
and cooperatively want
in order to interconnect with EarthTribe’s win/win
cooperative EarthJustice trans-restory
gracefully co-inviting
sacred pro-blue/green healthy life vocations,

To understand what is locally happening
globally still fog-enshrouded grey around
upstream tidal pushing Him
and within downstream flowing Her

To win/win trans-remediate
co-facilitate
this multi-regenerational
complex space/time big-boxed maze
of co-empathic bicameral love is trans-cerebral life
as hate is apartheid death

In this secular LeftBrain HereSpace
and sacred RightBrain NowTime
yanged yintegrity,
blue/green unitarian
TransCuriously Substantiated Universe…

Still almost back to NonZero
Queer!
said transculturing Curiosity,
peering out Her sacred big-boxed window
silently suffering
grey fog-recovering panes.

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