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Retirement Planning

Retirement planning
may feel like civilian planning
as military ballistics continue incoming
so persuasively my objective is not to win
but to get home again,
although I sadly know
home will never be that home of memory sustained
as comparative peaceful compass.

What is my therapeutic vocational problem
retiring from front-line maddening trenches?

How much remaining spacetime do I have,
does Earth have, for living rather than dying,
and why does this feel so spare time
often mere despairing,
and why “spare”
and why “mere”?

Despite books and perhaps entire libraries on human purpose,
meanings,
ethology of nature,
callings for proper industry,
organic integrity of humane function,
whether blessed by divine inspiration
or mere humane perspiration
(and, again, why “mere”?)
I find too precious
this my footnote of non-historic proportion
that my vocation may not truly ever self-optimize
through individual ongoing autonomous discernment,

But also through healthier, more robust, fabric
interdependent
cooperative
democratically woven
of loving WinWin future society

CoDefining culture having let go of Win/Lose
evolutionary violence investment theories
in favor of overwhelming healthy
regenerative retiring revolutions
of Earth’s slower-grown therapies.

This is not Weber’s mechanical society;
Retiring histories are more mysteriously woven
like an organic beehive
ornamenting a strong-rooted universal tree,
or an ant colony
preparing for winter
within an ancient-grounded sanctuary
society for future multiculturing
creolizing
WinWin enchanted colonies.

What happens when we retire
into a newly autonomous vocational choice?
When all prior spacetime investments
appear to have been apprenticeships
toward what?
Dying?
Living with more freedom
for integrity
and WiseElder slow-grown discernment?

We are so hard-pressed to say
and do
and be wise discerners for internal and external peace
when all our training has been for Win/Lose battles

I struggle to prepare for extending family love
in ever more isolating autonomy
from new life invitations.

What does my environment,
our climate,
my experience,
our story about communal health development
still respect
and hope for loving, yet active, peace?

How do we call and gather elders together
to restore this profoundly interactive peace
inside as outside as inside
Earth’s justice
re-uniting integrity
toward universal love
and away from nationalistic violent hate?

Where do secular models
and sacred maps
together tipping point
toward personal
and political
and economic
and ecological
and theological healthy meaning
today,
rooted in all our civilian yesterdays
with hope for this next regeneration
already waiting within these ancient bones
and eyes for climate healing
within
as without,
below
as above,
inhaling old impoverished retributions
exhaling new health restorations
peaceful home

Retiring developments of active hope,
remaining positive energy,
non-violent doing,
being,
communicating,
praying,
experiencing,
medicating,
meditating,
healing,
living to continue breathing in
dying to breath enrichment out once more.

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Democratic Sanctuaries v Republican Industry

“Our schools are…factories,
in which the raw materials– [Win/Win hopeful] children–
are to be shaped…into products…
The specifications for manufacturing
come from the [pre-millennial] demands
of 20th century [corporate] civilization,
and it is the [competition] business of the school
to build its [robotic white] pupils
according to the [nature wins so spiritual loses] specifications
laid down [by naturally unspiritual disorder].
Dean Ellwood P. Cubberly
Stanford University School of [Fundamentally White] Education
1898

This does feel dated;
A caricature of post-millennial green ecoschools
for healing Earth
as a whole blue/green red-blooded therapeutic system,
sacred ecological home for plants
and ecotherapeutically cooperative people,
resilient bicameral students,
cooperative deep learning robust listeners
to outdoor theological classroom voices
singing more resonantly
restoring ego’s inside harmonic peace
through ecojustice Voices.

Because we passionately disagree with 1898
Big patriarchal robotic incorporated Win/Lose propaganda places
against active and creative multicultural Win/Win integrity,

We also agree with deep learning green STEAM outside classroom models
for healthier
more resilient
more nature-spirit integral education
for allied EarthTribe integrity,
secular/sacred learning solidarity.

We would please our democratic selves more
running cooperatively away
from Bored with MisEducation platforms
and dualistic personalnature v publicspirit loyalty parties

We will do resiliently better health care
giving and receiving
re-celebrating choices for multicultural climate health
over more and more toxic public storm and terror patterns,
Business as uncooperatively unusual outside
while approaching 2020 more vigorously Left with Right aware,
by letting go of 1898 LeftBrain ego dominance inside.

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Stalking Disabling Futures

Why should
or would
or could authority of competing violent colonizing pasts
outweigh responsibility for our cooperative co-arising futures?

People with disabling histories
seem to be more honest,
transparent,
to speak thirsty truth
to dis-integrity of egocentric abilities
practiced to disempower others,
stalking chronic vulnerability to WinLose ZeroSum enculturation.

Sometimes candid integrity,
honesty,
if not dismissed as pie in sky mysticism,
ignored as a not fully developed fool’s errand,
denies BusinessAsUsual WinLose ecopolitical camouflage,

Mendacity hidden behind stalking
competing white lies don’t publicly or privately matter
as much as white male privileged
Western historical enculturation capacities
control
colonizing toward SuperElite
stalking LeftBrain-languaged
deductive/reductive supremacy

Stalking privileges over heart-mind RightBrain disabilities
retaining newborn faith
about our shared abilities
to love all Sacred EarthTribe

With a love preferring non-violent revolutions
working around
and through
and against further patriarchal dominant evolutions,
devolutions stalking remaining undervalued pockets,
populations
nature/spirit populace
resilient residents
of health/wealth co-resonant integrity,
humane/divine trans-physical
omnipresent ability
to love future/past fully

Committed to climate health/wealth,
inside egos and outside ecological poly-theologies

Truth within BeautyGrace
Why should
or would
or could authority of competing violent competing missionary pasts
outweigh responsibility for our cooperative co-arising
secular/sacred
physical/metaphysical
outside/inside
healthy/wealthy
eco/ego-
futures?

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Silent Oceans, Holy Wombs

From Earth’s original OceanicWomb
our DNA regenerate Soul emerged.

Yet these are yet One
Sacred Ecological Nature.

DNA’s memory strings
of Spiritus-Anima Mundi
became Greek encultured MotherWomb
of holistic uniting Earth.

Spiral dipolar poetry of motion
and emotion,
commitments
and recommitments,
bare analogical deep values
for regenerating healthy climates
and internal cognitive wealthy landscapes.

Gaian-formed healthy psyche
LeftBrain voiced through languages
of non-pathologically blessed nature
enspirited multicultures
co-animated creolizations
co-arising Sacred RightBrain Memory,
free of enculturing prisons,
either-or divisive separations.

Gaian Wholeness
with an internal EgoYang face
and an environmental EcoYin
EarthWombed Grace.

One spatial EarthGod
remains statically revolving
becoming many temporal PolyPathic Nurturers.

Earth restorers,
reweaving Bodhisattvas,
CoMessiahs,
EcoYogis
regenerating our infinitely interdependent NetZero
Win-Win HypoTheses.

Where woof and weave 4dimensionally reconnect space
with TaoTime,
a transparent shining bright warm Moment
reflecting and refracting
refolding holonic memories
rediscovered in each other FullColored Pearl
of MultiCulturing Wisdom.

An infinite spiral revolution,
Holonic pattern
of fractal refracturing reflections,
reiterating echoing reiterations.

Each CoMessianic light
an animated resource of Ego-EcoConsciousness
from Sacred Earth’s Nature,
human and otherwise DNA-RNA SolidariTied
like and of double-bound space-time 4D atoms
and their wavy poetic co-arising ways.

A change in each Ego
sparks cosmic change
in all other paradigmatic prism prison lights,
especially those closest,
warmest,
most resonant
on a daily
hourly
eternal moment basis
of story growing poetic narrative,
ecological operas
sung and danced
with sacred analogical
parabolic meanings,
wings spiraling sacrificial intent,
benign Creator-Creation
WinWin purposes of planet health.

Each human Ego
a bicameral balancing string
restoring poetic justice;
what Ego uncovers as Earth’s organic web
Ego also discovers as interdependent with Self.

And vice-versa,
suggesting WinLose dominating evolutionary theories,
psychological and political,
sacred and secular,
are also unresolved WinWin revolutions
toward further ecotherapeutic process

EcoSystems re-aligning poetic spirals
resolving against LoseLose dissonance
dismay
decay
degeneration
of Sacred EarthWomb Gaia
and all Her residents,
regardless of rights to vote for health
or wrongs to disenfranchise
through patriarchal secularization
perpetuating colonization
for yet more Business As Competitive Usual.

4D Seasonal Gaia
becomes a RealTime BiLateral Icon
of nondual WinWin dipolarity.

Great Transitions appositionally lie between Tipping Points
of dualistic bipolar LoseLose aggressions,
rights to retributively wrong
through MightMakesRight ecopolitics.

Gaia remains transparent grace
to deeply nurture
poetic visions,
restoring global peace.

Gaia remains our matriarchal narrative vision
of this MilkyWay Cosmology,
one interdependently amazing emerging moment Whole
through internal reincarnations
of Earth’s cosmically interdependent Universe,
uniting
while abhorring uniformity.

Uniting Universe
as Ego deduced on Earth
as induced from Sacred Oceanic Heavens.

Identity emerging from and toward
a Sacred Paradise
last cooperatively seen before Christian
and Islamic
monoculturing theists
severe secular fallen earth
from Sacred MotherEarth.

A Baylonian error
not predicted
or mentored
or taught
by any nondual Messiah
or Saint
or EcoTherapeutic Healer,
or PermaCultural Designer,
with polyculturing outcome Ego/EcoIntention,
or Restorative EcoJustice Advocate
for this poetic justice Earth planet,

EgoFrames
through EcoTimes
and Matter

Earth purpose
and sacredly healthy DNA
of and for co-redemptive meaning.

Breathing in
to rebreathe out.

Folding Yin to Yin WinWin in
to refold YangYin regenerating polypaths out.

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Saturday Night

It’s another Saturday night
ending this week
as started
alone again.

I came here
almost two years ago
to my retirement hermitage
but oddly,
and often uncomfortably,
shared with my hurt kids,
mental and physical illness
adopted and then adapted;
an asylum for the perpetually incontinent.

Cars pass by.
Sometimes a loud motorcycle
or two or three or four
or even more
here on the southern boundary
of a county seat
in a State
where rural counties
have been disenfranchised
of political purpose.

Our largest employers
are two tribally owned casinos.
One across the Thames River
flowing past our backyard retreat.

Our second largest income producer
may be the County Courthouse
where attorneys and police
collude to extort voluntary donations
from poor young adults
red and yellow,
black and white,
guilty of speeding
and texting
and smoking medicine
without a license
in Great White Father’s sight.

I have been listening and watching
for what this half acre is.
We are not as rural as I had hoped,
with State highway 12 too near my front yard,
but this place is also not urban
or suburban.

What it is not,
whom we are not,
seems more clearly articulated
than any positive definition,
refining our becoming quiet place,
alone together,
shunned by healthier neighbors.

It’s another lonely ending
anticipating yet another not new beginning
tomorrows stretching out alone
long retiring shadows
on this southern edge
of a Connecticut County Seat
without apparent purpose
or co-defining meaning.

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Key EarthHistory Concepts

Key CapitalistYang/CreolistYin BiCameral Concepts

I find a fuzzy irony in this morning’s early search for a new journal notebook, having filled my last from what had been, five years ago, an inconceivably high pile of empty and near-empty notebooks, set-aside for these diurnal reflections on last night’s RightBrain decompositions.

Having determined I have none left, all now filled from inside their front covers all the way back through both sides of their rough grey cardboard back covers, and yet not even entirely comfortable with retiring sixty-five, I began looking through my Oppositional Defiant Disordered and Fetal Alcohol Syndroming and Cerebral Palsied 15-years-old mulatta’s book bins, filled with reminders of choices rooted in seeing her as maybe emotionally 5, yet with all those young adolescent pheromones to confuse her about who she truly might become, looking yet again for her one yet-empty notebook.

She carries this empty-lined notebook with her everywhere she goes, including bed, as if she were the most intent and intense journal-writer there ever was. And she rather too vigorously rifles through it’s battered dog-eared pages, front to back, back to front, it doesn’t matter. Here, she appears to be reading her journal, and yet finding only blank pages about where she has been, and where she is mulatta going.

Ironic, isn’t it, that my life is filled with riches of chock-full WinWin regenerative diastasis, evolutioning symbiosis, ego/eco-sacred prime relational transubstantiation, both secular and sacred integrity of purpose, and rich deep ecological meaning, and yet her life is so frighteningly filled with one empty notebook, I am currently trying to find, to fill with my life, and hide from her constant search for this same one perpetually well-read empty (0)-Source notebook.
The theory of everything ecopolitical described in this paper is a conjecture that starts with a firm conviction that energy, Yangspace and Yin-bilateral time are the only prime relationships in the universe. That means that the universe is really nothing more than energy fluctuating in warped space-time creating all four fractal-forces; the electromagnetic LINE, COSINE, LTR, dopamine-guanine +,+/(+,-)0-primal-fertile force, the strong Yang +,+ WinWin force, the weak Win-Yangforce and Lose-Yin co-gravity.

When we say “the universe” that’s what we’re talking about. Even the quantum particles that seem so real to us are actually just our bi-nomial perception of energy WW-LeftBrain and WL-BiLateral-Appositional Right fluctuations and at the deepest level of reality the primary function of Yang physical form is YinYin/WinWin dipolar co-arising pregenerative-gravitational.

It is interesting to read Edouard Glissant’s “Creolization and the Making of the Americas” (2008, Creolization Quarterly) immediately after finishing Alexander Anievas’ and Kerem Nisancioglu’s “How the West Came to Rule” (2015).

You might think these two historical views of ecopolitical evolution would either have nothing to say to each other, to talk past each other’s from above/from within perspectives, or to rather vigorously argue about which is the victor in the end, WinWin
cooperative regenerative intent and constitutional purpose, Original Content’s purpose and meaning, or Capitalist Elite/NonElite Win/Lose. With NonElite creolized-enslaved also rans, before the West was supremacist, fully economic-colonialized, empowered through piracy, predative WinLose survivalist supremacy over the more WinWin PatriarchalLeft/MatriarchalRight-embryonic nurturing NonElite NonWest.

Yet, I did not find either of these to be the case. For me, reading about post-EliteRoyalist creolizing multiculturing WinWins on cooperatively expanding archipelagos of ecopolitical EarthCommons Left-Right growing commonsense of bicameral ownership and ecosystemic-economic bilaterally nutritional governance, felt like reading the Original Intent of all democratically-optimistic-Positive PolyPathic Systemic Constitutions, while reading through the jaundiced lens of the Elitist-Capitalist-Militarist WinLose-survivalist fear-mongering history of how the Patriarchal LeftBrain Dominance of Western WhiteMale Property and People Owners, felt a little bit like rereading “The Last Hurrah” of what could eventually only monoculturally become LoseLose FinalCurtain for Earth’s future as a living, as opposed to dead, ecosystem.

Glissant negatively defines creolization as not mechanical empire-building autonomy, measured in consumer-growth percentages. Rather, creolization is organic consume/produce symbiosis of WinWin ecopolitical interrelationship, characterized by evolving and revolving EliteLeft-Yang and NonEliteRight-Creolizing-affective integrative multiculturing resonance. Creolizing is Permacultural EcoPolitical Design, with Earth as one cooperatively revolving landscape for producing self-regenerative optimal polycultural climaxing diastatic co-empathic trusting WinWin outcomes.

Glissant moves on from where the “How the West was WinLose-Survivalist Won” toward how this Earth might become WinWin-Regenerativist climate and landscape health sustained. “…the obligation to remake oneself [ecopolitically] every time” is a perpetual revolutionarily diastolic constitutional intent, requiring an interdependent multiculturing capacity of trans-generational nutritional-environmental RightBrain decompositional, bilateral appositional Elite/NonElite re-integration, reweaving internal/external ecopolitical WinWin LeftBrain ego/eco-creolization.

And yet, before we march through too many piles of triumphalistic WinWin regenerative ecopolitical biographies, histories of cultures emerging WinWin systems to also submerge WinLose dysfunctionally unwinding systems, it feels prudent to recall Dr. Jane Anna Gordon’s “tragic mulatta” matriarchal NonElite-suppressed tradition. Primarily brown-skin multiculturally identified, consuming and producing RightBrain inductive chaos and dissonant disorder, tragically culminating in LoseLose suicide, and culminating in LoseLose holocaust of genocide, holonic-caustic claustrophobic ecological-aborting inevitability of Mother Earth’s empty notebooks, LoserMatriarch mulatta, reading LoseLose DoubleBinding (0)-Source PreGenesis; non-biographically self-unmeasuring creole face of Elite Revolutionary CoArising NonDual WestEast How Earth’s Climate Health is WonWon, redundantly like all that stack of journals filling my self/other ego/eco Yang/Yin Left/Right West/East-regenerating WinWin-refractive—WinLose notnot-creole-reflective ecosystemic Fullerian-Eulerian-Bayesian spacetime prime relational (0)-Source PolyPathic Health and WellBeing Theory of Every EcoPolitical CoRevolutionary EcoSystem bookcase.

The next step emerges from the realization that this WinWin ecopolitical cooperative conservation of fractal-thermodynamic regeneracy constrains the YangYin revolution of the universe on all space-time scales.

The resulting Win-regenerative as Lose-degenerative ecopolitical theory provides explanations for dark energy and dark matter as dark-temporally reversed antipathic relationship, particle as Eulerian prime-functional interdependence of spacetime equivalence, as dipolar appositional-systemically functional mass, the quantum frequency characteristics of particles, and the evolution of the universe including its WinWin beginning and possible WinLose survivalist modeled end with bilateral one-dimensional (0)-Sum game theory, supersymmetric polypathic ‘mirror-holonic’ particles, an inflaton-fYang and/or a graviton-fYin equi-valent thermodynamic ecosystemic balance toward fractal-fusing (0)-Core regenerativity [also see Buckminster Fuller, on synergy as creolizing cooperative fractal-climate normative geopolitical DNA-health and RNA-dynamic-strictured wellbeing, including integrative democratization as co-empathic ElitePlanA-NonElitePlanB revolutionary trust].

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Biological Enlightenment

First off,
this is not pick on George Lakoff day
because I love his Political Mind like a brother.

BUT,
yes,
you knew that was coming,
so let me change it right now

AND,
yes, much of the proletariat-patriarchal Enlightenment Era
of the 1700s was weighted toward Transcendence,
so, yes, a tendency toward disembodied,

AND YET,
if we look toward the more bourgeois-matriarchal sector,
especially all those disenfranchised women birthin’ babies,
but also other disadvantaged perspectives of Enlightenment,
these were very much about natural, healthy regenerative richness,
perhaps erotic wonder and climatic awe,
rather than some spiritual experience
more high-brow agapic,
yet no less,
perhaps even rather more,
integrative flow-abundant
embodied
co-mentored and empathically communicated
reverent and sacred enlightenment,
however democratically common
as our universal experience
of diastatic enlightenment
nurtured within a matriarchal integrative womb
rather than embryonically formed
from a patriarchal transcendent penis.

I don’t think red-neck conservative Republicans
are any less interested in,
or committed to,
or capable of,
healthy enlightening polypathic experience
than are progressive Ivy League academic Democrats,
although I do think that those who have healthier nurtured
integrative communication between LeftYang and RightYin hemispheres
are better at finding the WinWin cooperatively enlightening opportunities
while avoiding unnecessary disembodied pitfalls of WinLose choices
suboptimizing regenerative potential
to experience more positive enlightenment-flow power
rather than more cognitive-affective dissonance,
mistrusting antipathies.

These tend to be those
for whom LeftBrain enculturation dominance,
supremacy,
has been less kind than RightBrain’s matriarchal nurturance.

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