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Life Planning Love

We were sitting in our 60+ sharing circle
on a rainy Tuesday afternoon,
grey and raw and dreary,
listlessly speaking of the need to downsize,
to transition to a more manageable
more safe
more audible habitat.

And wanting to hang onto our independent mobility,
our cars, in most middle-class cases,
as long as possible.

We talked about proactive planning optimal independence,
about eventually living with our kids,
about potential confluence and conflicts of interest,
about shrinking invulnerable distances
between “someday,
as far from today,
as possible”
and the lightning quickness
of crushing physical and/or mental disability,
non-communication ability,
through accidents and aneurysms,
unfortunate and therefore unplanned critical events.

We did not talk about
how we felt
courageous and curious,
brave and patient,
afraid and angrily impatient
about how mortal life is what continues
only one day
one uncritical moment
at a time
while planning for other loving things
to unfold before
“no longer sacred SomeTime
as far away from secular today
as physically AND mentally,
naturally and spiritually, possible.

I didn’t notice,
until later,
we also didn’t look at cooperatively-held
unitarian plans
for win/win
health/wealth outcome optimization.

The hypothetical possibility
today
is “someday” for mutual pre-planning
cooperative downsizing
and shared mobility challenges,
resources,
opportunities,
risks,
vulnerabilities,
strengths,
letting go by first grabbing hold
of shared imaginations.

We didn’t talk
about how much we didn’t like
the empty chairs,
About how we miss, already,
Kate and Betsy
Jan and Sandy
and what they are planning
between shared now
and autonomous then.

Their unique and irreplaceable ways
of planning and not planning
pre-planning and re-planning
life each day
while continuing with other relationships
other communications
communions
communities.

I didn’t talk
about wanting to live with other singers
and maybe even dancers,
with others deeply committed to compassion
for both mortal humans
and immortal living Earth

Hopefully,
providing
inviting habitats of warm
cooperatively-owned and -managed
accompaniment,
creative improvisation,
jazz rhythms,
blues beats,

Especially on raw phrases,
dreary riffs,
rain-drenched
Tuesday jamming afternoons
of richly audible gloom.

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The Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Glove

It occasionally occurs to me,

as I distractedly remove my right dominant
Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Glove,
after yet another young adult diaper change,

Perhaps getting lovingly laid
by a lifetime committed
caring and passionately consenting peer
filled with warm compassion,
active hope for tomorrow
would not be the worst conjoining thing
that could happen to neuro-alternatively-challenged intelligent beings
childishly preferring win/win cooperative outcomes
derived from compassionate climaxing thought-feelings together
while experiencing full-sensory resonant mental health.

Then again,
I suppose the same
powder-free examervation might apply
to economic and political narcissists,
and patriarchal double-binary
co-disassociative left v right hemispheres
runaway debating between lonely older aescetics
ordained to fulfill male dominant sublimation
through yin-recessive win/win co-passion’s ostracization,
diminution,
fragmentation,
cognitive-affective dissonance.

And then I wonder
how long will it take
to re-sacralize humane non-elite poop
as richly robust future compost
best for black gold richly embedded fertility,
as I race and gender and age
to throw out plastic scat bags,
filled with cotton and plastic diapers
and under/overpads,
and right dominant
Powder-Free Vinyl Exam Gloves.

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Feminist TaoCulture

RightBrain culture
absorbs and heals
LeftBrain monoculturalism,
capitalism’s win/lose unholy market-structured days
and commodified aggressive nights
pursuing lose/lose fear v anger competitions.

RightBrain multicultural invitations
whisper nutritional health climates
longing for explicit win/win language
to express belongings inside climates
of nature/spirit co-opportunities.

RightBrain polyculture
resists militarized punishing States
and unfree capitalized infamy
Western monopolized white male privileged markets
addictive transactions
enslaving detached unemotional commodification
of people
planet
plants
populations
priorities
predators
prey
places
properties
plans
disregarding health care
climates of cooperative giving
as compassionately receiving.

RightBrain culture
denies we all belong bought and sold
in a win/lose nationalistic competitive market.

RightBrain anti-LeftBrain dominating militarized culture
invites re-attached
re-personalized commitments to each other
in holistic names for Earth
and Her Sun
and GrandMother Moon’s lunar inspirations.

RightBrain polycultural networks
do not reductively function
to secure nation-privileged markets
supporting merely abstract,
detached
lack of freedom
to trust Nature with Spirit
primally secure co-liberations
of co-passionately listening love.

RightBrain cultures
impassion with and for
delighted LeftBrain less ego-consumed
reductive
deductive
dissonant
determined
desperate egocentric identity
within Earth’s well sung dancing climates
of cooperatively nutritious communications
sensations
polyphonic harmonies,
polypathic integrity,
passionately positive potentialities.

Which invites further reflection on why
climate health invites
RightBrain cooperative polycultures
to absorb and heal
LeftBrain competing monoculturalism,

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Right Side of our Bed

Some mornings I awaken slowly
to knowing too much
and yet never enough.

Some nights I drift off quickly
feeling too many disassociating memories,
never inviting enough connection.

Sometimes invitation into a healthier life
feels like addiction to wealthier love.

Sometimes I wonder who decides
when a pregnancy has reached perfect climax;
Where more time inside would become toxic
yet not too soon for optimizing healthy outside invitation
into Earth’s deeper and wider Gaian womb
of spiraling revolution.

Sometimes I feel changed
transformed
more cooperatively win/win co-acclimated
transubstantiated
creolizing
reformed
returning
reviewed by EarthMother ancestors
fulfilling MotherEarth’s rebirth
of DNA-inspired nurturing nutritional prophecies
throughout history’s Six Great Extinctions.

Sometimes we become the post-millennial herstory,
perfectly timed,
not too critically hot
and not too chronically cold
AllSouls culmination of climate rebirthing risk
and mutually therapeutic opportunity;

The Seventh bicameral enrapturing regeneration,
Left ego-natures
and Right eco-spirited,
secular/sacred cooperative,
Either/Or and Both/And
RightBrain more prominently egalitarian,
win/lose and win/win strategic health-game players
universal and unitarian,
walled ego-identities
and yet webbed ecotherapists
Yanged Yinning
seventh inning,

Three diminsional massive space energy
with One ZeroZone bilaterally open dimension
linear and yet non-linear,
perhaps wave spiraling solar and lunar revolutions
from EarthMother into MotherEarth
restoring healthy prophetic rebirth,
not too ego-opportunistically soon
and yet not too ecopolitically late.

Some mornings I awaken quickly
to knowing too much toxic history
and yet never enough therapeutic re-creative herstory.

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Liberation’s Pride

I wonder if fully liberated consciousness
can only focus on integrity
becoming;

If partial consciousness
and unconsciousness of left with right awareness
is the default of dis-integrity,
of wandering through detachment
of unwanted apartheid
and mutual apathy
about integrity’s personal
national
global governing pride,
organic capacity to know
and appreciate
with active listening
and non-violently speaking
compassion.

In “Why Liberalism Failed”
Patrick Deneen
wonders aloud
if Business As Win/Lose Usual
is “the dying gasp
of an old white working class
and the lashing out
of debt-burdened youth”
disenfranchised from classic Enlightenment
and Reformation hope
in a global
multicultural climate
of integral healthy-wealth.

Deneen worries,
as does post-millennial emerging consciousness,
We are 20-20 witnesses
of climatic pre-revolutionary ecosystems,
and so, thereby,
victims of individual ego-systemic failure
due to lack of active consciousness,
active hope for liberating organic integrity.

Complex Reformation/Enlightenment,
EitherOr/BothAnd integrity
co-arising democracy’s win/win cooperative trust,
now at risk of becoming
a failed natural experiment
in multiculturing organically proud curiosity,
integral courage
to listen with compassionate attachment
before speaking foolishly
of competitive
detached
mendacious mechanisms.

Human experience is not rooted
in win/lose evolutionary machine models
of robotic mutual autonomy, detached,
Although these attributes
lie within the organic planting and harvesting skill set
of left-brain’s active integrity,
listening for how best to seed
and feast on co-empathic health awareness.

This morning
my Fetal Alcohol inspired
dis-integrity daughter
pulled out her tight white T-shirt,
a gift from her brother’s African-American nurse,
liberated,
proud.

In big black letters,
except for the hot pink cursive “ignoring”
her black on white shirt announces,
defiantly,
“I’D LISTEN TO YOU
BUT ignoring YOU
IS SO MUCH EASIER.”

Polarized self v other,
ego v eco,
left v right,
northern white patriarchal privilege
v southern ecofeminist integrity
of all courageous curiosities
except racist and sexist intolerance,
disintegrity,
does involve and invest heavily in “ignoring”

But, resulting detached and mechanistic models
of win/lose global lack of positive
liberating
progressive
organic experience,
are not easier to consciously perceive,
they’re just less extended family pride awareness,
too disassociated identity
reified from integral roots
of EarthMother’s multicultural compassion.

Integrity as revered and worshiped,
sung and danced
by both health Reformers
and would be wealth EnLighteners,

Left activists
and Right bicamerally active listeners
to proud liberated integral memories
and future climates of win/win images
mapping organically interdependent experience,
political and economic
Yang thought and Yin felt
co-passioning integrity.

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Curiously Wealthy Paths

Vulnerability brings both risk
and opportunity.

Within a creolizing love communion,
intuitive sensitivity produces healthy heart-path outcomes
for oneself
and others,
with opportunity for win/win escalation,
contagion,
cooperative curiosity
that overwhelms,
yet mutually embraces,
competition-edged courage;
risky competitions in courageous transparency.

What need of courageous vulnerability
where and when curious transparency
quickly wins this healthy good day?

For all within Earth’s sacred wealth communion
so radically
co-passionately invited,
conservative with courageous competing risks,
liberal in interdependent love opportunities
creolizing life’s communal invitations.

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Life On Top

I long to be the top new-green leaf
on the tallest swaying spring breeze tree
in my florid fragrant late-spring neighborhood.

Not to lord myself
as superior to all my more fundamentally plebeian brethren,
but to celebrate this vast sisterly view
of who we sunlit glowing are
becoming toward summer’s climax together,

Then falling gracefully
in full colored autumn,
when I will have the longest downward flighting float
of all migrations

Becoming, once again,
a sacred part of snow-covered soil
feeding next spring’s tallest new-green leaf
of All transregenerators.

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