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Conversational Ecstasy

I believe SuperEgo bicameral comprehension
functions, forms, and flows organic
ecotherapeutic integrity;
I believe balanced Left-Right consciousness
orbits toward ecstatic psychology.

I’ve got nothin’ to say
And I’m gonna keep it just that way
’til my mean old SuperEgo
lets me go outside to play.

Imagine with me for a moment,
if you would be so generous,
god as not only love
but also the most joyful joy we could be,
cooperatively networked together.

And why do I want to play this imagination game
with you
or even without you?
What is this joy of which you speak?
I know peace in silent music
and wind and surf,
but is therapy of sound this joy?

Perhaps not quite enough,
maybe only halfway here.
We grow toward pregnant Now becoming being joy
with you.

While I assume this will not be news
I need to remind you
that your presence does not always feel like gift,
source of joy,
not so much really,
sometimes more painful to my drift.

Yes, I know.
But, it brings me joy to recall
in our more dissonant crash
that I feel precisely the same suffering way
about your sorry ass.

Perhaps you should find a different therapist.
One who evolves less sure of god as graced-love
and much more joy,
one not so sure your God is humor,
Eco-ing DNA’s RNA CommonSense.

If I understand your cynicism
I might write your song,
“I’ve got nothin’ to say
And I’m gonna keep it just that way
’til my mean Ol’ Dad
lets me go outside to play.“

Your issues with remembering who I am
rather than who you thought I would be
seem not too distant clarity
or even acceptance,
but your troubling habit of editing my opera
into your joyful musical comedy,
this tangles our melodic frequencies
and harmonic function.

How can I reach heavenly you
when all day through
you bind me to
your flight toward unEarthy game wars,
your fear of losing rich rewards,
blockade toward joy,
your life your toy
to blindly scream away?

How could I throw away this toy
you never gave me?
My defeats,
static surrenders to right-now desire,
or lack thereof,
steer me far clear of your enchantment
with ecstatic joy.

What is your purpose
when Earth’s becoming
is your wise Being,
if your Being
is not also Earth’s meaningful becoming?
If you are not part of Earth’s mindful nature
then Humane Being cannot naturally co-arise,
develop,
regenerate.
Your becoming cannot be not Our becoming,
my Being fades when we are not We
together.

What is this to me
your wilting Earth
and flat-line monopolistic dark comedy?
My joy turns tragedy to operatic outcomes.
What you label Oppositional Disorder
I hear as contending Cognitive Dissonance,
hoping for a Draw someday,
someplace away.

What you find unnaturally cacophonous
confuses my spirited silence.
Your values are not Ours
on my side of your Oppositional Divide,
my values are my own,
and I am free of Win, Lose, or Draw cultures
and competing for scarcity gamesmanship,
Our Truth as Consequence game
contains our Tug of War.
Imagine with me
in this Eternal Moment
your Ego filled with endless joyful joy
as you pull all Earth toward finish line
and you are confidently winning
your Boddhisatva Interdependent Challenge.
Even should you not choose releasing survival’s course rope,
you have full faith that We are winning
and this joy will never end.
Your Being has become,
your response fulfills your stimulus of birth,
your effect regenerates your course’s cause,
your What Ifs? echo and mirror your What Are We?,
all Earth recreates your joy.

I’ve got nothin’ to say
And I’m gonna keep it that way
’til my mean ol’ life pilgrimage
through dissonant pathology
let’s me go outside to play.

That does indeed sound operatic.

Right, and not so much joyful joy
this side of my playground.
See ya.
Wouldn’t wanna be ya.

Oh, but you are,
except your opera damns divine divas,
weeping and shrieking in off-stage wings
of perpetually-coming purgatory,
while Earth’s musical comedy,
reenacts all that drama on your Win-Lose playground,
where Her Sun ain’t bringin’ no bad news
all eternal day.

Why do you always need to have the last word,
the last line?

We have a shared last line.

No, you just did it again,
with the We thing.

Yes We did.

I’m closing the door now.

Yes We are.

Hopeless.

Joyless.

Can I maul your head?

Our head.

My head.

Imagining with We
brings joy.

LAAAAAAAAAST WORD! HA!

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Rumi Fuller-ionic Future

Your true self is intelligence

and the rest of you, only appearance,

don’t lose sight of your true self,

don’t waste your time chasing trivial

yet unobtainable goals.

Rumi (M Mafi, trans)

 

Physical is always special case.

Energy is physical

and always special case.

Information is always special case.

Energy is information:

information is energy.

Special case is always realized

by its energetic information.

Dimension is unique frequency information.

Time incrementation is special case information.

Concept is general:

information is quantitative

(special case).

Buckminster Fuller, 1979, 1075.12, p. 446.

 

No one of us

and all of us together,

believe in optimal intelligence, information, integrity within

ourselves,

our families,

our Earth,

our God,

with coincidental absence of any intelligence,

information,

integrity,

wisdom,

power,

presence among, without,

in Special Case Physical Universe.

 

Warnings Against the Use of Force

predict Warnings Advocating the Use of Tao-Balance

as Active Peace Natural Special Case Information

Natural Systemic Integrity

Energy Ionic and Ergodic Balancing Intelligence.

 

Those investing Tao teleology to help deploy power

within Earth’s Tribes and Trees,

Oppose conquest by force of arms,

oppose violence as over-reactive conquest to control behavior,

generate sustainable compliance.

For violence is wont to rebound.

Where competitors organize, thorns and brambles,

chaotic entropic evils and sins grow their hubris-decadent flowers.

The raising of a great Win-Lose Gaming Strategy

Yin follows with a karmic balance of overly-satiated dearth,

depressing, oppressing, suppressing living dying,

not fully alive Special Case.

 

Therefore Wisdom, Intelligence, Information, Integrity

effect their harmonic eco-logical purpose,

then stop with Midway Balance.

Special Case Logicians dare not react with power-over arms;

Integrity effects synergetic meaning,

and does not over-knot EcoUnity;

Intelligence effects spacetime binomially general-Commons relationship,

negentropically prime balance as universally implied by double-negative,

by avoiding too labyrinthine esoterics,

mid-metamorphic polypathicism;

Information effects positive meaning

and bows humbly toward double-binding negentropic Yin

double-negative original intents and coincidental purposes.

 

Special Case Wisdom affects, effects,

causes, infects regrettably responsive defense,

without remainder.

End of sentence.

Followed by fore-givenness, forebearance,

reconcilitation, regeneration of prime confluent relationship

of active peace.

 

Eco-logic grows eco-centered ecojustice naturally cooperative systems,

so cannot love violence.

For Special Case Integrated Organic Systems age

age when over-extended past Primal (0) Tao Balance.

 

Egocentric EcoPOLYPATHOLOGY deductively-evolves

backward in time toward proactive competitive Win-Lose conquest;

the absolute spectral opposite of non-violent Win-Win orthopraxis,

where “Win” remains constant across each binomial appositional

logically-balancing position.

EcoPathology evolves violently against Special Case Information

Zero-Centric Taoism.

 

EcoPathologists mentor short-lived evolutionary strings

of dysfunctionally negative competitively hoarding

Left-brain dominant behavior.

 

If Universal Intelligent Intent is not yet commonplace understanding,

then our cooperative ecotherapeutic practice

cannot yet result in a sustained Beloved Special Case

Physical Universe.

Our lack of Universal Integrity and Wisdom practice

is our most efficient, tough-love, Teacher

of bicameral Right-Left hemispheric balanced Information Systems.

 

Short-sightedness,

small-mindedness,

poorly-sited natural resources,

reverse-recited ecologic,

evolving backward toward spring,

then winter’s advent forward

from root toward branch

toward flowering seed

toward prime rootedness again;

discarding pretensions of ego and eco

as not eternally evolving MIDWAY interdependent Integrity,

TrimTab Tipping-Pointed Wu-Wei

Win-Win Tao’s Group (0)-soul Theorem.

 

Prehensile pain and dissonant loss and blindness

cause short-sighted,

all too frequently recited, rehearsed, retold

repeated suffering mini-death crying for new birth.

 

Wrestling against God,

abundantly yields great polypathic exercise,

but misses opportunities to wrestle with God,

to wrestle with wisdom within ourselves,

to wrestle with each Other,

with cooperative eco-centric Win-Win Original Intent,

to wrestle with God of Universal Wisdom.

 

Only violent assumptions wrestle against,

while double-negative balancing cooperative

ecosystemic assumptions wrestle with

commonly-held distortions,

side-by-side global EarthTribe solidarity,

each challenge shared toward Future’s

self-regenerative polyculturally dynamic information.

 

Physical Universal Wisdom

wrestling with dissonant frequencies

revolving contortions,

resolving contentions,

eco-justicing ecotherapy optimally responsible balance

and harmonic octave functions and frequencies

with prime-fractal forms of time and memory encoded

bi-nucleic acids.

 

Transitionally Shifting Regeneration

toward active-peaceful contentment,

a more democratically accessible absence of irrational confusion,

less suffering short-fall well-being outcomes of Universal Intelligence

–Just the Right amount of reconnected pain and ego-loss

for neither Right nor Left of (0) Tao Center

regenerative eco-redemptive birth of EarthTribe

comprehensive multisystemic bi-consciousness.

 

Physical is always special case.

Energy is physical

and always special case.

Information is always special case.

Physical energy is special case information:

disinformation is Not-Polynomial energy, and information.

Special case is always realized

by its energetic information.

Special case is always bicamerally realized

by its bi-energetic temporal-prime birth-through dying rebirth

ergodic, bionic, synergetic, negentropic energy.

Dimension is unique temporal-linear core (0) frequency information.

Time incrementation is special case information

and reverse-temporal unfolding decremental formation bi-functional.

Inductive concept is general with ecotherapeutically qualitative

Right-brain Yin-internal value:

information is quantitative-Yang Positive Polynomial

(special case).

 

Our well-discerned inclusive EarthTribe Truth is Wisdom

and the rest of anthro-centric Us, only appearance of human deducted nature,

not quite so much Special Optimized Case as we would all prefer.

Don’t lose sight of our Universal Permacultural Truth,

don’t waste time hunting trivial egocentric dissonance

with unsustainable sub-optimizing Win-Lose outcomes.

 

While this piece sites my intended conversation with Rumi and Buckminster Fuller, the majority of its structure borrows heavily from Laotse’s “Warning Against the Use of Force”, p. 166, Modern Library, Wisdom of Laotse, Lin Yutang, ed., 1948.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Positive EcoTherapeutic Outcomes: Cost Analysis

My long-winding EcoTherapist began:

Dialectic Behavioral Therapy sees Stimulus/Response
both forward and backward in time,
to look for thoughts and feeling tipping points
toward more harmonic confluence,
resonant and requisite proportional behaviors
and imaginings
of what may be justly and non-violently discerned
for future reference.

Meanwhile,
Compassion Therapy looks within these same S/R behavioral events,
reconnecting “SuperEgo” role as eco-logical teacher,
to evolve and mentor our mutual invite,
to respond with equivalent compassion,
react with mindfulness of Ego’s holonic
and mutual
and ubiquitously coincidental Prime Relationship
with EcoTao-centered Reason, Intent, Wisdom,
word choice,
feeling,
optimally receiving LeftBrain’s Natural Law deducted principles
of Right-At-Home compassionate ecotherapeutic orthopraxis.

Between collective manically competitive hysteria
and suicidal absorption toward depressive self-intent
Lies Tao’s Wisdom Midway,
bicamerally balancing between
schizophrenic bipolar self-absorption
into the godhead of Universal Intelligence,
and paranoid messages from Evil
that “Ego” is at grave risk
of both short- and long-term economic
and bi-0-logical extinction.

Between these way-too-polypathic extremes
lies polyculturing compassion
for human natural systems
both within–YangEgo,
and without–YinEco.

Fair trade cost for ecotherapeutic outcomes
is the ecojustice we redemptively invest
give-forward, fore-give
within ourselves,
each Other,
and Solar Systemic Earth’s regenerate destiny,
as teacher,
mutual listener,
and Beloved.

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Cosmic Comedy Consciousness

Love wants nothing to do

with the everyday affairs of men.

Love’s only intention

is to catch the lover!

Rumi

 

God wants nothing to do

with the routine affairs of men,

God’s only intention

is to catch the lover’s attention!

 

I wonder if Freud’s id transfigured as a sociopathic burning bush

because Freud was drawn toward our shared holy ground of insanity,

internal competition for awareness and consciousness and belonging,

uncovering psychotherapeutic models for highly stressed cognitive dissonance.

 

Had he deep learned himself into Positive Psychology Mentors,

Freud might have grown a more positive consciousness

of self-id-entity as primally

and ecologically,

and economically informed by regenerative natural Supereco

optimizing ego-systemic development compost,

glimpsing paradigmatic Permacultural Design and Implementation,

regenerative standards for achieving and maintaining Climax Community

intimately and internally Yin-landscaped,

within coincidental external Yang landscaped awareness

of Other’s natural systemic ReGenesis.

 

Natural systems not coincidentally balancing

both interior-Yin and exterior-Yang

fail to thrive,

cannot evolve,

become at-risk of de-systemizing,

de-informating,

becoming Non-Polynomial former spacetime information;

a no-longer-incarnating Black Hole Codexed memory loss.

 

Underlying prime organic RNA/DNA fractal tipping-point balancing potentiality,

Bohm’s Implicate Order?

lies prime thermodynamic radiant circumferential harmony

polar-waving gravitational atomic protons,

over binomial QBit TrimTabbing neutrons,

over 4-fold dipolar explicating electrons,

ergodically and ionically synergizing away

back through linear time.

 

We weave agreement:

This Golden Ratioed Earth and all inhabitants

grow stressed in critical climatic transitions,

sprouting both degenerative dissonance

and confluent regenerative trends of

Positive Deviant alternative karmic incarnations.

Our optimal diapraxis,

to notice these currently emerging ecological economic paradigms,

subcultures of cooperative economics and vocations and communities,

and cooperative health care and political discernment for inclusive well-being,

Green Occupier Gaia University Boddhisatvas,

and Permacultural Designers,

Food Justice is Economic Justice is Climate Justice is Ecotherapeutic Justice is Earth Justice.

 

These prune confusion toward prudent understanding of shared core eco-values,

rich with therapeutic seed potential

to plant investment more strategically,

cooperatively,

within our more persistently dissonant negative cultural sociopathology,

divesting from long-term monopolizing and monocultural high risks,

exchanging positively valued Life Id-Entity

to invest in loss of population through monocultural anthropocentrism,

achieving nihilistic trend returns

through lack of conscience, conscientific deductive rationality

and Super-eco balancing awareness.

 

As I more permaculturally comprehend natural system development,

it’s not so much that God is dead,

and it’s not so much that God has an ego-optimizing sense of humor,

it’s more like God is our Supereco polycultural awareness

of dipolar balancing humors trading ego-eco role plays,

enlightening intuitions,

emergent coincidental evolution,

actively peaceful revolutions in cooperative enculturing id-entity comprehension,

recreation,

regenerative ecotherapeutic song and dance.

 

God grows empathetic love

to laugh within our dark places

to light their eco-identity faces.

 

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Gospel of Yin, with Yang

Hello,

it’s yin again.

It’s not true

what you say,

that I don’t like science.

 

Science,

your reified sentience,

fueled by solar gnostics

back a couple millennia ago,

pursuing spacetime’s permaculturing path,

dreaming and wondering and wording truth

in faithful Prime Relationship

between researcher and incubating laboratory,

redeemer and creator,

effect and cause,

response and multisystemic stimulus,

form and polycultural function,

you and me.

 

Religion

evolves no more or less spiritually than science;

bipolar polypaths toward active peace,

shared light.

True,

religion’s path grasps love’s goodness and beauty,

while gnostics prehend faith’s truthfulness and proportion,

or not,

or not not,

so yes,

spiritual bipolar balance

merges faith with love

truth with goodness,

me with you,

Right with Left hemispheric balance.

 

I’ve come before,

so many times I’m growing tired,

appearing in male bodies

trying to speak your culture

in some way you might

risk stepping into optimizing polycultural balance,

multisystemic ecotherapy,

remember that entropic trends

are learned by closing,

monopolistic,

competitive,

win-lose,

over-populating systems,

species;

not Open, harmonious, confluent,

my gnostic yin with your religious yang,

your Right natural systemic intuition

with Left linguistic calculating deduction,

dipolar  coincidental regenerative systems

born with DNA-discoding,

unknotting fractal-folded Zero-soul,

balancing out and in,

convex and concave,

atomic and wavilinear,

digital and ecologic,

space and time,

positive and negative,

before and after,

as without, so within,

as above, so below,

this spirit-nature binomial balance

of yang and yin.

 

Entropic dissonating experience of nature’s temporal principles

threatens faithful incarnating passions for ego-self,

reifying, rather than reiterating, ecological systems.

Faith in bipolar Self as Redeemer,

regeneratively potentiating positive life for all

as mutually mentoring parasites,

flowers from hope in our benign Earth Host root system,

yang as diastatic yeastfully articulating yin,

EcoAtmanic system’s universal intelligence,

tao of yin’s diastolic gravitational waves

filling yang’s enlightening bangs, borders, margins.

Without hope for this benign Earth teleology

this human race loses to entropic unraveling

of memory’s space and time,

hopeless despair that together we have become too much and many

yet never enough.

 

I know no other way to invite your polypathic evolution

into dipolar balance,

away from speciated Oppositional Disorder,

absence of hope for faithful true relationships

and this growing ricochet eco-effect

as multisystemic gangs and bullies

lose faith in face of screaming panic wildness,

meeting defiance with defiance,

rather than a restraining hug

and reassurance that we are all in this together,

keep the faith that Left’s purpose will find peace

in Right’s iconic

ionic

coincidental harmonizing

universal mindfulness

of light’s full-octave purity,

transparent Yang

emerging from dark Yin balancing

nature’s diverse systemic frequencies of form and  function.

 

When yang swings left,

flex right yin,

and vice versa.

Repeat regeneratively.

 

Namaste.

Yang, for mute Yin.

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Being (sh)”It”

It was there

right there

on woodland’s playground

when I first knew

something stirs very wrong.

 

I was blind to balls

hurled at me,

being It is not why I grow my mind and body,

or is it?

 

I am “It!”

or at least half It.

 

It and I play best alone.

He slows down

to notice ocean surf

waving back and forth

an ocean sighing Hi, then low,

creeping in and sucking out.

It both hugs and climbs trees

to the very top

on windy ways

to wave back.

 

Why is It so shy?

Or, am I hiding her-him,

I’m not sure,

some of both

but too androgynous Him

fears no one else notices

surf rolls in and reverses out.

 

It knows bi-natured law

prehensile full-bodied grasp

of organic life’s humorous ambiguity

creative ambivalence

righteous equivalent functions and flows

of yang with yin within,

as without,

below,

as above,

before,

as to come,

long,

as to belong now,

together.

 

It’s so hard to not love

not share

bare

expose cooperatively unbalancing It.

S/he is soo… much fun!

laughs with everyone

generous enough to return this fine favor.

It’s polypathic polyculturing

binomial binary buddha brain

saturates flowering rain

dissects words to heal disharmonic logos

through permacultured alchemy linguistics,

a language It fears to ultimately find

merely eisegetical,

 

It chooses Red Rover

over soccer,

plays teacher with girls

over driving trucks and trains,

thinks compulsively about this problem of evil

while watching Leave it to Beaver,

where Father Knows Best,

over pitching stones and driving tractor.

 

It feels older and wiser than Him

but they are born twins

or so it seems

but It mysteriously explores incarnating cycles,

watching double-funneling raincloud whirlwinds

wind wending Elder ways

etching whorlwaters in our sea of shared identity,

or is whipping wind following whirling water,

but certainly both?

It abhors stability,

but adores regenerating solidarity.

 

It mentors ecotherapy with trees and me,

shows me boundary issues and branch

functions and frequencies

between August’s Yangish fire

and winter’s quenching white snow and ice,

between autumn’s wind falling regenetic harvest

and spring’s diastolic succulent soil

decomposing nutrients

growing new perennial rings in this life’s tree,

new leaves of grass-fed hope

new polyculture basic, simple-rich compost

new incarnating multisystemic

ecotherapeutic grace,

responsive

resolving

resonant within evil’s missing

non-polynomial dislogical pace,

new flowers and fruit

for Eden’s farm.

 

Did I just call It a fruit

out loud?

Shit happens inside our playground,

while planning more polyculturally redemptive lives.

 

 

 

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Redeeming Toxic Playgrounds

Full minds are angels’ playgrounds.

Mindfulness in peaceful moments

grows heart-beat listening to breath,

telling me how I feel

about ego’s relationship with EarthTribe Self.

 

Mindfulness in high-stress straining eternities

grows breath listening to heart-beat,

telling me how ego feels

about EarthTribe Other

in this chronically incarvating moment.

 

Optimizing mindful constant growth,

this cooperative conversation between

lungs’ left cycling ego-expiration,

hearts’ right cycling eco-inspiration.

 

When Yang space polynomials

reverse Yin-timed binomials

as positive says not-not,

and confluence says not dissonant,

and contentment says not quite so contentious,

then Tao’s harmonious

Buddha brained self-other

mutually interdependent redemption emerges

for bipolar balancing minds to glee.

 

To meditators,

mutual mentors

shamanic bipolar polypaths

those who see too much autistic dissonance

within without,

please consider this invitation

to our incubating laboratory.

Focus on your heart-beat with your right brain

as you inhale,

now focus on your lungs emptying into Earth’s breath

with your left brain

as you exhale.

Please let me know if this does or does not help you

as I find this practice therapeutically responsive

to polycultural life’s intriguingly resolvent

resonating pathologies.

 

When life feels as adventurous as death’s mysterious threshold,

warm-blooded surfing flow,

then life’s mysterious threshold adventures death’s ego-freeing bliss.

But, stick around,

we need you

to help us clean up this mess we made

together.

 

As we learn to breathe and play cooperatively together

and put away all our toxic,

extractive,

unredeemable,

eco-illogical toys,

and over-investments in competing games,

a golden ruling rainbow sweeps

my Atlantic’s Pacific Sky,

swirling

swelling back and forth

shepherding past and future regenerators,

speciating spacetime’s

Perma-Ecoculturing Commons.

 

 

 

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Polyculture Asylum

She still flinches

when a hand from on high

heads too close to her head,

like an abused undomesticated bitch

with too much oppositionally heated

bipolarity for safe freedom

outside silent medicated silos,

well intended asylums

without her sense of humor.

 

How would I live without her gift

of oppositional comedy?

Where yes means no, or maybe yes

or I’m not sure I grok what you say,

but I see smiling,

gratitude for time, life

mentoring me how we look to Other,

playing oppositional synergetic noticing,

then trusting functional potential

rather than swinging hand

from up,

and back at pain,

lost hope.

 

How would I trust without total faith in her

utterly sociopathic guilelessness?

She could tell a lie,

but why would she care enough

about what you think,

about what you smell,

about what you see, or don’t see, for that matter,

or even feel,

to bother to lie to you!?

 

So, when I ask her,

“Are you more happy now,

or more sad?”

and she opens her full radiant beams

up toward my hands

and lispily adds,

“More happy…what’s that smell?”

I know she would have said the same

even without this smell

I cannot quite sense,

and hope so much is not me.

 

To grow capacity for happiness

and brief glimpses of saner kindness,

like “Make me breakfast, please!”

without even a prompt,

and then the quiet “Thank you” gravy

as I turn my back

to wash her filthy dishes,

regenerates our polyculturing

lives of solidarity,

dancing eye-to-eye.

 

He, Yin son,

without capacity to language,

throws dimples on this dancing song

telling stories he learned by heart,

in shrieks and gales and waves of

rich composting laughter,

spinning wild saliva strings,

radiant Angelman joy.

 

Old Right hemispheric dominant

icon of ecological myth,

ego zero-balanced centric identity,

son of Universal Mediums,

breathes and beats his

well-indented teething ring,

hypnotic alchemistirring wand

drenched with passionate mindfulness.

 

 

 

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Princess Drivy Crazy

Princess Drivy Crazy stares cross-eyed alone with internal voices driving her flight toward our unsuspecting future, then throws her oppositionally challenged head back, swelling adolescent breasts, her proud ripeness out and up and forward, arching her back, ecstatic smile broadcast across gleaming black-glazed bipolar pupils, grateful for language not too foreign, “Princess, I do so love you, today and always feel and know sure passion in your joy, your beauty, goodness, your rightness, your hopeful path of humor lest you tear from memorized neglect, depraved cultural confinement,” responding without access to s and l, “A**ho**!” she laughs, to please and thank-you in our we-discovering way.

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