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Why I Am Here

At the Planet Gym
embodying my best business
when suddenly I wonder

Why am I here?
repeats
and repeats
in my wandering ear

And what magic
might appear

Isn’t that queer?
Not WHY am I here
with these Straight People

because this overpopulated question
may obscure other
quieter
ambidextrously resourceful directions
less shaded by fear
of robust diversity

I suppose
But, what can I hear
about why am I here?
and not over There
on the Other side

What two-sided relationships
would I need
to become fully here today?
and all seasons yet to arrive
in this sacred home of People
Plants
and PlanetEarth

With gratitude,
I supposeā€¦
but, Why am I here
again?

Cannot mean
only those purposes and means
asso-sedated with my home address
and sometimes needy
sometimes hostile
[downright spankin mean]
neighbors

More creature comforts,
certainly
AND we search for sacred meaning
inside
more intimate

Spiritual enlightenment
perhaps shyer,
timid
early childhood Loser-Trauma

Drama messages
win/lose valuable

Vulnerable communications
with imperfect win/win transparent closets

Hiding chronic stress histories
of anxiety
longing for sacred peace,
or even just a secular piece, you know,
now and again

For chronic stress,
anxiety

Longing for peace
or restored ego-resilience,
or at least a restored recliner

Happiness, and a marketable craft
and EarthMother teaching skills

For relearning not sad gladness
in hope,
joy
in anticipation,
gratitude
for opportunities
to co-invest
in always interesting neighbors

In the Planet Gym
mindbodying
our best health business.

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AnthroScenic Genes

My matriarchal genetic line
of narrative
not quite sublime
resonantly erupts
regeneratively abrupt

Loves repeating
robustly carnal wisdom’s long
drawn out song

Continuously unabated
with unconditional
transgenerational regard
is something emerging more
than simply not not hated

Unlike our discontinuous patriarchal lines
drawn win/lose competitively
dominating lies
across sandy soils, now quaking
under shaking stubborn feet
awaking.

Where Mom will wake
each morn to greet
this life feels glad
to peacefully repeat

While Dad will scowl,
invoke defeat
his love was lost
in-dus-trials
of empty sad
repeat

Monotonously monotheistic
monopolizing maniacal statistics
monoculturally atheistic
monochromatically dominating
anthro-supremely
down with EarthRights
hedonistic.

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Seventh Generation ReOrientation

What have we learned?

What is our big 2020 revision takeaway
from this win/lose
zero-sum failure

To transparently cooperate
for our most inclusive win/win health
and long-term safety,
economic
and political
and social
and physical
and mental health
resilience?

From my own observation,
probably colored
multihued and complexly patterned
by Integral Permaculture Design,

And Community Mediation
for restorative peace resolutions
in perennial win/lose retributive conflict situations,
clashes between conservative LeftBrain dominant
and liberal RightBrain interdependent cultures.

  1. To optimize resilience
    for at least the next seven generations,
    the next 140 years,
    bringing us to the year 2160

Here, on our cooperatively co-invested home planet,
we could choose to return to indigenous wisdom,
to include health and safety of our trees,
our neighbors,
rivers,
our soil
our water supply,
our green renewable energy resources,
our fresh and clean river valleyed breezes,
our plants,
our domestic animals,
our wild animal cousins
our sacred EarthMothers.

We do better when our healthy safe priorities
remain broadly contextualized,
less LeftBrain boundaried,
broadening our ecosystemic spatial identities
and deepening our speciated individuation
back through monotheistic history
of this now troubling
post-millennial
StraightWhiteMale privileged
LeftBrain corporately dominant
Anthropocene

Predicting unprecedented ecocide,
genocide,
rabid polarization,
economic divestment
and overwhelming political mistrust

During which no healthy democracy
could resiliently endure
as long as our infrastructure,
concrete
steel beamed
bricks and mortar,
budgets and financial planning,

Omit choosing cooperative win/win games
and ecofeminist green co-investment strategies
for health and safety
of our now excluded trees,
plants,
planet

EarthTribe
everyday multiculturing
sacredly resonant
creolization liturgies
of LeftBrain co-intelligence
loving RightBrain co-empowerment.

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Loving Jose

Yes, Jose,
this is another love letter
from anthroprivileged me
to LeftBrain dominant you
for multicultural us.

I’m still here
sinking into my deep blue camp chair
with feet resting on a weathered
wooden platform
for my monastic tent

Now folded
and masterfully squeezed into its storage bag
like a fat green sausage
with a thick
black fly zipper,
secure,
awaiting it’s next orgasmic coming out
to camp and play.

And you,
warm and glistening
listening you,
are still driving
west toward this transition
Saturday’s bittersweet sunset.

Perhaps already lonely
thinking
of what
and feeling whom
lies ahead
while all else feels left behind

Another week of adventure lost;
another week of memories gained

Yet memories have grown cacophonous
while adventures in knowing
new frontiers
grow old as shrinking Earth
grown bodies

Fading hope to feel
taste
see
hear
smell
touch abundantly enough
for this full life
experiencing love
quenched time

Comparing future now to back there then,
wishing we could have us all
warm and pleasant
in our head,
heart,
bed of intimacy
without embarrassing
premature limits,
boundary issues,
health precautions.

You tried to apologize
for not asking more
about my wounded kids

And I did not think to apologize,
but wonder, now, that I didn’t,
for not asking how you are feeling
and dealing
post prostate cancer

Remissions
feel like uncertain transitions,
undemanding admissions
both healthy opportunities
and diseased risks
lie beyond this day’s journey
toward Albany.

Perhaps you,
like me,
fear
and already feel
loss of intimacy
imagined
yet not touched,
thought
but not appreciably,
healthy needed
but not safely found,
sacred bound
for joy’s immense integrity.

When I walked into our group’s enclosed porch
this past Sunday
for my first check-in circle,
your first facilitation,
I thought of my former boss.

You look and sound
like Bishop Tafoya,
when he was your age
and I was half your age.

I had trouble
shaking this sage off.

It helps
that you sing
with warmth and passion
in fulsome baritone,
as the good Bishop
decidedly did not.

Nor could I imagine him
dancing with a white scarved fan
with integrity
flirtatious machismo
joyfulness
deeply resounding playfulness.

Do you have a type?
I wonder
Are you familiar with mine?

Those romantic,
erupting into erotic,
miracles of preference
we cannot control
or calm our appetites
to accept
AND appreciate,
anticipate
those with us
here and there
in and out of Gayla 44,
after and before
now heading west
away from east.

So much to hide,
to learn,
to unveil,
to set aside
for graceful aging,
and to warmly embrace
for compassioned wisdom
felt together,
rather than silently,
less sacredly,
apart.

The Center’s lunch bell rang
and now has gone

Absorbed by quiet shushing
and rustling
high in evergreens
baking in Mama’s summertime
weekend of commerce
and less commercial passions,
traffic rituals,

Pre-empting ancient natural liturgies
of sea,
flowing water
and strong mountains
inspiring bonfires
bond-fire between rising
and falling phoenix
conjoining
co-investing
multi-generational passions;
daddies and sons,
masters and slaves,
tops and bottoms,
poles and holes,
straights and rounds,
dipolar co-arising

Riding forward home
to what continues repurposing why,
reworking hidden meaning
as yet unredeemed
in sensory Business As Usual

Backward east
returning promises
of safe and healthy
bright happy new dawns
transcending broken hearts,
troubled mind’s
loss of time’s
most cherished values

Love’s integral compassions
resting first
returning last

Already
I miss you
ready to miss us.

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Scientific Artists

Scientists,
like health focused democrats,
have universally applicable intentions
when designing research questions.

Artists,
unlike capital-endowed elitists,
enthuse over unitarian themes
of balance and beauty
when designing interactive responses.

Egos,
like healthy ecosystems,
polyculturally thrive
where integrity evokes
joyfully compassionate
souls

Scientifically left exploring purposes
for and of
artistic right meaningful
sacred feelings.

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NonViolent Spaces

Where all humane souls repent
of contempt
for our EgoSelf
against our EcoOthers

And celebrate,
or at least commend,
express gratitude for,
our inner enlightened
and empowered
co-passionate communication,
dialogue,
discernment

Bilaterally
and multiculturally informed
by
of
and for
global climate health
and polycultural wealth
of peace.

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Holistic Choices

There probably are some psychotropic meds
helpful with win/win rerooted thinking
reconnecting within feelings,
positive and negative

But meth
and alcohol
and heroin
and depression
and anxiety meds
are not among these.

Nor are behavior management practices
hoping to fade out robust addictions
to substances
and victim spiritualities
against healing
without replacing shame
and blame
and self-loathing
with regenerative health
is also natural/spiritual wealth
ego/ecosystemic
thinking Left and feeling Right
solidarity systems
of compassion
for wounded
MeWe timeless
co-identity.

MeWe wants to live
in green eco-centric identity
humbly not anthrosupremacist,
instead multiculturally loving
with fully polyvagal,
deeply positive polyphonic,
widely polypathic
integral possibility

Here being
also Now becoming
enlightened thought Left
and eco-empowered Right
bilateral deep and wide healthy feelings
friendlier with mushrooms
or cannabis
or carefully calibrated LSD
or even Molly

All better choices than alcohol
and allies
for love rerooting
a more expansive
MeWe life

Resilient resonant recovery
lives and loves in-between
positively felt conviction
and negatively experienced condemnation

Contempt,
and wounded appreciation.

Despair,
and active hope.

Loser traume
and Winner ego/eco
MeWe
bicamerally communicating therapy.

A difference between
monotheistic organized religious formation
and interdependent
inter-sectional spiritual experience:
Religion LeftBrain dominantly teaches
that Elders have the exclusive wisdom
to define and prescribe Jehovah’s
self-righteous love
for autonomous
wounded soul
Me

While naturally spirited RightBrain
MeWe feelings
reconnect with ElderEarth
inclusive peak experiences
to refine and describe
EarthMother’s timeless love

As life within interdependent
reconnecting MeWe
dipolar co-arising NonZero BiPartisan Zone

Full and Empty
compassionately wounded
and rewounding panentheistic Souls

Healthy
strong
opulently flowing
non-anthrosupremacist
co-passionately non-violent
non-zero interdependent
communal peak natural/spiritual experiences

Of actively convicted hope
in timeless face
free of MeWe condemnation.

Free for unconditional
co-passionate
timelessly resilient
warm regard,
and joy;
don’t forget the natural passion
of spiritual compassion.

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Gifted Doorways

“Grief can be a doorway to love.”
Robin Wall Kimmerer, Braiding Sweetgrass

Grief can open toward gratitude
As loss can open doors to access gain

As trauma can open hearts
to therapeutic brains

As neglect can foster curious compassion

As depression
can incite active
co-empathic impressions

As double negative sociopathologies
can notice doorways
to positive psychologies

As double-binding
dualdark entropy
can open space
for positive double-binary energy strings
of co-empathic
multiculturing time

As isolating sadness
can open doors
to love’s transcendent gladness.

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When Resisting Danger

My GreenLeft side
resists AngryYang
win/lose competing AngloPowers
for making money
commodified
secularized MonoTheistic
world conquering views

Supporting GodGiven economic rights
to colonize sinners,
more easily divided
from the AnthroHerd
when not white
not straight
not male

While my RedRight inside
recovers from ancient wounds,
frightened
angry
disappointed
sacred sad absence
of Holy Yintegral
Win/Win cooperative
EarthTribe co-investments

In
By
Through
Of
From
Sacred ecological nurturing
pan-sensory
systemic bicameral co-passion

Liberally nurturing AnthroWealthy love
consuming EarthIntegral values
co-arising healthy newborn life

Like sunlight above
is to Earth dust
lust
must
bust
crust below

LeftGreen consciousness
of previous peak experiences

Rooted in regenerative
sacred
supernatural is also spiritual subliminal
inter-religious multicultural values

Are green/red ultraviolet positive,
unless disvalues
or misvalues

Are not not unvalues
unconscious
unknown
unloved
uncherished
ungifted
undivine
not humane,
unbecoming

To my emergent GreenLeft side
sense of healthy EarthTribe
indigenous integral balance

Resisting AngryYang
win/lose competing elitist AngloPowers
for making money commodified
secularized MonoTheistic
world views
exclusive of PanenTheistic
EarthCare opportunities
for compassionate
therapeutic communication.

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