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Positively Deviant

She seems afraid to say too much
and not listen enough.

Perhaps fear of becoming misunderstood
and, worse, too quickly dismissed,
her moment,
even in this small-staged sanctuary,
unnoticed
under-nourished
unfed
unwatered.

She wants to share with us
her deviant dissonant sufficiency
usually seen as negative degenerating autonomy
but, occasionally, in epiphanies of positive
ecologically healthy
revolutionary ZeroZen deviant resonant potential,

Receptive tingling silence
thumping and breathing
autonomously ringing singing
timelessly herstoric
within domesticating unreal world paradise,
unwombed worn integrity re-memories
echoing between nightseed dreams
and switching off her leftbrain daily alarm.

Until she smiles
I am impressed by her nothing is sadly wrong
yet everything goes unsanctuary too patriarchally long,

Business As RightWing World gone,
anxiety about personal and political
and social and psychological
and mental and physical health issues
for future climate chaos kids
reversing integrity’s robust synergetic win-win potential.

I notice then
soft teeth with nearly infinite hard work
pain
suffering loss,
alone?

Physically alone,
and not not spiritually autonomous
feminist suffering deviance
often in counterculturing ways
to help others,
more win-lose predominant,
suffer unspoken withdrawal less.

Once
I see her primal eyes smile
and suddenly my own competitive mistrust,
my own positive deviant naked fear,
goes away,
dismissed by curious eagerness.

Compassion therapeutically co-arises.

I ask if she too suffers
without sufficient release
from mutually withheld win-win loneliness,
mistrust of fully disclosed intimacy
vulnerability
co-empathic joy.

She continues
now turning toward wealthy belly laughs
co-operating integrity
mutually vibrating abdowomen,
soul sound of synergy’s vast wisdom
loudly rooting for win-win potential global health
through her sanctuary solidarity,
still curiously becoming.

She seems fearless to listen too much
and eager to not say enough.

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Informed Integrity

Silent empathy,
whether majority or extremely lonely minority,
without active integrity
is unvoiced noticing
without informed feedback looping
understanding resilient communication
mentoring

Who we call each other to become
in courageous solidarity,
curious about our remaining future fertile non-uniformity

Catalyzing co-acclimating communions
of perpetual becoming
co-empathically active
and more polypathically informed.

Sung empathy,
especially if simultaneously danced
in harmonic rhythms
and causal-effective rhymes
with reason
fertile seasons,
if polypathic integrity,
grows most resonantly polyphonic
effluent,

Multi-laterally rooted
in ZeroCommon
prime bilateral
polynomial affluent communion,
healthy-wealth abundance
of not monoculturing disinformation.

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Intolerable Questions

Is it a virtue
of legal, or just plain logical, process
to tolerate the morally intolerable?
Regardless of therapeutic opportunities to communicate dissent,
loud and clearly vocalized
articulate and explicit resistance.

Is it an immoral act
to participate in the Win/Lose market for climate pathology
if you could not know whether you are recast as oil-baron predator
or as a life-long perpetual child
praying for matriarchal cover?

Is it a corrosive vice
to tolerate the intolerable?
To settle for only Win/Lose options
in a ZeroSum stingy world.

Do I tolerate, even celebrate,
most everybody except those who are intolerant?

Why does feeding openness
to tolerating change
feel so risky?
Alarming past critical events
confronting disloyal oppositions
fade into memories of chronic dis-associations
against those also intolerant in diverse ways.

Am I a good person
if my most celebrated values advocating diversity,
and my more internal integrity of voices valued
and heard,
and cared for
feel like fragment fading shreds
of intolerable wonder and awe?

Why is your here and now intolerance
of fearful-future intolerance
against accepting invitations to stretch tolerance?
Now invested in building apartheid-trusting walls
rather than win/win interdependent webs.

Why is my self-righteous intolerance
fair,
just?
Yet your fears and terrors,
impatience and suffering,
intolerable neglect
of win/win mindful opportunities
are not OK,
not healthy democratic enough,
too elitist,
too explicitly ignorant
of implicit win/win hope
remains at least non-lose/lose communication,
verbal and non-verbal,

Still open to becoming more virtuously,
and legally,
tolerable.

 

 

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Large Frame Painting

I used to envy still life painters
longing to see
organic geometric relationships
between full-color light
and irregular isolating forms,

These close to self-identity
and those background wildernesses
of bright and happy adventure
or dark and fear-filled
encroaching climate pathologies
unenduring nightmare epic nights.

Now I find healthier
and happier resilience
listening to biometric interrelationships
within ever changing,
not the least bit still dead,
flowing light formed Yang
nudging more or less happily
toward brightest ZeroCore
dualdark fertile pregnant potentialities
of universal Yintegrity
through sight and sound,

For polypathic touch and taste and feel
with polyphonic fragrances
of spring newborn cries and coos
through winter’s wise dream
musical-comedy/tragedy hibernation,
awaiting further new resilience days
with resonant bright sky nights

Ultra-violet souled,
witness to Earth’s great transitory emotions.

I now envy synergetic, not fragmenting,
creolizing, not colonizing
matriarchal both/and feeling
not so angry dominating patriarchal
either/or straight too queer
for mutual redemption,
resilient co-facilitators of communication
role-playing slow and GoldenRule grown
full-life revolving pictures
speaking nutritionally through cooperatively owned frames

Pursuing resilient health/wealth dreams
in ego’s foreground
as witnessed by polypathic
organic voices with rhythm
and pattern,
beat and light and darkly sung emotions
inviting bright and happy resonantly compassionate adventures
with AllSouls living,
past,
and regenerative future

Which is rather a larger
and more robust life-painting skills
integrity agenda.

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Tolerating Itchiness

A healthy distance for tolerating LeftBrain dominance
is to recognize our global incarnation
into RightWing intolerant prominence
as dogma of a strictly white hetero-male privileged unkind.

A distance between silent impatience
and loud dissent
is the distance between nonverbal nonviolence
and irritatingly verbal communication.

A tolerable distinction between quieter dissonance
and boisterous intolerance
is a distance between non-violent
and full LeftBrain dominantly overtaking
and/or sado-masochistic bipolarity
and/or socio-pathology
and/or undemocratic kleptocratic
Win/Lose capitalistic intention
in a LeftBrain alpha dog eats and beats
RightBrain beta feminist…dog world
on any over-heated…itchy day
he chooses inhumanely sick
ZeroSum one-sided pleasure.

So sorry.
This started out as a quietly sedate communication
and ended in a most unfortunately aggressive
sound of furious way.

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Embedded SpringTimes

Perhaps we all secretly long
to be embedded in perpetual spring time.

My most entertaining pre-pubescent memories
of spring’s most sacred times,
when occasionally left
to my own leisurely adventurous pursuits
outside for further natural/spiritual embedded nest

Include a warm and sunny afternoon
unfolding on Saturday’s mid-western stage,
going to a pond
waiting on the edge of wild
lying on my belly
with my nose nearly touching

Her still surface waters
watching spiders
walk over Her
polliwog organic submarines
waving
going somewhere fins
propelling, with me,
into our Saturday afternoon
nutritional adventures
embedded in feeding FlowSource
well-being entertainments.

Another spring Saturday,
perhaps closer to full pubescent
FlowSource entertaining feelings,

I ran far back into the RoundField
where I knew a solitary MotherTree,
like me,
busy getting dressed up
in Her fulling spring leaves
while I unbusily removed all my clothes
and climbed Her
full body hugging Her trunk,
embracing and thanking each sturdy
warm-used limb
all my forceful way to Her most sacred top

To look and feel together
across this green alfalfa field
with all surrounding trees
a deeply fertile ocean forest
green-radiant slumbering mysteriously back at us,
this happy solitary FlowSource
MotherTree and ResourceMe
unseen WinWin feeling together triumphantly
becoming Be

Indigenously embedding entertainments,
Memories much richer and deeper and older
yet naked and wider and younger
than anything I ever heard or saw mid-winter
coming from inside black and white TV.

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Singing FullVoiced

I speak in LeftBrain dominant
because all speech is Left/Right indivisibly prominent.
But, at my LeftMind best
at least I speak against colonizing oppression
repression of creolizing co-acclimation,
suppression of RightBody emotive intelligence
for health and nutrition EarthTribe loyalty,
wildly enthusiastic radical feminist fealty
enthymeming ancient eco-speakers
silently acting out with trees
in full moon clenching dreams.

I sing in RightBrain effluent
because all non-verbal muses
and myths
emotive mists are RightBodied
non-dominating communication affluent

With respect for bilaterally graced
EarthTribal nature/spirit-laws
nurturing health and nutrition compassion
cooperatively-held by non-violent revolutionary ecofeminists,

Matriarchally silent singing
within MotherTree reverse-hierarchical nurture memories
root systemically experiencing renewing moon motions
disclinating night-mare
dark muse of re-memories rebirthing
curiously courageous pro-active hope.

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Healthing Voices

Personal identity,
like politically empowered/disempowered identity,
evolves within EgoSpirited voices

Exchanging feelings
with EcoSoul’s outside co-relational serenity,
uncovering ZeroZone bilateral Janus-faces,

Non-verbal language noticing co-relational
health and pathology
qualities sensed,
felt,
originally tasted

And

Verbal iconically quantitative patriarchal voices
for either Ego, or Eco
survivalist thinking
how to further colonize
Ironically matriarchal both-and thrivalist
ego/eco-feeling co-relative voices,
healthy serene
and un-easy dissonant

Ambiguously:
Eastern innocent infantile,
Southern sagely adolescent sensual,
Western secular/sacred fool
maturing ego/eco shape-shifting Win/Win climates inside
and out,
Northern maternal/paternal WiseElder
speaking and acting with polypathic compassion,

ReGenerative EarthSoul strains and stresses
hopes and faiths
come to reverse LeftBrain dominant Earth climates,
at last, at last

Yin-understory with Yang-canopy of heaven
upside down
revolutionary turning,
rewinding global wealth
as public healthy change
re-syncing Green New Deals
for 2020 taste and see cooperative multiculturing nutrition
outlasting more recent mechanistic,
competitive,
ballistic,
monoculturing toxins

Of merely legalistic
uniform
apartheid totalitarian
religious Win/Lose un-ecological equanimity
unchanging
fundamentalistic
dualistic
nihilistic
wounded voices

Still actively hoping
to conjoin more healthing choices
than a denatured unchanging
and therefore sadly dead
originally progenitive in-between voices way,
organically interdependent truths,
fully co-passioning life.

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Note to Behavioral Therapists

Because my own behavioral issues,
and my own public political and economic issues,
follow my own vocal trauma communication concerns
and bad-health memories,

It seems my most effective management therapies
usually begin more cooperatively
more quietly spoken in vocal kindness,
and then move on to behavioral mindfulness
to focus on expressing active compassion,
as needed
and invited,
verbally and non-verbally.

If I can leftbrain need to articulate cooperative intent
and rightbrain feel compassionately active hope,
then healthier integral behaviors tend to follow
by seeking co-acclimation
in-between these self/other needs with co-arising feelings
affluently/effluently communing.

I do not conclude
from these experiences and memories
that behavioral therapies are misguided
or misdirected.

But, I do both need and feel
behaviors are both non-verbally and verbally communicated,
with or without aggressive competitive intent,
and usually somewhere ambiguously in-between
interdependence and fragmentation,
regenerative and degenerating intent.

 

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Touching With Kindness

Some parents and cooperative school teachers
and classroom and bus aides and drivers
are discussing government regulations
restraining transportation providers
from providing therapeutic touch,
because of an over-compensation
for emotional dysfunction behaviors
leading to appallingly irreverent touch.

Toxic touch critical events
predict long-term non-lifegiving,
non-wellbeing consequences
in young
vulnerable,
transparently frustrated learners

Typically,
healthily born with WinWin internal/external co-relational cognitive assumptions,
confluent expectations,
positive neural receptivity is therapeutic
while negative interceptions are toxic,
pathological.

We discuss our unhappiness
about current administrative restraints
on giving healthy therapeutic touch,
but no such caring restrictions apply
to receiving healthy
appropriate
therapeutic touch
from our wounded,
Win/Lose fragile,
fragmented,
cognitive-affective dissonant disarranged
kids.

We seem to be heading in a direction
that would more positively hypothesize,
Despite past risks of exposure to toxic touch,
and apathetic untouch,
we do not want to restrain therapeutic touch
with our arms and hands,
our feet walking and dancing in cooperative solidarity,
stepping out rhythmically, together
with our voices of kindness,
mouths speaking and singing
with ringing patterns of kindness,

Integrity fully-embodied
to support resilient WinWin therapeutic touch relationships.

One of my daughter’s school transportation providers
learned therapeutic massage from a yogi,
Who began their first hands-on learning class
by reassuring those about to receive a student’s touch,
and those about to give their first intentionally focused massage,
that there is only one mistaken choice to avoid,

Massage, any form of verbal or non-verbal touch,
turns from therapeutic default
through toxic abandonment of communication, untouched apathetic restraint,
and also when too aggressive, much more so when actively violent,

Toxins,
nonverbally and/or verbally non-communicating counter-therapies
are Win/Lose neural neglect,
lack of therapeutic mindfulness,
to not touch by therapeutic intent at all,
whether with our WinWin intending hands
or solidarity voices
or any other of Earth’s neural receiving and giving
eco-therapeutic receptors.

So, I remind my daughter
of what the yogi message therapist said,
We only want to touch with kindness,
With our hands
and with our voices,
with our preferably dancing bodies
and our more therapeutically singing mouths
and signing hands
and signaling feet.

Her transport team listens,
laughs,
maybe a touch more relaxed
about possibilities for therapeutic WinWin touching
wounded Win/Lose dis-encultured students
on their often too-neglected journeys
in well-being life-skills
for enhancing healthy wealth resilience.

While us caregiving adults
continue to cooperatively talk without touching
among our comparatively privileged selves.

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