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The Choir Audition

Why does she know
laying our music down
raises musicality
reality up?

Does she also know
why my lips prefer to sing
in resonant Oh,
Oooooooh…
oozing round O’s
and singular Ah’s
free of mapping static lyrics

Lines sung
hung
rung right or wrong,
good marching when uniform,
bad when too shy
of improvising bold
multiculturing unity

Harmony musing
amusing spontaneous drifts
and rifts
of EarthTribe’s light
bright woke-up
out loud power focus

Searching out deep whole-sum liturgies
of octaved musicality
we share
when fine-tuned to listen
for our not-so-silent breaths,
anticipating life’s next cooperatively felt
and politically co-empowering
story.

Songs of sacred circling lines
and whole systemic spaces
clever linearly written,
yet never speaking totally predicted sounds
resonant transcendent
anticipating in-between joy
and silent
nonviolent
resilience.

I wonder if she feels
as I sometimes can do
that muses nurture music
as abusers remain
narcissistically
patriarchally
capitalistically competitive,
unsympathetic

Lacking indigenous co-empathic wisdom,
Yang universal
Yintegral unitarian
musical integrity

Of Earth’s sound tribes flowing
songs and rhythms patterning
natural narratives,
curiously intimate Earth Day
anthems

Dancing spirited
taoistic breaths
bicamerally cooperative
contemplating solidarity
sung clarity

Under a zillion twinkling
zen core inkling
starlit choral nights.

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Punishing Silence

Do we choose silence
not only as a tool
for self-protection
when speaking
our latest chapter stories
feels unsafe?

But also stern silence
may become a weapon
to ward off apathetic enemies
of our straight
hopelessly white
monotheistic
monopolistic
patriarchal capitalist
enemies

Who would not seem to care
to love us
more than we ourselves
can love them
as part of us
right now
left multiculturally
and ecofeminist
silenced here.

As you go
and liberally grow silent,
I may quietly
then traumatically
hear,
as isolating time
sticks ominously by,

“I am not your constant un-masked friend,”
and, thereby,
an ominous self-fulfilling prophecy
emergently erupts
in punishing response,

“I cannot remain
your therapeutic good-times,
vaccinated against silent unease,
healthy
co-empathic musing friend,”

To trust when skies grow silently dark
and night descends
beyond despair
to safely share
stressed Trauma

Itself first felt ray
of restoring justice promise
despite this loss of salvific
passioned hope.

Prosperity losses steal
from future compassion
already while first silenced weapons
dream denying
relentless truths of suffering
lack of healthy opportunity
to speak our fears
out loud
with those who trust
our trembling tears.

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Complexion Questions

EarthTribe questions
partisan polarization

Of healthy democratic co-governing care
Of enriching democratic sex care
Of inter-religious multicultural wealth care…

About abundance
within spacious sacred RightBrain silence
more powerful and enlightening
than mere LeftBrain monological chattering
dominance

About in-between apartheid times
both sacred and profane,
comedic and tragic,
mono- and poly- theistic passions
universally unitarian,

Yang and yintegral
dipolar co-arising
health and wealth care
Patriarchal ego-giving out
and EarthMother receiving in
and vice-versa
co-gravitating indigenous wisdom

His/Her sharing
of polypathic
regenerative
bicameral bilateral consciousness

Are these political and economic
sexual and sacred experiential choices
co-passionately win/win
co-operative peace?
restorative justice?

Or more Lose/Lose oppressive
to both Yang top Giver
and not(not Yintegral) bottom Receiver?

And/or
some win/lose Business As Usual
HealthCooperative reducing GlobalWealthCompetitive scarcity,
RightWing
LeftBrain dominant
Patriarchal/Capital competitive
devolutionary theoretical WorldView?

And/or
All bilateral triangulating EgoHealth/EcoWealth
restorative justice
therapeutic democracy options
explored together in nonviolently communicating
tao-balanced
give and take ways?

In-between increasing monocultural fabrications
growing negative paranoid positions
against trusting monotheistic Love
to optimize healthy democratic
sensory-neural
EarthMother health care

More polyentheistic wealth receiving
EarthTribe empowering
organically inclusive
creative and recreative

Choice of health/wealth
empowering and enlightened
cooperatively bilateral
questioning silent thought-provoking
voices.

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Night Silent Cross

How could an established Muse
sing and dance
invisibly transparent?

What could a mute Muse
not sound like?

Absence, without/within contentment
Neglect, without/within compassion
Divestment, without/in co-investment
Loss, without/in gain
Trauma, without/in therapeutic intent
Dissonance, without/in harmony
Risk, without/in opportunity
Sadness, without/in gladness
Negative, without/in positive
Unease, without/in health
Disability, without/in wealth
Disempowerment, without/in prosperity
Pathology, without/in healing
Darkness, without/in enlightenment
BiPolar division, without dipolar double-bind

Where we remain still
in silent loving room
at divine humanity’s cross

For natural with out/in spiritual you
ecological with out/in theological
non-anthrosupremacist
rightbrain compassionate
communicating Me with out/in We
bicameral Left with out/in Right
interdependent You.

What is our healthiest last choice
between seamless engagement,
vicarious entertainment,
and ubiquitous
ambiguous silence?

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Savoring Summer

He steps outside
on love’s front yard
to savor this final summer
of playful intent,

Too soon stuck inside
when he would happily
and more healthily
have worked out
surrounded by garden sex
with sacred gratitude

And forest walks
through fecundity
entered under unshaken silence
of deep summer waiting,
as ominous as an approaching tsunami
terrifyingly known
yet not experienced.

But
not today.
Not here
in this dappled refuge
from jaded burning out
and inside sun
savoring his final summer
of playfully naive intent.

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Muse WithOut Music

Silent scored
red-hearted consciousness,
feeling empty when noted nonverbal
and then filling up
and out
and over into voices
green positive
and ultra-violet negatives
doubly anticipating and anxious times.

Silent hearts invisible
blue quaking lines
not invincible
for surviving today’s healthiest sung purposes,

Yesterday’s
and tomorrow’s musical
deep learned meaning mystery
of living
vibrant
yet unsung
private
hidden history,

Muses of multigenerational culture,
healthy sweeping wealth
and pathological empty
muted stealth

Anxious to avoid loneliness,
a life not mattering,
sputtering,
splattering,
flattering
darkly saturnine,
not working out,
not playing around,
exercising bland premedicated
meditated consciousness
of silence

Within echoing
cacophonous languaged voices
of Earth’s regenerate Muse,
sometimes too desecrated degenerate,
yet always historic co-musicating,
mediating multicultic cultures,
violet
and nonviolent

Silence
between mused notations,
anxious and anticipating
mutations

Silent scored
red-hearted consciousness,
feeling empty when noted nonverbal
and then filling up time
and out
and over into voices
green positive
and ultra-violet negatives
anxious anticipating rhyme.

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Where Do Bullies Best Heal?

Where do bully pulpits go
when the only audience
right or left
is silence?

How would a narcotic Bully speak
after wonder and awed silence
return to anxious quiet
within a healing ecological culture
of intentional BadNews shunning?

How could these heated wounds
of belated excommunication
lead to hibernating repentance?
For win/lose
rightwing autocratic
unhealthy
much too liberally kleptocratic,
competitive anti-social capital
uncooperative over-infestment

How could this late
so great
made in USA
healthy
deep listening
multicultural global society
hear such wounded repentance?
Without recognizing our own
stone throwing sins of punishing
addictions to revenge,
anger about unhealthy win/lose divesting
of multicultured EarthBeauty and HeavenCooperativity,
fear of those not yet known,
hate for those not yet cherished,
greed to live largest,
longest and best,

To be granted monotheistic
last minute mercy
from torment for publicly pardoning
Patriarchy’s own capital-investment errors
without admitting more than slim possibility
of personally culpable,
and alarmingly illegal,
not to mention immoral
corporate error

For too hopefully entertaining
magical eternal rebirth
against liberty for Other’s personal changes,
yet for making your own
ego-identified death
unimpeachably great again.

How might a wealthy polycultured ecosystem
restore win/win justice
for a repentant win/lose
nationalistically empowered Bully?
Now engaged in cooperative social capital reinvestment
in ecological climates of healthiest wealth,

Now co-investing in silently listening
to all sacred voices
and win-inside/win-outdoor ecological
healthy democratic choices

While bowing to sacred hope
of faith-rooted wealthy Trees,
absorbing Earth’s nutritional co-relationships

Breathing out compassionate green communications
between heavenly light
and winds
and fire,
and Earth’s deep and wide
cooperative powers
and warm wet waters
of ecofeminist systemic wombs,

Seeds of therapeutic
wisely silent
compassion composting EarthJustice

As anciently witnessed by light
worshiping Trees
silently and shyly,
humbly and gratefully
absorbing social capital
through subterranean
healthy root systems,

And never unwisdom
of listening to uncaring win/lose ambivalence,
wrong v right branched dominant,
co-arising anxious Bully Pulpits.

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Escape Into Silence

Escape into silence
moving out in still morning
across pine needle cushioned trails
toward Earth’s solitary
murmuring river,

Whispering from where we have come
to quietly slip
drift
ripple forward
into an expanding mouth
without inhumane voice

Escape into silence,
comforting respite

Leaving behind human,
even humane
compassionate stories
voices
sounds;
but not memories
fantasies
feelings
choice

These inevitably accompany,
friendly and hard lessons
blending into muffled landscapes,
sea sounds,
silent breezes
teasing past sense

Sensory
sexually imprinted
colored
wordlessly intoned
rhythmed
patterns harmonic
and dissonant
silently desexualized

Needy quiet traces,
tracks
footsteps hungry for most anything,
everyone

But embracing
inviting
all absorbing silence.

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Silent UnPrivileged Stories

When I was a Big Brother
for Jason,
an African-American 10 year old male,
we went into his apartment
so he could look around
for a long overdue library book.

As I accompanied him
from room to sparsely furnished room,
looking in nearly vacant closets,
cupboards,
drawers,
the only book we found
was a phone book,
looking silently neglected
much more than actively abused.

My first white male privileged
feelings about his Mom
had to do with blaming her
for probably not even feeling ashamed
for her irresponsible choices
while economically and politically administering
their bookless house
in this pre-WWW information age.

But, then I began asking questions.
What could Jason tell me
about his Mom’s life
when she was his age?

What were stories
familiar to her,
read
or retold
or experienced
and re-experienced,
therapeutic or traumatic?

Through this widening narrative moment
of multigenerational conjecture,
hypothesis,
questioning,
contemplating,

I also learned to question
what traumatic straight white male stories
are experienced by gay
and bisexual
and transsexual 10-year-olds,
regardless of racial identification,

And by 10-year-old girls,
perhaps regardless of racial identification,
or even further amplified
by being doubly,
and silently, outside
straight white patriarchal privilege.

I found myself
suddenly
tearfully
incapable of briefly imagining
much less deeply,
unflinchingly contemplating
the trauma
of growing up poor
and lesbian
and black or brown
or too red
or too yellow
without any books
or stories,
read
or retold
or experienced
about how her 10-year-old life will matter,
could be healthy, someday,
would ever be felt safe,
unless held shamefully silent,

Not appropriate material
for books
or retelling
or experiencing straight
white
male dominant stories,
economic
and political narratives
about retributive trauma
and not multicultural
restorative
democratically inclusive therapy.

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Silent Skirmishes

Words as offensive weapons
dwell on ugliness of bad-humored life.

Words as effective tools
dwell on beauty and truth
of good-humored health,
empowerment,
love.

Yet, swords become plowshares.
Plowshares are used as unwieldy swords.
Regenerative intent becomes degenerative chaos.
Degenerative discontent becomes regenerate
tipping point
within silent complexity.

Can words become weapons
for active peace?
And still tools
feeling quietly unresolved internal wars?

Between curious ancient communioned minds
and courageous ego bodies,

Between original health-tooled womb
memories
And today’s wealth-weaponed tidal means,
unsustained strength
yet resiliently flowing ways,
transparent brother dissonance
voicing sister confluence
through empowering vulnerability;
revolutionary stillness
actively listening
between quiet health-wombed rememories.

Wisely employed wellness tools
for feminist well-being weapons;
cooperatively-managed words
for hearing embeautied Truths,
re-seeing Ways,
rekindling communicating Lives;
revolutionary politics,
awesome economics,
wondrous revitalization,
compassionate communion.

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