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Learning From Loss

The hardest losses
are those too late to repair
what has been win/win time lost
to despair

Just as love
cannot co-arise
where fear grows
fully uprisen
a prison
predicting anger’s nearby
impetuously apprised
surprise.

So too,
Freedom cannot thrive
where addiction has hard helped
us feel we are not softly worthy
to survive

“Loser” labelled struggles
with addiction
cannot feel free of affliction
nor can giving in
to addiction’s short-term affections,
powers to feel escape
from personal
and communal,
economic
and political,
monocultural
and monotheistic
OverPowers

Social judgment,
blame
and shame,
co-detachment
non-communication
developing hard
stiffly cold silent screaming
excommunication

Depressing loneliness
isolation
self-ostracization issues
win/lose closeted
fear-based shame defenses
against Old School GoldenRule
loss of co-invested love
offenses.

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Silent Conspiracy

My car-ride silence
is not judging you;
maybe me,
but certainly
and more generously
unconditionally not angry
or shaming
or blaming
you for unpardonable sins
against sainted me.

With you in a powerless passenger seat
and me in a self-punishing driver’s
need to alone defeat
our unshared lonely demons
darkly frightened and angry
terrified trauma
repeat
repeat
repeat

Frozen in this mystical dark
threatening night
mile after agonizing
coldly silent mile.

Self judgment
for addictions to bright pleasure
to glaring peace
to sacred wombs
remembering comfort and joy;
and warmly quiet compassion
listening, hopefully,
for what you can not say
gratefully yet today

Until you are ready
to speak your overflowing feelings,
positive
and negative,
manic
and depressive,
conflicted in-between
comically up
and tragically down,
cooperatively spiritual
and competitively natural,
warm mind wants
and searing body needs

Your trauma narrative
and our therapeutic hopes
and win/win dreams
for terrifying partnered glory.

My silence
is not cold,
not condemning,
but warmly curious

To hear,
and thereby hope to help heal
less silent
more shared sided by side
struggles

Together co-arising
mostly compassionate wars
against past and present unhealthy addictions
passions

Empowerments
and disempowerments,
unconditionally warm
and sacred enlightenments
and calculating cold silent
and severing secular endarkenments,
retributive competitions
and restorative cooperations

Playing quiet conspiracy games
of who can hold his voice longest
and most sadly,
and how we warmly hold
our compassion choice
more gladly

For healthier peace
and wealthier best
Tragic Comedy Drama
in a daily soap opera
series

Of critical
trauma risks
and therapeutic opportunities
throughout this long bad day

Driving not only
lonely in a cold conspiracy
of silence;
more of a warm compassion context
for restoring
and restorying
nonverbal heart communion

Reweaving what you once said
or thought
or hoped
or feared
that time heals all wounds

Except incapacity to remember
how you got them
and how much they cost
us.

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Straight White Privileged Silence

Listen to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans
wavering white noiselessness
of silent futile passing

Absence of passion
hope
care
happiness
or creased
and reasoned sadness.

Hear this void of madness,
lack of hunger
or parched thirst
for conversation
splendid nutrition
scandalous emission
empowering immigration
enlightened emigration
or angry fear emanation
of forced solitude migration

Into mortal loss
of sensory reception
political deception
economic perception
theistic inception
septic conception.

Smell nothing.
Taste everything
becomes dust
delustered rust
lust for transcendent
disembodied consummation
omnipresent transportation
omniscient evaporation
full latitude
for fragrance-free
plastic platitudes
feckless attitudes
disdainful blows
to further fertile emanations.

Sing where nothing
settles into rounding octave rings
to never
ever want to dance
in robust spirals
again

Against depressions
felt repressions
thought impressions
known suppressions
unheard deflation
worn through integration
transcultural conflation

Of panentheistic elegant Zeroes
absorbed by a monstrous
monopolistic silent
slick One

Listening to sterile silence
nursing homebound fans,
white emptiness
of silent
restless passing.

Glare at it.
Rake it in.
Sleep with it
if you dare
to care
without an inch
or squeezed moment
to spare.

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The Choir Audition

Why does she know
laying our music down
raises musicality
reality up?

Does she also know
why my lips prefer to sing
in resonant Oh,
Oooooooh…
oozing round O’s
and singular Ah’s
free of mapping static lyrics

Lines sung
hung
rung right or wrong,
good marching when uniform,
bad when too shy
of improvising bold
multiculturing unity

Harmony musing
amusing spontaneous drifts
and rifts
of EarthTribe’s light
bright woke-up
out loud power focus

Searching out deep whole-sum liturgies
of octaved musicality
we share
when fine-tuned to listen
for our not-so-silent breaths,
anticipating life’s next cooperatively felt
and politically co-empowering
story.

Songs of sacred circling lines
and whole systemic spaces
clever linearly written,
yet never speaking totally predicted sounds
resonant transcendent
anticipating in-between joy
and silent
nonviolent
resilience.

I wonder if she feels
as I sometimes can do
that muses nurture music
as abusers remain
narcissistically
patriarchally
capitalistically competitive,
unsympathetic

Lacking indigenous co-empathic wisdom,
Yang universal
Yintegral unitarian
musical integrity

Of Earth’s sound tribes flowing
songs and rhythms patterning
natural narratives,
curiously intimate Earth Day
anthems

Dancing spirited
taoistic breaths
bicamerally cooperative
contemplating solidarity
sung clarity

Under a zillion twinkling
zen core inkling
starlit choral nights.

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Punishing Silence

Do we choose silence
not only as a tool
for self-protection
when speaking
our latest chapter stories
feels unsafe?

But also stern silence
may become a weapon
to ward off apathetic enemies
of our straight
hopelessly white
monotheistic
monopolistic
patriarchal capitalist
enemies

Who would not seem to care
to love us
more than we ourselves
can love them
as part of us
right now
left multiculturally
and ecofeminist
silenced here.

As you go
and liberally grow silent,
I may quietly
then traumatically
hear,
as isolating time
sticks ominously by,

“I am not your constant un-masked friend,”
and, thereby,
an ominous self-fulfilling prophecy
emergently erupts
in punishing response,

“I cannot remain
your therapeutic good-times,
vaccinated against silent unease,
healthy
co-empathic musing friend,”

To trust when skies grow silently dark
and night descends
beyond despair
to safely share
stressed Trauma

Itself first felt ray
of restoring justice promise
despite this loss of salvific
passioned hope.

Prosperity losses steal
from future compassion
already while first silenced weapons
dream denying
relentless truths of suffering
lack of healthy opportunity
to speak our fears
out loud
with those who trust
our trembling tears.

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Complexion Questions

EarthTribe questions
partisan polarization

Of healthy democratic co-governing care
Of enriching democratic sex care
Of inter-religious multicultural wealth care…

About abundance
within spacious sacred RightBrain silence
more powerful and enlightening
than mere LeftBrain monological chattering
dominance

About in-between apartheid times
both sacred and profane,
comedic and tragic,
mono- and poly- theistic passions
universally unitarian,

Yang and yintegral
dipolar co-arising
health and wealth care
Patriarchal ego-giving out
and EarthMother receiving in
and vice-versa
co-gravitating indigenous wisdom

His/Her sharing
of polypathic
regenerative
bicameral bilateral consciousness

Are these political and economic
sexual and sacred experiential choices
co-passionately win/win
co-operative peace?
restorative justice?

Or more Lose/Lose oppressive
to both Yang top Giver
and not(not Yintegral) bottom Receiver?

And/or
some win/lose Business As Usual
HealthCooperative reducing GlobalWealthCompetitive scarcity,
RightWing
LeftBrain dominant
Patriarchal/Capital competitive
devolutionary theoretical WorldView?

And/or
All bilateral triangulating EgoHealth/EcoWealth
restorative justice
therapeutic democracy options
explored together in nonviolently communicating
tao-balanced
give and take ways?

In-between increasing monocultural fabrications
growing negative paranoid positions
against trusting monotheistic Love
to optimize healthy democratic
sensory-neural
EarthMother health care

More polyentheistic wealth receiving
EarthTribe empowering
organically inclusive
creative and recreative

Choice of health/wealth
empowering and enlightened
cooperatively bilateral
questioning silent thought-provoking
voices.

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Night Silent Cross

How could an established Muse
sing and dance
invisibly transparent?

What could a mute Muse
not sound like?

Absence, without/within contentment
Neglect, without/within compassion
Divestment, without/in co-investment
Loss, without/in gain
Trauma, without/in therapeutic intent
Dissonance, without/in harmony
Risk, without/in opportunity
Sadness, without/in gladness
Negative, without/in positive
Unease, without/in health
Disability, without/in wealth
Disempowerment, without/in prosperity
Pathology, without/in healing
Darkness, without/in enlightenment
BiPolar division, without dipolar double-bind

Where we remain still
in silent loving room
at divine humanity’s cross

For natural with out/in spiritual you
ecological with out/in theological
non-anthrosupremacist
rightbrain compassionate
communicating Me with out/in We
bicameral Left with out/in Right
interdependent You.

What is our healthiest last choice
between seamless engagement,
vicarious entertainment,
and ubiquitous
ambiguous silence?

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Savoring Summer

He steps outside
on love’s front yard
to savor this final summer
of playful intent,

Too soon stuck inside
when he would happily
and more healthily
have worked out
surrounded by garden sex
with sacred gratitude

And forest walks
through fecundity
entered under unshaken silence
of deep summer waiting,
as ominous as an approaching tsunami
terrifyingly known
yet not experienced.

But
not today.
Not here
in this dappled refuge
from jaded burning out
and inside sun
savoring his final summer
of playfully naive intent.

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Muse WithOut Music

Silent scored
red-hearted consciousness,
feeling empty when noted nonverbal
and then filling up
and out
and over into voices
green positive
and ultra-violet negatives
doubly anticipating and anxious times.

Silent hearts invisible
blue quaking lines
not invincible
for surviving today’s healthiest sung purposes,

Yesterday’s
and tomorrow’s musical
deep learned meaning mystery
of living
vibrant
yet unsung
private
hidden history,

Muses of multigenerational culture,
healthy sweeping wealth
and pathological empty
muted stealth

Anxious to avoid loneliness,
a life not mattering,
sputtering,
splattering,
flattering
darkly saturnine,
not working out,
not playing around,
exercising bland premedicated
meditated consciousness
of silence

Within echoing
cacophonous languaged voices
of Earth’s regenerate Muse,
sometimes too desecrated degenerate,
yet always historic co-musicating,
mediating multicultic cultures,
violet
and nonviolent

Silence
between mused notations,
anxious and anticipating
mutations

Silent scored
red-hearted consciousness,
feeling empty when noted nonverbal
and then filling up time
and out
and over into voices
green positive
and ultra-violet negatives
anxious anticipating rhyme.

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Where Do Bullies Best Heal?

Where do bully pulpits go
when the only audience
right or left
is silence?

How would a narcotic Bully speak
after wonder and awed silence
return to anxious quiet
within a healing ecological culture
of intentional BadNews shunning?

How could these heated wounds
of belated excommunication
lead to hibernating repentance?
For win/lose
rightwing autocratic
unhealthy
much too liberally kleptocratic,
competitive anti-social capital
uncooperative over-infestment

How could this late
so great
made in USA
healthy
deep listening
multicultural global society
hear such wounded repentance?
Without recognizing our own
stone throwing sins of punishing
addictions to revenge,
anger about unhealthy win/lose divesting
of multicultured EarthBeauty and HeavenCooperativity,
fear of those not yet known,
hate for those not yet cherished,
greed to live largest,
longest and best,

To be granted monotheistic
last minute mercy
from torment for publicly pardoning
Patriarchy’s own capital-investment errors
without admitting more than slim possibility
of personally culpable,
and alarmingly illegal,
not to mention immoral
corporate error

For too hopefully entertaining
magical eternal rebirth
against liberty for Other’s personal changes,
yet for making your own
ego-identified death
unimpeachably great again.

How might a wealthy polycultured ecosystem
restore win/win justice
for a repentant win/lose
nationalistically empowered Bully?
Now engaged in cooperative social capital reinvestment
in ecological climates of healthiest wealth,

Now co-investing in silently listening
to all sacred voices
and win-inside/win-outdoor ecological
healthy democratic choices

While bowing to sacred hope
of faith-rooted wealthy Trees,
absorbing Earth’s nutritional co-relationships

Breathing out compassionate green communications
between heavenly light
and winds
and fire,
and Earth’s deep and wide
cooperative powers
and warm wet waters
of ecofeminist systemic wombs,

Seeds of therapeutic
wisely silent
compassion composting EarthJustice

As anciently witnessed by light
worshiping Trees
silently and shyly,
humbly and gratefully
absorbing social capital
through subterranean
healthy root systems,

And never unwisdom
of listening to uncaring win/lose ambivalence,
wrong v right branched dominant,
co-arising anxious Bully Pulpits.

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