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Muse WithOut Music

Silent scored
red-hearted consciousness,
feeling empty when noted nonverbal
and then filling up
and out
and over into voices
green positive
and ultra-violet negatives
doubly anticipating and anxious times.

Silent hearts invisible
blue quaking lines
not invincible
for surviving today’s healthiest sung purposes,

Yesterday’s
and tomorrow’s musical
deep learned meaning mystery
of living
vibrant
yet unsung
private
hidden history,

Muses of multigenerational culture,
healthy sweeping wealth
and pathological empty
muted stealth

Anxious to avoid loneliness,
a life not mattering,
sputtering,
splattering,
flattering
darkly saturnine,
not working out,
not playing around,
exercising bland premedicated
meditated consciousness
of silence

Within echoing
cacophonous languaged voices
of Earth’s regenerate Muse,
sometimes too desecrated degenerate,
yet always historic co-musicating,
mediating multicultic cultures,
violet
and nonviolent

Silence
between mused notations,
anxious and anticipating
mutations

Silent scored
red-hearted consciousness,
feeling empty when noted nonverbal
and then filling up time
and out
and over into voices
green positive
and ultra-violet negatives
anxious anticipating rhyme.

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Where Do Bullies Best Heal?

Where do bully pulpits go
when the only audience
right or left
is silence?

How would a narcotic Bully speak
after wonder and awed silence
return to anxious quiet
within a healing ecological culture
of intentional BadNews shunning?

How could these heated wounds
of belated excommunication
lead to hibernating repentance?
For win/lose
rightwing autocratic
unhealthy
much too liberally kleptocratic,
competitive anti-social capital
uncooperative over-infestment

How could this late
so great
made in USA
healthy
deep listening
multicultural global society
hear such wounded repentance?
Without recognizing our own
stone throwing sins of punishing
addictions to revenge,
anger about unhealthy win/lose divesting
of multicultured EarthBeauty and HeavenCooperativity,
fear of those not yet known,
hate for those not yet cherished,
greed to live largest,
longest and best,

To be granted monotheistic
last minute mercy
from torment for publicly pardoning
Patriarchy’s own capital-investment errors
without admitting more than slim possibility
of personally culpable,
and alarmingly illegal,
not to mention immoral
corporate error

For too hopefully entertaining
magical eternal rebirth
against liberty for Other’s personal changes,
yet for making your own
ego-identified death
unimpeachably great again.

How might a wealthy polycultured ecosystem
restore win/win justice
for a repentant win/lose
nationalistically empowered Bully?
Now engaged in cooperative social capital reinvestment
in ecological climates of healthiest wealth,

Now co-investing in silently listening
to all sacred voices
and win-inside/win-outdoor ecological
healthy democratic choices

While bowing to sacred hope
of faith-rooted wealthy Trees,
absorbing Earth’s nutritional co-relationships

Breathing out compassionate green communications
between heavenly light
and winds
and fire,
and Earth’s deep and wide
cooperative powers
and warm wet waters
of ecofeminist systemic wombs,

Seeds of therapeutic
wisely silent
compassion composting EarthJustice

As anciently witnessed by light
worshiping Trees
silently and shyly,
humbly and gratefully
absorbing social capital
through subterranean
healthy root systems,

And never unwisdom
of listening to uncaring win/lose ambivalence,
wrong v right branched dominant,
co-arising anxious Bully Pulpits.

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Escape Into Silence

Escape into silence
moving out in still morning
across pine needle cushioned trails
toward Earth’s solitary
murmuring river,

Whispering from where we have come
to quietly slip
drift
ripple forward
into an expanding mouth
without inhumane voice

Escape into silence,
comforting respite

Leaving behind human,
even humane
compassionate stories
voices
sounds;
but not memories
fantasies
feelings
choice

These inevitably accompany,
friendly and hard lessons
blending into muffled landscapes,
sea sounds,
silent breezes
teasing past sense

Sensory
sexually imprinted
colored
wordlessly intoned
rhythmed
patterns harmonic
and dissonant
silently desexualized

Needy quiet traces,
tracks
footsteps hungry for most anything,
everyone

But embracing
inviting
all absorbing silence.

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Silent UnPrivileged Stories

When I was a Big Brother
for Jason,
an African-American 10 year old male,
we went into his apartment
so he could look around
for a long overdue library book.

As I accompanied him
from room to sparsely furnished room,
looking in nearly vacant closets,
cupboards,
drawers,
the only book we found
was a phone book,
looking silently neglected
much more than actively abused.

My first white male privileged
feelings about his Mom
had to do with blaming her
for probably not even feeling ashamed
for her irresponsible choices
while economically and politically administering
their bookless house
in this pre-WWW information age.

But, then I began asking questions.
What could Jason tell me
about his Mom’s life
when she was his age?

What were stories
familiar to her,
read
or retold
or experienced
and re-experienced,
therapeutic or traumatic?

Through this widening narrative moment
of multigenerational conjecture,
hypothesis,
questioning,
contemplating,

I also learned to question
what traumatic straight white male stories
are experienced by gay
and bisexual
and transsexual 10-year-olds,
regardless of racial identification,

And by 10-year-old girls,
perhaps regardless of racial identification,
or even further amplified
by being doubly,
and silently, outside
straight white patriarchal privilege.

I found myself
suddenly
tearfully
incapable of briefly imagining
much less deeply,
unflinchingly contemplating
the trauma
of growing up poor
and lesbian
and black or brown
or too red
or too yellow
without any books
or stories,
read
or retold
or experienced
about how her 10-year-old life will matter,
could be healthy, someday,
would ever be felt safe,
unless held shamefully silent,

Not appropriate material
for books
or retelling
or experiencing straight
white
male dominant stories,
economic
and political narratives
about retributive trauma
and not multicultural
restorative
democratically inclusive therapy.

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Silent Skirmishes

Words as offensive weapons
dwell on ugliness of bad-humored life.

Words as effective tools
dwell on beauty and truth
of good-humored health,
empowerment,
love.

Yet, swords become plowshares.
Plowshares are used as unwieldy swords.
Regenerative intent becomes degenerative chaos.
Degenerative discontent becomes regenerate
tipping point
within silent complexity.

Can words become weapons
for active peace?
And still tools
feeling quietly unresolved internal wars?

Between curious ancient communioned minds
and courageous ego bodies,

Between original health-tooled womb
memories
And today’s wealth-weaponed tidal means,
unsustained strength
yet resiliently flowing ways,
transparent brother dissonance
voicing sister confluence
through empowering vulnerability;
revolutionary stillness
actively listening
between quiet health-wombed rememories.

Wisely employed wellness tools
for feminist well-being weapons;
cooperatively-managed words
for hearing embeautied Truths,
re-seeing Ways,
rekindling communicating Lives;
revolutionary politics,
awesome economics,
wondrous revitalization,
compassionate communion.

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Resonant Silence

Secular silence,
still as death.
Sacred silence,
subtle sounds of Earth’s synergy

And what vast sounds,
unheard voices,
unloved songs,
unjustified dances,
unpeaced anthems,
unbeautified pose of light
may lie in waiting silence
between invitation
and deadening declaration?

Invasions of deadly silent waiting,
Sublimations of lively unvoiced surrender
into softbound volumes,
listening
for this great divide to speak
between deeply absorbed secularity
immanently transcendent wise flying harmonies
of sequestered
sanctuary silence.

Silent,
like snow,
like sleet,
like sobriety,
not univocal;
not yet profoundly voiced.

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Summer Hostage

Our small loop of a street
usually quiet
Today receives a loud grooming
with chain saws
and wood chippers
and diesel trucks slicing
and ruining silence
into anti-solitude.

This is my last day off
until summer school begins
in two sultry weeks.

Morning rain passed through
to breezy summer camp sun,
crisp shade tree shadows
moving slightly within lush grass
waiting for my non-motorized mower.

It feels queer…
I feel queer,
at sixes and sevens
at 67,
to trust that I need
not just more solitude
to become healthy again,
but more silence
to become vocally wealthy
again.

To go
or to stay
here
too near a State highway
trafficking toward two casinos
now more native to American economies
than Native Americans to empowerment.

This last bus
not quite upon us
while thoughts wonder
and feelings wander
about shouting sawers
and clanging chipper
banging my longing
back to a rural dirt dust-path
along side a Michigan Centennial Farm
where I knew breezy
silent
summer encampment days
of solitary
fresh freedom.

I wonder why
we can’t go home again,
Yet I can go back to childhood
solitude served up
in sacred silence
unsettling memories
of childhood freedoms lost.

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Nothing Is Not Lost

Hear unsilenced hope here,
Nothing is not lost.

Hopelessness is the enemy
of justice.

Music resounds appositionally
against fear.

Anthems rise solidarity
within eco-righteous anger.

Praise conserves liberal motion.

Emotion co-arises dipolar cognitive/affective passions.

Climate pathology may not become
the responsibility of white privilege.
Yet, healthy climates may heal
both our oppression of Earth’s sacred integrity
and our white privileged victimizations.

Wealthy multicultural opportunities
re-present risks for and of further monoculturing fragmentation
apartheid
disassociations
conserving silos
of hopelessly unfree silence.

This is our liberal conserving health agenda,
Earth wealth
cooperatively inclusive,
interdependently webbed.

We know we are conservatively listening win/win leaders
when liberally correct agendas
are also Earth-centered conservational anthems
singing courageous praise
against the fake win/lose face
of either totalitarian power
or universal fear.

Active hope
is the ally
of Earth’s great restoring justice
for all,
they and we
eco and ego
yin and yang
universal health and unitarian wealth.

If all faith speaks with liberal political correctness,
so too
all hope erupts from silent win/win conserving power
noticing risks of disempowering silence
missing opportunities for re-empowering healthy natural wealth
between all souls
among all soils
all fearful angry lynching
all courageous songs unflinching.

Music heals through wind and water carried
keening
secular mundane hate
become sacred epic texts
re-formed ego-wind with eco-water
singing unsilenced sorrow.

Hear hope here.
Nothing is not lost
through complacent silence.

 

Note: The latter portion of this piece is in conversation with “Invocation” by Elizabeth Alexander.

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Positively Deviant

She seems afraid to say too much
and not listen enough.

Perhaps fear of becoming misunderstood
and, worse, too quickly dismissed,
her moment,
even in this small-staged sanctuary,
unnoticed
under-nourished
unfed
unwatered.

She wants to share with us
her deviant dissonant sufficiency
usually seen as negative degenerating autonomy
but, occasionally, in epiphanies of positive
ecologically healthy
revolutionary ZeroZen deviant resonant potential,

Receptive tingling silence
thumping and breathing
autonomously ringing singing
timelessly herstoric
within domesticating unreal world paradise,
unwombed worn integrity re-memories
echoing between nightseed dreams
and switching off her leftbrain daily alarm.

Until she smiles
I am impressed by her nothing is sadly wrong
yet everything goes unsanctuary too patriarchally long,

Business As RightWing World gone,
anxiety about personal and political
and social and psychological
and mental and physical health issues
for future climate chaos kids
reversing integrity’s robust synergetic win-win potential.

I notice then
soft teeth with nearly infinite hard work
pain
suffering loss,
alone?

Physically alone,
and not not spiritually autonomous
feminist suffering deviance
often in counterculturing ways
to help others,
more win-lose predominant,
suffer unspoken withdrawal less.

Once
I see her primal eyes smile
and suddenly my own competitive mistrust,
my own positive deviant naked fear,
goes away,
dismissed by curious eagerness.

Compassion therapeutically co-arises.

I ask if she too suffers
without sufficient release
from mutually withheld win-win loneliness,
mistrust of fully disclosed intimacy
vulnerability
co-empathic joy.

She continues
now turning toward wealthy belly laughs
co-operating integrity
mutually vibrating abdowomen,
soul sound of synergy’s vast wisdom
loudly rooting for win-win potential global health
through her sanctuary solidarity,
still curiously becoming.

She seems fearless to listen too much
and eager to not say enough.

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Silent NewBorn Revolution

“Evolution
takes its sweet time
in its work
on our collective consciousness;
the lasting leap from fear to love
in the human mind
will be its masterpiece.”
Walking to Listen, p. 139
Andrew Forsthoefel

Evolution, like redemption,
takes its sweet Christmas is coming time
in its therapeutic work
on our collective climate consciousness;
The lasting leap from competing noisy fear
to more cooperatively-owned and -managed quiet love
and health
in the human mind
and wealthy heart
and dancing feet
and swelling song
will be its master/mistress-piece.

Evolution’s cooperative Silence is huge
and timeless,
the freedom of just-right complexity, not anarchy,
replacing chaotic personal and political identity.

And yet
the opposite is also true,
when silence is not shared
but an isolating prison
of discontenting consent
to mutually hide.

Here, dead time stands hopelessly still,
stale,
stagnant,
lethal,
terrifying,
claustrophobic.

Freedom of silent eternity,
shared internally,
turned revolutionarily outward to embrace all,
is also absence of liberty
to silently, collusionally,
conspiringly build Ego’s swelling codependent prison
of deep learned despair.

ZenBuddhist teachers
invite ZeroZone silence,
as do PolyCultural Designers, for that nutritional matter,
not to avoid positive robust attachments
but to grow ever deeper and wider healthy roots
absorbing compost of nurturing interdependent passion.

Silent soul co-passion,
positive-positive flowing nutritional ego-eco relationship,
WinWin co-operative
potential for furthering communion’s silent depth,
natural environmental resonance,
EarthTribe timeless resilience,
Golden ComPassion Rules
for exceeding anemic and passive-aggressive non-violent diplomacy
by I win so You must lose threat,
power-overing repression,
attachment to LeftBrain Yang-elite dominance.

Silent compassion
fuels bicameral branching external climate vocations.

On the Left/Yang convex side,
building of resilient global communion,
multicultural,
explores organic meanings for Ego’s optimal vocation
toward personal nutritional wealth.

On Right/YinFlow concave side,
watering resonant climates of internal health,
wealthy sensory and cognitive enchantments,
positive energy attachments
to EgoLeft/EcoRight
GoldenRule DNA climate therapy,
now waves of oscillating Yang
overpowering too thin Yin
underflowing bipolar pre-millennial dissonance.

Left and Right dipolar co-arising together
reweave Yang’s external silent evolution,
ZeroZone center
of oscillating ecstatic Yin compassion waves,
20-20 silent revolutionary cooperative
becoming silent second sight
within/out integral compassionate EarthTribe,

Universal Yang branched Communion
of unitarian YinFlow branching out healthy cooperative Purposes.

If others choose to see this tree structure
Yang exterior communion
as God the Father’s EarthCreation,

And YinFlow loving interior redemptive healing agenda
as His messianic-bodhisattva-missionary EarthPassioned Son,

And silent resilient ecstasy
of EgoSoul as Holy EcoSpirit within

Bicameral hearts and minds
co-arising external healthy enchantments
of God’s EarthCreative
wealthy robust climate,
sacred Home,
EcoHabitat,

I would not be at all opposed,
loudly
or even ZeroZone silently.

Multicultural evolution’s cooperatively-owned silence
is reiteratively,
echoingly huge
and timeless empowering waves

For freedom of complex communal economies,
inside and outside organic climates,
replacing chaotic political identity,
absence of synergetic
silent shared integrity.

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