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A Feel For History’s Mystery

Are people who sense a direction in history,
before anthropological history,
on back through prehistory,
who feel their way

Glide through wet organic transmission
transitioning
transformations

Licentiously polypathic mystics?
not quite conservative enough
to color only within orthodox boundaries
of a more resiliently nurtured
polyculturally natured Tradition.

Are those who feel,
without knowing,
only humane history progresses
wombanists of nurture?
and patriarchs penetrating EarthMother’s nature?

Either enlightened way
empowering both,
not rationally speaking deductive science
and reductive mathematics

Not multisensory objective
about this objective
they sense beyond anthropology’s history
within larger gooey stages
of living Earth’s exotic
erotic history?

If polypaths of buzz and boom
become harbingers of doom,
then we dismiss them
too darkly pessimistic,
not objective prophets.

As multicultural cooperativists,
transitional syncretists,
transformative integrationists,
become neuropsychologists
of positively peaceful nature,
then we dismiss these as too optimistic,
not rationally realistic.

Perhaps cobinary transgenderals sense in-between
organic nature’s sacred nurture
erotically animated polypaths

More creolizing forest green
and sky blue
lavishly democratic

To include rippling river systems
and mutually needy molecules
miniscules
mini-schools

Water swimming
air breezing
soil teasing
fire hot breathing

Deranged need to consummate
FatherSun’s enlightening
EarthMother’s empowering
cobinary democratic equivalence

Exploding double-binds
I should not become that,
because I am this,
nor could I want only this,
when I have already warmly felt that.
I should not become…

All of which is true
and false
depending on whether one
is half of erotic two
or merely opposed
to none

An agapic positivist
or a traumatized negativist,
and/or polyphonically coloring
in-between blue and red
in mind and out
of bodied bed

All above bored
should one entertain
a regenerative Win/Win nondualist
rejecting Lose/Lose
bad smell and taste positions

Not landing where we midway greet
our Alpha progressing
LeftMind thoughts
living within
our Omega conserving
RightBody feelings

Much more prehistorically profound
unbound pre-cognitions
such as

If sacred, then not secular, and vice versa.
If divine mystery, then not merely humane history, and vice versa.
If inductively felt, then not deductively thought, and vice versa.
If mythos, then not logos, and vice versa.
If erotic passion, then not agapic peace, and vice versa.
If interdependently unitarian binomial, then not independently universal nomial,
and vice versa.

Yet midway between lie peak coital cobinaries
lusting between each Yang
loving counter-point cosine Yin,
as fertile light harbors desolate darkness
and warm feelings require cold memories.

To paraphrase physicist Steven Weinberg,
The more the universe seems integratively comprehensible,
conscious-able,
the more it also seems double-binding and edged
by nonzero-souls
fluidly aware of primal cobinary relationship.

While Tao’s panentheism dies devoid of historic purpose,
Yin (0) empty of unliberated boundaries,
with Yang (1) interdependent FullColor Octaves
unfolding and reweaving all resonantly felt integrity

Monotheism’s anti-eroticism
remains stuck in dualistic Yang v Yin double-binds

These two together Yin/Yang
appositionally co-arising mystery’s double-pointedness
becoming Yang strong octave light
eternally being Yin flowing
octave resonant power waves.
.
How could anyone who does not savor
history’s healthy democratizing erection
objectively rediscover
progressing freedom away from Yang v Yin
oppositional games
not conserving freedom to become Yin/Yang
appositional co-discovering
whom we most need and want
within our co-empathic trust
of each potentially integrative Other?

People who sense a healthy direction
in democratizing cobinary history,
much older
and indigenously wiser
than anthropocentric history

On back through agapic/erotic
crown/root
mountain/valley
light/power
sage/muse
FatherSun/EarthMother prehistory.

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Sexier Santa Passions

Community trauma prevention
sounds not so sexy
to absent-minded mayors
and perennial kleptocratic players

And growing a regenerative Learning Community
isn’t really ecojust about restoring
healthy democratic justice
for a somewhat sexier
and robust multicultural environment.

Both of these Win/Win Game Theory
trauma-informed learning theory applications
remain paternally erectile
mountainously synergetic
strength functions
of community YangWoke experience

And valleyed ecofeminist
indigenously EcoMatrimonial Wise
for growing integrity’s flow
of nonverbal ecstasy
nonviolently yin
peak rebirthing experience
polycultural win/win wombed learning
co-passionate communionation

Sacred root chakra souled
and yet carnal
as rich
dark
warm
wet
erotically fertile soil.

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Another Love Letter

So, this is a love letter
from me
to you
for us.

Quiet Cream
and well moisturized Tan
were my first warm
and appreciative glimpse of you

Engaged listener.
Looks gay men in wounded eyes
while listening,
then speaking,
searching for
and finding acceptance,
at least for here
and now.

While both our neuro-systems ask,
with each breath inhaled,
Am I safe?
Each breath exhaled,
Is this healthy?

Or maybe,
ummm…
“I’ll have to think about that.”

Not so much
as a glance my witnessing way,
Wondering,
Is he why I am here?
I hope

Would I be appropriate
to here become
for just one Other?

You were not distracted
easily
from eyes
and voices
surrounding your place
in this 44th chapter
in not patriarchal,
but truly not green ecofeminist either,
Gayla BTQ versatile,
exclusive top,
promiscuously inclusive bottom,
anonymous,
romantic-erotic,
occasionally sacredly orgasmic,
political sex health history.

I wondered
then
as now
where we could fit

In gaps of loneliness
of not being fully known,
exposed,
spiritually and naturally naked
transparent
vulnerable,
fully co-invested,
transculturally cooperative,
co-empathic
co-passionate,
quietly completing each other’s unsaid senses,
thoughts,
integrity,
warmth,
refulgent quenching wetness.

Then, that first smile
just for me.

I am lost to your white teeth,
left-sided dimple,
eyelashes heavy lidding brown-eyed welcome
despite it all

Trust in integrity’s healing potential
after considering all losses,
stressors,
past troubling relationships
in gay white male privilege.

There we were
and here we are
ongoing

Me
writing this love letter,

You
curiously waiting to hear
and see
and feel,
to touch
and be touched by,
something possibly on your way,
a lovely surprise

Because
No one writes love letters
evermore

Painlessly including
those in quiet ecstasy
for quiet Cream
and well-moisturized Tan.

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Sensual Synergy

I think I shall always see
a creative tension
within aesthetic equity
not Earth-focused beauty
but sensory health
of intimately true
integrity

When I feel painfully
non-erotically oppressed
health repressed
wealth suppressed

I can imagine what I could do
more powerfully
differently
enlightened therapeutically
exotically
music resonantly
muse cooperatively
more inclusive, equitably
with positive values relentlessly
curious sacred silent
serenity

Imagining all my ways,
re-imaging all my personal passion days
as if I had been
a sold out
sex starved
activist

Not my own
silently faithful
protagonist,

But unfaithful internal antagonist,
virally self-blaming
shameful
capital patriarchal oppressor
of all those leftwing
neglectfully disabled
behind.

Both virally empowered oppressor
and unenlightened victim,
cosmic interdependent equity

Lacking compassion,
health integrity,
deep learning
balanced Yang inhaling
Yintegral exhaling
cooperative
Both/And balance

Synergy’s co-empathic
multi-sensory potential
for balancing healthy personal
neurally incorporated
individual wealth care

To re-imagine wellbeing
through polyphonic song
and horizontal dance
polyvagal mediation.

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