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Another Love Letter

So, this is a love letter
from me
to you
for us.

Quiet Cream
and well moisturized Tan
were my first warm
and appreciative glimpse of you

Engaged listener.
Looks gay men in wounded eyes
while listening,
then speaking,
searching for
and finding acceptance,
at least for here
and now.

While both our neuro-systems ask,
with each breath inhaled,
Am I safe?
Each breath exhaled,
Is this healthy?

Or maybe,
ummm…
“I’ll have to think about that.”

Not so much
as a glance my witnessing way,
Wondering,
Is he why I am here?
I hope

Would I be appropriate
to here become
for just one Other?

You were not distracted
easily
from eyes
and voices
surrounding your place
in this 44th chapter
in not patriarchal,
but truly not green ecofeminist either,
Gayla BTQ versatile,
exclusive top,
promiscuously inclusive bottom,
anonymous,
romantic-erotic,
occasionally sacredly orgasmic,
political sex health history.

I wondered
then
as now
where we could fit

In gaps of loneliness
of not being fully known,
exposed,
spiritually and naturally naked
transparent
vulnerable,
fully co-invested,
transculturally cooperative,
co-empathic
co-passionate,
quietly completing each other’s unsaid senses,
thoughts,
integrity,
warmth,
refulgent quenching wetness.

Then, that first smile
just for me.

I am lost to your white teeth,
left-sided dimple,
eyelashes heavy lidding brown-eyed welcome
despite it all

Trust in integrity’s healing potential
after considering all losses,
stressors,
past troubling relationships
in gay white male privilege.

There we were
and here we are
ongoing

Me
writing this love letter,

You
curiously waiting to hear
and see
and feel,
to touch
and be touched by,
something possibly on your way,
a lovely surprise

Because
No one writes love letters
evermore

Painlessly including
those in quiet ecstasy
for quiet Cream
and well-moisturized Tan.

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Sensual Synergy

I think I shall always see
a creative tension
within aesthetic equity
not Earth-focused beauty
but sensory health
of intimately true
integrity

When I feel painfully
non-erotically oppressed
health repressed
wealth suppressed

I can imagine what I could do
more powerfully
differently
enlightened therapeutically
exotically
music resonantly
muse cooperatively
more inclusive, equitably
with positive values relentlessly
curious sacred silent
serenity

Imagining all my ways,
re-imaging all my personal passion days
as if I had been
a sold out
sex starved
activist

Not my own
silently faithful
protagonist,

But unfaithful internal antagonist,
virally self-blaming
shameful
capital patriarchal oppressor
of all those leftwing
neglectfully disabled
behind.

Both virally empowered oppressor
and unenlightened victim,
cosmic interdependent equity

Lacking compassion,
health integrity,
deep learning
balanced Yang inhaling
Yintegral exhaling
cooperative
Both/And balance

Synergy’s co-empathic
multi-sensory potential
for balancing healthy personal
neurally incorporated
individual wealth care

To re-imagine wellbeing
through polyphonic song
and horizontal dance
polyvagal mediation.

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