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Silent UnPrivileged Stories

When I was a Big Brother
for Jason,
an African-American 10 year old male,
we went into his apartment
so he could look around
for a long overdue library book.

As I accompanied him
from room to sparsely furnished room,
looking in nearly vacant closets,
cupboards,
drawers,
the only book we found
was a phone book,
looking silently neglected
much more than actively abused.

My first white male privileged
feelings about his Mom
had to do with blaming her
for probably not even feeling ashamed
for her irresponsible choices
while economically and politically administering
their bookless house
in this pre-WWW information age.

But, then I began asking questions.
What could Jason tell me
about his Mom’s life
when she was his age?

What were stories
familiar to her,
read
or retold
or experienced
and re-experienced,
therapeutic or traumatic?

Through this widening narrative moment
of multigenerational conjecture,
hypothesis,
questioning,
contemplating,

I also learned to question
what traumatic straight white male stories
are experienced by gay
and bisexual
and transsexual 10-year-olds,
regardless of racial identification,

And by 10-year-old girls,
perhaps regardless of racial identification,
or even further amplified
by being doubly,
and silently, outside
straight white patriarchal privilege.

I found myself
suddenly
tearfully
incapable of briefly imagining
much less deeply,
unflinchingly contemplating
the trauma
of growing up poor
and lesbian
and black or brown
or too red
or too yellow
without any books
or stories,
read
or retold
or experienced
about how her 10-year-old life will matter,
could be healthy, someday,
would ever be felt safe,
unless held shamefully silent,

Not appropriate material
for books
or retelling
or experiencing straight
white
male dominant stories,
economic
and political narratives
about retributive trauma
and not multicultural
restorative
democratically inclusive therapy.

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Positive Neurological Psychology

The problem with positive psychology,
said the good doctor,
it is too social science squishy,
not leftbrain prickly enough
for natural science pathologists
proctologists
urologists
cardiologists
and invasive neurologists.

I must concede
not prickly enough
indeed
said the polyvagal systems neurologist,
but sometimes premature complexity
looks like yet another chaos theory,
and sometimes spiritual prepowerment
feels like merely natural enlightenment
yet deja vu,
and sometimes too bilaterally sticky
predicts co-arising redundant dipolarity,

Neurological bilateral structures
of left meets right hemispheres
as West greets East
multicultural mediation
as ego hugs ecosystemic health-rooted trees
of reverse hierarchical
above Truth lies downside Beauty.

Mesmerizing,
I’m sure,
temporized the Earth Therapist,
while human nature
military-industrializes ancient cooperative relationships
the remainder of EarthTribes
continue to evolve and emerge,
breathe out and in
bilateral gooey prickles
social and natural
metaphysical and physical
ecosystemically informed egocenters,
communitarian capitals,
well-timed spatial places

Not knotted polyvagal positive theories
of EarthMother’s original neurological root systems,
bicamerally restructuring
to emerge new leftbrain capital-invested upstarts
of deductive
reductive
extractive
either/or dominant thinking

When too engorged,
unilaterally engaged,
prejudicially divested,
unknotted,
untied,
profoundly detached
yang v yin pathology
for sufficiently prickly/gooey
mountainous river valleys of in-between
ego/ecometric bardos balance

Living/dying
inside outside EarthTribe
cooperative bilateral empathy
ecologically theological,
naturally social sacred,
historically multicultural,
anciently new green organic age,
biological neuro-system flowing

Fractal DNA
primal four dimensional spacetime
not ZeroSum

ZeroCore
prickly full of Either/Or bilaterals
and gooey Both/And bicameral
not not empty
enthymematic reiterations
of prickly force Yang
and gooey flow Yin,
win/lose exploration
and win/win absorption,
exhaling capitals
and inhaling communions,
natural empowering light
and social enlightening beauty
of positive eco-political psychology.

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Zero Sourced Humane ReSource

If we come from ZeroSource,
secularly known as OneSource secularly Light,
and sacredly as DivineEnergy,
we still may not conclude
we are interchangeable ReSources.

Life forms interdependent
are not simply interchangeable,
exchangeable
like loose change,
habitual everyday whatevers;
unlike guns and violence
because we have emergent
development,
because we are regenerate organisms;
not gradually deteriorating machines.

We inherit from Source
and we inhabit relationships
further evolving ego’s heartened warmth
toward light
and divested shunning of disheartened cold
away from DivineEnergy.

This trail of tears
in joy and sadness
begins with EarthSource,
and ends with EcoCentering
compassionate ReSourcing
ReConnecting
ReCommunicating
ReStorative ReGenerators.

Some aware of ReLigioning,
and perhaps the better half
not so much.

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Healing BodyMinds

After Yang’s struggle
suffering
seismic seizures

Dawn’s Yin’s peace
restoration
expansion
without grasping
even life v death

Before Yang’s next struggle
suffering
seizure
battling ego’s timeless absence

Like Left hemisphere’s
embodied dominance,
shadow subject
of objective dreams

Then Right hemisphere’s energy prominence,
bilateral compassion;

Yang’s ego-natural body
reincarnating Yin’s primordial
eco-spirited mind

Where polynomial 1
seizes 0
to make polypathic 1,
and not not reproducing polyphonic 0,
and every revolving
spiraling
hypersuasive tipping point
in-between

HolyWinded Spirit’s Earthly journeys–
Wealthiest introspection
for healthiest extraspection;
atomic images
becoming shivered waves.

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Health Addictions

Health brings freedom to live
intentionally
resplendently
maturely
resonantly
integrally
regeneratively
compassionately
resiliently
kindly.

Freedom is personal,
but also social,
political
but also economic,
ecological
but also theological.

Health requires freedom from addiction
to beliefs:

Some people are born to rule
and own Earth,
while others are born to be serfs
and slaves,
laborers
and frightened/angry addicts.

Some people are born
to be born again,
while others are born
to be unredeemed,
idol worshipers,
poor,
sinners.

Some straight males are born to be White
Evangelical Supremacists,
while others are born
to be Other.

Some people are born to extract
from healthy Earth
as they choose to expand personal
and corporate materialistic “wealth”.

Others are born to be entertained by,
and sometimes envious of,
these violent stories
of capitalistic rape
and plunder.

Multicultural dreams of inclusive democracy,
expanding throughout all cooperative economic strata,
encompassing all politically engaged genders,
all nations and tribes,
all positive energy systems
to regenerate a global health network
of wealthy freedom
for all interdependent creatures
globally here below,
and those who fly,
and revolve,
and generate light
power
energy,

These are ancient
indigenous dreams
of non-addicted trust,
non-dualistic Truth,
polycultural free-trade outcomes
for EarthDwellers,
EarthPatriots
EarthLovers
EarthSabbath Worshipers.

Regardless of age
gender
race
left-brain dominant enculturation,
colonizing violent history,
capitalism’s win/lose supremacist games,
energy’s zero-sum secularizing theology,
degenerative ecological fears
and angry
unfree
fossil fuel addiction,
consumer-driven overpopulation,
lack of freedom to sleep safely,
to live healthy outside
in familial communion
with Original Sacred EcoFeminist Earth,
etc.

The Dali Lama,
born to sainthood?
a view I doubt he would support,
says his religion is kindness.

Perhaps his spirituality
resonantly respects EarthMother’s kindness
and unkindness–
much easier to do outside
than inside a dimly addictive
unfree temple.

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Imposed Unemployment

These matters of imposed sequestration,
home health quarantine,
residential segregation,
safety zone re-education

Can also become
contemplative solitude
growing sacred mindfulness,
healthy wealth revision,
2020 wealth of health
bicameral precision,
monoculturing capitalist rescission,
dipolar non-division;

Social,
political,
economic communication
significantly emerge from personal preference
but also left-hemisphere patriarchal enculturation
no different than propaganda
if delivered with both left and right-hemisphere
collusion intent,
unnaturally sinister,
calculating desecration,
the stuff of deep state
and dark conspiracy theories

Either True or False
or both/and complexly
ego/eco-bilaterally ambiguous,
subtle,
nuanced thought with unpolarized feelings
for interior nurtured spiritual intention
and exterior nutritional natural extension,

Discernment of which solitary seeds
and subterranean root systems are health watered
and wealth weeded,

And which are treated like worthless weeds,
not to be watered with contentment,
fed with commitment,
nourished for cooperative values,
cherished within ecosystemic futures,
compassioned.

This weediness of ego-neediness
prays for non-preying return
to ecosystemic communal fullness.

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Barney’s Realignment Song

As I awake this morning
I remember a Barney song
for my more oppositionally misaligned daughter.

I love you
and you love me
even if I couldn’t realign my four B’s,
Brain,
and Branches,
and Belly,
and Butt,
these four aligned
good government.

If you do
then I will tool

It is part of a spiraling dream
as I awake each skeptically reciprocating morning
remembering EarthTribe
no longer the same population
living within this remedial song
as when I went to bed
last lonely night.

A few of us have died.
A few have been new born.

And so it goes each morning
since I was that new born
win/win aligned
overwhelmed by all disconcerted Four-B wisdom
of older embodied dreams
awakening each dawn
to discover a few more have joined our Tribe,
coming along behind,
and a few more ahead
are now beyond any further potential
for re-aligning compassionate leadership
or even long-lived reciprocal hums
of silent fractal-B listening.

So I will go that last night
now leading those who listen
for swelling populations of EarthTribe Crystal-B
DNA voices
greeting each new born pioneer
conjoining us for this Earth retraining
turning
journey,

Vocation for wiser co-aligning Elders
as just normal aptic naptime for others
now win/win begun
for whom we join our minds as one
in
and with
and for
and of peacefilling gratitude.

I wonder
as I gaze toward gathering light
if our purist unity as EarthTribe
is only RightBrain known and felt in dreams
where insects and reptiles and mammals
like beans and corn and squash
like soil and water and climate
all process more nurturingly alike than separate,
more interdependently than empty of relationship,
without distinctions arising sexism,
without differences co-arising racism,
without asseverated appositions causing self-righteous violence
against Great Alien Unknowns
of past and future lives,
unless we also know these as unruly nightmares
begging to restore mercy
and thereby less necessity for harsh justice,
refueling patriarchal vengeance is ours!

As I feel for my glasses,
EarthTribe slowly shape-shifts repopulation
between each daily-nightly evolving frame
roundly rolling along spacetime’s polypathic avenues
becoming not exactly who we were
together yesterday,
as we have insufficient time
to quite grasp us all so much
in one timeless time,
just as, in RealTime
unlike Common UnLanguaged DreamTime,
we cannot quite get back
to (0)Sum original win/win reciprocal habitat
of spacetime’s full-blown climaxing revolution;
Still humbly home, disappointed yet again
in this Here
and already too past Now,

But,
maybe tomorrow night
this resonant resolution
may yet come to last
for tomorrow’s recast
EarthTribe poly-protagonist win winners
yet perpetually interdependent witnessing losers,
frighteningly and autonomously mortal

Underdogs,
both preferred unaligned bulldogs
and b-word misaligned maligned identities
of antagonizing eco-injustice dreams,
where Paradise Lost
looks more same than different
throughout today’s reborn
post-creolizing,
millennializing,
degenerating still

Through this timeless multi-speciating dream,
more double-binding darkish dawn
than simplistic ZeroSum win/lose,
either degeneration or regeneration,
for no one wakes up tomorrow entirely alone
and not to recreate gratitude for dawn’s newborn delight
in Four-B ego- and eco-alignments
more intersectionally flying together
than degeneratively and egotistically coming apart.

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What EarthSouls Want

“What I want in life is compassion,
a flow between myself and others
based on a mutual giving from the heart.”
Marshall B Rosenberg, PhD (Nonviolent Communication)

What I wealthy want
in health and safety optimizing life
is win/win compassion,
a flow,
back and forth,
left and right,
ego-centering and eco-systemic,
yang and yin
universal One and unitarian ZeroZone,

In-between my nonzero-sum Ego
and Eco-nomic
Eco-logical secular LeftHemisphere
Theo-logical sacred RightHemisphere
bicameral Other-Thou-We
rooted in feeding and watering
our democratic-interdependent giving and receiving
healthiest wealth communion
from our win/win ventral vagal
Universal/Unitarian HeartSoul
1st through 7th principled
primed
primal co-passionate relationship.

Poly-nomial ecometric,
Poly-pathic Left
strength
transubstantiating
sacred Poly-MetaPhonic/Phoric Right harmonic
flow

As PolyNomial Either/Or colonization
eco-womanist is
to empowering PolyPathic/Phonic Both/And
Win/Win past through future creolization
through Ego/EcoSystemic
co-empathic
double-binding attachment,
double-binary/fractal

Either/Or One Left
Both/And Zero-Squared Right

Full/Empty re-connection,
compassionate
autonomic
synergetic win/win TippingPoint balancing

Identity colonizing
re/de-Individuating, rebirthing, regenerating, creolizing
cooperative ego/eco-health
as also safe resilient/resonant co-investment
from past sacred blessings
and for future secular/sacred
yang/yin
egopatriarchal/ecofeminist
spatial/temporal
One/NonZero-Zone
emergent health/wealth optimizing
creolizing

Bicameral
neuro-psychological
eco-political
co-passions
among all Mind/Heart
EarthSouls.

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Sighed Earth’s River

I heard a new term today,
sighed Earth’s River,
“spiritual intelligence.”

I have become familiar with
cognitive intelligence,
before that emotional intelligence,
before that contextual intelligence,
similar to climate intelligence
throughout life’s tributaries,
branches
and root well-springs.

My waters do not claim these are strengths;
more familiar as opportunities
for further flowing redevelopment.

But,
just as I am not entirely clear
where emotional awareness ends
and environmental noticing begins,
so too,
where might Earth’s physical context end
and sacred Spirit’s awareness transcend signs
seen,
sighs heard?

I wonder,
rooted in my ego-centering experience,
if feelings flow toward ego inside wet identity
as contextual warm intelligence
ebbs from eco-outside co-investment;

If eco-political context,
empowering and disempowering
natural flowing energies,
welcomes,
invites,
embraces,
baptizes with awe and wonder,
spiritual intelligence of universal individuation,
river-bedded identity
co-arising heart-felt rhythms,
breath
surfing up and down,
smiles clown
and frowns crown

Polypathic signing language,
polyphonic rhythm,
polyculture flowing systems,

Analogical EarthNature
unveiling metaphoric Spirits,

Secular purpose
compelling sacred meaning

Signing reasons,
sighing seasons
pushing up
and flowing down.

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Positive Directions

If you have some negative judgment
aimed directly at me, and only me,
I prefer,
in fact require,
expect,
demand you verbally
and directly confront me
with that distancing blame,
assaulting my ignorance
and failures of compassion,
too active dispassion,
furthering Earth’s emerging win/lose dissonance,
violence,
toxic climates
and egocentric narcissism;

Or, informed more fully by nonviolent communication

I am feeling sad,
disappointed in our relationship,
shut down,
angry
because I want our mutual compassion,
my vulnerability to you,
and yours to me,
our cooperatively-held trust,
to invite your directly communicated curiosity,
your hypothetical questions,
your transparency
honesty
integrity
when you observe some message from me
that feels like it carries negative energy,
lack of compassion,
too assertive
past a tipping point of aggression,
a potential trigger for past win/lose stress,
traumatic experience,
miseries of unfortunate events,
dissociation,
cognitive/affective dissonance,
the momentary despair
of not being fully listened to
with compassionate appreciation,
as we each deserve
within this interdependent web
of win/win polypathic
polyphonic
polyculturing
ego/eco-political life.

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