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Power: Love v Whatever

What might it take for love to conquer anger
fear
hate?

How is holistic compassion already more contagious than a-holistic self-hatred,
we-hatred?

There is more than one way to hear a**holistic here,
but they all have to do with sectarian divides,
sometimes felt more intimately, reductively personal,
and sometimes more transparently, seductively political,

Sometimes closer to home-caused and owned,
and therefore remedied,
and sometimes more great transitional,
and therefore more uncooperatively and disintegratively,
deductively,
unholistically,
sectarianly,
violently communicating
and pro-actively transporting
toxic viruses across monoculturing unhealthy unwealthy
absence of passionately healing opportunities.

Growing holistic compassion,
like growing organic THC,
depends on environmentally empowering supports
for positive,
healthy,
resilient relationships
with all Earth’s co-passionate NatureSpirit systems
and ecotherapeutically integral strategies
for wealth optimizing health,
mental and physical,
spiritual and natural,
theological and ecologically inter-related,
co-arising dipolarities
of contrasting inside and outside Janus-faces
internally/externally co-passionate.

Compassion for oneself opens doors
and windows of consciousness
to pro-actively discuss changes toward robust health
with others
within an authentically wealthy and responsive society
with mainstream healing,

Rather than too often punishing deviance from bullish patriarchal nihilism,
meekly acclimating to non-relational toxic neglect,
failure to nutritionally appreciate yourself,
ourselves,
for who we truly
compassionately already are,
at least in our best positively deviant moments.

So, there lies our individual fundamental key to happiness
by moving from self-punishing habits of thought
and feeling entitled to misdemeanors
and even more aggressive and violent felonies
unreceptive
unpardonable blocks to this journey turning toward compassion
for oneself
spouse
kids
neighbors
community
state
nation
animals
plants
Earth, now
past
and compassionately revolutionary future
Great GoldenRule Transition.

Investing in self-judging voices,
You screwed up again!
You are worse than useless!
You are lazy,
have no healthy work ethic,
want to play all the time
like an irresponsible two year old!
On and on and on…

Such self-afflictions are way less compassionately healthy
than calmly accepting past errors,
sins against compassioning humanity,
without absolving yourself of therapeutic reparations,
carrying all these negatives more lightly
as also enlightening potentially positive partial truths
validly applied to all of us
on our worst days
and most uninvited moments
reacting to perceived neglect, abuse,
shame
blame
diverse toxic pain

While living together in God/Gaia’s city (farm, sanctuary) on the Hill
is more about our universal SuperEgo’s bicameral pilgrimage
to restore Earth’s original holistic compassion.

Passion between a judgmental LeftBrain,
seeking retributive justice,
and a more compassionate RightBrain holism,
longing to restore resilient peace,
wealth of health,
without division between LeftBrain’s sectarian divisions
between what is natural and what grows spiritual

Secular/Sacred cultural divides
grow invisibly transparent outside/inside contrasts
in ancient WilseElder RightBrain memory,
rooted in narcissistically sectarian and co-passioned experience,

WinWin v LoseLose,
political health v economic/ecological toxicity,

Domestic/Global co-passions,
bicultural
binomial
supported by multicultural cooperative responsibility
for actively pursuing health through positive passions.

Passion opens doors to external/internal,
even international/individual
compassionate ecopolitical health outcomes,
planning,
aspirations,
deep learning environmental incoming support
for further positive passion iterations

Deepening robust webs and buds of healthy future
secularLeft/sacredRight WiseElder evolutions,
DNA structurally supported
WinWin non-violent expectations
self-reported

Positive psychological
and political
holistic compassioned powers
polypathically as accessible as green organic grass.

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National Narcissism

Nationalism,
like other faces of narcissism,
speaks in ways devoid of integrity,
authenticity,
global transparency,
empathy,
active power and authority of and for,
from and toward, resilient energy,
compassionate wealth of health,
resonant power,
regenerative EarthPassion,
more like internationalism,
like other faces of multiculturalism

Psychological, and yet political,
neurological, and yet also economic,
ecological, but potentially E-CoOperative Networked,
messianic, yet also eco-bodhisattva theocratic,
non-violent and enthusiastically non-sectarian,
universal Yang with unitarian Yin,
LeftBrain bipolar, except within RightBrain dipolar, co-passioned,
ZeroSum secular Energy,
winning by also winning ZeroZone Light/Power sacred Source

Healthy paradigmatic systems
engaging intuitively wealthy FlowPower,
Here co-arising not not Now, again reiterating
WinWin 4D space within ZeroSum bilateral time-range

Political and economic arts of proportion,
balance,
symmetry,
ego/eco-passion
informed by LeftBrain articulating rational sciences,
deep learn authentic nutritional values
for yang’s democracy conserving system strengths
with yin’s compassionate energy/power,
liberally effluent, yet efficient, resilience

Across canvases
lyrics
indigenous choreography,
power and energy creation paradigms
multiculturing robust evolutionary flow charts
effectively co-operative reverse-hierarchies,
eco-art therapies for political and economic ego sanctuary,
co-passionate expression
Left with Right,
West with East,
North with South
polypathic multicultural power/energy
in ego’s Earth CoPassion

Communicating across resonant bilaterals
far more resiliently than nationalistic
ballistic narcissism’s
short-term
anti-empathic
survival of the not fit-iningest strategies.

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WhiteHouse Narcs

I’m hearing considerable chatter about patriarchal narcissism,
which is, indeed, absorbing and darkly fascinating;

But, I do wish we could invest at least twice as much energy
on analyzing climate therapeutic potential
of ecofeminist compassion,
re-synchronizing Time’s sacred-secular co-investments
re-combining healthy bicameral minds
re-linking wealthy co-passionate bodies,
domestic
and external.

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January Calendar

Opening a new 2019 calendar,
January unveils an Arctic Wildlife Refuge view
of glaciered mountains
behind a frozen river
surrounded by bedrocks
grey and bleak black
and rusty brown.

The Wilderness Society caption
claims this as our “treasured landscape
that the indigenous Gwich’in people” name,
proclaim?
“Sacred Place Where Life Begins.”

Rather than
The same old frigid and barren secular place
where any decent life
could only abruptly end
in hopeless frozen defeat.

This juxtaposition seems to capture essential compassionate v narcissistic
human destinies of choice.

Both Wildlife Refuge views
could be valid,
but the indigenous birthplace choice
to see opportunity
feels more integratively useful,
more communion sustainable,
resilient, rather than bitterly brittle.

The Dalai Lama teaches,
and presumably practices,
as have other messianic/bodhisattva re-creations,
a distinction between empathic pictures
and compassionate stories.

Empathy may associate with RightBrain feelings
of happiness and despair,
ecstasy through hopeless disenchantment,
with some Other
past,
present,
future,
human,
animal,
plant,
planet…

Compassion is more about LeftBrain planning
what I, we, cooperatively together
walking in newborn, reborn solidarity
will do to heal wounds, minimize risks,
and more resiliently sustain sacred opportunities
for unborn future life.

Empathy opens windows,
pictures,
landscapes,
refuges,
sanctuaries toward proactive
cooperative co-passion.

Practiced,
informed,
experienced,
trained,
educated,
supported development of co-responsibility,
integrity,

Synergetic vulnerability,
matriarchally cooperative wombs,
open life to empathy,
co-empathy,
eco-empathy with wounded and therapeutic lifelines,
compassionate rebirth conquering narcissistic pre-death

In 2019,
2020,
and so on.

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Health Economy

Systems,
cognitive and experiential,
spiritual and natural,
sacred and secular,
are paradigms,
mature revolutions and still partial evolutions,
with WinWin orthodox pretensions
and yet carrying our own WinLose seeds of destruction
dis-integration,
dissonance,
non-golden rules and irrational ratios
within as without,
yin as yang.

Planning systems clarify who or what “x” is
by deeply understanding how we healthy want
and wealthiest need
x to proceed, continue unfolding,
to evolve not-x, continue revolving,
to restore positive x/y therapeutic action.*

Paradigmatic practitioners evaluate outcomes at least annually,
especially during Advent,
before and after Winter Solstice,

Noticing which trends move us cooperatively
toward WinWin universal compassionate resilience

And which devolve too LeftBrain competitively
toward WinLose dissonant narcissism,
often supported by nationalistic
privileged paternalism,

By competitive over cooperative power-models of Evolution,

By faces of a regally distant
never-changing,
yet omnipresent, EarthCreator God,

By positive/negative health paradigms
emerging WholeSystem polypathic nutritional wealth
of GoldenRule compassion.

To trust other systems, living paradigms,
mature natural and spiritual humans,
co-passionately need to be cooperatively treated…

To act with integral allegiance
as we prefer to WinWin act with all y’s…

Cannot be done both violently and resiliently,
invalidly yet effectively,
competitively against each other,
without deeply listening to not-x,
without looking into our potential victim’s eyes,
without pro-actively extending compassion.

If we look together
at Earth’s modern history of global warfare,
We can see the primary outcome of WW1,
sowing the seeds for WW2.

WW2, however,
began sowing seeds of uniting nations
and universally non-sectarian EarthCare,
healing hate-mongered aggressive wounds
of white patriarchal privilege,
human climate of industrial supremacy,
LeftBrain deductive-reductive plutocracy.

Now, approaching 2020 historic revision
with a new WinWin potential integrity
for WWW post-millennial binomial capacity,
we can compassionately re-image WW3,
inviting each democratic heart
loyal to each cooperatively self-managed nation-state x
allied with all secular and/or sacred non-sectarian EarthTribes y
to embrace compassionate WholeSystem health care
for all climates
all paradigms
all histories and stories and creating cultures
of all compassionate light
revolutions
measuring eternal x
in orbits of bright
wounding and therapeutic Time, y.

Passionate peace longing to understand x
and non-violent surrounding y-compassions,
together x/y belonging,
integrity’s health
resilient wealth.

 

*Math Note: Where x is not any non-polynomial, non-rational paradigmatic y.

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Compassion for TeleMarketers

I’m still waiting for my first automated rifling phone call,
Scripted to begin:

Hello Gerald Oliver Dillenbeck!
What would you like to health invest in this wealthy day?

So I could answer with
Compassion, even for telemarketers
of narcissistic death technologies.

I’m still waiting for Donald John’s first non-automated
non-violent internal recall:

Hello Donald John!
What would we,
NorthAmerican democratic residents
and global Allies of Earth,
like to health invest in with you?
Pursuing WinWin outcomes,
today and every compassionate day and night
to lead by following deep silent “we” listening.

To let go of ego’s Narcissus fascination
To grab hold of reborn EarthMother compassion,
co-operative enchantment,

To uncover even more patience with mutual disenchantment,
disdain,
To discover loyalty to domestic and international non-violence,
To recover choice to avoid aggressive WinLose
and nihilistic LoseLose strategies
in blind and deluded bad faith
that short-term loss of nutritional sufficiency
is essential for eternal redemption.

Artifacts of steadfast compassion,
polypathic
polyphonic
multi-nomial
have never been found
in seeds of violence,
monotheistic or polytheistic
and all realistics in-between
elitism and compassion for narcissism
within and without,

Sometimes grieving for ignorant foolish sins and sinners
and sometimes briefly triumphant, manically ecstatic,
despite inevitable losses
to demon death.

Newborns bond most robustly without such fears
yet,
and most resiliently when matriarchal compassion
is not unduly compromised
by aggressive patriarchal corrections,
violent domestic warnings,
threats to defer and extinguish a positive
healthy
compassionate primal relationship.

MotherEarth,
Green Goddess Gaia,
AnimaMundi,
Holonic MatriarchalSpirit,
when newborn
and revolving toward future mature networks
of organically sustained lifelines,
experienced Her just-right sacred sanctuary space
and perpetually revolutionary NowTime
in FatherSun bright
and darkly outside night

CoPassion of a personal planet-wide resilience,
Her familial nature Spirit
historically emerges
from this compassionate positive light/dark nondualistic balance
more prominent than merely nurturing patriarchal narcissism,
cultural dominance,

Until YangLeft finally sleeps
longing to reconnect within YinRight’s dualdark matriarchal compassion.

Sacred or secular cooperative outcomes of compassion,
like health and climate care,
can be narcissist seen as ego-building experience.
Narcissism is not only egotistically privileged
but politically distorted against democratic principles
of nature/spirits, co-operative.

Autonomy of EgoManiacal obsessions
ignores both interdependent nurturing root systems
and future flowers of compassion’s healthy redevelopment,
healing narcissism’s past aggressions.

Gaian compassion,
EarthMother co-operativity,
EcoFeminist resilience,
personally salvific evinced
by historic political empowerment
in those days before a dangerously toxic distinction arose
between economic and ecological compassion,
One calling for more capital co-investment
and the other calling us toward global communion.

When HeteroSapiens were yet a NewBorn species,
a glint in Golden Ruler CoPassion eyes
of FatherSun
with MotherEarth’s cooperative light
already empowered ecotherapeutic compassion.

Meanwhile,
I’m still waiting for my first personal phone call
to begin:

Hello Gerald O Dillenbeck!
What would you like to compassionately invest in
this personal and political co-operating day?

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Toxic 2018

I’ve noticed a new favorite word
in 2018
is “toxic.”

And, in on-line discussions,
a newly invested discernment
of what it might fascist imply
to lead each white privileged day
with patriarchal narcissism.

Hillary,
unlike St. Hilary,
could stand iconic for matriarchal narcissism.
It exists, like a recessive gene
in our integrity pool of compassion’s unlikely opportunities,
yet is as yin to patriarchal yang, divided,
narcissism soft-core,
not yet hard advanced past capital-drenched dreams
of satiated blond and blue-eyed middle-ages

Too often patriarchal narcissism devolves
into runaway Kochian economic fascism,
anti-ecological health,
racist nationalistic pathology,
putrid absence of Primal EarthPatriotism.

What I hope,
and mutually need,
to hear more nutritiously compassionate
is about cosmic creative tension
between patriarchal narcissism as a weapon
and matriarchal compassion as a tool,
co-passioning within monocultural political powers for evil
and good ecotherapeutic
polypathic multicultures.

Resilient health-invested cultures
still have active faith
that a compassionate Gaia
is more effluently powerful,
demonstrates more everyday resilient waves
restoring outside peace,
than that of God’s DisRapturous Fear
His narcissistic followers will not inside recall
I AM THAT I AM
CoPassion.

For inscrutable reasons,
I thought of toxic narcissism v. healthy compassion
when I heard DJ Trump
amuse his wild-eyed followers,

Explaining his new-found epiphany
that, to best defend his personal political future opulence,
he should continue asking his enemies
for what he does not truly want.

A more experienced compassionate politician would disagree with:
The best way to earn democratic long-term trust
is to tell the opposition I do not have the political will
to build walls,
when you do,

To pretend to protect the good white consumers inside
and to keep out alien threats to future omnipotence
of your own toxic narcissism.

Narcissism’s imaginary inside voices
do not consider what we the people
and plants
and planet healthy want
and need
to nourish compassion’s resilient interdependence.

The Wall,
between political compassion and personal narcissism,
for Kochians and Trumpians,
is all about what white patriarchal I
narcissistically want
to beat down compassionate matriarchal self-empowerment,
co-operative economic/ecological health care,
radically accessible to all EarthTribe values
and extended family norms.

Narcissism hopelessly reacts against remaining compassionate
healthy hearts,
cooperative imaginations
of democracy trusting multicultural people
plants
and living co-passioned planet.

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Compassion’s Silent ReCreations

Who or what created interdependent you?
Earth revolutionary love relationships
of ego/eco-passion.

Who, what created copassionate Earth?
Wave revolution of co-gravitating nutritious Time.

Who, what created co-arising Time?
CoPassioning Space,
measured in sacred Earth revolutions
co-revolving tipping points,
Prime ZeroPassion interdependence,
ultra-non-violet pre-generativity,
enthymematic synergy,
potential for health integrity,
universal holistic compassion
flowing silent curiosity to ask

Who or what had matriarchal compassionate courage
to create and develop non-narcissistic You?
For and from all Earth’s copassionate timeless Time

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Therapeutic Revolutions

You mentioned you work with a therapist.

Has she encouraged you to incorporate centering exercises
and holistic thinking and feeling experiences
healing interior and exterior nondualistic climate events
in your everyday thinking/feeling habitual non-violent practice?

Has she encouraged you to disclose what you can realistically pray for
while making and selling automatic rifles?
And living cooperatively with those who choose to profit
in this terrorizing way?

You mean those tedious bicameral bilateral practices
like tai chi and yoga,
drumming while singing
and whistling
and laughing
and tweeting
or something wild like that?

I suppose I might,
although none of those are in my own daily repertoire
against depression
and climate crisis anxiety,
and an already compromised critical immune system.

Have you tried any of these holistic things
your therapist has suggested,
or not,
perhaps in passing
or passing by,
as alternative supplements to your talk therapy?
Has she suggested walking on the beach
and through forests,
and over and back down mountain trails,
tracking rivers flowing up and down,
circling around lakes rising and falling,
down competitive MainStreets
and up more cooperatively communalized by-streets
with under-capitalized
organic communioned
community eco-school gardens?

I don’t recall anything quite so athletic
or communal
or…
I don’t know…
something about a PolyCultural DNA EcoCommons?

With your ADHD,
your high YHWH revenge-climate crisis anxiety,
your non-violent cooperative feminist
reverse-hierarchical solidarity philosophy,

And with your chronic depression,
disassociating repression,
ecopolitical suppression,
invited by LeftBrain dominant paranoid
narcissistic
self-justifying Yang v Yin concerns,
your mindbody might prefer bipedal
as well as bicameral
centering exercises
you can do every enchanting day
whether walking through a forest,
with or without peer therapists being-doing
walking non-violently while talking
as you walk from one room to the other
and up and down ancient stairs to nowhere/everywhere
inside your own home
and other divinely inspired green-potential sanctuaries.

I don’t think I can talk green and meditate ultra-nonviolet
simultaneously
coincidentally
even in a sanctuary.

It’s more like non-violent walking and talking
and ultra-nonviolet medicating
at the same time,
like thinking with your LeftBrain and right-dominant foot
while feeling-listening with your Right CooperativeBrain
and left-prominent foot
reverse backward through time’s history,
then upstream forward
into EarthTribe’s healthier green-shared future Commons.

I’m not sure I even trust that such a risk-management practice
would be a loyal
and patriotic
and faithful thing to do
and think
and/or feel.

Too startling,
revolutionary,
to just deductively think about 2020 polypathic vision,

Too dissonant against BusinessAsUsual
LeftBrain competitions between think dominating felt
RightBrain response to LeftBrain oppressive
non-organic
mechanistic system thinking
disassociating from RightBrain feels discerning harmonies of pace
and cooperative/dissonant hue,
and climate cry
and spiral walking through and by
doing being
saying seeing.

Yet if your LeftBrain does choose to reconsider,
all thoughts include implicit healing feelings
as all feelings, resonant or dissonant and in-between,
re-associate with LeftBrain conservational
conversational deductive/inductive balance
of natural/spiritual healthy thoughts with feelings,

While right foot follows left
following right
through each day’s inside and outside
ego- and eco-therapeutic journey
through life and death
between cooperative natural breath
and communal spiritual death, release reverse

Right foot forward into life
Left foot backward
into RightBrain’s sacred regenerate passage of timeless
journeying back through all past incarnate imaged lives

Patriarchal Right forward
and matriarchal Left reverse-hierarchical Time
co-governing pace through slowing our RightBrainBody
green organic herstory
integrative
synergetic
communal
negentropic timeless
run-on empty sentences
composed of re-associative double-binding phrases
like the sound of one foot not not walking

Perhaps I could feel called
to walk some small part
of this bipedal bicameral health journey.

But, how do you know when it is time to stop
and get on with your competitive egocentric day?

I’m not LeftBrain sure how I know
when to stop walking this pilgrimage
into cooperative WinWin.
I wake up each morning
more happily determined
to walk and talk in bicameral solidarity
until we have all found this healthy being Right
is doing Left journey
we were good-faith organically born to look for
and cooperatively expect
communally respect
polypathically request
of each EarthTribe
sacred eco-schooling
deep learning
OtherEmpathy

As therapeutically taught
by MotherEarth EcoRevolution School.

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