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Love’s Sufficient Time

I can accept that love
I have time to learn
and earn

But
can I embrace compassion
I feel sure appreciates me
far more wisely
than I have earned?

Positive passions more pleasant
than I could ever find sufficient time
to brilliantly learn

My adoration spot
on this comedy central
AnalRetentive Stage
listing
lusting
more Left Winged
liberating
than Right Singed
defensively sedating.

I am haunted
by an oppressively disabling gap
between what I have sufficient healthy time
to accomplish
to communicate
to experientially articulate
as anemically contrasted
to all I can imagine health
and safe wealth doing
togathering in this day,
this week,
this month,
this year,
this final decade
of my personal AnthroGay Pride
and WhitePrivilege
to prefer Black Lives MultiEnculturing Matter
and wild Paradise
PolyCulturing Pleasure

Win/Win bi-everything trans-thriving
positively contagious
as the clap

On a loved ones back
is my gay worldview sound
of one left hand liberally clapping
out FreeDom
ReStorative Justice
Love

Between my NonViolently WinWin Communicating
brothers and sisters

LeftBrain verbally dominant
claiming Peace
I nonverbally feel
RightBrain left outside
closeted gay emotional neglect

In my polyculturally wise universe
feeling all EarthMother’s love,
Polyester is always Lose/Lose trauma
bad news drama
while
PolyPathic Win/Win
evokes sacred warm
wet 1 within 0 zen rivers
of deeply penetrating gospel

Good regenerative humor
despite toxic rumors
that my indigenous EarthTribe
intentional family
and trauma-infested community
are suffering from an overheated climate
of monoculturing dementia

Increasingly difficult to recall
the love we have had time to learn
is earned one timeless
warm remembering moment
always liberally Here
as time conserving Now,
unconditionally warm
well-moisturized regard

For healthy hygiene
is next to wealthy
goddessness

A gay gratitude gift
more than sufficiently
out proud
well endowed.

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Blue Brush Witness

As she lays down her blue brush
in a blue-trimmed cream
dream stone basin
of darkening water

She realizes
inside voice has been thinking
about double negative paradox
as -x/-y
can’t win pathology

Of way too much Patriarchal Capitalist
dogmatic Business As Boorishly Usual,
monochromatic
monopolistic
monocultural
monotheistic

Describing
and prescribing her
BusyMess
is cruel
cold
calculating dismissal
disregard
don’t matter

Let her splatter!
while he eats
his white survival cake

Mindlessly unwoke
to future predative
desecration issues
promoting and marketing
trauma-inflation corporations
inviting frequent-flyer
evangelically missioned Narcissists

Who probably don’t think much
of a universal peak salvation experience
yet do feel deeply united,
maybe even energetically synergetic,
about their own sacred memories
of EarthMother’s original Win/Win
multi-colored co-invested
warm wet unconditionally cooperative
co-relationships

Through time’s changing
hue and culture and cry
LeftBrain verbally emerging
too dominant

Thereby, curiosity remains difficult to contain
to deeply listen for feelings to explain
this sound and sight for blue brushes
tinting her slowly turning water
growing
blueing
flowing sadly
back through Patriarchal
Capitalist
anthroprivileged time

Emerging blue
and grey
darkening ecocide.

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Earth Hugging

What could I do?

What to do
when your biological,
and even formerly sober ecological,
relationships suddenly veer insanely romantic?

Or worse,
mistrustful
and yet
not always distrustful,
or not,
maybe deeper sadness
and occasional manic gladness
emerging inclusively wider questions
of approach and/or avoid

Both romantic
and yet soberly pedantic
sometimes before,
to plan, for after
feeling up
and/or sore
predicts anxiously down,
as genocide
predicts ecocide,
as biological attraction
follows ecological co-invested transaction
secular lust
must be felt sacred just
to know need for win/win romance
from greed for a winner take all
anthroprivileged chance
to flex power
without sharing light,
capital wealth
without nutritional health,
disvalues of Yang infestment
without Yintegral co-investment values
predation
without co-operative elation

My rabid rabbit hole
suddenly re-opening inter-religiously
grasping indigenously divine romantic
mystery
or sacred nomadic history
not told
or remembered

When mother trees
and father limbs
felt sexy
and bark,
like skin,
felt consensual,
ecologically curious
and biologically courageous

Mystically nondualistic
Yanged up healthy
and yet also,
more kinda ecofeminist
Yintegral safe sex
yet curiously pantheistic MotherEarth
[is, and is not my sacred EarthMother]
outrageously romantic wombing

What to do when
win/win romantic co-investments
don’t go green cooperative ecstatic
resiliently resonating peak experience?

Instead, may feel not just egotistic
but also HumanPredative
pedantic privilege
more than ecologically resilient
and/or romantically brilliant,
depending, I suppose,
on which side of the secular courage
v sacred curiosity
I may feel,
and need,
and want this day

Worshipping manly mountains
and crouching in warm breezed grassy valleys
multiculturally enlightening
and polyculturally empowering

New ego/eco-logical systemic questions
about what to do
when One dominating monotheistic
StraightWhiteMale
dogmatically scripted
incorporated
religion in Power

And yet
disproportionately GrandMother funded
and nurtured
and fed
while marginalized,
still feeling disenfranchised
and stuck

On what to do
when your biological
and even formerly ecological
sacred relationships
suddenly veer insanely win/win romantic

I suppose it has something to do with
avoiding your personal slam-bam purposes
to feed and breed
our EarthRevival slow-grown
inspiraling cooperative
deep sacred meaning
is also highest and best mindbody use,
not abuse

Tipping WuWei toward
P = N(NP)
equitable chance
of ego/eco-systemic
win/win resilient
bio/eco-logical resonant
brilliance,
as LeftBrain Either/Or
Light v Dark
is to RightBrain Both/And
+1/-(-0)= PolyMathic EcoPolitical Equity

Expressed in
polyvagal neuro-systemic communication
polypathic eco-systemic not not mental health systemic
natural/spiritual
thought/felt trauma prevention
internal/external resonant affection
resiliently romantic
good health humored
co-inspiring balance issues

Which keep obsessively
and compulsively,
defensively
and liberally
avoiding
and approaching
fleeing courage
and fighting/freezing curiosity
looping back
to what should I do
when my biological health
fights my former ecological wealth
of co-empathic communication systems,
suddenly and insanely veering
pan-sensory win/win romantic?

Seems a whole lot more
than merely not so win/lose traumatic.

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Learning From Loss

The hardest losses
are those too late to repair
what has been win/win time lost
to despair

Just as love
cannot co-arise
where fear grows
fully uprisen
a prison
predicting anger’s nearby
impetuously apprised
surprise.

So too,
Freedom cannot thrive
where addiction has hard helped
us feel we are not softly worthy
to survive

“Loser” labelled struggles
with addiction
cannot feel free of affliction
nor can giving in
to addiction’s short-term affections,
powers to feel escape
from personal
and communal,
economic
and political,
monocultural
and monotheistic
OverPowers

Social judgment,
blame
and shame,
co-detachment
non-communication
developing hard
stiffly cold silent screaming
excommunication

Depressing loneliness
isolation
self-ostracization issues
win/lose closeted
fear-based shame defenses
against Old School GoldenRule
loss of co-invested love
offenses.

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Porky Problems

A porky problem
worth resolving

Is our scientifically hoggish evolutionary
survivalist assumption
that all Creatures that Matter
would highest and best
usefully support AnthroPrivileged
rabidly expanding WealthCare
EcoPolitical Systems

Monopolizing EarthMother’s breastmilk
and extracting fertile fuel
from her commercialized
and marginalized,
raped
and enslaved tits.

Pigs in a mud-warmed pond
experience a health care system
without monotheistic meaning
and not intending
or pretending
any monopoly rights to embodied pleasure,
much less spiritualized Paradise

As deeply as we can communicate
only AnthroGods and their Goddess Concubines
believe in our immortal EarthRights
to entitled lives that exclusively matter
for EarthMother’s healthiest wealth
resilient solidarity
and resonant synergy.

Swine, by compassionate comparison,
gladly show us
more resilient thrival instincts
than avoiding the Killing Butcher
by feeding and pushing our piglets
toward a capital-fueled Trauma Machine

As any pig would know,
survival of the fattest
is not necessarily as enlightened
or empowering
as we might
whole herd EarthTribe
together sacred grow

In cooperative mindfulness,
EarthTribal integrity,
solid
resilient synergy,
with the copassionate mindfulness
of a mystified
post-partum sow.

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Dark

Dark chances,
unhealthy and unsafe trauma
HiStories

Degenerating predative dogmas
not wanting to let go of ballistics
even for dawning light’s sacred promise
to grab full-immersion hold
and heal dark mythologies
lose now and again later ecologies
repeat rehearsed
inside-only voiced
dark passion narratives

Speaking out alarmed Betrayal
from those you were taught to Trust–
[it was Her job!
I have an unconditional contract
on a warm wet naturally wombed
and spiritually unwounded
birthright!

Defying Other’s Anger
about my gift-economy Hypocrisy
about my sacred Golden Rule restriction
win/win positive aspiration,
invoked by nature’s spiritual
Hippocratic Oath
to at least do no damage
losing trusted breath in
so losing full breath back out
again
and again
and repeat breathlessly again.

My own most difficult,
occasionally traumatic,
distressingly long, slow
letting go transition

Feels almost inevitably headed
for natural health-Lose
spiritual health-Lose
despair

Unless we all keep trying our best,
not just me
cleaning up your mess
to suffering servant impress

All us AnthroPrivileged victims
aware of traumatic over-populated
rabid traumatic
and pandemic health risks,
and runaway
emerging PTSD
and dementia
and suicide
and matricide
and ecocide

Make it almost impossible
to respect ourselves
yet not fear
retributive justice officers
and judges
and monolithic Yang-Jehovah

Dispensing punishments and fines
and shame
and blame
where the only obvious victim
I can see
is me.

My dark protagonist continues
to be victimized,
even now in aging memories

Every day past light
leads, at dusk,
to dark future
leads, at dawn,
to soon past light…

Yet my attachment to enlightenment
encourages me to disregard
co-arising dipolar dark empowerments
bicamerally re-associated

Yet awkwardly, sometimes
with high-risk trauma histories
monoculturally LeftBrain
EgoCentric predative Yang

AnthroPrivileged Voices
stuck on healthy and safe past orthodox
value systems
personal
and economic
and political
and separate and unequal
bi-sensory
and anti-sexual competitive dogmatic traditions

Not spiritually or naturally learning
so not wanting to let go
even for dawning light’s healthy promise
to grab resilient hold
and heal dark
post-traumatic lose/lose
zero-sum global
ecocidal winterish nightmares

Dipolar co-arising
unconditional warm sun rising
well-moisturized
copassionately co-invested day dreams
and horizontal dances,
core-chakra interpersonal win/win
exercises
nonviolent practice
practice
practice

Until we get our cooperative peak experience
sacredly awesome
and restorative ecojustice
left and right again

BiLateral
BiCameral creolization
in timeless tides
of over-swelling
regenerativity

Not quite
so bleakly alone
trapped in silent screaming stark
Dark.

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Cooperative Desires

My dubiously protagonist Self
outgrows toward a co-invested
cooperative
co-governing center

A core UnWhite House communication center
Tao training for sacred positive
and trauma negation memories

Into ecologically
and economically
Right whole open
PanenTheistic Intelligence

Amping up
co-relational win/win choices
through unconditional regard
of panentheistic
inside/outside co-discernment
voiced choices

Ego secularized
by LeftHemisphere
health and safety cooperative
evolving old tired competitive
revolutionary predative theories

Not mentioning
survive together to thrive
communal co-empathic
win/win imaginations
empowering enlightened co-governance
animating histories

My intimately win/win highest and best
co-redemption narratives
feel like a sacred housed cooperative
trauma-free awareness
and copassionate intent
to live together EarthTribe curiously,
yet confidently,
win/win committed
sacredly together

On, but not overpowering,
my cusp of traumatic anxiety triggers
and co-therapeutic anticipated compassions
together deepending mutually co-invested
ownership and co-therapeutic
natural health and spiritual safety
intent

Calls my sacred housing cooperative images
merging projects for
and from
cooperative nondogmatic experiences
comforted by food and energy
nurturing resilience

Appreciating river-front environmental green
and clean
co-relational preservation
not at all bully mean

Historical-multicultural
Right-sacred/Left-secularizing
co-discernment spirit-mind/nature-body skills
of cooperative
co-governing communications

For green cooperative resilience
reproducing inside imaged
EarthPeace therapeutic homes
and panentheistic gardens
in/out-sided
wellness-rounded
competing mortal space
throughout immortal time
for EarthTribe’s Here/Now resonance.

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Mixed Messages

Dear Old Joe,

I have found a retiring fascination
with right nature conserving
and yet very wrong
left-handed spiritual answers

Messengers to invite
more deeply recreating
natural outside
spiritual inside
co-arising questions

Unanswered lifespan queeriosities
about important Earth health
and personal ego-safe wealth
preservation matters
that sound liberating
yet feel conservational,
like Purple
to economic red v blue legislators

and Turquoise
to political cold blues bullies
turning toward less bruising green
co-redemptively bipartisan again

Old man lifespan matters
we might both recall
win/win post-traumatically
bipartisan creolizing repositions
overlapping personal love-felt
recreative song
and sensory (including sexual)
sacred ritual dance
and recreation events
naked and transparent
indigenously anthro-vulnerable
seeking deep win/win resilience

Cuz you ain’t dead,
yet.

Anyway,
sacred synergetic images
are, upon long-grown reflection,
spatial
and 4D spiraling Special.

Now recognizing
LeftBrain associated
Other downgrading
traditional dogmatic
and eerily un-ecological values,
And yet we continue searching
integrity’s potential
for ego-recentering
cooperative health
co-investing ambitious wealth

Of sacred co-empathic,
nearly timeless historical curiosity,
past through future extending
as my own lifespan has unraveled
with ego-trauma/eco-therapy
integral creolizing potential

For recognizing
LeftBrain monoculturally dominant
AnthroSupremacist verbal Capitalizing
competitive devolutionary win/lose
Natural Physical Theory

Not respectfully attending
indigenously cooperative
double-binding binomials

Like EgoTrauma v EcoTherapeutic
co-arising dipolar synergies
unconditionally positive win/win
Open Whole EarthRestoring
cooperatively copassioned
mindfulness

Of better WhiteHouse
and garden
and beekeeping

Global peace health
includes local sacred
creolizing cooperative wealth

Measured in robustly co-invested
tax-base capital infested
purple-spirited
and turquoise natured
wealth of polycultural climate-healing

Intends restoring health relationships
and not so much judgmental
StraightWhite Paternalistic
Capitalized and thereby Secularized
retributively punishing
traumatizing Court and Police and Military
Extract, BlowUp, Indenture
WinLose Prison Systems

Lack of RightFelt
health and safety
neurosystemic win/win
spirited-mind/natural-body
warm, and sometimes wet,
pro-life wisdom matters,
catchers and batters
circles and flatters
conserving intentions
and liberating splatters

from the Council on Cooperative CoGovernance

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UnAppreciated Americans

Our President
here at the local nonpartisan association
also appreciates Americans
he has never met
or heard
or smelled

Not to mention out to get
never ever tasted,
at least without informed consent,
or vulnerably seen
or transparently felt
with copassioned
trauma-free intent,
yet not actually met,
just yet

And
I am confused
that our President would feel
he needs to say this,
as if appreciating Americans
were a partisan platform
advocating politically
and economically unusual
universal health
and safe global wealth
resiliently inclusive policy priorities

Sacredly patriotic
EcoMatriotic regard
for nutrition-based
economic historical
poly/mono-culturing
cooperative/competing
wu-wei YintegralPower/YangLight
sacred/secular
transubstantiating neuro-sensory
WinWin/WinLose/LoseLose
co-mediating
eco-political communication systems

I readily concede
I could be wrong
but I can at least imagine
Donald Trump
feeling and believing,
although jaded
disappointed
and dispassionately,
that he appreciates
all those NonWhite
NonStraight
NonPatriarchal EcoFeminists
he has never met

And would just as soon
not change his monopolistic bliss
to CounterCulturally encounter Othering
dark ignorance,
just yet.

I don’t know if it is a positive
or negative coronary corollary
to further extend
this metaphoric analogy

Yet Trump,
unlike Biden,
could never get
a multiculturally gifted American
he has not yet met

But I would bet
it would be hard to vet
EarthTribe residents
too healthy to ever regret
not having had the pleasure
of meeting many Trumpian Americans

Cold greetings
likely best to forget
we all come from somewhere

Matriarchally sacred
as an interdependent
health care safety net
includes imaginatively appreciating

All those Others Othering
unfertilized good eggs,
and thus not yet met.

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Aunt Agony’s InFatuation

Her dark
impatient inside AntiGonist declares
left out right in face of
a polyculturally sublime
ProWithiGistic voice within,
if S/He only vulnerably dared
to risk her dark impatience:

I did not choose
to lose
my masculinity

To no longer
and wider grow
against you
just as you could not choose
to lose mistrust
against EcoWe
Aunt defying Uncle Agony

Pitching out
and catching
Anti/Pro BiCameraRolls
of ecstasy

Which reminds me
my dear,
although a bit queer,
a rhyme I recall
never having heard
or ever read
about Royal Leer:

Who feels quite strongly
and yet wrongly
that Queen Allure
invites Royal Leer
to lure
wildly winning spinning
ProWithiGist radically sad
misconclusions

Further flaming and feathering
Aunt Agonist’s unchosen
inevitable
WinLose troubling
bipolar competitive relationships

Robustly fanned
and GoldenRule unplanned
by evolutionary
theory of secularized might
makes Patriarchal Capitalists right
to be Aunt Agonist desecrating
learing
lusting to destroy
without ecological
or sacred reason
for such treason
against binomially co-arising
lusty dipolarity

But, I’m not your AntiGonistic colonizing threat
story today
and I am your ProWithiGist creolizing therapy
opportunity tomorrow

Luring
ProWithiGists alluring
masochistic maids
to please your dissociative
trauma-distressed
fertility undressed
a not-so-yucky
fornicating mess

AntiGonistic excommunications
grow win/lose pressures
leering elsewhere
appearing to lure divorce,
apartheid,
secularizing monotheistic
segregation
and not not sacred expand-theistic
integration.

As all AuntAgonist drag queens know,
Patriarchal Acquisitive Leering (PAL)
inappropriately overpowers
what might have been
an Alluring exhibition
of gracefully embodied health
and safe with AuntEartha’s
ProWithiGist mental wealth.

Includes AuntEartha’s indigenous wisdom:

It is not nice
to lure wild AntiGonist voyeurs
into more cooperatively,
vulnerably,
transparently,
transportedly unchosen
unconditional regard
for restoring
and restorying
a more resonant Aunt Agony’s
whole open systemic climate
supporting nonviolent
and warmly compassionate
and sometimes kinda wet
sacred communion

Tipping sacred/secular tables seductively
in-between Alluring ProWithiGist Saints
and Leering AntiGonist Kings

And lusty
crusty AuntAgonist
drag queens.

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