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Religious Ties That Bind

Religion
could be more spiritually grounded
in healthy ecological relationships
were theologians and governors
to remind each multiculturing Other,

This re-connecting work
of religious economic and political enculturation
is less about unchangeable past history of TruthSpace
and more about continuous,
resonantly reculturing
EarthBeauty Time

Less about petrified fear
anger
unhealthy distrusting demonic place
and more about fluid compassion,
safe
timeless double-binds of graced eternity.

Double-binds are sometimes recognized
in moral theology–
damned if you do
and damned if you don’t;

Seldom blessed if you do
and grace if you don’t.

Two negatives equal a positive
but two polarized positives
equal a mess of confusion.

R.D. Laing connected verbal communication
between individual victims
and socially empowered authorities
like parents
and teachers

And perhaps evangelical theologians
demanding we love God
more than Ego,
Yet if we understand Ego
as merely autonomous from God’s omnipotent grace,
then we have not yet
personally enough
accepted God’s love
into our self-made hearts.

Double-binds are double-negatives
as double-binary x’s and y’s,
1’s and 0’s,
binomial prime relationships
like Yang and Yin
and dipolar bonds of appositional association

Co-defining
eco-refining Earth’s regenesis
with fractal DNA and RNA
double-bilateral structures

Like 4-dimensional spacetime
of co-arising
co-acclimating bi/di-polar dynamics
either/or AND both/and
left resonant
with right hemisphere interdependent communication
non-violent,
so, compassionate–

These are not often enough
positively re-ligioned
re-connected
rewoven into the fabric
of double-binding win/win choices,
healthy, mutually trusting, democratic discernment,
nondualistic dialogue
theological and ecological,
psychological and neurological,
organic and democratic,
sexual and sensual,
historic and cultural,
memory and mysterious hope

For dipolar co-gravitating
spiritual death and natural life
ecosystemic experience,
systemic divine climax,
sacred wonder
and secular
spiraling
recycling
regenerating awe

Root
to branch
to flower
to seed
new/old root re-ligioning systems.

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Light/Dark Powers

If a maturely individuated ego…

Honey, you just left out most of us.
Could you work on being more inclusive?

is organically
holistically SelfAware,
codedefining as
Not some Other conscious egocentered person,

Some Other living sensate creature
composed of interdependent
organic health-maintenance and development functions,

Including reproductive capacity,
regenerative fertile potential
inherited
for repurposing
recycling into Earth’s polyglot future,

And, if Earth
is also an organically living
global ecosystemic Habitat
revolving and recycling
within universal light and dark energy fields,

Expanding complex positive energy systems
and chaotic negative entropic potentials

Not ZeroSum
and, more positively, Win/Win co-gravitating
ionically re-ligioning systems
re-connecting
re-weaving

re-emerging from interdependently dancing Black Holes,
dark spiritual energy chakras
for transport
and Whole Open Systemic ReDevelopment Processes,

Admittedly, a grandly dark-staged IF,
yet,
if interdependently holistic ego systems
interact within a universal win/win energy environment
of unitarian meta-energy balancing light/dark
health/pathology systems,

Then where could GodSun
and EarthGoddess starlight
have SuperEgo bilaterally emerged from?
SuperOther than our original
multicultural
prime ZeroSum double-binary
co-empathic relationship

Fertile light Mother
and darkly embryonic sacred Child
co-empathically polypathic
Polymathic
Polyphonic
Poly-metamorphic
Polyphoric
Polyvagal energy
positive light
inviting self-conscious rebirth

Of deep
dark
wounded postpartum
unwinding win/lose
empowering/disempowering
wombs
with BlackHole commencements

As YangBright truths and trust
greet YinDark sacred beauty,

As regenerative democratic life
predicts and evicts
degenerative unrevolving death
of continuously monoculturing
patriarchal egos

Marching in predative capital-infested squares,
rather than dancing
in BlackLife Matter
holistic energy chakras,
bright and beautiful.

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New Wine, Old Skins

For naturally aged old bodies,
new age spirituality
may bring to mind

Natural AND spiritual co-creative tensions
between regenerative positive empowerment
and degenerative negative dark,
yet still warmly wet newborn,
womb-like metamorphic attachment memories,

Continuous recycles of re-generate life
and de-generating deaths,

Wins
and losses,

Healthy days
and wealth uneased nights

Free of hoarding ego privileges
embedded in Earth’s blue/green
cooperative
ecosystemic timeless
multiculturing senses

Of natural old ages
giving way to continuous
dipolar co-arising
appositional/oppositional
bicameral
cooperative/competitive
naturally spirited
new-green/old-red sages.

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Dancing Questions

I have a lot of questions
questions
questions
he repeated
and danced
and slowly swung
on our creaky screened porch swing.

Radiant
in fiery ginger godliness,
mind centering omnipotence

He is so far ahead
of answers,
I feel embarrassed
to share them.

But, in not sharing
I become lost in caring
what you might think of me,
feel about we
without sufficient daring.

He swings anal retentive
in a whole new light
of previously unrepresented delight.

Ah! that could not be my question.
A hypothesis, perhaps
meriting further research;
new questings.

It feels important to me
this questing
for high and deep best male alert
dessert thick
and creamy,
dreamy wave of carnal delight,
absence of fright
or fight
in last and long dark nights
on seas of swings
just f…..g right.

I want to squeeze
these pulsing questings
out of this maleness
female mess
so quickly
complexly asked
and chaos given

Shriven
of clothes
but not masquerades
of closet questions
questing answers
not yet hard
and widely embraced
formed
invited graced q…r notions

Of motions
and emotions
just right
and left
bilaterally in-between
bicameral lusts
and binomial leisure
to swing all theories continuous
polypathic
polyphonic
polyvagal
polymetric ways

Of in
and out
and rebellious shout
for Earth’s most carnal freedom
of re-connecting
polycultural con-scientific re-ligioning
questions about straight and narrow
meets wide and deep

Why 1
slides so sexily
into 0
shaped chakras
of natural
spiritual co-empathic pole
and hole energy
like nuts
and bolts
and male
and female bi-polarities.

So many questions,
he gloriously proclaims
in majestic awe
meets lusty wonder

As his bicameral feet
gently invite
our graced swing
to sweep and seep
with co-gravitating
revolving Earth
back to Spring
and forth to Fall

One late summer morning
on our screened porch swing.

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Spirited Developments

Great
and small
spiritual teachers
glowingly preach
and promise disciplined pilgrim creatures
Nirvana,
Paradise,
Heaven,
Blissful Features.

A timelessly perpetual climax
no natural teacher
this side of Eden’s regenerative garden
would dare speculate
we might reasonably anticipate
some great rewoven day
of universal redemption.

It is this Bliss,
too univocal
too monochromatic,
I begin to question

If this climatic experience
is like a deep bright pond
stagnantly enclosed,

Rather than a continuously flowing river
of multicultural
multigenerational
poly-regenerational sensory experiences
spouting out from Here as Now
back to light’s first flicker

And forward
to bright’s most blissful moments
reflected
inflecting constant flowing functions
of energies robustly positive,
cooperative
compassionate changing paradise
returning me to this river
never entered
or exited
exactly this same fluid nirvana
twice.

Not only because eco-rivers
continuously flow
but also because ego-identities
continue to curiously grow
sometimes far beyond
any happy shores
our natural and spiritual teachers
have hoped to personally know.

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Healthiest Wealth of Loyalty

We each and all have, I suspect,
a universal rightbrain multicultural awareness
that patriotism
risks degenerating into leftbrain fascism,

Isolating nationalism
self-righteously defending militaristic supremacy
and patriarchal privilege of an apartheid State
moving toward fear-mongered isolationism
supporting competitively debating
predative politicization
of capitalism

Rather than recognizing ourselves
as nations resting and wrestling
and co-investing
on interdependent continents
articulating green/blue loyalty to Earth
and no less nation
or solitary incontinence.

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An Anxiously Anticipated Event

Dear John,

All day
yesterday
I loaded up with a cascading river
of mixed anxiety and anticipation
about what to safely and kindly,
transparently and vulnerably
compassionately, so non-violently, share
communicate;

Which narrative tributaries to choose
within this vast spacetime stream
of choices
directions
felt depressions and erections.

Do you remember
communication theory
framed as Rhetorical Events?

Our initial walk and talk,
eating together,
rather than my refrigerator foraging
brunchtime usual rawfood practice,
is a graced green,
rain giving way to blue, memory for me,
and, I hope, for we
these sacred walking
secular talking
people.

Successful rhetorical events,
as I recall,
and have co-passionately experienced
with ecstatic thrills
and mysterious chills of anticipation,
wanting more and more
cascading throughout my too isolated life,

Are cooperatively held spaces
resonant and verbal and non-verbal places
longing to become resilient
as ultra-violet light
in phosphorescent mystical night,
bright
and warm
without ballistic fright,
inviting sounds of sight.

So I drove home
basking in such rich
potentially resilient
transparent and vulnerable
articulate yet impassioned
felt experience
confirming all my own ego’s grand theories
about win/win non-violent
Rhetorical compassioning
Events.

My anxieties spoke later
about mutual physical
natural, yet also spiritual,
attraction–
this smell and taste neurological chemistry
of touch exhaling
to co-empathically predict
our romantically felt quality
inhaling integrity’s great resilient passions,
shared loves
communal,
deeply green cooperative,
that rhetorical day
as true and beautiful for us.

It has been thirty years
since my last first date,
with a man who became my unanticipated husband,
partner
spouse
lover
quarreler
critic
listener
emotive voice
co-investor
political ally
communicator
miscommunicator
long-term rhetorical event
cooperative space-holder,
mediator
not really quite green enough
for resonant felt
and thought co-passionate experience
near our end
of cohabitation.

Nearly half my lifetime,
thirty years,
and I feel anxious
I have not yet learned
appropriate new old person rules
of transparency
and vulnerability
to be clear
and kind,
compassionately clear
about my natural/spiritual
physical/metaphysical attractions,
anticipations,
anxieties.

When I last dated
a gay encounter of the first kind
either ended nakedly together
or with a scheduled second date
with a bed
or a sling
or a deserted moonlit beach
front and center on our anticipated menu

Or ended in disaster,
no connection,
no further warm and resonant communication,
no passing green light Go!

I did not “date”
men who lived so very far away,
out of state,
unless one of us was planning to relocate
or both of us were anticipating
an extremely resonant
one hot night stand
lying down together,
exploring all the vertical
and horizontal dances
we could imagine ever wishing we had done
to further gather
future’s warm anticipations.

I am anxious
because I do not want to disappoint you
or me
about our embodied
non-verbal communication
and passion together.

My own nakedness
lies nowhere near my vulnerable
and transparent self-esteem
as was the case
when I last dated
and I do not know
what to do
and not do
with that.

I have no mentors,
no wise teachers,
no therapeutic facilitators,
no sex therapist
to talk and touch me through
this anxiety.

But, I do anticipate
an unfortunate comparison
I met on our silvered dating site
the same day I first heard you
connect climate pathological effects
with capitalistic causes,
which immediately won my curiosity
to know
just how deeply knowing
we might go
together,
and not apart.

I met another singer
another meditator
another deeply
physically connected
to Taoist sensory communication
yangly verbal and yin non-verbal,

More physically incarnated
and less metaphysically abstract
less theoretical
merely rhetorical
more mature
aged
connected like wine with cheese
and re-connected
than my own experience
in how to mutually
yet maturely
please.

Last evening we talked.
His voice sings and rings,
warmly chills and quietly thrills.

And, he is closer.
Teaches dance.
We anticipate learning together
how to tango horizontally
without creating an entangled mess
at our ripe old average age
of 69

Which,
when I last dated
was a cooperatively rhetorical
erotic position
and not an age
which we sensually anticipated
without great anxiety
about resilience
of sensual resonance.

For me,
this need not be a win or lose,
either-or situation.
Even less so
if I thought the two of you
would appreciate each other
in this partner searching
lifeline rivered
shivered way,
but that is not what I would anticipate
either of you would say.

So, that is what is on my mind
and heart
and root chakras
this another deep green
ego-centering
and ecosystemic rhetorical day.

Said my vertical horizontal way,
physical and metaphysical
natural and spiritual
secular and sacred
love with you
and hell to pay,
anxiously anticipating
your kind
non-maligned
response.

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Summer Saturday

On a Michigan farmer Saturday
in August,
anticipating tomorrow’s evangelical Sabbath,

When late summer vacations
invoked pre-sacred house cleanings
more unusually light,

Heading outside after lunch
into this spectacularly breezy
blue billowing
discontinuously cumulus cloudy
in-between radiant sky blue
infinite wonder

Into this awesomely long leisurely afternoon
becoming one of those special kids
sent out to rediscover solitary play
while Mom clears HER kitchen
to fill our kitchen
with impossible fragrance
of Sunday dinner rhubarb pie
or fresh strawberry shortcake,
whipping vanilla or banana cream
while boiling sweet yellow corn,
baking mac and ancient cheddar cheese
for this evening’s pre-dusk compline dinner.

On this first summer celebrating Saturday
of low humidity
and temperatures predicting September 70s

Out past our red barn
and past its barnyard lily pond
and into golden stubbled hay fields,
sheared sexy contoured face
of my temporarily uncloseted gay imaginings
hoping for YangGod’s sexiest face
smiling in sabbath of return

Continuing on
to private green cool woodland
to nakedly climb a favorite tree
skin to naked bark,
full-bodied embrace
of this fabulous shared EarthLife
transparent
and open
and breezy free with God’s inclusive hope.

Out to play
and pray
this day
and month
and vacation
and re-creation
will never end

Or end,
if time must continue,
in moonlit radiant peace,
night dreams
of asking into perfect Sabbath.

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Shocking Senior Chakras

It feels difficult,
and more urgent in advanced single age,
when mind and root dominant chakras,
perhaps highest and deep best,
conspire against heart
and root resonant chakra,

Difficult
to conspire toward short term positive outcomes
such seniority should actively deploy
and then peacefully enjoy

While also entertaining
how to deeply respirate toward long term
resilient incoming
and resonant outgoing relationships
such wise elders
could fluidly compassion

With non-violent communication,
win/win cooperative ecopolitical development
conjoining these places
spaces
traces toward one’s own theological temples

Are another’s inviting ecological
co-relational passion
of mind
and heart
and deep rooting chakras.

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Please Do Panic

Writing yet another note to my straight white CongressMan,
asking him to Please, Do Panic
about all this fear-based non-legislation
undemocratic fascist
nationalistic Win/Lose evolutionary corrupt
democratic devolution
going on around
and within us,

I’m wearing a white 1970s vintage Tshirt
from Castro Street’s Don’t Panic
political resistance and celebration
apparel.

Fifty years later,
I think it is well past time
to take the cooperativist
win/win panic plunge,

With a bold
black framed message:

THE RELIGIOUS RIGHT
IS WRONG

My son’s Haitian-American nurse,
married
and straight
as a military-industrialized arrow,
without the slightest quiver
of vocalized doubt,

Sexy darkbrown skin,
greying at his wisdom temples,
and a devout capitalist 7th Day Adventist
family provider man
of second or third evangelical generation,

Wants to know
if he, in 2020,
is affiliated with what my Tshirt says
to the Religious Right of 1975.

Possibly,
but I have always known you
as part of a Spiritual Right,

Which does not
too liberally judge
outside your own sensory satisfactory experience,

And is informed
and transparently curious
to learn from your own
sensory anticipations
of healthy smells
and wealthy tastes,
what feels good
and touches right,

And to responsibly stretch
your own sensory anxieties/anticipations
without blaming
or ambiguously shaming yourself
for not accepting who you are
right now
in this life
flowing toward
who we will become sacredly together,
spiritually and naturally,
tomorrow.

Which must,
in good right faith,
inevitably become a more rooted choice
to not be some other spiritual
or anti-spiritual life,
sometimes anxious about monoculturally competing
and other times anticipating
multicultural engagement
to be most naturally/spiritually right
in the ZeroZone pocket
of just Right EarthNursing balance.

Finding right religion
in natural/spiritual sensory experience;
your own phenomenological journey
embeds our shared ontological history
of sensory
neurological reweaving
re-ligioning psychological
left/right
yang/yin ancient sensory co-arising climax
of co-awareness,
consciousness,
co-operative con-scientiousness,
Ego/Eco-Systemic Balance.

My son’s 7th Day Adventist
Black Lives Matter
Haitian-American straight male nurse responds,

“Thank you.
That’s true.”

“Where can I find this shirt?
I would like one to wear
to our church picnic.
My extended Right spiritual family
will have many paniced health questions.”

And concerns
about green democratic wealth, I add.

“And, as you say,
some surprisingly grateful
gospel faith
anticipations.”

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