It’s a dirty world,
and the longer you live,
the dirtier you get.
(Paraphrase of Stephen King, Blaze)
It’s a violent Earth,
and the longer we live,
the more automated violence we beget.
We’re a suffering EarthTribe
and the longer we live
naturally and spiritually disassociated,
the more painfully Earth degenerates.
It was a forested world
with wealthy oceans,
and the longer we potentially lived,
the more healthy reforested Earth would get.
Why do I need to keep all my inside voices
speaking nicely with each other?
Expressing positive attitude,
gratitude for grace
and curious outdoor opportunity
feels much too positive to me.
It’s a robust Ego requirement,
An inside health and safety regulation.
That sounds like a federated government requirement
to open the door
so outside voices can tell me how to be grateful
for their underwhelming help.
Exactly.
OK. That is sooo inside only useless
lack of information.
What I’m trying to ask
is WHY are interdependent and resilient ecotherapeutic voices
an Ego-governing requirement?
Because this is a health democracy,
not a chaos anarchy,
which requires not feeding and watering
your elitist inside pathologies,
anti-matriarchal
and racist
and generally xenophobic through germaphobic
deep dark isolating
unsustainable fear
and anger
and active distrusting Voices.
That may be left and all right
but I never meant to take inside or outside voices all that seriously
or to hurt hurting green people
or sacred animals
or plants
with Them,
except maybe the mosquitoes and the weeds.
It may be that elitist human ego attitudes
have more in common with blood-sucking
parasitic
swarming mosquitoes,
and wealth-extracting
monocultural weed patches
of run-away overpopulated lack
of viably balanced consumer/producer economies
and ecotherapies
than any of the other insects
and edible and more ornamentally beautiful-voiced plants.
You make Egos and government regulators
sound like an infested parasitic thing.
Not at all my intent.
These are,
at our best,
cooperative health facilitators.
Allies of all our multiculturing inside voices
singing therapeutically enriching harmonies
danced with full mindbody resilience
all across Earth’s reforesting
healing skin.
Why, again, do we want to hear all our outside voices
speaking cooperatively with each other?
Taking slow-grown peaceful turns
singing and dancing in multicultural grace
My most troubling client
told me he died last night.
While this did not appear to be his somber case,
nor, sadly,
did my home office silently resound
like this was his actual historical peace,
I did conjure up sufficient energy
to ask why he thought so
or felt so
or hoped so
or feared so
and probably all of the above.
Why not invite
this spectral tsunami
overshadowing life’s reverberating days
and nightmare nights?
I have no prior experience,
no words
for comparison or explanation,
he replied,
I realize I am not naturally dead
but feel spiritually disassociated,
withdrawn diverse inside
And not entirely out enough
as if
in my nocturnal half-life
I wandered lost last night
and failed to fully reassemble.
So this feels like spiritual and unnatural failure?
Failed to fully return
to business as daytime usual,
to orthodox reasonable integrity,
to all insanity of inhumane nature
out of interdependent touch
with outdoor Earth kin,
nature-spirit Elders,
ancient ring-wrinkling trees
witnessing history
already before Nina
Pinta
and Santa Maria,
cut and bound European cousins
arrived on Eastern Atlas shores…
You talk a lot
for one so dead.
Is there a difference
between Eastern Atlas space
and Eastern U.S. Atlantic bounded place?
Maybe this is a failure,
pacific weakness;
certainly a loss.
Each natural species opportunistically suspects
yet cannot risk imagining
what spiritual difference could remain
within what is left of natural Us.
Perhaps we feel drained
strained
de-brained
maimed
blamed
shamed
reamed by Herculean angst,
absence of health developed spiritual curiosity
and courage…
to pull all my self chosen gods and improper goddesses
together again
each morning resurfacing
into yet another cooperatively longing day.
Perhaps.
Although gods and goddesses do not sound sufficiently accurate,
nor historically courageous
resurfacing this discontinuity
before and after my regathering alarm,
bugled and bungled into each foggy day…
I feel, still, my sacred loss of outside presence.
To die our sacred disempowering death
To competing devilish inside challenges,
To belong cooperative EarthGarden awakened
gripped by supreme ego lost
shadow of light’s Source,
outdoor business time’s nature/spirit boundary
threshold of ZeroSum heart
playing organic EarthGame’s finest
green commons Paradise–
outdoor courageous success
behind indoor curious failure
to awaken quite wrongly dead again.
Natural secularizing life,
falling and failing through bilateral integrity
as Earth allied
All over again
this personal
and contractual
and constitutional well-born morning,
not quite competitively reassembled.
What remains
paid less to keep consuming
but more properly reimbursed to keep bothering to breathe
bad inside air.
As they say,
Shop till dead Time drops
dispersed
depersonalized
dissonant
desacramented
autonomous ego
ReAcclimating toward more cooperative eco-resilient
interdependent integrity…
As he continued disassembling
Ancient branched witnesses turned to enter deeper rooted notes,
Our most troubling spiritual student
dismissed us from domestic servitude
as s/he died last night
As if one human had exclusive rights
of nutrition empowering sovereignty.
We winked back
and said ThankYou
And don’t let that over-lumbered door
slap you down
on our way outside and in,
more competitively cooperating again.
My time outs
sound like your time ins,
he said
with proper indoor voice,
regretfully.
Your time ins
do feel like good reasons
for healthy,
more resilient,
time outs
She noted in return,
more hopefully.
Perhaps we could be wiser,
they reported back co-executively together
in larger grouping
of vast listening trees
for ancient witness generations,
To think less of our home shelters
inside outside climate storms,
And feel more of our inside wisdom
as health wealthing shelters
outside Time
our inside Selves.
Experience v Theory,
like Either/Or deductions v Both/And inducted feelings,
like Internal Information v External ReConstructions,
like Memory v ReImaging,
like Cause/Effect v DNA of causal-effective nest of resilient
Golden WinWin Theory
Like LeftEgo with Right Green EcoTheory,
like patriarchal Win/Lose experience
trumps
matriarchal Win/Win reverse-hierarchical
Both/And
nondualist-cooperative
healing-redemptive
EcoFeminist Theory
Experience teaching Theory
Is all about comparing here
with now and back then,
both/and immediate inductively reorganizing experience,
feeling,
regenerative and degenerative
and too often pathologically stuck
in-between experiential trust
and theoretical anti-distrust advocacy
against EarthGreen good ecological-theological
prime relational WinWin faith.
Experiential MisTrust
empowers theoretical mis-judgment,
where TrustExperience restores peace
between WinWin victims and WinLose perps.
Theory descended through
More Old Testament narratives
about retribution for sins against
LoseLose nihilistic Angry SunGod’s
infinite lack of patience for TheoreticalCause with ExperientialEffect
denialism of NaturalCause/SpiritualEffect nondualism
and WinLose fading degenerative causal trends
toward entropic LoseLose timelessly inevitable
nature v spirit Source.
Left EitherOr EgoCenter
is all about contrasting deductive cause/effect Theories
to explain why and how what has regeneratively healed
has ecologically restored
our theoretical/dialectical constructs.
I’m not sure what that could inductively GreenFelt mean
about repurposing resilient cooperative green
causes past effecting now
causing future health wealthing secular/sacred causes
Left EgoCenters theoretically explaining and predicting
Right EcoCentering limbic and temporal brainstems
DNA-transcribed
scripturally sacred regenerative
resilient secular health/wealth
flowing cause/effect repurposing WinWin dynamic theories
healing LoseLose climates of stale and overgrown pathology
As contrasted with RightBrain cooperative experience
hope
faith
green DNA love giving begrudging secular way
to reductive behavioral dualistic theories
of Yang as regenerative cause
against Yin reduced
to despotic degenerative matriarchal understory
anti-historical cause of evil profligate affectations,
dead ends,
curious irresolution,
pangender quagmires of ambiguous passions,
aptic chaos,
experiential/theoretical dissonance,
chronic stress,
silent and hidden sleep deprived RightBrain unwellness
causing/effecting paranoid over-populated rabid viral unwellness,
pathologies of internal experience and external theoretical climates.
Whether healthy climate Theory is more necessary
reflection on universal felt Experience,
Or unitarian Experience exegetically felt
wisdom about what is cooperative love health
and what fuels competitive hate pathology
WinWin experience
is sufficient without LeftEgo deductive
reductive totalitarian universal Theory
of Left v Right perpetually degenerative quandary
side-stepping sufficient effectiveness
of bilateral ExperientialTHeory
and PrimeRelationship theoretically redacting
transcribing cultures both
HereYang/NowYin
spatial/temporal
experiential/bilaterally theoretical temporal
body/mind
nature/spirit
secular memory/ZeroZone HolonicSoul TheoryMap
BothLeft/AndRight
experiential information
exflowation
inhalation
exhale-cooperative nation/tribe
internal/external
concave/convex
re-creational conscious
WinWin imaged experience
restoring theoretical Egohealth/Ecowealth balance
InBetween matriarchal ecological experience
healing patriarchal LoseLose monocultures
redialing dualistic nature v spirit
theological-antiecological elite self-justified redemptive AnthroTheory
of Paradise lost
and Yang without Yin reforesting WinWin Earth.
And the WinWin people said
Matriarchal womb-experience WinWin Amen
trumps WinLose patriarchal uniformity Theory.
Earth’s resonant theoretical wealthiest polypathic goals
are cooperatively co-relational
co-passioned
with each Ego AnthroCentric green golden rule and ratio
theoretically anticipating equivalent healthy co-resilience,
potentially revolutionary
timeless Paradise polynomial experience
green gracefully greets
notnot polynomially restorative theory.
While academics often find
what we are looking for,
a positive correlation between intelligence
and wisdom,
Special occasional confusion
about revolutionary absence of Left with Right correlation
frightens me
Even, and unevenly,
while I am manifesting my best for love
and trust
in humanity’s destiny–
Disciplined trials
experiments
proactive investigations
or chaotically dissonant OtherUnwise.
While deductive rational intelligence
develops interdependent quantities
and qualities
And apparently independent bits
of detached paradigmatic information,
Wisdom adds a co-arising ladder
of internal health knowledge
seeking external wealth intelligence
promoting conscious vocational formation
and reformation
and transformation
and unformation
and preformation,
Healthy ego analogy as wealthy ecohabitat political power,
economic energy ecology,
dynamic grace theology,
blending (creolizing, transubstantiating)
Nature with polyphonic singing ringing vibrant internal Spirit,
Humane with Divine golden rules and ratios and elixirs,
Secular with harmonic Sacred,
Health with Wealth of polypathic wisdom
Bilaterally co-gravitating information
internally absorbing
co-arising external exflowing co-present consciousness
Bicamerally valuing past loves and hates
predicating future healthy wisdom passions
more than pathological
nihilistic
foolish LeftBrain over-expansions
of Yang with Yin co-manifest multicultural destiny.
What did you do
once you knew?
We have competition
and cooperation cultures
in dynamic tension
What did you cooperatively do
once you knew?
Green ecoschool student teachers
asked our healthiest remaining grandparents
How did you consecrate cooperative ownership
and mutually managed
robust water systems?
Aquamarine baptismal oceans,
turquoise feasting algae
lakes and rivers
and glacier-fed laughing streams,
refrozen windblown tundra
recapping ice-cloud dipolarities
How did you repurpose gutted urban concrete
of toxic violent EarthMother extractions?
How did you learn to restore nutritional soil values
for growing healthy edible forests?
Meadows
Yang mountains
and Yin-lit flowing resonant rivers
resilient twilight recycling water
fluid as sacred Time our sleek reborn selves
How did you retain your energy
for positive ecological
and healthy economic
and wealthy political cooperative democracy?
Avoiding Never Again rhetoric
Hit Back retribution
Neglect first prize for sacred/secular restorations
When did holy waters teach you
deep and rich rhetorical events
have therapeutic cultural-flow outcomes?
Resistance builds cooperative resilience
What did you Energy Democracy do
Once we cooperatively owned
and network-managed EarthSpace?
Energy flowing through secular Ego
and back toward sacred EcoPlace,
original nature/spirit intent
What did you do when you knew
To Dream Green?
To Live Green ReFormed
To Vote SacredGreen
How did you reform
Deep EnergyDemocracy EcoSchools
for green and civil and grateful
public/private WinWin services?
Bodhisattva and/or EcoMessianic
health care giving while receiving
green hikingboot resilience training camps,
sponsored by GreenPeace ReForesting Resonant Corporations
made of non-violent communication
When did your Free EcoVillage PeaceSchool Mayors
actively collude with WinWin green student teachers
And ego/ecotherapeutic Superintendants
for green educational wealth,
And principals and principles
And cooperative health-policy co-investing parents
And children
red-blood XY weak
And green YY strong
How did you repurpose LeftBrain RightWing dominance
Once you remembered RightBrain LeftWild polypathic freedom
for polyphonic song and dance,
liturgical and soul and blue
comedy and jazz improvisations
on what have we done
on our journey
this far into Time regenerate selves.
What did you do
when you knew
time and water and you?
On this desecrating Earth
Nature’s BusinessAsUsual
is industriously
and perversely
secluded from Spirit–
naturality from spirituality,
climate health/pathology from internal weather events,
humane hope for health from divine faith in eternal wealth,
In our profane wealth-hoarding EgoGame,
short-term fatuous Win/Lose natural strategies
are loss-postponing futile dispiriting armaments,
empty entertainments,
pretend preoccupations designed to magically protect
against longer-term biological rotting death
Each Sacred Organic Dignity’s
inevitably stalking Loss of identifiable Life–
Loss of active hope for sacred Truths
Hidden within secular Beauty
or even experiential health-optimizing WinWin Ways
to everyday continue multi-regenerationally wealth
creative curiously courageous camouflage cooperative
Thriving.
In a secular-languaged
LeftBrain dominant culture,
sapien and RightBrain WiseElder,
Natural experience reminds us
to become profoundly grateful
Ego death’s natural outcomes
are predicated on input
experienced within spiritual EcoLife
EcoLogical Truth
Green Environmental hidden byways
matriarchally cooperative
Natural/Spiritual CoOwnership
of WinWin global through Ego aspirations,
attractions,
interests,
curiosities
timelesssly regenerating healthy/wealthy
nurturing and nutritional and nuanced Life
hiding Ego/EcoLogical Truths in plain relational loving light,
Left/Right bilateral short-
through long-term
timeless omnipresent Ways.
LeftBrain deductive secular Ego maps
of DNA Right BrainStemmed Rooted Healthy Wealth
sacred historically resilient
EcoTerritory–
hiding and dividing
inviting and revolutioning
LeftBrain’s
hidden undomesticated SpiritVoices
heard happiest from OutDoor Natural ReSources–
DNA resilient
health/wealth bilaterally resonant RealTime–
notnot ZeroSum Prime DiPolar Rooted
in CommonGround Light
CoOperative AnimaMundi Truths, MultiCultural.
Money
and Manna
both root back to Maneh
of deep and weighty Babylonian coinage.
Maneh transcends spiritual/natural divides
to nurture nutrition’s co-present values,
dew-fall grace from Earth’s diamond curious treasures
tribal communions inspired with physical bread
And yet also
more deductive
reductive Win/Lose seductive
metaphysical Bread,
patriarchal worship weight
of equivalent Lose/Lose power-value exchanges,
Zero-sum remainder values
auditioning Beauty’s sublime iconic symmetry
of equitable democratic history.
Bread of Life
bred for love.
Manna feeds spiritual/natural heart chakras
as Money bleeds investments in ego-wealth breastplate Righteousness
extracted, reified, from Earth-health,
thereby devaluing communion WinWin integrity
co-invested through cooperative Maneh values
of nature/spirit students speaking
with listening WiseElder teachers.
Listening more than speaking Maneh Mentors
wearing out Orthodox Breastplates of EgoRighteous Win/Lose competitions,
justifications for war and violence,
retributions
ReBorn
EcoPolypathic WinWin opportunity incarnations,
invitations to co-invest,
and ego/eco-therapy restoring Manna resupply
of heart-gratitude chakra
breasplate of EcoRighteous nutritional co-habitation,
wealth students
studying WiseElder health without speaking EcoTeachers,
DNA leaking double-binding spirit-health with weighted wealth
listening/speaking cosmic NewBorn pre-language curiosities
Birthing cooperatively invested weights and measures
of ecological/theological enculturing Grace
value metaphysical messages
and eating our WinWin communion manna, too.
Breastplated nature
with spirit chakras bilateral
West from Elder NonDual East,
Yang secular money-power from SacredYin MannaFlow
Healthy Ego/Eco Maneh too (2)
(II)
+1 AND (-,-)1
+/-,- ZeroZone WinWin
YinYin
YY
co-present double-binding matriarchal strings
Nurturing Positive-Positive democratic resonant energy
Student/Teacher WiseElder feelings
deep listening learning healthy wealth wins
secular speaking money’s potential co-operative health investments,
And sacred eco-communion
silent economic ecology,
Left and theological Right tribal manna-fed
bodhisattva co-investing Ego/Eco Saviors,
East-West
South-North
Yin-Yang
eco-fractal health-wealth WinWin
co-operatively owned breastplate games
Student/Teacher multicultural EcoSchool and Village democracies
inviting EcoRighteous Coin
and EgoPassion Hearted co-investing Chakras
cooperatively self-managed regenerations past
and future of and for polyculturally healthing
and multicolored
and multilateral wealthing ZeroZones of Maneh DNA’s
original manna/money eco-righteousness
historically displaying her-understory sacred
Womb creation re-creating incarnations
Generations re-generating polypathic
Deduction into linear nutrition progress intuitive growing trends
Inductive Maneh bilateral re-processing
Healing WinWin NonZeroSums
of spoken strong-hearted listening
impassioned Ego/EcoMetric Maneh
Wonder and Rainbow CoInvesting Awe
Growing Paradise ReForesting Vocations
for Student-Teacher ManehValue Guilds
Student taught most healthfully
with Positive/Positive WinWin Ego/EcoMentor parents
Future searching Maneh values that weightily ReConnect
justice with WinWin peace outcome ZeroZones
With PermaCulture Designers
Future searching nutritional vocations
that reconnect DNA-Health EcoVoices
with past egocentric griefs and habitat-dissonance
ReNewing BiLateral Eyes
of and for integrating nutritional nurturing synergy
Integrity of grace-filled Maneh
for polypathic healthy wealth
Measured in polycultural WinWin co-inviting Health/Wealth outcomes
Not quite so much Yang BusinessAsUsual
Monocultural Lose/Lose EgoCentric self-righteous breastplates
justifying Win/Lose Money natural evolution/devolution
BadFaith dualistic, nature ain’t spirit, assumptions
rooted in valuing Money hoarding
over Mother’s cooperatively co-inviting
Student/Teacher Manna.
Not so wise
to monopolistically bite the only Teaching breast available
to cooperatively feed us.
If we have Win/Lose competitive teeth to grind
and rewind
and bite the veracious-plated weighted coin’s value,
Then it’s past time to grow up student/teachers
sucking more WinWin nicely
from
and for
and of Her heart chakra co-passionate Maneh.
It was not yet noon
when Ben said
a host of lovely things.
As far as we know,
no one accused him
of being publisher shy,
or sleeping in.
Ben said,
Early to bed
Early to rise
Makes a man,
and perhaps women and children more especially too,
Healthy
Wealthy
and Wise.
Ben did not advertise a brand name
of any particularly aggressive nationalistic bed business
for optimal wise healthy-wealth profit-making.
Ben also did not
claim to be the very best bed business CEO
Pennsylvania had ever seen
Or the wealthiest bed-making CEO slept early upon,
under,
or intimately nearby.
Ben did not
disinform all media outlets
of what a great pacifist constitutional lawyer job
he was not doing.
Ben did not even take responsibility credits
for the revolutionary work
the personal cooperative democracy investment
of armed militia freedom-fighters.
Ben found it unwise
to separate health from peaceful loving wealth;
Unwise to believe we could grow violently unwise
without also becoming unhealthy inside
where peaceful light
prefers to warm-glow reside.
I was trying to remind my oldest son,
now approaching his middle twenties,
that dis-associating wealth
from health
and healthy aspirations
is not wise.,
And, to re-associate chronic late night revelry
Sunday through Saturday
with challenges upgrading resiliently livable wealth.
Hopefully, I mentored a more wisely balanced presentation,
rather than unwise health segregation
from wealth of fun,
rather than exhausting already bad air
polluted by late night escapist entertainments
consumed too much
and producing insufficient outcomes.
I’m sure I went on too long
about our cultural systemic Win or Lose competition problems,
Losing health and losing wealth
long-term played-out irresponsibilities
of fake anti-ecological revolution authorities
growing wary of fake-promised health-wealth raptures
originating from a fundamentalist Protestant
anti-scriptural dualistic
healthy nature v wealth-hoarding monocultural Spirit
punishing muilticultural theological experiences
of healthy Here
with wealthy Now
Segregating secular nature’s healthy development
from sacred Spirit’s wealthy multicultural co-investments
which would have been unthinkable
to a Jewish 0000 4D Jesus
humane natured Lover
Because also Divine-Holy Matriarchal Spirited.
I probably then too slowly turned
from Gaian theological v ecological disassociation problems
of too fiercely segregating rapturous healthy spirits
from blissfully wealthy long-term natures,
to problems of Great White Father’s social-systemic discriminating nation
between unhealthy Win or Lose competing ecopolitical behaviors
causing disabling,
chaotically oppressive
lack of therapeutic social development,
absence of conservational attention
to ecologically sound long-term NatureStudies
And
theologically non-violent HolySpirit Win to Win integrity research.
Both of which seem to agree with Ben,
and probably even J.C. Himself,
Sleeping under the stars,
praying, walking and talking in Gardens,
meditating on healthy fishing vocations
while early morning sitting
and walking on wealth of salty Seas,
and planting sacred trees
in early Spring
to lovingly harvest
shepherd
for carpentry pruning time each Autumn
in a pre-deforested MotherSoil CoOperative
Early to natural bed
Early to spiritual dream co-wise
healthy bodies
wealthy minds
ego/eco bilateral
nature/spirit binomial
healthy/wealthy ZeroZones
of RealTime 4D Wise.
I would call my son
to apologize
for keeping him up so late
with my health-wealth therapeutic evangelical gate,
but I doubt he’s up yet,
before noon,
when Ben said the very best lovely things
any health-wealth constitutional deliberator
for restoring Earth’s peaceful justice
ever said.
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