How much simpler
and yet vastly more complex,
diversely resonant,
past decisions to hire the credentialed professional elite
also choices not to hire a charismatic
brown-skinned
ecofeminist,

And how much more resilient
urgently cooperative
corporate win/win covenant repercussions might have been
if we stopped compartmentalizing,
and started intersectionalizing,
creolizing
transubstantiating
synergizing
integrating
regenerating
co-arising and co-gravitating
Win/Win assertiveness with non-violent communication Training,
CoInvestment Practice,
Multicultural Restorative Justice experience,
Truth and reconciliation,
Remuneration of cooperatively-owned health values,
Interdependent ecological and theological merit,
Compassion wealth.

If we could hear her outloud notice:

I feel sometimes angry
sometimes fearful,
sometimes courageous
sometimes curious,
and always disappointed
that I took this vulnerable risk
to transparently offer all that is my leadership gift
and then experience why this is still not enough:

Because I lack leftbrain dominant credentials,
Because I do not speak with cold white patriarchal dispassion,
Because I do not know disconnection as capital-business as usual,
Because I will not despair
of win/win felt outcomes
as if win/lose default unrealistic.

What then,
following this assertively non-violent vulnerability,
this win/win compassion,
this transparent noticing of:

Systemic Win/lose trending toward Lose/Lose monocuturalism,
Systemic racism without racist system conscious intention,
Militarized Patriarchalism,
LeftBrain dominant Either/Or deductive-reductive
Linear cause/effect logic,
Analogical purpose over metaphoric meaning,
MonoCapitalTheology
over Integral HealthWealth Win/Win Ecology?

What win/win compassionate ego/ecotherapeutic truth
and restoring peace
and reconciling EarthClimate Justice
might we more critically return to next?

Perhaps I might find our communal life safe enough
to share:

How angry I am
that I cannot hear our cooperatively-owned anger
that both neoliberal and neoconservations
of military-industrialized capitalism,
that worship of winlose and lose/lose violently transparent intent
continues blatantly budgeting to invest in more war,
in more hate-crimes,
in more automatic death sentences,
in more EarthWealth faster
and deeper
extraction of multigenerational resources,
in more corporate short-term blind investors in win/lose landfalls
instead of cooperative owner-workers invested in win/win health.

I am angry
and terrified,
deeply and widely win/lose disappointed
and lose/lose despairing
when I cannot hear
and feel
and see
and know
our mutual terror
and anger
about this Earth
and Earth HealthTribe
and Positive Energy Democracy CRISIS
of Ego v Eco
of Yang v Yin
of Left v Right
of Thought v Feeling
of Secular v Sacred
of West v East
of North v South
of Elite v NonElite
of White v Black
of Either v Or
of Bipolar v Dipolar
of Competitive Arising v Cooperative CoGravitation
of 1 ZeroZone Nomial v Non-0 Zone Bilateral Prime Relationship.

I am angry
and terrified
internal and external lose/lose climates
worship Capitalism
while marketing greed as
Catholic GoodNews of Holy-Elite Predative Communion.

Sacred meals and global EarthHabitat
separating us in our shadowed silos
of nontransparency
and nonvulnerably hiding the bread and wine reserves
violently defended, if necessary,
codependent absence of integrity,
positive communication,
cooperative EarthClimates
of polypathic health,
polyphonic resonance,
polycultural wealth,
universal sacred cooperative employment
co-invested in mutual warm listening
corporate
incorporated
health-capitalized
rich polycultural paths
truth
ways
means
life
passions

Angry and terrified,
courageous and curious.