Music Therapy

What would you say
is the opposite of music therapy?

Oh, probably some way too loud
dissonant cacophany mess
of intolerably angry and frightening
bombastically hateful noise.
Why do you ask?

Just wondering if it’s just me
who sees and hears sounds of war
against peace advocating music therapy
in some synergetic harmonic way.

Who would you think is the least multicultural musical
therapeutic personality
on the US nationalistic scene?

Oh my!
We have so many loud
self-promoting voices
preferably unsung
quite so publicly.
But, one who blare and twitter Trumpets
his anti-therapy voice
more than others
does come to painful mind
and oppressed heart.

for me as well.
On the other hand,
a couple of dance and family health therapists
come to mind
on the more positive side
of healthy faith in music healing depth of tone
and hue
and liberating interdependent cry.

I hope we hear
healing antidotes,
more resonant resounds
of deep learning resilience
mid-term sooner
than full-term dissonance.


Medicine and Sickness

Medicine and sickness satisfy each other.
MotherEarth is medicine.
Where do you find yourself?
Zen Master Yunmen
China, 800s

Therapy and trauma require each other.
Ecological Earth is nature-spirit therapy.
Where and how
and when
and what
and why
and whom do you traumatize
with small-ego identifying Self?

You cannot resolve dissonance
with traumatic thinking and feeling
and competitive Win-Lose policy making
and economic exchanges
causing natural-spiritual anti-cooperative problems.

You can solve problems
with therapeutically inclusive planning
and ownership
and mutually grateful consciousness,
cognitive/affective therapies
for Win-Win overpowering Win-Lose past trauma.

At what point does therapeutic integrity
become headed toward traumatic disintegration,
more cognitive-affective dissonance
than coherence,
safe vulnerability,
rather than depressing
this unlabeled suppression
of integrity our bicameral selves,

Medicine for all Earth’s Tribes,
for restoring virgin forests
and pure oceans,
root ego/ecosystems?

Before he was embraced
by his Democratic Party,
Senator Obama
not yet nominated for U.S. CEO
wrote about political compromise
as contrasted with spiritual integrity.
He quotes Benjamin Franklin,

“I would rather have it said,
He lived usefully,
He died rich.”

The difference between living spiritual integrity
and Business As Usual
rich but dying Trumpism,
as Franklin and Obama see
healthy usefulness,
is something too valuable
to be bought and sold-out for;
While Trumpism
has no eyes to discern
this difference between health and wealth,
between loyal integrity of mutual Win-Win cooperation
and hoarding excessive riches
and influence
against future Win-Lose competitions.

Antagonistic plutocrats,
including zealous evangelical supremacists
filled with religiosity of doctrines and words
and empty of spirituality
informed by personal experience and consciousness,
measure integrity
by buying and selling their compromised competition values,
while a truly integrated democratic disciple of integrity
of healthy usefulness,
uses cooperatively healthy v. pathologically competitive
to measure different Tipping Points
between positive and negative values,
like hoarding,
and other monoculturing supremacist
negative tendencies.

If I were an Obama Foundation,
I would gather private and public foundations
and community organizer Allies,
to support indigenously owned openings
of cooperative MotherEarth Cafes,
where homeless and malnourished and criminalized
and victimized
and ostracized
would gather in PeaceCircles
to read our poetry,
to dance our cooperative rhythms and cycles,
to single our gospel anthems
to feed on and breathe and absorb organic nurture
of and for Audacious Hope,
to learn to play smarter ecopolitical Win-Win games
of healthy integrity.

MotherEarth Cafes across these Uniting States
hosting local Democratic Parties
for their open microphone meetings,
setting Town Meeting Agendas,
PermaCulturing Designs for ReStoring Peace and Justice,
in cooperation with Republican Committees
and Libertarian Committees
and Green Committees
and Rainbow Committees
and Feminist Committees
and OrganicGardening Committees
and any integrative cooperative ecopolitical party
who bothers to show up
sharing this belief
in healthy usefulness
for measuring authentically wealthy values
and pathologically disintegrative disvalues.

To contain anything
is to exclude something,
Whether we speak of our interdependent Universes
or our therapeutic medicines,
and Not (Not ZeroSum).

Therapy and trauma invite and engage each other.
Ecological Earth is nature-spirit therapy.
Where and how do you continue traumatic
degeneration stories?
And why?


Living With BiPolar DisOrder

Living With Deplorable Adorables

I know if I say
That reeks, deplorable,
She will only be persuaded
all the more,
That is adorable.

Then I might say
I meant intolerable,
And she will insist
I remain adorable,
with a dismissive smile
toward my alien intolerance
as bigotry.

Then I will remind her
I still deplore,
And she’ll,
I still adore.

And so we go.
Left to our readers,
mentors and leaders,
sainted Elder listening trees
once residents of a virgin forested river bank,
to decide
whether this is a tragically and naturally petty river
of reiterating toxins
or benign family shorthand
for future stand-up spiritual comedy skits.

Skits in which bipolar opposition
to a dualistic patriarchal dominant world
feels also dipolar appositional
longing for bilateral
family-tribal health and safety
ReStoring Win-Win
ReForesting Justice
and nondual Matriotic Peace.

Whether this is more of natural evolution
toward infinite dissonance
through ecopolitical Business As Usual competitions
or a spiritual revolution
of polypathic synergetic cooperation,
for healthier times to co-discern.

C-squared enlightening speed
as also E-fractal-spiral slower-grown wave-linear evolutions
as equivalently polyculturing
Continuous Quality Improvement
predicted by Bayesian (0)DiPolar ClimateTrend Analysis.

(0)Core Prime Relationship
(binomial-bicameral-bilateral double-bound dipolar,
like Yang with Yin)

Like Yang EgoRightWing
with Yin EcoLeftWing
BiCameral Peace Restoring Justice
and not so much Yang ego is way too LeftBrain dominant
double-binding dissonance
against Yin ecologics too RightBrain Oppressed
AntiEconomics As Usual competing intuitions

Equivalent as notmore-notless
traumatic/therapeutic screens
positive for wu-wei tragic/comedic
Therapeutic ReStoring Health

As Cytosine co-arises Uracil,
as OxygenWinds co-arise Hydrogen waves,
as Father’s Invested Sun co-arises Sacred MotherEarth,
as Eternal YangStars
co-arise Gaian Milky-Waving Unities, interdependence,
as Space co-arises bilateral (0)Sum ecopolitically evolving Time

CoBalancing Prime ThermoDynamics
of 4Dimensional RealTime DNA-RNA Solidarity

Strings of fractals
seasonal fertile polyphonic spiral dancing story-tellers,
regenerative histories
whispering dualdark unreverting becoming understories
before and after
HereYou with NowMe
Win-Win (0)Sum PrimeReGenerative
4D history stages
of health-optimizing polypathic dimensions.

Medicine for ego- and anthro-centric over-investment
in more LeftBrain dominant
RightWing supremacist oppressions,

Like religious fundamentalism
and secular bigotism
against matriotic restorative EarthTribe Sacred PeaceCouncils
evolved from FirstNations
on toward post-millennial restoring EcoJustice Allies,
with therapeutic multiculturing global ecological economics
of virgin forests,
restoring themselves toward healthier

I know if I YangLeft say
That reeks, monoculturally horrible,
She will only be YinRight persuaded
all the more,
That polyculturing tension must be adorable.


Red and TrueBlue Family

Red and Blue Estrangered Families

Dear Siblings Three,

I was reading a story
in which some siblings became estranged
after their parents died,
while others moved toward greater solidarity.

This is a variation on a diaspora story.
But, here growing physical distance
is seen more as a geographic effect
than a political cause
of growing estrangement on one side,
and solidarity on the other.

Emigration out toward others of like faith systems
and re-immigration of siblings back toward each other,
circling our tribal wagons,
for now it is our turn
for that Great Transition
into mere grandparent mortality,
to go out toward this night better informed together
than estranged alone.

I thought of how true this is for me,
with my three siblings;
an older brother Mike
an sister Connie
from whom I feel estranged,
and a younger sister Kerry
whose mind and heart,
spirit and nature,
have always been
and yet still become
as one.

If I used speed dial
on my smart phone,
Kerry would be first on my contacts list.
My husband would be a distant second.

By contrast,
if Mike or Connie ever called,
my screen would only show
Michigan or Texas
because I have never put them in my contacts list.

That is how I define estranged
as contrasted with

Why we are as we are
we have never discussed.
And I wonder if I will regret this
should any one of you fade back into MotherEarth
before I do.

I suppose this sibling divide
may have to do with competing faith systems
rather than exploring cooperative,
and mutually appreciative,
multiculturing faith systems.

But I have no idea whether Connie or Mike would agree
with this hypothesis of prime cause,
or might include this
in a larger bag of history and enculturation
I have not thought of,
or perhaps have not yet learned to see.

when I was compiling a list of Republicans I know
well enough to ask who they voted for
in our most recent Presidential selection,
and how are we feeling now
about those choices,
two of the four people I could imagine asking,
and yet not without some fear and trepidation,
are my own estranged Mike and Connie.

This leaves me wondering
how we will grow healthier as Earth’s
#1 consumer of fossil-based dwindling energy
and #1 producer of global climate pathologies, per capita,
if we don’t even talk about this
as families estranged from each other’s faith systems
yet sharing one national,
and preferably civil,

Faith systems, if they are about good faith,
should produce our own lives of growing integrity
and faith in healthy futures
for our children and grandchildren.

So it is, I am asking
Mike and Connie, but also Kerry,

Who did you vote for President last year,
or who would you have voted for,
in case you didn’t bother?
And how are you thinking/feeling
about that preference now,
approaching one year later?

I’ll start,
and invite each of you to respond in kind,
rather than writing in response to my story,
or to each other’s.
We can get to compare and contrast later,
as a second stage in a national dialogue,
if we each survive this familial first.

I would have voted for Hillary
if I had found the new polling place
before it so rudely closed,
right after I finally wrestled Ivy into bed.

During both the Obama and Clinton administrations,
Hillary was the primary architect,
or at least one of just two or three,
of diverse attempts to actually pass what would ideally have become
universal health care legislation
through a typically constipated bicameral Congress.

It also seemed to me that she extends her economic
and political investments
in health care
and receiving
to environmental health care
and receiving
and ecological opportunities
to explore WinWin bicameral solutions
for both Republican conservators
in defense of humane physical,
and mental,
and spiritual health;
and Democratic libertines of equal health and thrival opportunities
of and for all species.

I erroneously thought the Republican candidate
was unlikely to win
because he ran against all of the above,
so at least the large majority of women voters,
traditionally strong on family and community health care issues,
would find Donald to be anathema,
both ecologically
and sacredly.

So, how I am feeling now,
as a Blue Connecticut State resident,
is angry,
and terrified
that what was Presidential campaign promised
continues to be my nightmares of cosmological disaster and threat,
and therefore compelled to do everything I can
to facilitate all of us
learning as much from this economic and ecological and political mistake
as possible,
as quickly as possible,
seeking 2020 critical certainty
before 2020 reaches its ultimate November selection.

We are a two BlueState,
two RedState family,
although Michigan is more ambiguous,
I doubt Mike’s Michigan Republican experience
is peculiarly ambiguous.

If we can talk about this
in a mutually appreciative way,
with gratitude for this opportunity
which can only last through all four lifelines,
perhaps we can help set a more harmonic bicameral tone
for and with our other increasingly estranged States,
and families.


Breathing While Thinking

Yang unveils landscapes of textured thought
while Yin brings climates of swelling and ebbing feelings.

yin affective unconscious
with yang deductive conscious labels and language of natural,
and sometimes oddly unnatural, uncomfortable, relationships,
humane consciousness
searching for divine polypathic continuous timeless eternal flow
of further regenerativity
both discontinuous nutritional thoughts
and continuous maturing revolutions of co-arising
co-digesting feelings;
Yang discontinuous Ego-embodied
convex upon Earth’s historical stage,
yin continuously matriarchal ecologos
ecosystemic concave
within Earth’s herstorical narratives of embryonic feelings
surfing mists
where grey yin oceans
ambivalently blend flowing foggy yang sky.

Where Yang follows oppositional
Either this Or that categorization
into contrasting bipolarities,
Yin co-arises appositional
Both some of that And maybe some of this too,
comparative dipolarities.

Yang, if you are an evolutionary naturalist,
is health power of nutritional regenerativity,
while Yin nurtures symmetrical internal balance
of mutually safe co-digestive degeneration;
decomposition dipolar effacing regeneration.

If you are a PermaCulture Designer,
Yang is about the structure of your regeneratively-intending nutrition landscape,
while Yin notices the feeling climates of decompositional potential,
degenerative winter
co-arising regenerative diastatic climaxing regenerative summer,
self and other cooperative
interdependent polyculturing,
multiculturing political-health as eco-wealth,
in contrast to winter’s purgative monopoly of hibernation.

If you are a Universal-Unitarian,
Yang is your Ego’s universe-embodying health and safety world views,
while Yin is your more matriarchal-unitarian
nurturing defensive climates
of domestic integrity and cooperative tranquility;
Earth ecoconscious mercy with peacefilling ego-swelling-indwelling feelings.

This relationship between regenerative Yang
and degenerative, or decompositional, Yin
is easy to remember,
as easy as remembering to induct air into your lungs,
from Yin-purged toward Yang diastatic,
and then deducting out from Yang full-regenerated
toward Yin-degenerating.

Our breath is deductively toward Yin
and inductively toward Yang,
while our bicameral minds
are deductively LeftYang dominant
and inductive-affective feeling-Yin Right nurture-dominant.

YangLeft deductive ego-conscious universe-building,
while YinRight inductive uniting ecoconscious Earth-nurturing.

God the ReGenerative Father in,
Mother Earth decomposing waste out.
What is waste for Ego,
also nurtures the trees we have not yet killed,
landscapes of textured root-systemic thought production
as climates consuming ecopolitical feelings.


Games We Play

Yang, dear.

Yes, my lovely Yin.

Why do you map Game Theory
onto EcoFeminist Political Theory?
It comes across as either just confusing
or, even worse,
vaguely sexist.

How sexist?

Well you seem to associate competitive ZeroSum WinLose
with strong aggressive patriarchal effectiveness
for defending and conserving health and safety.
These are rational strategic choices for the real guts
of our ego- and anthro- and national-competitive survival;
while Yin is more of the nurturing cooperativist Mom
who has her matriarchal place in a WinWin domestic economy,
but speaking cooperative nurture to competitive power
sounds like patriarchally dominant Business As SexistUsual
to me.

I can see that,
but it does miss my more encompassing Yang/Yin nondualist intent.

not if you substitute Patriarchy/Matriarchy for Yang and Yin,
co-arising respectively
as Original Cause
and Original ReGenerativeEffect.

I’m not sure I can explain
why I see EcoFeminist Game Theory
as nonzero-sum optimizing WinWin
and why that, in turn,
unveils nature-nurture slow-growth resonance,
and therefore evolves regenerative-matriarchal-reverse-hierarchical, re-cyclical therapy
for a too patriarchal
too competitive
Yang-means-NotYin Business as Capitalist-Elitist Usual,
WinYang to LoseYin
zero-sum ecopolitically long-term degenerative history,
embedded within Earth’s larger RNA Yin/Yang WinWin
phylogenic development of EarthTribe’s her creationstory.

Then why bother with it,
if you can’t deductively explain why it is therapeutic
then how could your way of seeing Game Theory
through a bicameral-feminist lens
actually be therapeutic,
even for yourself,
with your deductivist-reductivist rational exclusionary ways.

Because I am nothing without co-arising you.
As bipolar opposites,
in a WinLose survivalist world,
neither of us could be Yang empowered
or Yin nurturing.
Only in our dipolar appositional co-arising WinWin world
of self/other-regenerative evolutionary development
can we find RealWorld RealTime Yang-Left BodyMind with Yin-Right MindBody
more passionately trusting our ecopolitical choices
than when Yang merely overpowers Yin.

Maybe yes,
maybe no.
Your description of how Earth regenerates cooperative,
more than degenerates competitive climates of pathology,
does not move me toward prescriptive therapeutic passion.

I was listening to a feminist writer
speaking of why she is uncomfortable with being labeled as a feminist.
She was clear that, for her,
what feminists are against is Patriarchy,
which is not the same thing as being against men.
What she explicitly stated feminists cannot do
is speak truth to power with and about what all feminists are for,
what all feminists would nurture and grow and regenerate.

For me, and for Game Theory, I suspect,
feminists are for nurturing cooperative global WinWin empowerment
of individually reproducing minds and bodies,
of all Earth’s LifeTribes,
of Mother Earth as icon of healthywealth cooperative fertility.

WinWin NonZero-Sum is our larger cooperative nurturing womb
of long-term, multi-generational, multicultural development,
while WinLose Zero-Sum competitive YangDominant survivalist evolution
is reserved for extraordinary
EitherWinMore Now Or LoseEverything Later
short-term strategic necessities,
to minimize anti-pathic losses and optimize cooperative-democratizing empathic trust Wins.

Tell me again why you are so sure WinWin cooperative equivalence
is Earth’s larger regenerative history,
while WinLose is Yang’s more short-term survivalist
and other-degenerative-negative may be OK with me,

Let’s try this:
Anatol Rapaport’s regenerative-reproductive-reiterative longevity
within a game environment permitting both WinLose competitive,
and WinWin cooperative, bilateral choices,
called Tit for Tat,
always wins every game played
every transaction co-invested
every relationship mirror-passioned,
to only go WinLose
when your Right-Now Other played WinLose selfishly last round.

Corollary: Never defensively initiate WinMore to LoseLess.
If your default setting is always choose WinWin equivalency,
except when meeting a prior WinLose Dominant EgoCentric player
against your mutual reiterative equivalent-cooperative memory
and future-anticipated regenerativity (embodied reproductivity).

If everyone chooses WinWin equivalency
every day
in every ecopolitical game and relationship,
then WinMore to LoseLess players disappear
within a perpetually regenerative
reproductive rights-equivalence game
of both matriarchally cooperative mind and body
Left and RightBrain co-owned and governed
for EcoFeminist/EgoMasculine EarthRights Equivalence.

NonZero Game Theory,
compassioned and nurtured WinWin bilaterally reiterative default
is also BothAnd “Right Brain” appositional thinking,
where Zero-Sum WinLose Game Theory
is EitherOr Left(PatriarchalElite) Brain Dominant,
oppositionally defiant.

So, Zero-Sum WinWin Yin/Yin
and LoseLose Yang/Yang
equivalent plays
and his/herstories regenerate the longest?

And that’s what domestic-within ego/eco-empowering Matriarchs
share with more Yangish AntiPatriarchal EcoFeminists.

We are all WinWin for EarthTribe’s nurturing-flow
of cooperative-regenerative ecopolitical Matriarchal/Patriarchal
not quite so much Yang/Yin,
Global Health and Safety

Well honey
just turn your frame around,
so Matriarchs are, as they always have been, Original Causes,
after all we do carry the regenerative babies,
while the Patriarchs are just another pair of Yin/Yang
Original ReGenerative Effects.

Isn’t that a little like interpreting the Original Intent of Democratizing Constitutions,
as Originally Caused by our ForeFather’s Mothers?

I doubt those who signed these diverse cooperative intentions
for our collective health and safety
also intended to bite the hands that fed them.

That does seem rabidly LoseLose unlikely,
now that you mention it.


Adam and Eve

It remains my tightly held Health and WellBeing intention,
for the good of me,
but for everyone, eventually,
to continue to Win now,
although I realize this requires further Loss of and by Others
who may justifiably feel Earth’s survival of the fittest
has boxed them into unfit margins of unnecessarily pathological health and not-so-wellbeing.

Even so,
and here I remain RightBrain disappointed
to the extent I can LeftBrain see your eyes at all,
or even Right and LeftBrain hear you
with my Ego/Eco-Conscious sensory imbalance,
I require your forbearing patience with my trickle down theory,
my Win Wealth Now for your Health-WellBeing Later.

Didn’t your mamma raise any kids who survived?
Take your conservative elitist MeNow-YouLater WinLose attitude,
and try again with some of mamma’s progressive health-nurturing bicameral flow,
Left and RightBrain WinWin confluent,
at least try to remember your ecological balance point of Original Intent
through cooperative struggling with,
and not all your BigMan competitive struggling against,
my Elder healthnetwork root-feeding system,
trickling up toward your BigMan branches.

Nutrients can trickle down to the Earth you wipe your BigMan feet on
only if,
more primordially and embryonically and phylogenically,
and agapically and erotically,
healthywealth trickles up cooperatively
from my richly composted nutrient root system
of polypathic-organic ecopolitical WinWin all the time,
for this generation
as for past
and for future Original Continuing Revolutionary Intent
for and from and of and about and why
and what and when and where and how of
EarthTribe’s Family AppleTree,
and not so much Win BigApple Biceps
ignoring your own truly conservative
Health and WellBeing root systemic death.

Well, excuse me.

For what?

For trying to overpower your trickle up
with my trickle down.

You still don’t get it, honey.
But I see you are trying–
and deep learning effort counts here in Eden’s potential cooperative.

That sounded condescending.

Well, excuse me.

For what?

For trying to trickle up OUR Left-Right ecosystem of consciousness
while you were still WinLose LeftBrain dominantly trickling down
your survivalist wisdom.
But, honestly,
isn’t it about time we turned our survivalist evolution
toward thrivalist WinWin Left-Right EquiValent Revolution
of and for this HealthyWealth Apple Tree,
and our and it’s self-regenerative Earth-forest?

Are you talking about Eden’s need for some ecotherapeutic landscape design,
or are you just bitching about our sometimes struggling and suffering climate?

Adam, dearest,
you are the EitherOr guy,
I am the BothAnd WinWin Eve
of EcoFeminist EcoPolitical Left-Right Balance,
still trickling up.

Yeah, sorry,
I think I lost my trickle down WinLose concentration for a minute.

No problem.
Shit happens.