I was a highly competitive,
and chronically frustrated,
public and private sector grant writer
before I turned to this prose-poetry research format,
inspired by reading Buckminster Fuller’s universal Left Hemisphere
synergetic with, and never dissonant against,
his Right Hemisphere’s unitarian-holistic flow
wave-linear cooperative wealth
of reiterating polypathic communication patterns,
redundant fractal-fertile rhythms
all emanating from his Left patriarchal prominent language
and his Right cooperative matriarchal co-passioning
Left/Right creolizations,
averse to snarky competitive Left v Right narcissistic colonizations,
predations not unlike those still too monotheistic angry-God zealous writers,
devoid of proper healthy-wealth,
NonZero-Zone compassion,
generosity,
good faith in Earth WinWin historic centrism.

I thought we would do better in our CapitalCity investment region,
and in Connecticut,
and in our New England bioregion,
and in North American continental constitutions,
and in the Western-RightHand dominant hemisphere,
and in any Eastern-LeftRecessive interdependent integrity hemispheres,
and on Whole Open System Earth,
and throughout this ZeroZone synergetically positive co-relational
bilateral
outsideYang/insideYin
health-wealth resourcing enterprise,

Breathing precessively in
to breathe recessively out again,
thick deductive ego-receiving strength
to feel inductively co-passioning
eco-habitat giving effluently thin
Zero ZenZone outflow

Of cooperative planned,
balance designed,
integrity implemented,
synergetically managed,
systemically evaluated,
and organically re-invested
with WinWin compassioning therapeutic intent
each grateful breath wave-linear cycle,
each compassioning year
in a nonsectarian celebration
of what we have learned together
about how to cooperatively improve
our resilient health programs

Our co-passionate investments
for next breath’s
next year’s healthy-wealth optimization;

Which green inside and outside client health outcomes
we will expansively grow
by watering and feeding most
where we are WinWin weak but improving,
by maintaining where already WinWin strong
and Yang/Yin steady healthflow trending,
and divesting of where we remain WinLose stuck
drifting off toward terrifying LoseLose
climate and monocultural pathologies.

So, you might well imagine
I was frustrated by sitting alone in front of my monitor and keyboard,
writing autonomous ego-centered and in-corporate-centric competitions,
while wanting to play a much more WinWin inclusively generous game
not in WinLose economic assumptions of ZeroSum competitions
ecological and political and social-psychologically ambiguous
and dissonantly disempowering
unfocused health proposal-writing chaotic messes
felt behaviorally and unfaithfully unsettling lack of good faith
in both cognitive-Left and emotionally cooperative-Right integrity,

As if I lived on an interdependent WinWin Earth outside evinced,
while communing with cooperative flocks of birds
and our strong-rooted tree habitats
and nutritious green self-healthing cooperative forests,
while all my inside grant requesting
and giving ZeroSum winning or losing voices
would not just stop
for one ZeroZone silent moment
to peacefully smell our cooperatively compassionate organic coffee
and herbal tea
and whole grain muffins
baked in an open regenerative fire circle
of Earth’s vast timeless
trans-historic WinWin bright
night
light of integral systemic cooperativity.