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BiCameral ChoiceMaking

It’s not my choices
I regret,

But,
sometimes what I didn’t choose
to do
or join
or say
or at least not forget

About not hatching up
or mashing down
some healthier choices
in a wealthier nontraumatic time
for restoring EarthTribe Justice
kismet.

And,
most of all,
I regret

My apparent inability
to make choices univocally
when my only ecological deadline ability,
now moored upon my biological disability
to independently grow less traumatic degenerativity,
post-healthy inside climate stress disorderly

Cosmological personal death of me,
dirth of humane resilient We,
despair of MotherEarth’s just right cold/warmly
revolving light and dark climate power
regenerativity

More explicitly integral
yang yintegrity
of bicameral resonance regrowing wealth
of fairness cosmologically healthy

Heavenly Peace
rebirths Just EarthWomb warm Cosmology
blue/greenly co-investing
in strongly resilient
yet flexibly resonant,
empowering
and harmonically enlightening
life choice inter-connecting systems.

Powers to choose,
like all power,
can be more or less than ZeroSum,

Power,
like light v dark,
includes passion,
dispassion,
compassion,

Favoring regenerative life systems,
and disfavoring degenerative dark death
monotheistic
monocultures of chaotic hate
revenge
punishment,
retributive choice voices
of fear-filled anger
win/lose
heading toward lose/lose

Nonsystemic
nonlife
nonchoices,
dualdark felt
nihilistic voices

Speaking up
and out,
It’s not my pro-healthy life choices
I regret.

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Parts and Holes

“You are a part of me
I do not yet know”
claims interdependent Valarie Kaur

And I wonder,
Is she speaking to me?
Or rhetorically asking any stranger
except me,
already known
because I feel her same unitarian way
already grown

Ego/Eco-centering balanced
symmetrically integral
as a social individual

And not so much economically
and politically privileged,
lethargic,
overfed
and drowning in domesticated leisure
overgrown inside
ruminating infamous monoculturing nightmares.

I hope Valarous curiously speaks
quietly yet surely
with hope tomorrow
having turned from overly familiar
anthro-privileged yesterday,
still a part of haunted
and blessed me
I do already know
less optimistically,

And I am awed
inside this great faith transition
and timeless merciful humor
passing by a personal premonition
tomorrow may be already written
rhymed,
numbered and counted,
bought and sold,
accounted yet too messily empowered

Speaking in a language learned
by well-hearted healthy hope
in new starlight
night promised memories

Premembering to continue regenerating
indigenously wise Earth
continues writing
and restructuring DNA recultured feelings
on this beautiful and precious known landscape
formed from yesterday’s most cooperative subclimates,
collaborative EarthTribe economics
empowering intersectional politics

Whose future energetic numbers
are embedded in prime multitudes of creative
and recreative organisms

LeftBrain labeled history
and RightBrain Win/Win
future bicameral integrity
Blue/Green EarthCommon Squared
enlightenment poly-rhythmically
empoweringly commodified
in yesterday
and tomorrow’s Yang Yintegrity
unitarian
universal knowing
cognizing
recognizing

Prime NonZeroZone space
and polyculturing time
eco-deductive and theo-inductive
spatiaLeft/TempoRight felt
compassionate 4D-fractal regenerative co-relationships

Restoring polypaths
between wealthy unknown tomorrow
and healthy felt yesterday
was today
tomorrow’s
short-term memory
statically sustainable
in this sadistic stuck satiation
silent station.

Here
and Now
my internal doomsday fear
against more global Loser queer
anthropocentric eco-politics over valued
while EarthTribe organisms
also die to Lose
tomorrow’s anthrosupremacist
dipolar eco/theo-logic
unhealthy in/unwealthy out
disvalues

Do not sanctify,
in fact, desecrate,
any cooperatively owned timeless corporation,
any intersectionally eating and living
giving and taking organism

Any numeric
iconic One-plus balances
(not-not) negative dipolarity
in a NonZero binomial development zone
for systemic health

Not from reading
memorizing
reiterating God’s one true holistic wealth
mathbook,
as if calculating
and deducing LeftBrain verbal communication
were the last alone apartheid Word
of yesterday’s final bottom zero-lined zone
not also tomorrow’s
Trust as Yintegral Beauty

In a WholeEarth
universal Open EcoWomanist
EgoPatristic SubSystem
choosing tomorrow’s healthiest win/win game

Fulfilling Her HistoEcological
Multicultural Health
promising today’s remediation
for resilient Blue/Green Wealth,

A part of tomorrow
I could not yet feel
alone
a part of me
I do not yet anxiously know
how to anticipate.

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Addicted to Suffering Loss

So, she said,
much to everyone’s BusinessAsUsual
StraightWhiteMale
surprise,

Sew,
I run into your aversion
to unpatriarchal Principles of Reversion
whenever I deeply listen
to your dark passions first,
then redial,
notice,
[occasionally speak]
as if I trust what I can win/win hear
in PreVersed
unrehearsed response

To liberal GoldenRule applications
of sacred theological Law
restoring ecological
Synergetic Order

Smelling and tasting,
Touching and feeling
and seeing cooperative reversions
redeeming dipolar sacred co-investments
in ecosystemic reversals
of secularizing bipolar egos inside
repurposing competitive god-like divestment
away from healthy choices
outside

Extractive
uncreating
pathological apart-heiding

Liberally enlightened co-passioning Left
and conservational empowering Right
disassociatively blind

Meaning double-binding repurposing
lose/lose reversion
illicit perversion
of unrehearsed win/win
integrity pre-versed.

Reverting win/lose depressing bipolar answers
into win/win impressive sacred dipolarizing questions
of what might
left and right
more cooperatively bright
resolve resiliently win/win?

Political democratic health
AND economic ecological wealth
co-transubstantiating
positive redoubling binary
reverse transitioning

As I recall domestic unvoiced revolutions,
Freud’s Principle of Reversion
has something patriarchal to do
with sexual perversion bisexuality
ambiguous both/and,
transgenderal sacred EarthMother
foreshadowing Father
non-resolved reverse attachments

Preversions of something extracted
distracting
retracting
Sigmund could not hope to positively experience
in a rapturous neurosensory way,

Even in his wildest polyvagal
non-heterosexual forced
found
bound
and gagged violent communication
kind of reversing sexual humanity
back to beast-animus/sacred anima
distant god/goddess rememory

YangHeaven overpowering
unenlightened EarthYintegrity
of dipolar/bipolar co-reversioned
liberating synergy

Which reverses degenerativity
in LaoTse’s Principle of Reversion
to Yang/Yintegral co-bodhisattva balance
in NonZero sums
of Original WholeEarth ReGenerative
dipolar energy

Supporting and healing
polyvagally egalitarian ego identities
while also interdependently individuating
organic peace and bionic justice ecosystems,
bicamerally communicating,
multilaterally congregating,
networking,
interfaithing,
multiculturing,
creolizing,
transubstantiating,
co-reversioning,
restorying Win/Win hopeful thinking
reverting lose/lose faithless feelings.

Taoist God/Dess integral Reversion
principally
primally reverses LeftBrain spatial subjects,
egocentric and metaphoric,
physical and metaphysical,
with RightBrain temporal interdependent objectives,
ecosystemic and analogically ecological
theologically synergetic

God v Goddess fractious ZeroSum integrity
inside ego-fractal NonZero Wholistic
metaphorically polyphonic Systemic
polynomially polypathic
polyvagally polymathic

NeuroSensory
Not(NotZero) wHoley enSpirited interfaith
polyculturally non-violent principles
of ultra-nonviolet re-communing language
wealthy choices

Peacemaking
the reverse of unhealthy war-building injustice

Reverse polarity
win/win restorying
EarthWealth enlightening peace
empowering justice
Principled Reverse of shouting

Dialogical harmonic singing
and interfaith synergetic dancing
metaphonic restorying
GreenGoddess ecofeminist
global ChristChild performance poets
slowdown listening
for ClimateMessianic healthy voices.

Unsew
what you have reverse reaped
so, S/He will resay,
much to everyone’s BusinessAsUsual
StraightWhiteMale
awesomely healthy unsurprise.

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Mercy’s UnBlind Justice

I suspect mercy may be more resiliently empowering
for optimizing multicultural health
as compared to uniform law
and ordered, cookie-cutter, justice
unresponsive to ubiquitous mitigating circumstances
of unique spaces
and relentlessly changing times.

Mercy recognizes society’s environmental
historical contributions to loss,
to absence of equitable justice
more aware of each individual perpetrator’s responsibility
to society
to family,
to local community

Society’s justice,
without nurturing
restorative mercy,
speaks decontextualized
un-nuanced authority of capital-measured economic systems
including reasonable and fair expectations
of retributive law,
imprisoning neglect
and sometimes violently punishing order.

I wonder if both justice and mercy
improve therapeutic co-arising potency
restoring merciful justice
AND
revising metaphysically just
equitable
reuniting mercy,
co-redemptively resolving
what Earth has positively conjoined
in thoughtful truth
and felt beauty

Breathing,
re-animating,
enspiriting
inspiring nature’s in and out climates
of seasonal development,
undevelopment,
redevelopment,
anti-development,
pro-development,
fractal phases of leftbrain space
mercifully greeting,
halfway meeting,
bilateral rightbrain TaoTime

With merciful multicultural anticipation,
so less competitive room
for monoculturing white justice anxiety.

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LeftBrain Avatar

LeftBrain thinking,
not an avatar
of compassionately feeling
emergent healing systems,

Chilly baptismal waters
of equanimity
do not typically suggest a warm bath
in multicultural
and global
democracy.

Is it possible,
reasonable,
healthy,
therapeutic
to carry gifts of resonant love
and extend them to those
evoking a long history
of patriarchal anger
and “vengeance is capital-invested mine”
disempowering fear?

How would this,
could this,
“should” this,
might this be different,
better
than fueling codependent anxiety
without realistically anticipated reform,
curiosity with transcending cooperative courage,
win/win communication out
without
win/lose return
back in,
external faithfulness without active internal hope?

Is it possible,
and even responsible,
more or less therapeutic,
to deeply burn with anger against Trumpism,
the blind excesses of narcissistic fascism
somewhat democratically turned over to empower a fool
by a near majority of lose-ego/lose-eco ignorant voters,
inexperienced with sufficient cooperative bicameral ecopolitics
to discern enlightening differences
between democratic love
and autocratic fear
of losing face,
noble retributive reputation,
emotionally satisfying financial success
far beyond simple ecosystemic life sufficiency?

Who might we become
if compassionate patriotism
were so democratically inclusive
our object of win/win regenerate love
could settle for no less object
than sacred green/blue
yellow/red
purple/orange,
and black/white at night
polypathic
polyphonic
polynomial equals not not polynomial
democratic
sacred-secular equanimity
of rightmind equals left-embodied EarthJustice,

To be faithful
to nothing less than full EarthTribe compassion
within empowering
as without democratically enlightening.

For me,
if I can expand my sense of loyalty,
commitment,
appreciation,
love for Donald Trump,
at least as much as I fear
all the leftbrain reasons to to be angry with him,
angry about what he deliberately fosters,
angry about what has led him away from democratic We,
to the very threshold of self-righteous
inhumane fascism,
climate terrorism,
that he iconically represents,

Then I can expand into a larger picture
mirroring the loving kindness
deep learning Source
and ReSource
for all that brings us to this moment
in globally polarized Time
to find our unwinding way back
back
back

To all-embracing love
for Original enlightening
empowering
democratic
multiculturing
co-passioning SummativeSource

Of BlackHole degenerative
yet integral lives matter
splatter spacetime dances
flirting with joyful rhythms
in becoming undivided
once and twice
and thrice again

Within 4D spiraling revolutionary frames
of sacred grace,
compassion,
beauty,
serene foregiveness
for lack of history’s win/win
sin
of leftbrain win/lose thinking

Stinking
slinking lack of rightbrain win/win
democratic
EarthPatriotic
interdependently viral feelings
extracting and extending
out to all rationally angry
and systematically terrified EarthTribes.

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Hate-Love Relationship

Where we embrace love,
Grief is as strong as death;
love lost.

Where we are afflicted with hate,
Gratitude is as strong as death;
loss wished for.

Grief rages against loss,
Yet gratitude lost
can become violently angered,
terrorist frightened
of present and future
as past’s reincarnate vulnerable pain.

Grief begins
felt in solitary vulnerability.
Gratitude eventually heals
through transparently shared solidarity.

Love is as strong as
mortality’s vulnerable weakness.
No more,
no less,
as these merge into one healing face
of gratitude for co-relational gain
more than mere absence of pain.

Habitual love,
Earth-inhabiting resonant life,
Eco-regenerativity
as strong as
Ego-relationality.

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In Love and War

You’ve heard it said?
All’s fair in love and war!

Well,
most ethicists,
even war-mongering philosophers,
disagree with the “All’s fair in war” part,

As do just everyday Earth-patriotic folks
who loyally prefer not to be bombed
and automatically rifled
just because some crackpot(s)
in the nearest capital city plutocracy
decide to make war,
using our kids and tax dollars,
instead of love,
co-passion,
solidarity with Earth’s pro-life health.

All ethicists,
and folks who find compassion
to responsibly risk vulnerability
of a loving relationship,
disagree with the “All’s fair in love” side
of this unmindful equation.

Fairness, equity, of powers to freely say
Yes
or No
to another’s invitation into passion
is a prerequisite to sustainable love,
grace,
mutual integrity of thought and feeling,
regardless of how short- or long-term projected.

It would be more valid
and validating
to observe,
All is at risk in both love and war,
but, unlike violent acts of hate
and fear
and anger
and greed,
risks of love are often fairly balanced
with opportunities for growing healthy cooperative resilience
together,
and certainly not warring unfairly apart.

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Viciously Virtuous Cycles

Like cooperatives explicitly known
and felt,
most virtuous circle systems
love meaningful ecological theology,
a WinWin reiteratively continuous choice
grows political democratic
tit=tat resilience into multicultural perpetuity,
whether virtuous ego inside
and/or eco-habitat therapeutic outside.

Like implicit competitions,
not not corollaries make most vicious
LoseLose degenerative non-choices toward WinWin,
prejudicial leaning toward
inside ego-economic priority
over outside green theological opportunity,
continues stuck in pathological violent nihilism,
dissonant absence of resilience,
ego-inside rabid
as climate pathological revenge,
for anti-ecological LoseLose reactionary ecopolitical choices
militaristic
growing short-tempered mendaciously rabid
LeftBrain dominant expedience

Secular vicious cycles
pursue wealthy growth
to autonomously achieve fleeting desperate health,
before deficit played-out absence
of further future expiration dates
predicting Earth’s pulselessness–
attenuated rootlessness

Sacred virtuous long-rooted recyclers
pursue ecotherapeutic healthy memories
of more nutritiously wealthy forests,
wild undomesticated RightBrain sacred spaces

To cooperatively achieve resiliently balanced
multicultural theology of meaning
ego-green wealth
pursuing ultra-nonviolent Tit health
for ultra-violet Tattling wealth…

Long-term cooperative virtues
absorbing short-term viciousness

EcoTherapy
absorbing EgoRabid Virality

Integrity
absorbing Dementia

Yin
absorbing Yang

Like cooperative cytosine
absorbing autonomous uracil.

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Therapeutic Investments

Economic messages,
models,
exchanges,
transactions,
investments and divestments,
restorations and extractions,
therapies and punishments,
health and pathology
come from diverse secularized capital media,
like egos,
and nutritional flows,
health norms
and energy centers,
power points.

Similarly,
ecological messages,
transfers of nutritional resources
and toxic demons,
are read in diverse media climates
of water restorative balance
and extractive flowing floods and pollution,
of soil health and pathology,
of wind power and superpowers of hurricanes,
of fire restoring warmth
but also extractively devouring,
therapeutic restorations
and punishing retributions through over-extractive imbalance.

Capital is to economics
as Energy is to ecology;
each resiliently mediated by WinWin positive intent
to cooperatively invest
and predative WinLose negative intent
to compete against other capital-centered climates
of holonic unrest.

Capitalism extracts nutrition
where ReStorative CoOperatism co-invests cultures of loving health
in budgets,
creolizing plans and designs
and mutual intent toward polyculturally positive outcomes for All
students and mentors
followers and inclusively democratic leaders
DNA and co-arising RNA
children and parents
patients and healers
PostMillennial ClimateLovers and WiseElders.

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Dillen’s Continuing DMV Adventures

I wrote a sad but true urban legend called “Dillen and the DMV” last week.
Here follows an update.

Background Review:

One of my health care employees, Dillen, has wicked ADD, borderline intelligence, not qualifying for disability supports, which are few
and those few minimal at best anyway,
but also challenged by things like getting to work on the right day at the right time,
challenged by processing verbal communications,
whether written or spoken more slowly than Business As Usual pace and pattern would permit,
challenged with struggles to establish and maintain healthy positive social relationships,
much more challenged by intimacy,
so often settling for companionship that does not foster mutually therapeutic co-mentoring,
challenged by his felt urgency for speed while driving,
challenged by States Attorneys who persuade him it’s OK to accept guilty as charged
for driving 45 in a 35 mph zone on his way to work,
never mind that so were all the cars in front of and behind him,
not to worry that this will inevitably result in a 3-month suspension of his license
because he can get a Work Permit,
except, oops,
never mind,
the DMV will not give Work Permits to suspended drivers
with more than three moving violations,
encouraged by State Prosecutors to go right ahead,
send in that Work Permit application
with his $100 nonrefundable fee
because the DMV is really all about punishing DUIs,
of which Dillen has none
because he doesn’t drink
because, in part, he knows it is bad for his mental health,
especially his chronic issues with depression.

In “Dillen and the DMV” I write to the DMV Commissioner,
the Chief States Attorney, and the Attorney General
about this series of unfortunate events.

Update:

I hear back from the DMV.
This letter patiently reviews Dillen’s multiple infractions.
Two involve having others in his car with marijuana or concomitant paraphernalia,
(why not just “supplies” or “equipment”?)

“Marge, did you order the paraphernalia for the copier machine yet?”
Word choices in the public sector often distract me.

but Dillen was not charged with driving stoned,
because he wasn’t.
He was the designated driver for his “friends”
who did not have their Medical Marijuana cards on them.

Then there was the time he might have been going 35 or 40 and hit black ice,
totaled his car
which ended upside down,
for which the local police felt they must issue some form of moving violation,
after all, we do have those towing charges
and the need for all those emergency folks to stand out in the freezing ice storm,
and there are these two drug-related violations on his driving record
so he was probably stoned anyway, right?

And then there was this time,
when Dillen was pulled over
ostensibly for speeding,
but really this was about driving on a suspended license
without a Work Permit
which he didn’t have because
(1) DMV didn’t have a current address to send him his notice,
so he didn’t know he was driving on a suspended license, and
(2) no one had told him,
including the Police Officer who pulled him over,
there is this Work Permit thing
which would have covered his butt
on this particular adventure in high speed suburban crime.

However, this letter from the DMV Director of Programs leaves out some details,
as does my summary.
Then the Program Director reassures Dillen and I of her concern for Dillen’s mess,
which someone else might have called unemployment
and yet another round of couch-surfing homelessness,
but CT’s pesky State Statutes wouldn’t allow her to refund his application fee,
and, besides,
the application form says right on there that it won’t be refunded
even if the application is rejected

Apparently for reasons that remain in the shadow of the public eye.
My two page letter was too subtle for government comprehension
of our own collective abuse and neglect.
She confirms the DMV does have explicit standards for rejecting applications,
including more than three moving violations,
but fails to apologize for designing her Program’s communication plan
to be sure that disproportionately young urban minority low-income males
with mental health and self-medication issues
would be fleeced of their last $100
ripped out of their hungry pockets
to apply for a Work or Education Permit
that State Statutes prohibit her,
so sadly,
from handing out like mother’s milk to a starving baby.

She also does not speculate about why State Prosecutors Dillen has met
are all apparently unaware of stipulated public, but effectively private, criteria for rejecting
pricey applications.

She also fails to mention what she might do to correct this situation
of not providing transparent public information
in a way that allows respected residents of the State of CT
to make a fully informed decision about wasting their money
by further investing in the future miserable outcomes
of shoddy DMV Programs.

She also does not explain where we,
the tax-payers of CT,
were when concerns about the need for job security,
especially for those in hard-to-employ populations,
where we were when needs for food and housing,
healthy wants for continuing education and training,
including the need for continuing education and training,
including the need for reasonable transportation,
even in the winter,
where we all were when these were not being weighted sufficiently against risks,
allowing licensed drivers with complex histories
to continue on their journey
the best they can.

Personally, I know Dillen responds much better to a warm hug,
a patient smile,
and expressed appreciation for continuing to improve,
and encouragement to continue with work
and sticking with a healthy daily routine,
which does not include speeding,
even if everyone around him is racing to nowhere good.

Yesterday I was mesmerized for several hours by a TV series
“Underground”
about the Railroad prior to the U.S. Civil War.
A champion anti-slavery attorney
confesses to his Northern wife,
as a younger attorney he used to settle estates,
including estates of slave-holders,
which sometimes led to the awkwardness of arranging for resale of people,
families,
often resulting in the tearing of children from their mothers’ arms,
and other similar heinous crimes against nature
and mental health.

For some reason
I kept thinking about that clerk at DMV,
reading Work Permit applications,
after depositing the enclosed nonrefundable $100,
looking at the high security publicly invisible list of reasons not to help
depressed people living mostly in their cars
have a modestly better chance at life,
as if what is a right for him or her
on his or her way to work and home again,
is a too luxurious privilege for a fragile at-risk criminal population,
enslaved by their need to self-propel their freedom futures.

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