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Right Side of our Bed

Some mornings I awaken slowly
to knowing too much
and yet never enough.

Some nights I drift off quickly
feeling too many disassociating memories,
never inviting enough connection.

Sometimes invitation into a healthier life
feels like addiction to wealthier love.

Sometimes I wonder who decides
when a pregnancy has reached perfect climax;
Where more time inside would become toxic
yet not too soon for optimizing healthy outside invitation
into Earth’s deeper and wider Gaian womb
of spiraling revolution.

Sometimes I feel changed
transformed
more cooperatively win/win co-acclimated
transubstantiated
creolizing
reformed
returning
reviewed by EarthMother ancestors
fulfilling MotherEarth’s rebirth
of DNA-inspired nurturing nutritional prophecies
throughout history’s Six Great Extinctions.

Sometimes we become the post-millennial herstory,
perfectly timed,
not too critically hot
and not too chronically cold
AllSouls culmination of climate rebirthing risk
and mutually therapeutic opportunity;

The Seventh bicameral enrapturing regeneration,
Left ego-natures
and Right eco-spirited,
secular/sacred cooperative,
Either/Or and Both/And
RightBrain more prominently egalitarian,
win/lose and win/win strategic health-game players
universal and unitarian,
walled ego-identities
and yet webbed ecotherapists
Yanged Yinning
seventh inning,

Three diminsional massive space energy
with One ZeroZone bilaterally open dimension
linear and yet non-linear,
perhaps wave spiraling solar and lunar revolutions
from EarthMother into MotherEarth
restoring healthy prophetic rebirth,
not too ego-opportunistically soon
and yet not too ecopolitically late.

Some mornings I awaken quickly
to knowing too much toxic history
and yet never enough therapeutic re-creative herstory.

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I Got the D.T. Blues

When his prime time unmediated antagonist
was only “Fake News CNN”
I hoped he might merely be a narcissist,
cynical about the social health value
of articulating inclusive
transparent
historically accurate
real world truths
all the time
to all Earth’s people.

Now that he has kicked his own Fox News dog,
I would say *itch,
or even nihilistic witch,
but then I too might become known
as an outright truth denialist
over-empowered totalitarian of terror,
verbal global abuser,
where we might have healthier
and wealthier chosen
a cooperatively-owned healing climate
of bicameral compassion.

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BlackBird Pie

What do you need right now?

I feel like I would enjoy a long retreat
from human voices,
a free to reverse
get out of jail vacation
from inside voices,
especially my own.

Who would keep you entertained?
Who would you listen to
with affection,
passion,
curiosity,
interest,
engagement,
immersion,
amusement,
without hearing human voices,
including your own?

Maybe I would learn to speak in squirrel scold
and nutty chatter,
in buzzing bee,
whining predative mosquito searching,
warning rattler,
purring and hissing cat,
stoned silly river sibilant
sad satiated sensory sunset
moon rise advent of enlightening mystery
surf breathing ocean, inhaling and slow shushing out
demented and delighted dreamscapes,
hawk warnings
mourning dove reassurances
Earth’s undisputing stillness
still partially well

Blessing silly ravens
cawing out for each other,
“Here we brazenly are, together;”
never having heard of blackbird pie,
unthinkably naive,
unspeakable joy of togathering flight
without tomorrow’s forbidding consequences.

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Ecology of Music

Healthy ecological relationships
are climates easier to hear
when instruments use words
as tools, not weapons,
for planting and harvesting less fear,
for sensing emotions win/win harmonic
win/lose contested, competing for supremacy
of auditory,
predatory self-investment.

That said, and preferably sung,
ecological systems
like songs
are compositions,
richly resonant communications
in complerxly interdependent webs
not sustained through dissonant lose/lose walls

Of entropic silence,
abhorred absence of nurturing communion,
emotionally stifling structure,
full-bodied thirst for hearts absorbing minds
are preferred to sensory detachment,
failure to notice unvoiced climates
of epic sounds unnatural
dis-spirited
unlistening nonperformance,
unmused holocaust.

While win/win vocal music listening circles
are great places to therapeutically hear
Earth’s integral echoing potential,
love’s mutually-held ego-sadness and eco-gladness,
climates of ecological wealth,
inside as outside resonance,
outside as inside co-opportunity
through this environment
of mutually-sung
strong-hearted resilience.

With hope to sing another way
an Other focused day
and night
through ecology’s brightest voice
for regenerate light.

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Plowshares into Swords

Capital is the original weapon
for blasting apart nutritional health
from commodity wealth.

If capital is human history’s non-ecological economic risk,
Then cooperative investment is our original tool
for healing nutritional wealth
as compassionately felt
GoldenRule opportunity health
for achieving win/win affective and effective politics,
ego-personal
and eco-social
deep learning weapon/tool future investments
co-relational.

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Hijacked Identity

I awake again with this left-brain thought
that an economic conservative
about balancing his ever expanding budget
looks at my mountainside forest of firs
as a green commodity
for potential exploitation.

Yet when this same conservative
resides in this same fir forest,
now threatened by a large lumbering corporation,
he sees these same trees,
like himself,
as prey
in a win/lose zero-sum value-retention game.

Then I have this right brain passion
that an ego/eco-logically harmonic nondualist,
all about right responsible relationships,
feels and acts with compassion toward these same trees
in this cooperative win/win forest
internally governed by WiseElder firs, regenerative,
from whom we learn
to nutritionally
resiliently,
naturally,
spiritually climax
and recommence together, after loss,
in secular/sacred solidarity
of co-passioning seeds
structured to anticipate four-seasoned wealth givers
and receivers
of Earth’s forested pro-active health care,
robustly optimizing self/other value maintenance.

These reviewed landscapes are not mutually exclusive.
Yet only the last is cooperatively left and right
nondualistically inclusive,
like ethical truth with aesthetic beauty,
compassion spiritually foresting natural integrity.

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Love of Earth History

Love of history
commences a health and pathology journey
toward totalitarian terror
and unitarian awareness,
fragmented numbness of prey
and integral consciousness
of co-empathically benign predators
casing out

Framing one Earth-rhetorical spiraling event
within which herstory
of commodified
and domesticating victims
remains too unlargely untold
to optimize healthy climate trends.

Each spatially boundaried community,

and what would a multiculturing organic community become
without an unstable, yet robust, boundary?

Hey,
knock it off,
you’re messin’ with my flow…

Each spatially boundaried community
and each temporal regeneration
is a revolving rhetorical event,
often oscillating between left-brain dominance
through predative dualism,
detachment,

From right brain herstoric
domestic security prominence
and ecofeminist patrol,
praying for secular/sacred nondual matriarchal awareness,
co-passions yang and yin restoried,
virtue valued,
and not so much viciously devalued

Historically between RightWing loyalist redcoats
and LeftWing patriotic bluecoats,
compassion constitution composers
scripture writers and healthy wealth translators
speakers and listeners
patriarchs and matriarchs

Contrasts between economically privileged protectionists
and eco/theo-logically co-empowered
egalitarian liberationists.

Each story
novel
poem
life
year of mutually regenerating health seasons,

Each predator/prey
healer/habitat-habitual-healing day,
each dream
each image
each memory
each memory of a fading feeling-thought
a rhetorical historical event
which begins with noticing a spiritually developing subject
and our objective natural stage

Earth framing sacred reverence
revering historical political egos
in our economic ecological win/win health habitat,
this primal evolving compassionate consciousness
communing between self today
and other
yesterday’s tomorrow now

Choosing primal graced win/wins
and, when confronted, often settling for win/lose,
left or right,
ego or eco,
self or other,
humanity or divinity,
Either/Or or Both/And
fragmentation or contrasting mutual sublimation,

And, when defeated,
tolerating detached nihilistic lose and lose,
left and right,
ego and eco,

If not yet totally planet
and people
and plants
and soil
and water
and air
dead today,
all that much more likely to collapse tomorrow.

What good is an objective ego
without even one subjectively sympathetic eco-stage?

Who could invent humanity
without first feeling historic divinity?
CoPassioned attachment as ancient as umbilical cords
and DNA strings

Herstoric strands of historical win/win rhetorical events
take the epic story
and globally interdependent changing web of life
protracted
stretching out regenerational identity
eager for exploring
curious perennial attachments to past
seasons of generations
and future potential integrity
of well-timed space place
in-between left and right co-rhetorical events,
changing herstoric bilateral story

Veering away from lose/lose
irrationally feels and feeds chaos
entropically off
into dual dark dispassions

Wondering how such an unlikely rhetorical
natural
spiritual event
as Earth’s curious history
could have ever not not become
wealth of health’s inter-grateful
DNA/RNA structures
staging spiral/fractal
spirit/natures feeling rhetorically
dialogical potential,

Polypathic
polyphonic
polynomial
and not not polyculturally neurological
psychological
ecological
theological
health-logically resilient
resonant
restoring
reweaving
reversing
preversing
persevering history
courageous
curious
co-passionate bicameral herstory

When and where eternally resilient eco-life
is also not not timelessly
breathlessly compassionate ego-death.

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Military FireWork

He said the undiplomatic cost
to all of us freedom celebrators,
to firstborn sons and daughters,
to last born future children,
would be far less
than its liberating value.

Value for and against whom?

Value for and against what healthy purpose?

Value for and against which wealthy constituents?

He couldn’t say,
or wouldn’t,
or shouldn’t

Because he couldn’t listen
and wouldn’t savor
democratic peace.

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Hold Me Tight

Hold me tight
to free me
from this screaming isolation.

Hug me right
to free me
for our streaming restoration.

Hear me fight
here to free us
from my darkest dream depression.

Speak this night
for freedom
from our wrong self-shaming
other-blaming impressions,
cold climates of suppression,
heated hates for oppression,
reserved and calculated rates
for irreverent repressions.

Hold me tight
to free me
from this lack
of free associations.

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Peak Experience

Back in late pre-millennial times
of lava lamps
and Rolling Stones,
many searched for peak experiences,
in response to valley depressences
repressed
suppressed,
rather than panoramic,
even revolutionary,
resonant and resilient impressions.

Peak experiences were,
and still are,
I am told by those who’ve had them,
personal,
individualistic,
or possibly dyadic climaxes,
but probably not orgiastic,
which is more of a swarming bee thing
co-spastic
if I accurately follow their pollination story
through its peaks and valleys.

Abraham Maslow talked
and wrote
about climbing a hierarchy of sensory needs,
from survival attachment
up to thrival
growing toward a more interdependently accessible peak
and descending for a more independent survival battle
to return to more cooperative peak health experiences
of left brain articulating thought
and right brain consciousness
of up and down
valley repression
and mountainous impression
feelings.

Now in post-millennial times,
pathology has become a climatic
traumatic
despairing experience of climate anxiety,
prompting new internal/external searches
for ways to optimize globally resilient peak experience.

For this,
we need the miraculous mysterious mysticism
of cooperative win/win integrity
in-between and among all ecological living relationships
sailing up and down river systems
and across mountain forests
and through all creatures and creations,
lovers and healthy loved,
rhetorical lived events
and historical reflective advents

Tipping between yesterday and tomorrow
resonantly lived
ego peak safely and yet freely eco-valleyed
spiritual health
within flowing messianic times
of natural wealth.

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