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Large Frame Painting
I used to envy still life painters
longing to see
organic geometric relationships
between full-color light
and irregular isolating forms,
These close to self-identity
and those background wildernesses
of bright and happy adventure
or dark and fear-filled
encroaching climate pathologies
unenduring nightmare epic nights.
Now I find healthier
and happier resilience
listening to biometric interrelationships
within ever changing,
not the least bit still dead,
flowing light formed Yang
nudging more or less happily
toward brightest ZeroCore
dualdark fertile pregnant potentialities
of universal Yintegrity
through sight and sound,
For polypathic touch and taste and feel
with polyphonic fragrances
of spring newborn cries and coos
through winter’s wise dream
musical-comedy/tragedy hibernation,
awaiting further new resilience days
with resonant bright sky nights
Ultra-violet souled,
witness to Earth’s great transitory emotions.
I now envy synergetic, not fragmenting,
creolizing, not colonizing
matriarchal both/and feeling
not so angry dominating patriarchal
either/or straight too queer
for mutual redemption,
resilient co-facilitators of communication
role-playing slow and GoldenRule grown
full-life revolving pictures
speaking nutritionally through cooperatively owned frames
Pursuing resilient health/wealth dreams
in ego’s foreground
as witnessed by polypathic
organic voices with rhythm
and pattern,
beat and light and darkly sung emotions
inviting bright and happy resonantly compassionate adventures
with AllSouls living,
past,
and regenerative future
Which is rather a larger
and more robust life-painting skills
integrity agenda.
Embedded SpringTimes
Perhaps we all secretly long
to be embedded in perpetual spring time.
My most entertaining pre-pubescent memories
of spring’s most sacred times,
when occasionally left
to my own leisurely adventurous pursuits
outside for further natural/spiritual embedded nest
Include a warm and sunny afternoon
unfolding on Saturday’s mid-western stage,
going to a pond
waiting on the edge of wild
lying on my belly
with my nose nearly touching
Her still surface waters
watching spiders
walk over Her
polliwog organic submarines
waving
going somewhere fins
propelling, with me,
into our Saturday afternoon
nutritional adventures
embedded in feeding FlowSource
well-being entertainments.
Another spring Saturday,
perhaps closer to full pubescent
FlowSource entertaining feelings,
I ran far back into the RoundField
where I knew a solitary MotherTree,
like me,
busy getting dressed up
in Her fulling spring leaves
while I unbusily removed all my clothes
and climbed Her
full body hugging Her trunk,
embracing and thanking each sturdy
warm-used limb
all my forceful way to Her most sacred top
To look and feel together
across this green alfalfa field
with all surrounding trees
a deeply fertile ocean forest
green-radiant slumbering mysteriously back at us,
this happy solitary FlowSource
MotherTree and ResourceMe
unseen WinWin feeling together triumphantly
becoming Be
Indigenously embedding entertainments,
Memories much richer and deeper and older
yet naked and wider and younger
than anything I ever heard or saw mid-winter
coming from inside black and white TV.
Yang/Yin ComPassion
If you are a Zen Buddhist
a Taoist,
where wealthy resonant homology
interdependently co-governs global developing history,
past through WiseElder resilient future,
And homology co-arises pre-born
DNA-nurtured
Win/Win healthy phylogeny
of matriarchally-born Earthlings,
If you are a Zeroist,
or an in-between Zoroastrian,
not asha (1) and not all druj (0) either,
You may know,
and perhaps even over/under-stand,
what it means to your ego
to contemplate regenerative in-between,
thin toward fat,
pregnantly interdependent
contemplative ZeroNest
outside Win/Win Earth-centering
inside still a little twisted EgoCentric Win/Lose
short-term One survivalist,
Which turns out to become
a whole lot more than constricted
and narrow-minded degenerating one-ness
of integrity without mendacity;
Unless by one-ness
your non(not-Zero) Ego
experiences integrity
of inside health
reflecting outside wealth,
A community’s healthiest universal destiny
is rooted in humanity’s wealthiest unitarian integrity
Which, in return,
leaves universal Zeroists with nothing much to say
while busy balancing yang-left
with yin-right co-consciousness
unitarian full blown-out flow
Which, in re-return,
is why Zen Buddhists
don’t have much to breathing teach
in-between the win/win Earth’s
asha and bilaterally not-not win/lose druj
within appalling Apollo/Dionysian
non-sectarian languages
Non-violently communicating outside/inside learning
universal yang-left ego faith regenesis
through yin’s right ecosystemic integrity,
Sung in diminished RightWing straining chords
less monoculturally anthro-centric,
out of harmonic win/win ego/eco-balance,
Which the re-re-returning Universally interdependent revolving Unitarians
seem to never stop talking with and through
freedom from and toward non-violent communion
in-between hyphenated hypothetical
heuristic not-this/not-that
zen-zeroistic
seminal wu-wei
cognitive-emotive confluence
At our best in early spring’s full moon
when outside new born light green buds
and sprouts
appear magically united stars
of ultra-violet bright solidarity
of glowing one-nest
as noticed by zero-ness hearts
seeking beauty dualdark green
ego/eco deeply echoing
divinely humane health/wealth
resilient EarthOrganic brown/black values
In sustainable Zero ZenSouls
remembering Yang/Yin full spectral color
points of original interdependent nourishing light
From and for Holy Matriarchal NewBorn Spirits
with holonic patriarchal Zero Summations
of Earth’s danced asha/durj revolution,
Sung intrinsically
and ZeroZone originally
by health/wealth his(1)/her(0)storic soil,
homological souls
of EarthTime’s win/win evolution.
Why Positive is Healthier
Positive values,
like health
integrity
resilience
compassion
empathy
are not best built
from Yang’s strong conserving top negative emotions
down to Yin’s struggling positive flow-power intention
toward winning nutrition
while winning integrity’s future nurture.
Health care core values
and truly wealthy WinWin communication manners,
grow out from Yinternal Zero (0)
to Yang’s +1.00 holistic co-passionate presence,
+1/0 = 0.(-,-)percent intra-mematic binomial experience,
WinWin double ego/eco-binary,
yin’s short-term compressed
suppressed double-bound
intrapersonal WinWin potential flow-power
returning revolutionarily back out
to recover 2020 mutual sensory-neural adoption
sacred baptismal eco-acclimating adaption
secular/sacred re-marriage
positive health confirmation
transubstantiation of natural/spiritual elements,
nature/nurture climates
of healthy left-embodied/right-mind
win-win integrity’s long-term
positive liberal restoration
inviting less negative conserving retribution
for sins of our mutually ignoring left/right
non-communal past.
Positive faith values,
like health,
are best built
from Yin/Yang ZeroSoul center
here and now
on out through backward transference
and forward projection
Win/Win
Yang/Yin double-binding
ego/eco-global balance.
So says my natural law
and multiculturally rewarded GodVoice
and my spiritual Win/Win rebirthing
holonic BeautyMuse right-hemisphere
here/now, listening in then breathing out
yang/yin
knowledge/wisdom
deducted/inducted
breathed in outside/breathed out inside
autonomously in-between silent Shadow rhythmic
health/wealth whispers of posterity/negentropy
+1 polynomial Yang with (-,-)0 polypathic binomial yin
in-between male/not-not female-soul
midway uracil/cytosine
hydrogen/helium
ego-nature/eco-soul
resiliently restorative integrity
multiculturally revolutionary peace with ego/eco-justice
health with wealth restoring
secular with sacred
co-operating +self/(-,-)other identity/individuation re-education
From inside deep learning (0) here
to outside 1/(-,-)percent binomially now there,
not from top toward bottom,
but from (-,-)1 original bottom of fragmenting Time
to +1.00 outside integral win/win Space.
Mysterious Gifts
You ask me what powers I want
that I’m not sure you have.
I ask you what we want
that could never be our power to give.
At first I thought of health
and not just unwise stagnant wealth,
But deeper still
I long for clear and true integrity
for me
for you
for us
whether together
or disinterred apart.
It’s not my obscure dull worry,
as you might later restory,
this issue history
and physical mystery
that all life falls apart
like energy
when closed
and just in parts,
left hemisphere reductive.
And wider still
we belong within resilience,
not fragility
Where fragments suffer cynics
afraid to sacredly remember
we were once all of one part,
matriarchal ability;
It’s my start,
resilient integrity,
not fragile mendacity,
my health discerning path
to polypathic wealth
with less pathology
not yours to give,
but ours to learn
Together,
or disinterred apart.
Wait A Minute!
Did I hear that wrong?
On my way for another appointment
with the vampire bleeding Quest,
big stage conversations on the radio
travel way too fast
for me to stay tuned in
at my normal liberal-conserving pace.
A single new mom
is surprised to learn about herself.
Her post-parted mother self
is less excited about getting back to work
out in the “real world.”
Wait a minute!
When did the real nurturing home environment
become the unreal world?
Back when most of us were serfs
and slaves,
shipping clerks
and slap-happy farmer families,
wasn’t family life cultural realness?
And outside employment
our unreal
mechanistic crazy ant-nestedness?
When and why did that turn
right side down?
Then she argued,
without waiting for slow to learn me,
against those who blame the childcare victim
by challenging employers AND employees
to do better
balancing work and home life
with bi-transcendent presence.
She finds this adds undue bilocation pressure
on parents to find ever more efficient
and effective employee-parent balancing acts
in multi-tasking lack of fully engaged bicameral presence.
We need systemic change,
she says,
although I fear that’s what Donald Trump would also say,
in another UnReal Wounded World’s competitive runaway favor.
Wait a minute!
Don’t throw out the new-balancing baby
with our dirty economic laundry water!
Don’t argue against Ego/Eco balance needed
to embrace, again,
healthy Cultural Balance.
A culture so out of balance
that competitive Win/Lose economies
now monopolize our encultured RealWorld,
and cooperative Win/Win parent/child empowerment
has become privatized UnReal Healthy CounterCulture.
Then, less than a minute later,
Republican spokespersons
described President Trump as vindicated
by Mueller’s executive report
finding insufficient information to prove collusion
with Russia
and/or obstruction of justice
within America.
Wait a minute!
Is no proof of colluding with a violent
totalitarian
kleptocratic regime
threatened by our flagging healthy transparent democratic culture
and cooperative Win/Win mutual empowerment,
really vindicating
an out-loud vindictive plutocrat
too smart to go to Vietnam
and too slick to campaign for principles of un-commodified love and integrity
rather than against recession of pathological hate and mendacity?
First, he said Russia
was helping Hillary in the voting booths
of 2016.
Then, when it became clear some foreign agency
was trying to help him by hurting her,
He said it wasn’t his good buddy Putin
or his Allies.
Then, when it became clear
it was Kremlin-sponsored interference,
He said, repeatedly, No Collusion!
because his campaign knew absolutely nothing
about anything
(which, out of context, sounds plausible).
Then, when it became clear
his campaigners did meet with Russian representatives
offering to do the political nasty
to Hillary,
He said, just “No Collusion!”
without qualifiers.
Then, when it became clear
the Trump campaign had nothing to say
about having met, without reporting, foreign agents
involved in dirty propaganda tricks
in U.S. media markets,
He still said only “No Collusion!”
But, wait a minute!
Now we have been asking
why wouldn’t a patriotic nationalist leader
true-blue military industrially empowered
not jump out of his white privileged skin
to be the first to squeal on the bad bully guys
for playing mean loser-take-all
disempowering undemocratic politics?
Wait a minute!
Short of transparently unveiling how the Trump campaign
proactively attempted to let everyone know
these hostile actions taken
against the integrity of our democratic electoral system
for RealWorld informed voters,
how is No Collusion! (probably)
sufficient to vindicate
some nationally elected leader of a wounded democracy
apparently intent on breaking all Ten Cooperative Commandments
as shamelessly as possible?
Wait a minute!
What happened to obstruction of healthy restoring-trust
bicameral justice?
By the time I returned home
to my RealWorld,
I was already exhausted
trying to keep up with
a patriarchally privileged
Win/Lose
UnReal
left-unmindful dominant brain
right-mind suppressed
with monoculturing
colonizing
secularizing
privatizing
narcissistic bullying intent.
I’ll be alright though…
Just give me a minute.
Next To Godliness
What would you say,
if yours to freely choose,
lies closest to godliness:
Cleanliness/purity,
Integrity,
Compassion,
Resilient health,
Wise wealth?
Why?
Does your answer change
if this question changes to:
What lies closest to Gaian Earth Goddessness
for you?
If your nearby synonym changes, why?
If not, why not?
These questions came up
when I was looking for a dissertation topic
for InterReligious Dialogue and InterNational Diplomacy.
My Big Question statement began:
The technology and philosophy of dialogue,
diplomacy,
conflict resolution,
restorative justice,
peace-making,
non-violence,
WinWin solutions,
derive from philosophy,
theology,
natural and social sciences,
and perhaps even abstract psychotherapeutic geometrics.
Rather than asking the more classical academic questions
of how are public health empowerment resources
better and worse than each other,
how do they best practices differ?
Perhaps it is more fruitful to diversely
and interdependently
compare these health/pathology paradigms
to search for their most resilient therapeutic WinWin communion
and wealthy holonic promise.
And so I began inviting the widest,
most diversely multicultural, dialogue
about what are our highest health and therapeutic priorities
for cooperative people
who understand godliness and/or Gaian-ness
as at least sufficient power
for synergetic integrity
to generate light
out of nondual darkness.
Which, on living Earth,
has produced some astounding evolution of compassionate grace history,
polycultures,
polyphonics,
polynomial WinWin communication,
polypathic ways
and ego/eco-balancing
and cooperatively centering means
to godliness
and/or Gaian-nest integral hypotheses.
RiverRocks and Rain
Boulders,
split wide open,
with rounded river-shaped edges,
greet the rain,
their rushing Creator,
everyday re-creating
Fossils
witnessing time’s solidarity
between flowing rivers
and boldly shaped
deforming compassion
for lowest sedated intent,
immortal purposes of flow
yet majestically Progenitive
Transparently vulnerable icons,
open seasons of geologically irrational
time invested
in transporting communion
Like a flowing poem,
a rain-drenched story
voicing well-told resonance
Yet compassion longs to understand
why this structure
and our causal flow
have not only found each other
but have remained together
to this recreating end.
Like river rocks and rain,
perhaps we have no knowable choice
other than acclimating time’s solidarity
of righteous flow and unliberated shape,
spirit representing nature,
relationship suggesting dynamic autonomy becoming
interdependence unveiling healthy equity
wisdom seeking formed understanding
rain shaped river rocks.
Failures of Integrity
I feel like a high school civics class dropout.
So much confuses me,
to this day,
about democratic constitutional law,
which feels like it should have WinWin original empowerment intent,
about public and private rights,
protected against others’ immoral and illegal, unhealthy wrongs of infringement,
and why we invest so much of our gross,
and I mean really Gross,
nationalistic produce
in what could not possibly be public health outcomes.
If governments are not for liberating and defending public health
then how could we realistically hope for those constitutionally promised deliverables:
well-being,
happiness,
prosperity?
Obviously I missed the day
when our high school civics and U.S. history teacher
explained the complex relationships
between public health
and growing democratic
interdependent
WinWin trust.
And truth,
and public service life,
and healthy-wealthy ways
of building a resilient
ecologically invested
economically smart
society.
For example,
how did the Supreme Court buy into the argument
that corporations have the right to buy and sell candidates for public office
because, if they didn’t,
then our legislative regulators
would thereby unconstitutionally restrict
their rights of free speech
as stipulated by our First Amendment?
I have the right to speak up for the public health benefits of marijuana
as compared to alcoholic beverages,
but do I have a first amendment right to purchase, carry, and consume marijuana?
In communications theory,
we differentiate between what is linguistic performance
and what is not speech
but non-verbal action,
investment,
divestment.
Why would that distinction not apply to the First Amendment
for white privileged patriarchal corporations
and yet does seem to apply for just regular persons
like you and me?
I have the right to speak out for white nationalism.
I could even argue that the abolition of slavery
was an unconstitutional taking of personal property,
but that would not give me the right to go out and buy a person,
not even a candidate for public cooperative WinWin wealth service.
It obviously was my misunderstanding
that the First Amendment protection of personal
(not incorporated) rights
is restricted to free speech and peaceful assembly.
Now I’m trying to wrap my Left and Right Brain around
First Amendment incorporated rights to buy and sell governing authority,
rights to buy and sell democratic trust commitments
to responsible
and accountable
and transparently free choice-speaking and democratic health investing,
rights to buy and divest of cooperative cultural integrity
to robustly serve in our public health sector
for equal and interdependently informed,
unformed,
exformed,
formed,
reformed,
preformed personal (not incorporated) voices
unwilling to buy and sell pro-organic healthy resilient lives.
I keep going back to historic constitution development notes
about this resonant rhetorical First Amendment,
trying to find a strict conservative defense of original intent
that might responsibly, and healthily, stretch enough
to include corporate freedom to peacefully purchase public assemblies
and rent free-market corporate spokespersons
for Win/Lose choices
supporting short-term capital returns
against ecological-organic long-term democratic healthy climate services
predicting nothing but further Lose/Lose patriarchal retributive injustice
as everyday capital-hoarding
democratically unusual
cynical and nihilistic privileged market freedom
for inordinate inhumane over-investment
in enslaving otherwise reasonably healthy minds
and public spirits
and trusting natures
for freely communicating democratically resilient health services.
Anyway,
when I was in graduate school,
studying political philosophy,
and integral multicultural wealth-of-health design,
we learned corporate investment in partisan political processes
as a private sector unhealthy opportunity
to grow white privileged economic buy and sell colonialism,
sponsored and supported by xenophobic unhealthy minds.
Which feels rather distant
from protecting our informed rights
to free and robust speech
and peaceful assembly
within and among this public service
promoting resiliently wealthy eco-logical,
unincorporated ego-therapeutic,
diversely nonsectarian,
interdependent integrity
of these healthy uniting WinWin States.
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