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Sacred Presence

Few who have listened and watched through triumphant birth
and decomposing death
doubt these are most sacred events.

When did all experience in-between
become a sufficiently secular journey
necessarily devoid of unrealistic wonder and awe,
divine curiosity,
and holy wholesome courage?

To live for and with Earth solidarity
listening and watching sacred birth of dawn
and holy death of ultra-violet
non-violent dusk.

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Retirement Planning

Retirement planning
may feel like civilian planning
as military ballistics continue incoming
so persuasively my objective is not to win
but to get home again,
although I sadly know
home will never be that home of memory sustained
as comparative peaceful compass.

What is my therapeutic vocational problem
retiring from front-line maddening trenches?

How much remaining spacetime do I have,
does Earth have, for living rather than dying,
and why does this feel so spare time
often mere despairing,
and why “spare”
and why “mere”?

Despite books and perhaps entire libraries on human purpose,
meanings,
ethology of nature,
callings for proper industry,
organic integrity of humane function,
whether blessed by divine inspiration
or mere humane perspiration
(and, again, why “mere”?)
I find too precious
this my footnote of non-historic proportion
that my vocation may not truly ever self-optimize
through individual ongoing autonomous discernment,

But also through healthier, more robust, fabric
interdependent
cooperative
democratically woven
of loving WinWin future society

CoDefining culture having let go of Win/Lose
evolutionary violence investment theories
in favor of overwhelming healthy
regenerative retiring revolutions
of Earth’s slower-grown therapies.

This is not Weber’s mechanical society;
Retiring histories are more mysteriously woven
like an organic beehive
ornamenting a strong-rooted universal tree,
or an ant colony
preparing for winter
within an ancient-grounded sanctuary
society for future multiculturing
creolizing
WinWin enchanted colonies.

What happens when we retire
into a newly autonomous vocational choice?
When all prior spacetime investments
appear to have been apprenticeships
toward what?
Dying?
Living with more freedom
for integrity
and WiseElder slow-grown discernment?

We are so hard-pressed to say
and do
and be wise discerners for internal and external peace
when all our training has been for Win/Lose battles

I struggle to prepare for extending family love
in ever more isolating autonomy
from new life invitations.

What does my environment,
our climate,
my experience,
our story about communal health development
still respect
and hope for loving, yet active, peace?

How do we call and gather elders together
to restore this profoundly interactive peace
inside as outside as inside
Earth’s justice
re-uniting integrity
toward universal love
and away from nationalistic violent hate?

Where do secular models
and sacred maps
together tipping point
toward personal
and political
and economic
and ecological
and theological healthy meaning
today,
rooted in all our civilian yesterdays
with hope for this next regeneration
already waiting within these ancient bones
and eyes for climate healing
within
as without,
below
as above,
inhaling old impoverished retributions
exhaling new health restorations
peaceful home

Retiring developments of active hope,
remaining positive energy,
non-violent doing,
being,
communicating,
praying,
experiencing,
medicating,
meditating,
healing,
living to continue breathing in
dying to breath enrichment out once more.

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Self Regarding Shame

It would be a shame
to go on and on and then out
longing for grace
of some imagined historically significant life missed,
or simply more entertaining and health wealthy lives
laughingly not chosen,
to instead choose to belong in slow learner loyal grace
of this love life limply lived place

I could have chosen to hurt hurting people
by delightfully deliberately applauding the U.S.
as RedBlooded Earth’s manifest supreme land
of patriarchal self-infested opportunity.

But we might instead agree
this is also a matriarchal land of love liberty,
one of a few scattered seed-invested places,
warm inviting wombs
of opportunity for health incubation
with concomitant risks of nationalistic pathology.

It would be my unpatriotic shame
to exit Matriarchal EarthSoul
without fully belonging in graced opportunities
wealth-lived risks
of predestined integrity.

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ReLearning Manifest Destiny

What did you learn to play
in school today?
Hedging future winning bets
against lost devolving yesterday

I learned religious history
of manifest colonizing destiny,
Responsibility to over-rule healthy integrity,
Authority to addictively enslave
our lesser prey
without duplicity.

How is such sad destiny most powerfully manifest?

Destiny unfolds boldly
in each Here with Now committed BodyMind moment,
Yang with Yin
Out with In
Integrity’s love-power sacrament.

How does spatial and temporal dipolar grace present
in one-way strings
manifest historic memory?
How does secular-sacred co-presence
move from intensely present
to predict future light’s preferred destiny?

Personal presenting hearts
disconnected from EarthSoul’s sacred Presence,
learn to win more today
by segregating yesterday’s inevitable losses.
We bicamerally learn to contrast and compare
today’s summation of all Earth’s yesterdays,
regenerative and degenerative,
with and against tomorrow’s integrity potentiating love,
secularly LeftBody dominant as Either/Or oppositional
Yet sacredly RightMind prominant as Both/And appositional
multicultural,
resonant,
polyphonic,
harmonic,
holonic nature-spirit of polypathic EarthSoul.

Could manifest destiny of a Species,
or a NationState,
or a Religion,
or even an individual NatureBody-MindSpirit,
a Lover of integrity Our Selves,
ever justify aggressive colonization politics?

Or addiction to competitive hoarding
Win to not Lose values
of patriarchal economics?

Or merely punishing injustice?
While potential destinies of long-term rewarding Win Self
to Win Other justice
wait in not-quite-manifest destiny
inviting sustained slow-grown cooperative restoration
of right nature-spirit co-relational love relationship

Do nature’s manifest destinies
normally predict creolizing (blending)
multicultural healthy healing passions?

Transubstantiating spiritual internal manifestations,
integrating mindbody rhetorical events
inside outside EarthSoul

Inside today’s EcoSchool green space
developing local loyal hearts
and global safe places
for polycultural EarthSoul Consciousness

Outside SchoolTime’s unimaged health destiny
manifestly poured out Here with Now
timelessly patient co-presence
Listening to manifest still small questions
of and for epic-seeding Integrity.

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Great Sacred Transitions


What makes a physical place,
and a metaphysical space
sacred?
If anything does,
or could,
or would,
or even should?

Could divine Energy
do less than grow sacred gratitude
for wildlife
and our domesticating WinWin habitats?

NaturaLeft and SpiRightual
healthy physical ecosystems
supported
by-lateral temporal Wonder
swimming in limbic bilateral Awe
within metaphysical ego-subsystems
of Holy EcoMatriarchal WinWin SpiritWomb
praising and paranoid pouting against
AnimaMundi loving all

DNA described,
prescribed,
revived healthing natures,
not just equitably,
but with sacred/secular WinWin integrity.

Wealthy divine Spirits
Healthy humane nature

Integrity of LeftTruth deductions
with ElderRight BiLateralBeauty inductions,
secular wondering egos within sacred awesome ecosystems,
sacred ecosystems
listening for wiser WinWin secular egos.

What makes a physical ego-identity place
and a metaphysical eco-space
both secular and sacred?
If any WinWin DNA thing does,
or could,
or would,
or even should.

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Stalking Disabling Futures

Why should
or would
or could authority of competing violent colonizing pasts
outweigh responsibility for our cooperative co-arising futures?

People with disabling histories
seem to be more honest,
transparent,
to speak thirsty truth
to dis-integrity of egocentric abilities
practiced to disempower others,
stalking chronic vulnerability to WinLose ZeroSum enculturation.

Sometimes candid integrity,
honesty,
if not dismissed as pie in sky mysticism,
ignored as a not fully developed fool’s errand,
denies BusinessAsUsual WinLose ecopolitical camouflage,

Mendacity hidden behind stalking
competing white lies don’t publicly or privately matter
as much as white male privileged
Western historical enculturation capacities
control
colonizing toward SuperElite
stalking LeftBrain-languaged
deductive/reductive supremacy

Stalking privileges over heart-mind RightBrain disabilities
retaining newborn faith
about our shared abilities
to love all Sacred EarthTribe

With a love preferring non-violent revolutions
working around
and through
and against further patriarchal dominant evolutions,
devolutions stalking remaining undervalued pockets,
populations
nature/spirit populace
resilient residents
of health/wealth co-resonant integrity,
humane/divine trans-physical
omnipresent ability
to love future/past fully

Committed to climate health/wealth,
inside egos and outside ecological poly-theologies

Truth within BeautyGrace
Why should
or would
or could authority of competing violent competing missionary pasts
outweigh responsibility for our cooperative co-arising
secular/sacred
physical/metaphysical
outside/inside
healthy/wealthy
eco/ego-
futures?

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Parting Instructions For My Oldest

You did not choose to be born,
much less Black Lives Really Should Equally Matter born
into this legacy,
your familial and civil Two-Connecticuts destiny.

I realize that,
And regret perhaps my own choices
in response to invitations for care-giving
and healthcare-receiving
were probably too egocentrically universalized
creolized so that whatever felt best to me at the time
would necessarily be best for you,
born into this diverse range of my health and pathology choices
for me,
now also for you.

No one asked, including me
Do you think a young African-American ADHD adult,
single,
poorly educated,
challenged as employable
with unresolved anger and fear issues
about whether he is care-giving enough
to deserve to become self care-receiving,
is left to care for
a gay virgin nerd younger adult
game-addicted brother
who believes he is actually allergic,
and perhaps alien,
to Mother Earth,
AND an oppositionally bipolar nymphomaniac youngest princess sister
with cerebral palsy and difficulty speaking,
civilly or usually otherwise,
and concomitant difficulties
not talking to herself while jumping
and slapping
and forgetting to go only on the toilet,
AND your youngest brother,
also with cerebral palsy and a wheelchair,
without capacity to speak or sign
yet with capacity to laugh and smile
with those he loves to know the best care-receiving,
and without capacity to chew and swallow well
so he eats through a tube
what he must not gnash with his grinding teeth,
and with midnight capacities for grande-mal seizures
requiring 24-7 same-room monitoring.

This is indeed
a great deal of operatic drama not to choose
to be born into
as the oldest,
raised by two gay dads,
old enough to have been your grandfathers,
one black, who seems afraid to be associated
with our polycultural reputation and self-presentation,
self-neglect, he might call us out,
and me white,
now apologizing for this mess
with which I leave you
as your birthright.

Attached are instructions
from your sister’s Behaviorist.
I suggest you adapt them,
first to take better care of yourself,
then her,
then your two brothers,
as best you can,
ecotherapeutic care-giving
is also egotherapeutic care-receiving.

When another life
reaches out to strike you down,
to damage your property and/or body,
and mind,
to touch you inappropriately
and without asking permission first,
before grabbing and damaging your thoughts and feelings:

First, remind your care-receiver,
as yourself,
to ask permission to become a care-giver
to you and/or your property,
because your life does matter equally
with each other’s;
not more,
but not less either.

Second,
teach your assailant
across permitted boundaries to violence and theft and behavioral restraints,
including use of civil voice,
to advocate for this assailant’s healthcare-receiving wants and needs
in an appropriate
mutual healthcare-giving way,
non-violently
and more domestically diplomatic,
following universal multicultural standards
for WinWin Solidarity
of All Lives Equally Matter,
Golden Rules
applied to people,
plants,
places,
and things,
especially technological co-investments
in Earth’s 7-Generation Future
of healthcare information systems
and their cooperative access
to growing Wealth Without Walls.

Finally,
mentor your siblings
with healthcare-giving greetings,
invitations,
listenings before speaking,
speaking back what care-receiving comes through
your All Lives Equally Matter channels
and challenges
about not choosing
to be left with these care receiving and giving
familial opportunities
to regenerate climates of health
and avoid landscapes of further behavioral pathology.

With apologies
for my Elder role
in your current ADHD challenged
ecopolitical and psychological karma,
but,
you know,
as a gay white-trash farmboy
who developed a thing for urban black strong men
in the 1960s and 70s
when my life wasn’t even legal,
much less of any socially therapeutic value,
I didn’t think past my own parenting needs
to give life more therapeutically back
than I had not-so-well received life
in my ecopolitical time on Earth.

If you do your best self care-receiving,
you will each day and night relearn
to teach yourself as others
asking and giving permission to respectfully approach
to advocate for universal care giving as receiving,
beginning with your mentoring history
of gratitude for Earth’s abundant grace
to place
and pace
you here and now
without having even to ask
to be born
into this space and time
of responsibilities for care-receiving
and concomitant authorities of care-giving
ego/eco bilaterally cooperative
WinWin healthcare systemic network building,
4D RealTime
unfolding and reweaving instructions
from and for the Oldest.

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