Escape Into Silence

Escape into silence
moving out in still morning
across pine needle cushioned trails
toward Earth’s solitary
murmuring river,

Whispering from where we have come
to quietly slip
ripple forward
into an expanding mouth
without inhumane voice

Escape into silence,
comforting respite

Leaving behind human,
even humane
compassionate stories
but not memories

These inevitably accompany,
friendly and hard lessons
blending into muffled landscapes,
sea sounds,
silent breezes
teasing past sense

sexually imprinted
wordlessly intoned
patterns harmonic
and dissonant
silently desexualized

Needy quiet traces,
footsteps hungry for most anything,

But embracing
all absorbing silence.


Privileged Testosterone Cultures

One of my several disabilities
of personal knowledge
through experience
and, therefore, empathic intelligence,
is to know what estrogen-driven “horniness”
might feel like,
look and sound like,
taste and smell like.

Gay men require alternative
deviant paths
toward green/blue/red
cooperatively owned
and perpetually self/other-managed
multiculturally mediated
open WholeEarth systemic

I suspect a primal contrast
between an empty holed
deep chakra longing for compassionate relationship,
rather than a pole-addicted belonging
to assertive plundering
the newest available warm wet
unholy hole,
might be one way
of contrasting secularized patriarchal privilege
with matriarchal holistic submission
to eco-political windy waves
of increasingly rabid aggression,
unilaterally pleasure polarized
and further polarizing capital-headed dominance
of debate horniness
rather than dialogue compassions.

Which brings me to my strong ability,
discontinuously flowing,
capacity to feel and know
smell and taste testosterone-driven “horniness”
of re-membering experience,
although not necessarily that well re-ligiously contemplated,
reflecting on how I might re-connectedly improve
continuous, rather than discontinuous, win/win outcomes
and avoid future win/lose disasters
of sexual
spiritual/natural conscious practice,
compassion practice,
passion practice
until I get testosterone/estrogen horny us
at least imaginatively balanced,

Left dominant red
and right recessive green/blue
states of humane-peace/divine-justice
bright toned passion

Because that, “passion”
and power
and positive/negative energy,
may be sense-synonyms
for “horniness”
felt and known,

Ergodic balancing exterior structured
cognitive spaces
Ionic harmonic interior flowing
affective revolving nonbionic-binary
irrationally felt
positive longing
and negative belonging
empty passioning times

Whether testosterone
or estrogen
or some bisexual multicolored culture,
some multicultural environmental combination
of these two
become one ego/eco-rooted
in cosmic polyphonic
polypathic win/win energy democracy,

EcoPolitically seen
when compassionately heard,

EcoBiologically felt
when passionately touched,

SocioNeurologically tasted
when co-empathically smelled

With win/win informed/exflowing gratitude
cooperative testosterone/estrogen attitude

Compassionate multiculturing global energy
of sufficiently bicameral
disciplined powers

Non-violently mediated integrity
deep learning opportunity

Even while facing manic
ego-centrically runaway rabid
heavily testosteroned
polar passions of great unraveling
about climates of potential
integral health/wealth
lost to yesterday’s EcoPolitical disease.


Quoting Einstein

I wonder if Einstein’s moral aphorisms,
observations about healthy inclusive values,
concern about dominant cultural confusion
between positive humane energy
and anthro-supremacist mass,

If these spacetime thought experiments
could be quoted more or less RealTime often
than metric equivalence formulas
of 3D spatial matters
spiral in revolutionary bilaterals
co-arising dipolar
followed and preceded by Yintegral
ZeroZone BiCameral Time

Like thymine and cytosine
in more internal Thought Experiments
about Great Transition breaths,
precessive before recessive
before reprecessive
and after prerecessive…

Inhaling precessions
toward exhaling recessions
of atomic space
predicting wave spiraling strings
of regenerative DNA
neurological binomial
bicameral/binomial fractal structure.

I wonder if
Einstein’s multicultural moral values
are revered
more or less
because of his eco-metric
and natural scientific
leftbrain dominant systemic articulation

Resonating warm compassion
for Green Organic Earth
seen co-arising outside and
inside Thought Experiments
with left communing right hemispheres
mutually complementary,
felt inside out again,
touched through inhale
and remembered past upside down
non-violently felt
nondualistic exhale
as well,

co-arising Win eco/theological nondualistic indigenous ancestors
and Win ego/ecologically balancing you, today,
here and now.


And Everyone In Between

In theology,
and healthy ecological
and pathological relationships,
I know self-righteous fundamentalists
and nonviolent nondualists,
and most everyone else
processing together

how such an abstraction
between fundamental uniformity
of sacred energy
and nondual co-arising unity
of divine light,
can sever a healthy
polynomial balance,

A harmonic resonance
championed by the newer
fundamentally either/or deductive processes
of verbal language
calculating oppositional contrasts,

And the other flowing from ZeroSource memory
reincarnating nondualistic both/and inductive
karmic intentions,
preference for healthy
appositional comparisons,
20/20 vision…evolution…regenerative resolution.

In ecological compassion
between egoLeft and ecoRight,
Yang NorthWest and Yin SouthEast,
and theological wealthy
positive co-relational wisdom
between EarthNature and co-arising HolySpirit,
national cultures and global climates.

I know denialists of good faith
good humor
and good healthy
multicultural extended democratic
green families,

And I know apparently wiser co-arising
dipolar both/and
nondualist wisdom seekers,

LeftBrain dominant
and RightBrain spiraling
ecologically and theologically evolving
20/20 nonviolent nondualist revolutions

In fractal spacetime
4D prime polynomial co-passion,
as P approaches balance
as also N(NP


Full/Empty ZeroZone regeneration health trends,
as DNA fractally encscripted
celebrated multicultural language
for EarthHealth rights/wrongs
regenerative health/wealth trends,
often confused with degenerative health v wealth choices.

the greatest nationalistic karmic therapy
is to never violently prefer
to capitalistically
playground bully
international terrorist
go it alone,

and even as a humane enspirited
sacred species
of multicultural mediators,
global health optimization advocates,

Permaculture Designers
for democratic empowerment,
and dense dancing polyculturally stable outcomes,

Restorative Justice Court Officials
against criminalization
and revenge
and racism
and white male privileged heterosexism,
and further xenophobic violence,

NonViolent Communicators
of nutritiously compassionate co-investments
in healthy shared futures,

Students of systemic theology,
and ecological healthy relationships,
knowing fundamentalists,
terrified about biologically unhealthy
lack of natural sexual relationships,

And nonviolent nondualists,
advocates of universal resolutions
for healthy light,
and unitarian
interdependent webs of reweaving
beautiful moonlit EarthRivers
of flowing Humane Justice.


Zero Sourced Humane ReSource

If we come from ZeroSource,
secularly known as OneSource secularly Light,
and sacredly as DivineEnergy,
we still may not conclude
we are interchangeable ReSources.

Life forms interdependent
are not simply interchangeable,
like loose change,
habitual everyday whatevers;
unlike guns and violence
because we have emergent
because we are regenerate organisms;
not gradually deteriorating machines.

We inherit from Source
and we inhabit relationships
further evolving ego’s heartened warmth
toward light
and divested shunning of disheartened cold
away from DivineEnergy.

This trail of tears
in joy and sadness
begins with EarthSource,
and ends with EcoCentering
compassionate ReSourcing
ReStorative ReGenerators.

Some aware of ReLigioning,
and perhaps the better half
not so much.


Hell of a Heaven

Both paradise and hell
have their detractors.

I find some exaggerated truth
in this belief–
one person’s paradise
is another’s hell.

An eternity
of worshiping an unchanging
mono-egotistical god
is not my idea of healthy re-creation.

I have never heard this
in reverse–
One person’s hell
may be required
for another’s paradise.

Heavenly Capital Adoration
begins to sound like sexist
and xenophobic
and anthropocentric rationalizations
of rampant capitalism

Sublimation as extension,
perhaps a corollary,
justifying capitalism and slavery,
violent settlers’ colonialism,
systemic racism
and straight white male
and left brain deductive domination
over who is empowered
to define
and refine
and confine
and double-bind
winners’ Paradise
v losers’ Hell.

If paradise is a healthy
wealthy place to freely live,
And hell is a pathological
patriarchal chested
rapaciously unbreasted
place to not be
ecofeminist sufficiently,

Then losing bad humored,
terrifyingly rumored,
anti-organically tumored
hell is a dualistically shocking way
toward winning good humored
terrifically enamored,
organically amored paradise
of integral win/wins;

Economic and political
Neurological and biological
Ecological and geological
Egological and theological

Secular and sacred
Natural and spiritual

Space and time
ZeroZoned and TaoBalanced.

That said,
I doubt
we are without
universal Paradise
as absence of Hellish attributes

Such as autocracy
and kleptocracy,
fascism and racism
are multiculturally known
and felt as hellish.

Healthy democracy
may not be
a monotheist’s Paradise,

democracy’s win/win potential
for cooperative ownership and management
speaks louder than capitalism’s win/lose reductions
of ego’s participative paradise
in omniscient theocracy.


Historic Healing Projects

I had two big projects
from 1970 to 1975,
The first,
to earn a usually white Bachelor dual-major degree
(which sounds at least sexist
as a usually black, brown, red, yellow Mistress nondegree)
of deep learning about yin/yang,
east/west interconnections
cultural communions
between persuasive Speech [and non-verbal] Communication
and attitude changing Psychology.

My second project,
like the first,
was about coming out of my investigating queer closet;
how to find peace
within a new, yet resilient, extended family
through healthy attitude change
about GLBTQ identity
and hetero/homo interdependent family persuasions.

These two projects,
one feeding my left brain academic hunger,
the other watering my right mind emotive thirst
for healthy communicating win/win relationships
of untold infinite harmonic historic resonance
for EarthTribe rememory climates,
theological inside metaphors
for resilient outside ecological communions,
creolization of interdependent gratitude
rather than heterosexual colonization attitude;
became One curious and courageous investigative aptitude,

This comes to mind
as I think about how the religious,
theologically driven, sector
of my local community is,
and is not,
prepared to lead us into climate rapture
rather than more degenerate business as usual climates of trauma,
lose-ego/lose-eco death.

Healing competitive win or lose climates,
sadly heading toward almost inevitable traumatic loss
of living EarthTribe identities
and living Earth
invites historians to remember
“traumatized parts stay frozen in time
for a reason, right?”
(from Sarah Peyton’s “Your Resonant Self” p. 105)
therapeutically interdependent parts stay fluid
across historic climate changes
for a reason, left and right?…

Whether theologically perceived as secular NotGod nature
or ecologically felt as sacred Gaia spiritual webs
of interdependently complex emergent EarthMother
historically co-present rebirthing wombs,

Disconnected religious-theological memories
protect business as usual
eco-illogical exploitation
of sacred Earth,

Ecological life continues
while local faith community theologies
are planning for other rapturous and hellish things

Bowing to our own collective trauma
of universal sacred interdependence
giving way to immersion experiences
in disconnecting traumas
of fallen
fallow win/lose competitive human egocentric nature
more powerful than right mind Earth-climate balancing spirits
creolizing hetero/homo historical resilience,
multi/mono-cultural resonance.

our early 2020 historical revision project
begins with revisiting our diverse faith community
local histories.
How were these motivated
to bring together for healing
lives ignored
and otherwise abused
by already established good/bad faith communities?

How were established theological communions
potentially enriched
by their new neighbors?
Prepared for healthy win/win creolization climates
rather than ever more chaotic trauma
of win/lose side-by-side stiff-jawed tolerance
of not cooperative gospel-singing divisions
between lives co-present on sacred Earth
intended for interdependent raptures
of healthy-wealth webs and wombs
for actively hopeful life?

What are the original founders,
our local saints of communal faith inheritance,
inviting us to reconsider?
How to grow theological and ecologically healthy resilience
to end traumatized-by-negative-climate degeneration
rabidly competitive over-populated
and under-inspired
merely tolerated secular multiculturalism
rather than actively curious poly-culturalistic sacred immersion experiences
in locally complex histories
reweaving future win/win communal potentialities,
left brain resilient climates
with right mind theologically resonant local nature/spirit
transubstantiating theo/eco-logical communion
for present
and future
co-inhabiting past
health/wealth climates of co-revival,
inter-religious thrival.


Are We Safe?

Am I safe?
Do I matter?

Are we safe?
Do we matter?

Am I sustainably healthy?
Do I resonantly matter enough?
to survive win/lose evolutionary assumptions
about history,
to thrive within win/win multicultural wealth.

According to the amygdala center
of our Default Mode Network
bicameral in/ex-formation processor,
“Am I safe?”
we originally ask of EarthMother womb,
While “Do I matter enough to survive?”
MotherEarth asks of still individuating me/we.

Climate and multicultural trends
premillennially presumed to answer “Yes!”
to both questions
optimistically predicting win/lose evolution
would lead,
through MotherEarth’s manifestly destined reach,
toward win/win Alpha/Omega Tipping Point Balance,
ZeroParadise organic zones
of multicultural design
for enriched polyculturing global outcomes.

in this post-millennial Time,
Whose mighty Yang Amygdala
does not answer these same questions
with a crippling and troubling,
dissonant “No!”?

I am not safe
from inhumane mortality of life,
for cooperatively interdependent species,
for survivable Earth history
for continuing communication,
for complexly organized organic relationship.

Do I matter?
to survival history of Earth,
to thrival win/win multicultural economies
regenerationally reborn by EarthMothers
of all colors
and stripes
and spots
haired and furred,
wooled and feathered,
shelled and fish-scaled.

Are we safe?
How deeply
and extensively
do we matter
to Earth’s living history?
to GaiaEarth’s healthy multicultural outcomes
and incomes,
divestments and investments,
detachments and attachments,
degenerations and regenerations,
entropy and energy?

Why are we safe/not safe?
How do we matter/not matter?

What is the historic significance of communication;
the multicultural transcendence of relationship?

Why are we health
How do we widely
and deeply wealth
rooted relationships?


Educating Roots

I have noticed
all my daily educational journeys
begin with,
Where do I come from?
And how do I feel today
about my journey so far from yesterday?
Our journey so far,
and yet not far enough?

I come from living waters
as profoundly liberating as the air
we would soon learn to breathe.

I am feeling said
for all the opportunities I avoided
to escape all the risks
invited by my shortages of curiosity
and patience,

Sad for settling into my most intimate low commons denominator
lack of commitments
neglecting my healthiest potential connections
with other living waters,
natural spirited inspired inspirational experiences

With those who might have had ears to hear,
surf to ebb and swell emotion’s wane and wax,
with low-bar instructions
to stay out of troubled oceans
seas and seasons,
lakes and swampy ponds,
waiting to be industriously drained,
rivers and endless wondering wandering tributaries
of wet extracted nutrition.

Sacred water murmurs more active hope,
a spray tickling across a lucid lupine stream
speaking mountain voices with and through rounded

Actively seeking sights higher
then flowing on into higher water marks
now threatening to swamp organisms
and organizations along the shore
of change in all relationships of Earth.

I feel said
I have not set my well-watered sights higher
than do no harm
to those living waters
flowing forward into time’s healthiest
curious and courageous future sluggish currents of nutrition,
prophets of soon to come malnutrition,
and all climatic hopes and fears
angers and sadness
in-between drowning risks
and strong-flowing currencies of win/win
wellness watering opportunity

To notice
all my daily educational journeys
begin with,
Where did I come from?
And how do I feel today
about my journey so far from yesterday?
Our journey so far,
and yet not far enough?


Tocqueville Talk

Patrick Deneen follows Tocqueville
speaking of risks to Western liberal democratic experiments,
great personal enlightenment adventures
seldom calm within a federating kettle
of competing selected fish,
and usually not cooperatively resilient
for health optimization
of local community peaceful resonant wealth.

In Tocqueville’s time and place,
liberal democracy evolved from feudal win/lose pre-industrial aristocracy
overpowering non-elite serfs, and lesser natural organic beings,
royal kleptocrats,
universal white privileged patriarchs
by right of land and title inheritance
supported by Divine Might Makes Right
evolutionary theologies.

As Deneen liberally repeats,
capital-invested democratic consumer legitimacy
to cooperatively contract individually manifest
humane superior spiritualized dignity
is rooted in monocultural presentism,
fragmenting mono-generational cultural contracts
with multi-regenerational fields
and nutritional species
mellow meadows
robust mountains
and calm river valleys.

Where Divine covenants
signed, sealed, and delivered
to predator Aristocrats
were rooted in creeds
Divinely inspired scriptures,
holy creation stories
sacred pre-historic memories,
usually of patriarchal governors
and their court-appointed entertainers,
fire-circle dancers
loyal soldiers
and oral legend-tellers,

Presentism fragments intergenerational liturgical-nutritional commitments,
argues Tocqueville,
repeats Deneen.

Yet liberal love integrates compassion
for all Earth’s regenerative/degenerative species
verbally historic and non-verbally pre-historic
patriarchal and matriarchal
deduced and induced
Divine EarthMother co-passion
multiculturally articulate co-enlightenment covenants
through cooperative win/win listening Time

Sacredly interdependent
traditionally nondual resilience
of Taoistic co-relational covenants

Indigenously spiraling
precessive/recessive iconic
dialogical EarthTime’s win/win sanctuary, ergodic.

Patrick Deneen follows Tocqueville
speaking of risks
and appositionally implied opportunities
for Western/Eastern liberal democratic experiments,
great personal North/South enlightenment adventures
seldom calm within a federating creolizing kettle
of competing win/lose
yet cooperatively win/win selected fish
swimming through climate surfing risks.