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Listening to NonPrevention

For future reference,
it might be best
if I give up radio listening
when going out
to take a rest
from domestic
and national
and international climate mess.

Arrested gardening yesterday.
We need more mulch
fragrant as a hemlock forest retreat,
we are
and yet become
when in our wildly therapeutic
naturally domesticated
sit together
and stand less adversely apart,
and weed
and mulch sanctuaries.

So, today
I hear with smug dismay,
I’m nearly free enough to say,
MeToo consultants
and angry victims
despair of teaching coaches,
clergy
parents
and not quite legal/moral guardians
how to protect against sexual predation,
with something far short of therapeutic re-education.

This reminds me,
When experts developed anger management
and mortal fear internal administration technique,
They concluded diverse short-term counsel
with lifetime mindfulness training,
mindful multicultural listening
and compassionate restorative justice speaking
up and out for win/win health resolutions
rather than win/lose suboptimal
business as usual
right-hemisphere suppressions.

Kids with mental illness
and substance and physical and soul abuse issues
and pre-natal palsy
and lack of school-based emotional intelligence
(our list goes on without parental mercy),
need not so much touch prevention policy wars
but, yes, much more therapeutic touch enhancement peace
policies for restoring co-impassioned healthy souls
inside and out.

In a run-away win/lose competitive culture,
devouring any memories of win/win interdependent healthy families
and leisurely together wealth
of resiliently nourishing responsive relationships
between adults,
among interdependent adolescent peers,
within old and young regenerations
of compassionate passing together healing time

Preventing win/lose predator harm
relies first
and most robustly
on co-adventuring win/win mutual communication,
transparent invitations into co-empathic change
vulnerable
curious to psychically touch
to listen to
to speak respectfully
and delightedly
with interdependent sacramental regenerations
of every mundane day’s
left cognitive commitment
to healthy right relationship
co-empowering emotive communion
within interdependent Earth.

Restoring justice to adult-child relationships
cannot be primally rooted in punishing past injustices,
unrighteousness,
sins of our Fathers,
furthering retributive punishments,
anger,
fear,
loss,
suffering…

To build a healthier systemic resolution
of our growing epidemic,
feed
and water
and mulch therapeutic touch of voices,
respectful hands,
good health-humored minds,
sore and needy muscles
for optimal Earth regeneration.

Mindful thoughts and behaviors and feelings
cannot grow robustly from autonomous ego identity
but from interdependent eco/ego
outside/inside compassion.

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Sacred Sciences

All sacred science
is health science.

All health care
is wealthy spirited care.

If there is such a thing
as an entirely secular science,
then it is probably an applied,
or “practical” technological discipline
like military science,
how to kill
while preaching a peace-loving society;
extraction science,
how to rape
while selling convenient anthro-hubris comfort
and pleasure;
actuarial science,
how to account for natural values
by discounting healthy spiritual economies
of power
fueling competitive disempowerment;
management science,
how to kill compassion
while fear-mongering anger management
patriarchal history goes to the winner business classes.

What is the most useful
and beautiful
sacred health science?

Most orthodox nature/spirits
might support theological
and historical/cultural scripture studies,
systematically analyzing
the co-passion out of everyday sacramental experience.

I was about to nominate
political empowerment science–
powers divine and profane,
regenerative and devilishly degenerative
articulating
and re-articulating health v pathology messages.

But,
I wonder why not nature’s choreography science
of ecological relationships
and the ethno-centric science of musical theory,
and agricultural permaculturing nutrition design sciences
for polyculturing health cooperative outcomes,
resilient wealth development
through composition of interdependent enculturing elements,
linguistic notation and keys
and frequencies,
evangelical matriarchal history,
ego/ecofeminist communion communication
changing spirited mythos
changing and unfolding re-natured logos?

Which reminds me
of right-hemispheric failure to grasp
any fundamental
literal
originally intended
great divide between scientific and artistic expressive experience,
between integral truths and beauties,
between empirical discovery of how artistic re-creation happens
and artistic expression of why empirical curiosity co-passions
pushing sometimes through vulnerable courage to be changed
by receiving sacred health arts and science
co-passioning skills.

Now, if I could just figure out
a health science hypothesis
about why,
at least theoretically,
I have so much trouble
getting to sleep
in a timely
and mindful
and peaceful
way.

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Dear Evangelical Brother

Dear Brother,

When we were children
adults often asked us
What do you hope to be
when you grow up?

But, our brothers and sisters
were more likely,
and probably more wise,
to ask
Who would you most hope to become?
To be like?

Which implies, to my unformed ear
and eye,
Which of these adults you know,
or know of,
do you like best
as a mentor
for your own happiest and healthiest,
and most prosperous
future?

I am about to finish reading Iain McGilchrist’s
“The Master and his Emissary.”
And, if I had known Master McGilchrist
as a sixteen year old,
I would probably have said
I want his life
and that’s the guy I want for my BigBrother!
I would be his most zealous emissary.
He’s the one I would become
just alike,
twins if possible.

Twin careers.
Twin ideas.
Twin knowledge and wisdom.
Twin naturality and spirituality
and natural law
and ordered sacredness,
emotionally intelligent communion.

But, that was then
and this is now.
And I wonder if I ever asked you,
not what kind of evangelical Christian
white privileged Western capitalist
doctrinaire thing do you hope to proficiently do
when you finally grow up?

But, instead,
to find the courage to ask you
Who would you,
embodied in Christ,
become like
when you are suffering servanting
in your thirties?

We might have had a lifelong dialogue,
not about creeds and dogma
and theological departures from win/win co-redemptive
cooperative economies,
compared to win/lose capitalist business as secularly usual,
compared to lose/lose degeneratively devilish and bearish economies,
more disempowering long-term climate trends
than empowering hope
faith
love.

We might have thought out loud together
about how Suffering Public and Private Servants
are like a Messiah
like a Bodhisattva Peace Warrior
like a PermaCulture CoOperative Designer
like a Restorative Justice and Win/Win Peace Advocate
like a Green STEAM architect,
a resilient engineer,
or prolific teacher
and skilled listener,

We might hope to combine
gospel references to right-hemisphere Revelationary Sacred Rapture
and healthy left-hemisphere climate preferences
for Evolutionary Secular Promise,

A promised return to sacred/secular
RightWing and LeftWing
become whom we would most like to hear
as faithful health scientists and wealth musicians,

Disciples of sacred wealthy
best means secular healthy
reborn again
reweaving
returning
resiliently recombining
global green Body of Christ experience,
feeling,
thought,
optimally appealing.

I’m sorry for not asking
how I could be a healthier and wiser
gay Christian-Taoist-ZenBuddhist-Native Nature/Spirit Wisdom
inspired and inspiring
younger brother,
more sure with your trust
and inner truths
than without you.

I’m sorry distant homophobic fears
and perhaps anger?
envy?
repulsion?
fear of predation?
(this part remains unclear)
seem to have kept us from mutually asking,
Who would we most like to become like together
when we are in our sixties
and seventies?

And now,
When this question seems more plausible,
and immediate,
I wonder how different, and yet the same,
are our opportunities to experience
this sacred potential
for re-creating loving Earth, together,
fertile,
healthiest wealth of HolySpirit embodiment
celebrating Her sacred historical birth Brother,

Unlike Jacob and Esau,
reconnected by sacred Matriarchal Wombs
culminating in reborn virginal brothers
saved/not-not saved from lose/lose perdition,
partition,
through both universal-human/unitarian-divine
natural Messianic win/win Spirit,
consiliently sacred,
resiliently secular,

Heavenly stardust Fog
embracing global oceanic dark waves,
currents of timeless
flowing potential color and multicultures,
rhythms and patterns and flow designs,
Living Waters,
truth with trust,
Wombs with Ways toward necessary Light,
nights and co-redemptive days

More WiseElder for sinister sacred Right retributive Judge
and golden secular Left restorative Advocate,
still listening compassionately together,
less fundamentally apart,
with good evangelical humor,
more than bad.

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Hate Management

Managing anger
is too hard work.

Our passions, positive and negative,
when strong,
have their way of managing us,
or me, anyway.

Perhaps you are better
noticing with courage,
then distracting curious strong passions,
positive and negative,
as a resource of your RightWing
return to conservational business
as win/lose usual.

More calming long-term thoughts
of last laugh
getting even more overpowerfully even,

Which my LeftWing passions
remind me is not really even
equitable
symmetric;
More source for and of future ugly
competitive LeftBrain dominance
makes right-mind curiously dispassionate,
uncourageously more wrong
to pine for loving win/win passions,
co-passioning harmonics,
egoLeft/EcoRight
personal/planetary
communion/communication co-regenerative resource
from dipolar, un-bipolar, sources.

For me, anger and fear
and self/other hate management
is much harder than role playing
what courageous,
yet curious,
reactive passions feel like
when acted out divinely,
yet humanely,
embodied mad-grace
by my ego-recovering identity,

Passionate communal identity,
noticed courageously and replayed out imaginatively,
curious original-ego
yet grace inhabited eco-
systemic daring drama
and yet more tactfully listening

To how human experience ought to be
and yet how important harmonic becoming
communioned communicators
commingling
cooperatively impassioned already
is my greatest ego/eco-centering resource,
dipolar communing courageously left
best when also curiously right

About challenges of anger management
and how to rethink
my own identity’s autonomously felt mindfulness,
more role play left with right
interdependently communicating.

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Mother’s Mother

My mother’s mother and I were very close.
We needed each other
in diversely validating ways.

She needed to know
experience
hear and see and feel and touch
a healthier love of mutual regard
than she felt she achieved
with any of her three daughters.

I needed to feel
I was some loved adult’s most significant event,
most vulnerable and transparent grace
for who I felt and knew I was
yet to gay become
without any need to change
what I could not internally rearrange.

When I was a senior in high school
this grandmother became sick with cancer
and depression,
mortal doubts and fear.

I knew this
not because I had visited her
but because my parents
and aunts
whispered their hopelessness
before repeatedly reminding me,
There is nothing I can do
to help her
or prepare myself
for such great loss,
perhaps less great,
more relief,
for them.

But they were wrong.
Wrong about my grandmother.
Wrong about me.
Wrong about us, together.

I knew her favorite hymns.
I was her favorite voice.
We needed no other instruments,
percussive or lyrical.
We had enough time
to revisit our music lessons,
Lyrics are tools for young friendship
Not weapons against old enemies.

Precious Lord
take my hand,
Lead me on
when I can’t stand.
I am tired,
I am weak,
I am worn.
Through these trials,
Through this storm,
Lead me on
Precious Lord.

And so we sang
and so I danced
and told her favorite story
of beds too hard,
of friends too soft,
and a child who sings just might

Of Earth too hot
and river beds too soft
and motherlands too cold
and us, now growing distant,
yet singing this last time
just right.

 

 

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Communal Climate

Share with me,
if you could become so kind,
Which of all your lifetime actions
was not also a reaction?

Which thought
not also a polyphonic feeling
rethought
and stored in memory
across countless regenerations?

Share with me
if you would
and could
and should,
Which of your responses
feels more original
and healthy
and organic
and sacred,
and intimate,
naturally communicated
and spiritually experienced
passion.

Share with us,
if we could become communioned,
all our actions verbal and non-verbal,
rational and not irrational,
all our acquisitional quantity intentions
not not qualitative
win/win co-investing intent,
exponentially left dominant
yet incrementally right prominent,
revolutionary communal strength
and evolutionary tribal wisdom.

Share with me
if we could become communacting,
co-munerative unfractioned,
co-numeratively re-actioned

To share with future,
as past EarthTribe patriotic actors
symbolic
iconic capital dipolar valued
originally in cooperatively developed
left/right heading heads.

To share with me,
if time could become so mindful,
co-passioning ego/eco-metric activities
Earth double-bound geometric civilities
binomial
bilateral
bicameral,

If distancing left would be so kind
to intimately share with ElderRight sacred me,
Why absence of communication
is not neutral
for those who notice,
and those who miss,
and those who are glad of change
and those who also are sad
without healthy co-action
and polypathic
polyphonic resilient re-action,
pre-investment toward communion,
harmonic karma,
resonant grace,
co-passion,
resilient love,

To share with me,
if you could become so loved lover,
Which of all your lifetime actions
was not also egocentering
eco-passioning co-reaction,
creation,
recreation,

To share with us.

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Playing Without Weapons

She played her mysterious saxophone
as if we could be together alone
in concert halls
and Republican
and Green Democratic balls,
behind
and in front of
magisterial boundary walls.

She brought in a few million dollars
from quiet
more sedate
enraptured listening fans

Before her critics
complained She takes no risks,
no dissonance dare pass her wet vibrating reed.
Hopelessly romantic,
Without a hint of unpredictability.
Too many sustained wooden notes!

She is to saxophone performance
as communion
and compassionate communication
are to tiresomely pedantic religious orthodoxy,
behind
and in front of
multiculturing experiential walls.

About half a billion well-voiced dollars later,
She thought it time to respond
from a patriarchal position of musing strength.

“I invite those who don’t like my ecofeminist natural music
to not listen with such obviously desperate disappointment.
Instead
make your own muse
on your own performing saxophone
or flute,
Your own drum of choice.
Become wildly successful
with your own well-tooled, but unweaponed, message.
Make tons of fan co-invested money.”

“And, when you do,
I am sure I will have a chance to listen mindfully with you.
And, I hope I will become greatly amazed
with spatial wonder
and timeless awe.”

“I will be so happy
to raptly listen
and write your superlative review,
to become your greatest co-empathic fan.”

“Sadly,
until that great gettin-up morning,
I will continue playing my best music alone,
and hope you will now know
my muse and I best hope
to become your John the Baptist,
in faith waiting for your richer Messiah tunes
of even greater
wealthier
healthier rapture.”

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Migrant Souls

I currently conjoin with AllSouls,
a sacred green communion of saints
and sometimes sinners.

A few live together,
couples,
extending families
reaching multiculturally out
through AllSoul roots
regenerating pasts,
transforming future generations
now repressed by fear of global climate pathology
as thick and toxic
as lose/lose ecopolitical nihilistic soup,
thin survivalist Rapture-gruel,
paranoid hope in Hail Mary magic.

Most Souls live apart
but actively search for significant others
from within communal enculturing walls,
this Green Sanctuary
of compassionate win/win hope.

Some find just one significant spiritual/natural nondualistic Other.
Others find more.
A few have, to date, found none
within
because already over-invested,
or just right and left infested,
in Souls without this Green Sanctuary cooperative
of climate health communities.

We share an interdependent norm
inviting personal restraint
against choosing too many Significant Others,
lest their significance to you
dissipate into complex insignificance,
chaotic lack of forward co-passions,
over-scheduled communion communication events,
constant sacred/secular communal celebrations
of nonduaistic dual muses,
constantly talking and listening to insiderunonvoices

While outside significant other voices
continue Earth’s seasonal celebrations
without our even AllSouls noticing
appreciating
inviting
hosting
serving Significant OtherSouls.

This year
we are planning to rebuild our Green Sanctuary.
During this reconstruction time,
somewhere between forty years
and forty days,
we will become a migrant people again,
seeking returns to our multicultural communion roots.

Some Souls will stay with AME cousins.
Some will hang out in Green Synagogues
and Temples
and Mosques
and Native FireCircles.

A few,
more prophetically inclined,
will revisist uncomfortable left-brain dominant Fundamentalists
who barely trust even God to Father
an understudied and unserved Goddess EarthMother.

Evangelists still claiming God cannot be both transcendently omnipotent
unchanging Yang
and yet intimately fluid ecofeminist omnipresent
compassionate yinternal Holonic Spirit
of left with right brain interdependent sacred win/win Souls
for healing growing left-brain climate pathological runawayvoices,

Glutted with punishing trends,
sins of power-lust Fathers
inflicting absence of sacred significant Other
future compassionate mothers and dads
restoring great-grandchildren health,
failing to thrive
as truly Christian communions,
Souls of and for rapturous Green Compassion.

During this multicultural migrant Time,
we will regather on Sunday afternoons
to plan how we will interfaith heal our multiculturing divisions
to restore our polypathic multiplications
of healthy watered fish
and wealthy slow-raising bread
kneading and healing past absence
of significant Other green commmunions
with active win/win designs for personal
familial
communal
local subclimates of ego/ecotherapeutic
global AllSoul Sanctuary,

Freshly returned
from migrant communions
with our interfaith healthy
and significant OtherSouls.

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Hearing Double

Identity
is about static being

Where integrity
grows around ecstatic becoming.

When identity
invites a healthy state

Then integrity
hosts a wealthy system.

Like day and night,
and ego and eco,
and left and right hemispheres–
neither wrong or right
without these courageous co-defining
curious double-boundary refining
others.

Equinox
of static dark/light boundary
And paradox
of ecstatic enlightenment becoming unbound

Bipolar stuck in self sin’s retribution
despite dipolar expansion
through mutual wins of restoration.

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Unfinished Exodus

As Exodus tells his story,
Moses was compelled by God
and then invited,
commissioned by inside/outside Voice,
and bv voices of Israel’s extended people
to lead them through forty desert years
of sometimes nomadic wins
and mostly immigrating losses
in a competitively shared wilderness.

Then,
just as they approached the Promised Land’s border,
now matured
multigenerationally seasoned
regeneratively prepared for entry
into this great Middle Eastern creolization journey
in-between Earth’s secular/sacred history
of multicultural peace-making,
win/win environmental envisioning
and compassionate planning
and cooperative implementation,

Just as Moses could climb a sacred yang mountain
and look across rich heavenly green Promise
in Yahweh’s chosen yin valley
of profoundly interdependent
complexly transcendent
co-presence,

Moses suddenly understood right then
right there,
he would die before he could live
among those who would cross over
to complete this epic historic pilgrimage
toward compassionate climate of Promise,
both secular and sacred majesty,
patriotic epiphany
of resilient
multiculturing
healthy demo/theo-cracy.

I see our post-millennial Boomer regenerative process
restoratively wandering through this win/lose forty year
post-industrial wilderness
toward epic climate pollution risks
and monocultural loss
for polycultural wins
of ego-left/eco-right opportunity.

Here,
with now,
on this very cusp of 2020 robust revision,
I know we will not live
to see health optimizing
resilient Promised land and waters,

Although I have lived and loved to locally
and globally,
personally
and politically,
ecologically
and economically long to grow
together
migrant green integrity.

And my autonomous left hemisphere feels disappointed
sad
unfairly deprived about this unfinished migration,
Frustrated because cooperative liberal love,
active compassion,
is so obviously healthier for all travelers riding Earth,
wealthier than competitive fragmenting mistrust,
conserving climatic rage
about our globally
and locally unfinished industrial business.

At the same time
my dipolar interdependent right hemisphere
remains timelessly silent
on topics of ego-left mortality.

S/he may not distinguish
between first yang-patriarchal inhale
and last yin-matriarchal exhale
because this Zen ZeroSoul,
this Holy Nature/Spirit
is one
with that of Moses,

With all Messianic pilgrims,
leaders,
facilitators,
mediators,
With all bodhisattva peace mentors,
With restorative peace and justice integrity Advocates,
wandering a post-industrial green wilderness.

Polypathic Moses
of Earth’s great exodus Rapture
into unfinished healthier life
wealthier transformational business
of regenerating Promise,
for transgenerating lands and waters,
mountains and river-valleys,
mortally unfinished transcendent Eminence
and immortally interdependent Imminence,
Yang universal being with Yintegral uniting
resilient becoming
yet unfinished Exodus
into climatic healthy Promise.

 

 

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