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Positively Deviant

She seems afraid to say too much
and not listen enough.

Perhaps fear of becoming misunderstood
and, worse, too quickly dismissed,
her moment,
even in this small-staged sanctuary,
unnoticed
under-nourished
unfed
unwatered.

She wants to share with us
her deviant dissonant sufficiency
usually seen as negative degenerating autonomy
but, occasionally, in epiphanies of positive
ecologically healthy
revolutionary ZeroZen deviant resonant potential,

Receptive tingling silence
thumping and breathing
autonomously ringing singing
timelessly herstoric
within domesticating unreal world paradise,
unwombed worn integrity re-memories
echoing between nightseed dreams
and switching off her leftbrain daily alarm.

Until she smiles
I am impressed by her nothing is sadly wrong
yet everything goes unsanctuary too patriarchally long,

Business As RightWing World gone,
anxiety about personal and political
and social and psychological
and mental and physical health issues
for future climate chaos kids
reversing integrity’s robust synergetic win-win potential.

I notice then
soft teeth with nearly infinite hard work
pain
suffering loss,
alone?

Physically alone,
and not not spiritually autonomous
feminist suffering deviance
often in counterculturing ways
to help others,
more win-lose predominant,
suffer unspoken withdrawal less.

Once
I see her primal eyes smile
and suddenly my own competitive mistrust,
my own positive deviant naked fear,
goes away,
dismissed by curious eagerness.

Compassion therapeutically co-arises.

I ask if she too suffers
without sufficient release
from mutually withheld win-win loneliness,
mistrust of fully disclosed intimacy
vulnerability
co-empathic joy.

She continues
now turning toward wealthy belly laughs
co-operating integrity
mutually vibrating abdowomen,
soul sound of synergy’s vast wisdom
loudly rooting for win-win potential global health
through her sanctuary solidarity,
still curiously becoming.

She seems fearless to listen too much
and eager to not say enough.

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Understanding YHWH Enough

Do I politically understand you
YHWH
enough
to predict you enjoy your unpersonified ego
as partly successful predator-light
racing against mortality shared by all living species
because we are not yet godly resilient enough?
To meet your supreme judgmental win/lose zero-sum standards
of natural/spiritual dual/dark degeneration.

Have you deliberately,
with full intent,
designed living systems
to fall apart
beyond our internal capacity
to perpetually regenerate?
To fragment, eventually
degrade beyond autonomous recognition,

Like an autumn leaf
leaving ego’s immortal goddess tree of life behind
to fertilize future god-souled roots
of nutritional RNA
healthy DNA
fertility of EarthMother’s’
self-perpetuating regenerativity;
yet still squabbling,
on co-empathic occasion,
in-between whether the apostrophe
goes lefts or rights
of our original EarthSouls’s.

Do I understand you
YHWH
regeneratively win/win inclusive enough?
For godly-humane compassion,
resilient interdependent yang-yin communication,
to live within hypothetical hyphen’s’
spiraling temporal health and happiness roots
ZeroZen
nutritional multi-regenerational imagination.

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First SunRise Service

My first great faith journey
involved exiting EarthMother’s nighttime womb,
without even a first language
except what RightBrain inherited
from noticing emotive taste and feel
and healthy/pathological touch
memories prehistorically Win/Win
and Win/Lose
and Lose/Lose souled
unsoiled either happy or mad,
learning both/and health-resilient midways.

From such humble nutritional/toxic expectations,
and win/lose annunciations
of EarthTribe’s integral potential,
wealthy yang opportunities and yin-unhealthy risks,
through adolescent win/lose romantic invested engagements

On through my own forty-year corporate adult commodified faith journey
ensuing
pursuing my great white-male privileged American dream;

A win/lose business-as-usual pilgrimage
toward my more recent retiring win/win destiny,
for healthy wise-elder now
unhealthy other-wise then

Not really a chosen win/win destination
freely destined to and as begun
with integrity of ego-me inside sacred eco-Other
co-passion for positive
healthy
rational/nutritional purpose

And perennial meaning
this old pre-cortical WiseElder right brain
we have anciently learned interdependence
does not believe in autonomous ego-mortality,

Right brain emotive intelligence
is not overly invested in left brain ego’s embedded fragmentation
co-arising feelings of righteous predative anger
and leftist prayers conserving lose/lose fears
of YangGod’s universally autonomous climate genocide.

Ego’s de-individuation
away from Earth’s healthy habitat
rejoining MotherEarth’s timeless individulting wombs
reproducing integrity’s conjoined co-passioning potential,

ReBecoming as I began
win/win re-entering memories re- and pre-historically souled
unsoiled
inside EarthMother’s first pre-cortical dark night

Becoming bicameral felt
effectively co-caused/effective
neo-cortical ego’s individuating day

ReComposing my first great healthy transformational
co-arising in/ex-formational
re-journey
re-membering my first great transitional
sunrise developmental
co-passioning light/energy service
courageously multicultural
vulnerably global
and transparently personal.

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I Say You Say

I say black
You say white.
I say day
You say…
night.

I say red
You say green.
I say dead
You say…
unseen
unscene unpathic unpassionate

I say delusional
You say illusional
I say too judgmental
You say…
left-brain regimental
in-between demented and cemented

I sing integrity
You dance…
alacrity.
I hope eternally
You faith…
diurnally
empathically expathologically unpathed
Win/Win Lose/Lose Win/Lose

I march
in Business As Usual
You fly
between Health And WealthUnUsual.

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Narrow Paths Less Taken

A narrow way
between left-brain dominant history
of commodified visual health-frames
in wealthy solidarity
with right-brain prominent yin-flow
felt heart-touched and eco-tasted
multi-generationally tested
both/and cooperative health
with either/or competing against
stretching
creatively/uncreatively fragmenting ego-integrity potential
for win/win left here/now
with win/lose health/pathology remembering right,
cautioning,
tip-pointing both/and heuristic
holistic
holonic timeless fertile right
EarthSoul centered becoming
whole re-open ego/eco-systemic.

Changing climates of Earth double-bound
dipolar feelings
invoked by ecopathic RightBrain nature
causal spirit-effective songs,
dirges and thunders
great and small enlightenings,
and by stressed left-brain ego-systemic inside soul-voices
finding sacred iconic-value metaphors

Inflowing implicit wealth
of re-woven feeling health
timelessly right-brain true multi-regenerational ZeroSoul memories
trusted, without ZeroSum irrational remainder,
ennobling aging rhetorical/non-rhetorical communal events,
resilient phenomenological/ecological co-relational experiences,
compassionate left/right mutual integrity,

Left-brain unnoticed wealth-formed thought
with Right-brain implicating healthy feelings heart-touched
liberal loving taste for heart-strong
health resilience

Democratic solidarity,
yet fluid,
well-digested
re-digesting ego/eco-integrity,
breathing in Earth-natural scents and tastes and motions and sounds,
out dipolar nature/spirit
exhalations ego/eco-therapeutic communions
cooperatively-owned and self/other managed

Of and for iconic thought with ironic feeling
good opportunities
with least unhealthy risk
of breathing in
more than timeless future healthy systems could breath
time’s patience out

For unrelational loneliness
and synaptic/aptic co-relational bicameral bliss/fullness
and pathologic/emptiness,
breathing in natural-felt causes
to breath out spirit-health/wealth effects
resiliently refueling ego/eco-holistic interdependent effect/cause

Both/And with Either/Or
Win/Win landscapes,
narrow dipolar wu-wei
not not zero-soul centering
destinies of healthy Wise Elders
aging into right-brain timeless
absence of infant ego-fragmentation

Remembering win/win innocence
ego/eco-womb re-becoming
timeless health/wealth
narrow dipolar ways
for truth
and light/dual-dark
transparent/therapeutic
motion/emotions.

Never pray alone for cognitive/affective nondualistic wisdom.
You may autonomously/interdependently receive
what you asked for
but cannot clearly speak of feeling
integrity’s timeless transformative
radically democratic
energetic potential

Reverently following
narrow dipolar secular/sacred paths
less left-brain
more right-brain intuitively re-taken
re-visited
wealth re-membering
health re-weaving
small and great ego-effect/eco-cause re-turnings
unto timeless win/win opportunity

Integrity’s local/global potential.

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Advent of Lent

All that waits within me
unfulfilled
Awaits within you

Together
appreciating what we could become
like advent
awaiting a great transformational revolution
restoring peace through inside
outside co-arising justice

But also like lent
preparing for Bad Friday,
a revolution of deadly terror
destroying ego’s last fragments
of unchanging stasis inside
outside co-arising climates
individuating identity

In all that longs lonely within you
unfulfilled
Awaits within me
on back to original regenerators
waiting
changing
waiting
breathing in
changing directions
breathing out
waiting
breathing in belonging
once again together

When all Earth’s voices wait within us
unfulfilled
I feel wrong to break my silence

When beauty invites solidarity,
commands more than limp tolerance
of nature’s diversity,
regenerates celebration of integrity
felt
breathed
beat
surfed
sung
beatified.

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Lonely Nest

Loneliness,
of individuals,
families,
communities
and nation-states,
leads insufficient capacity
to prophecy everyone’s collective interdependence,
and thereby remains partially blind
to Win/Win optimal health/wealth outcomes,
which could not be monopolized
by experiential loneliness
felt internal monocultural sadness.

By inviting risk to shift,
nudge,
notice personal/political Lose/Lose depreciations,
bucket lists of long-standing tensions
causing unhealthy cognitive/affective dissonance
unresiliently stuck in slow ego-depreciating mortality,
absence of furthering resilient appreciative-inquiry belonging
within this
and each
and every
timeless Win/Win left-brain fragmenting
ego-prominent compassion-nest
self/other-perpetuating cooperative polypaths
implied within each unprophetic deeply pre-ingested
re-ingesting healthy/wealthy moment,

Irrational spiraling not not ego/ecotherapeutic self-care,
a dynamic healing ZeroZone
away from repressive solid OneNest walls
of silently atoning loneliness,
onelinest
healthy hoping toward impressive implicit webs
for pregnant metaphoric
meteoric Earthiness,
EarthTribe nest.

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Mixed Taxed and UnTaxed Blessings

Those of us
who have had guilty pleasures
of owning valuable property,
like a car
and rental property
and office equipment

Office buildings,
solar inverters,
and nuclear holocaust delivery systems
but not MBA degrees
or intellectual property
or more privately owned emotional properties,

Those of us
who know the mixed blessings
of owning organic and mechanical fragments
of climate pathologized,
yet still breathing, planet Earth,
especially if taxable property,
have heard about depreciation of values
over their natural/mechanical life/utility time.

We might recall
depreciation of property value
decelerates gradually over time,
barring any unfortunate head-on accidents,
flying and melting and fragmenting damage,
accelerating astronomical crises
eliminating long-term realistic health-wealth values.
Depreciated suddenly to total loss of asset value,
now a global junk-dealer liability.

Anyway,
just as depreciation decelerates over time,
appreciation accelerates resilience
with time’s enduring health/wealth cooperative life-experience,

Organic systems accelerate robust cooperative integrity
over a deep learning nutritious multiculturing life-time
of Win/Win
ego/eco-relationships,

Growing in good-humored co-investment priorities
for story telling and listening
to Win/Win co-opportunities

Rather than continuing historic depreciated taking
and Win/Lose epic slow-losing ego/economic depressions,

Anti-systemic pathologies,
realistic predictions of global chaos.

Retributive injustice depreciations
slowly fade toward entropic disorganization
just the restorative opposite
of appreciative Win/Win compassion

Explicitly conscious
of living interdependently between and within
autonomously natural depreciative law
and polypathic open-systemic/spiritual
yang/yin multicultural
left/right psychological
self/other empowering
appreciative
spiraling
deep and wide learning order.

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The Naked Emperor Intervention

Oh my goodness!

I was just thinking about Erik Erikson,
psychoanalyst and essayist,
and his social analysis thing
about the U.S.
stuck in perpetual competitive
in-grown
culture-ungrown adolescence.

And Erikson suddenly reminded me of one of my dreams last night.

When The Donald
and a few black-suited security robots
visited AllSouls sanctuary.

I was singing in the choir
to the choir
as white-privileged usual.

But, when he slurped in
our ecofeminist minister
invited him to “Grow up!”

“Stop acting like a junior high
military school bully.
Let go of the golf clubs and take up surfing.
Have more fun
without passing your unpaid bill on
to already unhappy
un-privileged
depreciated ungreat over-populations.
Go back to private life.
Learn how to actively love
and healthily entertain
your own family
with Win/Win non-violent communication games
and organic garden planning
and integral Permaculture Design practices,
and cooperative ownership,
and compassionate self-management.
Try appreciating (not depreciating)
some health/wealth organic farming property.”

“Go back to school
and learn some basic Win/Win community health-organizing techniques
for non-violent resilient communicating
with what you say
and what you listen to
and what you do
and what you choose not to do
still matters to EarthTribe’s future healthy outcomes.”

“Stop pretending to be a Win/Lose adolescent
still trying to remember your Win/Win hopes and dreams
when you were still in your EarthMother
gasping for your first in and out rebalancing breath.”

“I am not your disappointing mother!
We are not your emotionally neglectful and inaccessible parents.
Stop punishing us
for not worshiping the ground
your Win/Lose ZeroSum soul walks on.”

“Do something that might make us want to worship the ground
we walk on compassionately together.”

Then the security robots started snickering
right there in our Green AllSouls Sanctuary.
And then Donald did too
as he turned around to actually blush
(who knew!)
and a bit less slurpily exit,
just like a teenager
slouching out
almost the way he came in,

Except smiling through his blushing Win/Lose eyes
not just his Loseconomic/Losecologic
health-depreciating
critical-noneventful fake-smile mouth.

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Intolerable Questions

Is it a virtue
of legal, or just plain logical, process
to tolerate the morally intolerable?
Regardless of therapeutic opportunities to communicate dissent,
loud and clearly vocalized
articulate and explicit resistance.

Is it an immoral act
to participate in the Win/Lose market for climate pathology
if you could not know whether you are recast as oil-baron predator
or as a life-long perpetual child
praying for matriarchal cover?

Is it a corrosive vice
to tolerate the intolerable?
To settle for only Win/Lose options
in a ZeroSum stingy world.

Do I tolerate, even celebrate,
most everybody except those who are intolerant?

Why does feeding openness
to tolerating change
feel so risky?
Alarming past critical events
confronting disloyal oppositions
fade into memories of chronic dis-associations
against those also intolerant in diverse ways.

Am I a good person
if my most celebrated values advocating diversity,
and my more internal integrity of voices valued
and heard,
and cared for
feel like fragment fading shreds
of intolerable wonder and awe?

Why is your here and now intolerance
of fearful-future intolerance
against accepting invitations to stretch tolerance?
Now invested in building apartheid-trusting walls
rather than win/win interdependent webs.

Why is my self-righteous intolerance
fair,
just?
Yet your fears and terrors,
impatience and suffering,
intolerable neglect
of win/win mindful opportunities
are not OK,
not healthy democratic enough,
too elitist,
too explicitly ignorant
of implicit win/win hope
remains at least non-lose/lose communication,
verbal and non-verbal,

Still open to becoming more virtuously,
and legally,
tolerable.

 

 

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