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Death Dhoula

Internal blessings of consciousness,
like external revolutions in cultural awareness,
prevail with understanding

Ego’s embodied death
need not become unmitigated 100% loss
suffering and pain,
when mind/body death of Self
also re-invests opportunity
through timeless co-present Eco-Other/Ego-Self
We/Me anticipating
co-empathic gifts

This potential for gifting each generation of Win/Win-cooperation more
Win v Lose competition less
re-casting passionMind/pleasureBody forward
across polyamorous time,
disciplined distinctions
that make a cooperatively meaningful difference

Between a LeftBrain monopoly
of EitherLeft/OrRight eco-political ideology
and, co-arising Left-Right Crown-Root
systemic balancing teleology

Of Anthro-Win + Earth-Win matriarchal-nurturing herstory,
evolutionary democratization
synthesizing our co-passionate empowerment

Progressing toward internal -mind + external -body revolutions
of ego+eco-conscious therapeutic trends,
over traumatic 100% losses
ego-suffering
and un-ecological dissociative pain.

This came to mind
as I have gradually, perhaps too relentlessly, become aware
that most of my family and few remaining friends,
are most likely to sing my songs
and read these thoughts about our ego/eco conscious
synergetic development
after I disintegrate,
perhaps immediately after,
as my ashes are also stirring
integrity within future healthy soils and plants and people and planet.

And, I hope this reading, research, discovery,
is primarily motivated by wanting to learn
why I have been so generously polyamorous
and so abstemiously against
RightWing caste-oppressive hates and distrusts

To survive just one more vicious day
of strangled anthropocentric breath
regardless of costs paid by non-anthro intelligence
life
truth
ways.

To return to Gaia’s hypothetical win/win womb
from which we have co-operatively
polyamorously sprung
re-membering
repairing
reconnecting
inter-religioning

DivineMind/HumaneBody
Crown/Root
cobinary healthy nature
wealthing nurture

Co-arising nondual
ego-ethos/eco-eros
eternally revolutionary
compassionately pleasing
win/win bicameral co-intelligence.

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Exit Strategy

To prepare for final cosmic breath
exhaled

echoing first breath
inhaling
waiting to exhale

silent sacred pause
for Earth’s final soliloquy

Terminating all humane
and inhumane futures,
healthy
and disturbing relationships,
elegantly excruciating ecstasy

Leaving hell
yet without receiving Heaven

Surrendering commitments
to health
and unease

Future obligations
and past assets

Resigning from risks of love
without redesigning
further life opportunities
for growth
profit
power
light
gladness
sadness

Thriving phat integrity
surviving clenched cultural chaos,
trying to move on
toward unmitigated peace
without justice worries

Exit strategies
to give in
to unwake,
embrace those hidden organic
sacred give-aways
in cooperative economic dreams
distributing retiring funds
down toward drop dead zero’s
sly slimming poverty.

To give up any worries
about disempowering anomalies
and anti-christs,
witch
and wizard hunts,
coloring too wildly unnoticed
outside contemporary lines
to do no harm to,
and feel most helpful for,
future EarthTribe’s
resilient regenerations

Choosing to wake up
to say goodbye
to fear of death,
to instead actively intend farewell
with loving kindness for sacred Elders
repurposing life

Warm exhaled breath
regarding mind embodied self
and trauma-surviving Others
still actively hoping to achieve
our compassionately co-invested
spirited panentheistic nature

To not grasp and cling and hide
hedonistic hippy fantasies
due to fear of not sufficiently insuring
against deeply intimate loss
of dimming reputation

To embrace love’s learning champions
of curious bigendering courage
even in my last democracy darkening days

To commit to my exit process as deeply
and fully
as I co-invested in my birthing process–
neither outcome involving my total control
of most intimate and integrally gendered situations,
cobinary balance
hopeful regenerations
rich peak experience potential
for addiction
and adoration,
dispassion
and compassion

Both living and dying
involve some range of choice-making
sometimes remembering
victimization
marginalization
systemically capitalized traumatization
always flowing pain-pleasure exquisitely
in-between full of hopeful opportunity
and emptiness of faithless risk
ignoring sacred EarthTribe’s future

Disregarding personal property
and superior anthro-properties
and NOT disregarding silently cherished potential
for integrity’s relentless relationships
transcending personal lifelines,
dipolar co-arising love
for last life’s grasping risks
exposing tomorrow’s ego win
within
eco-winter’s roots
of underground opportunity

For a more curious exit strategy,
peaking life as love
in fast gathering springs of time
and now slowing
peace-filling lanes
recycling seasonal
multicultural
multigenerational
enriching octaved circles
emblazing encultured colors

To optimize health,
safety,
joy,
release,
freedom for Self and Others
in this final preparation
for Great Transition’s
final interdependent gift economy

Healthy and wealthy exit strategies
wisely pay compassion forward
to minimize trauma,
chronic stress,
deep shame anxieties,
depression,
sadness,
claustrophobia,
xenophobia,
stuckness,
faithlessness,
despair,
disorganic systems failure

To let go gracefully
with emotional intelligence

To not get spiritually lost
in physical and mental loss
of what was miraculous
and sacred
to ever have gained

To warmly embrace
and release
my turn to speak
and sing
and dance
and passionately communicate
continues to pass pleasure
one day in light’s dark time

To strategically exit
at my wisest and best,
as I have entered
and re-entered each dawn
to listen with compassion
and learn with active curiosity

To clear a sacred space
and sufficient time
for Others to more fully resonate,
tunefully listen
soulfully feel
more compassionately rhyming reason

Winning this wealthy mind
to win that healthy body
together better
than falling carelessly apart

Stuck in win or lose
steal or starve
ripening or wrecking seasons

To prepare for final cosmic breath
exhaled per diem moments
echoing first breath inhaled
penetrating sustenance.

Exit strategies
waiting to finally exhale,
pausing EarthTribe’s magnificent requiem.

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Dancing Life and Death

Who are we, rightfully left?

First and last, Mom’s parasite,
a resonantly peaceful tumor
with built in obsolescence.

Then, a moment between exodus
from symbiotic womb
into Earth’s promised Eden,
democratic trees for GoodLife
and not autocratic EvilDeath.

Then time to exhale again
one last self-regulating
timeless
fertile eternity,
regenerous nativity.

In between, economically driven politicians
hoping to improve our cooperative tribal improvisations
on Gaia’s liturgical soul-dance theme

With occasional speaking parts
after learning deep-listening wholes
on EarthTribe’s polycultural
life and death
light and dark
revolving stage

Reproducing embryonic ego-tumors
with built-in obsolescent peace;
a moment between dancing exodus
and cooperatively sung regenesis.

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Hold Me

Hold me.

Hold me one last time
within your strong brown arms
and red-blooded heart.

Hold me to your chest
so fierce with lovely loyalty,
warm inclusion
not yet chilled by my exclusion.

Hold me this one last time
remembering all our years
and glad times before

Shading from memory
aching days and nights alone
without passion’s touch
on skin
in heart
beneath belonging mind
longing to live more fully in this body
worthy of graced embrace.

Wrap your arms
and legs around me,
your breath
and sweat secure me.

Hold me one last time
before I go
where we cannot again
feel ourselves together
warm skin to warm
too thin.

Hold me for our love
and not our loss.

Hold me this one last time
forever.

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Doing PolyAmorous Paradise

When I was eight
I knew Paradise could not be merely secular humane
and yet be kind
and omnipotently divine

when a Great Horned Owl
breathed her last sacred breath toward me,
left alone
while she flew away
to where I would poorly follow
in my robust adult time.

It took me eight cycles of octave eight
to realize why
Paradise must include safe nests for diverse fowl,
politically
and ecologically cooperative seas
flowing complex schools of graceful fish
and surf’s bilateral co-gravity
flowing out here
and ebbing in now
breathing Earth’s healthy paradise past
and wealth-empowering future
polyamorous eternity.

Because an anthropocentric Paradise
would be monolithically,
and monotonously,
and monotheistically oxymoronic,
a scientifically and religiously ridiculous
metaphysical nightmare,
not ecologically sustainable,
not psychologically palatable

not even harmonically healthy potential paradise
because not synergetically
polyphonically
polypathically
polyculturally
or polytheistically healthy
wealth of peak co-empathic experience

regeneratively compelling
and degeneratively disspelling
economically enlightened
and politically empowering
co-intelligent empathic/dyspeptic
polytheistically inclusive
indigenous wisdom design.

Every polyvagal body knows
Heaven begins and ends
in an organically holistic
and politically democratic
globally healthy Earth Garden
with zero-balanced waste wealth stream
and nonzero-soul kind-kin potential
panentheistic elegant integrity,
yes?

So how does denying our naturally embodied climate
and unkind mind-wasting spiritual pathologies
help us become the perpetually ReStorative Paradise
we might synergetically peace together

Healing decadently autocratic Hell
monotheistically against sacredly wealthy
organically healthy Gaia Earth.

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BeComing ReBorn Again

Elder RightBrain felt compassions never die,
they simply enter colonizing peak
and complexly exit creolizing deep
erotic/agapic sexsensory sleeps
co-arising passion’s positive redemption

Not quite so much ecstatically felt
in our first inhale longing breath
as in our last surrendered exhale

Synergetic belonging
co-redeeming breathless pleasure,
however unrequited,
resiliently touches sacred peace
with all indigenously resonant souls

ReGenerating EarthTribe’s healthy heartbeat way
panentheistically anticipating wealthy paradise life
first inhaling birth of longing truth
last exhaling re-birthed belonging

Within Elder EarthMother’s root felt
pronoia choice
empowering FatherSun’s light crown
touching pleasure voice.

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Invoking Emmanuel

If now is your time
in this final threshold
between life
and death,
then this is our passion time,
remembered past
torn from imaged future.

I cannot bear this burden
this loss
this relinquishment of relationship
in which wealth fully invests
in knowing
and growing our love
together.

If now is our time,
I would accompany you
embrace you
full bodied
with these emphatic tears
of sad
sacred gratitude
for all we have been
togathering.

Not needing,
in this transition,
to bear tomorrow’s weight
adjusting to a crippling hole
in my heart,
gaping mind,
useless body
unable to touch you
with voice
and passionate loving choice.

If now is your time
to depart,
then we leave together
as far as our compassionate bodies
our co-emphatic minds
can yet embrace
this eternal
reverent severance space

Slow dancing,
soft breathing
in-between silent mortal dusk
and immortal dawn
of disembodied love

Becoming, already,
and much too soon,
some new emergent rebirth
of divine memories
within

As without,
touched by grace
written across each face
in which I may search
for your cherished trace
of reconnection
to this soulful time
and transition place

Interceding prayers
between daylight’s empowering life
and twilight’s disengaging death
apart.

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Getting To Old

I often hear,
“It’s tough getting old.”

I never hear
“It’s tougher not getting old”
because, I suppose,
those who might have spoken
from personal experience
are no longer with us.

I am becoming too familiar
with aches
pains
losses
loneliness
of ageing alone

All of which invite
my thought,
“It’s tough staying old”

And happy
healthy
unconditionally prosperous
elder wise
mindful
fully engaged
compassionately warm
win/win resilient

Anticipating this sufficient day
more than anxious
about tomorrow’s losses
pains
solitary encroaching disabilities,
dark nights.

That said,
staying old
feels much easier
and lighter
and brighter
and curiously mightier
than fighting
vying
trying to stay young.

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Exit Strategy

To prepare for final cosmic breath
exhaled
echoing first breath
inhaling
waiting to exhale
pausing for Earth’s final soliloquy

To terminate all humane
and inhumane relationships
Commitments
and lack thereof
Obligations
and assets
Risks
and opportunities

To clean up any risks
of disenfranchising anomalies,
coloring too wildly
outside monoculturing lines;
to do no harm
and feel most helpful
for future regenerations

To choose to say goodbye,
farewell
with loving kindness,
warm regard for myself
and kindred Others

To not grasp and cling and hide
due to fear of personal loss;
to embrace sufficient curious courage
even in these last darkening days

To engage in the exit process as deeply
and fully
as I engaged in my birthing process–
neither of which involve my total control
of my most intimate and integral situations;
both of which involve some range of choice-making
sometimes
especially regarding property
and especially NOT regarding interpersonal relationships,
dipolar co-arising
win/lose risk and win/win opportunity,
life as love
in fast and slowing lanes
and recycling seasonal circles

To optimize health,
safety,
joy,
release,
freedom for Self and Others
in this final preparation for Great Transition

To minimize trauma,
stress,
anxiety,
depression,
sadness,
claustrophobia,
stuckness

To let go gracefully
with emotional intelligence

To not get lost
in loss

To warmly embrace
my turn to speak
and sing
and dance
and possibly communicate
has passed

To clear a sacred space
and sufficient time
for Others to listen
more compassionately together
than falling carelessly apart.

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