I appreciate the popular democratic intention:
Equality for All.
I might appreicate a more specific,
but perhaps no less populated,
intention:
Equality for all victims
survivors
outlying thrivers
of Straight White Patriarchal privileged
mentally unhealthy Trauma.
I wonder if a more wholesome masculinity
is a renewed ecofeminist
panentheistic health care face
of past Patriarchal-Capitalist
ZeroSum Closed System
unfortunate RightWing embrace
in the face
of global glooming ecocide.
If your peak experiences
have led to some mature sexual spiritual vocation
Beware, such engaging vocations
are best as special event avocations
Yet unconditionally applied
with win/win nonzero sum
whole open systemic
warm regard.
YangPole/YinHole alacrity
CoEmpathic integrity
sanctity
both lusty and luscious,
sweaty and sweet,
empowering and enlightening,
mountainous and valleyed,
pulsating and holy,
secularly impassioned and sacredly compassionate
LeftBrain engorged and RightBrain engaged
Liberating loud wonder
and Conserving silent awe
Strange Fruit choreography
speaks to me of seeing
and smelling
this strange evil fruit
of hatred
and bigotry
and fear
and straight white man
perpetual menace.
Choreographing trauma
only infrequently translates the words
of DarkHole poems
Rhetoric hoping to carry
the emotional shock of evil awe
and dark timeless burdens
Terrifying wonder
as perceived
within this Strange Fruit Dark VerbalView
Rather than the more interior non-verbal feelings
of profound inhumane disarray,
division,
hate climates
and monocultures
of straight white monotheistically judgmental,
capitalist-driven,
commodification
and disposition
of semi-domesticated talking animals
live stock,
breeding stock,
slave labor
Too smart for their well-endowed britches
and es
Strange Dark Fruit,
the enslaving racist face
frantically encircling
straight white fascism
in full flagrant,
strange southern fruit,
industrially resilient horror.
Strange Fruit Anthropocene,
with polyculturally felt choreography
of ecopolitical
disempowering/unenlightened
monochromatic lack of appropriate appreciation for color,
and drama,
and with way too much
Patriarchal-Capitalist
monotheistic
StrangeFruit trauma.
It seems maniacal,
Black Rabbit Hole easy
kinda sleazy
to sexualize every thought
And, yet,
all too easy
to desexualize
to decontextualize
multisensory feelings
deep and widely organic
roots from ancient EarthMother wisdom
Sometimes polycultural transparency above
conjoining multicultural vulnerability below
give peak orgasmic conversational sway
To passion’s Left/Right co-balancing day
of protruding Yang verbal dominance
seducing Yintegrity’s river-valleyed
eagerly inviting pre-verbal
pregnant wombs of co-invested
cooperative win/win interests
in peak and valley neurosystemic
indigenous traditions,
spiritedly natural
Seldom known to partisan politics
and weaponized capitalistic
colonizing rapacious prominence
of patriarchal nationalistic populism
As if, somehow,
matriarchal EarthTribe integrity
of deeply thought/felt hearts
with womanist
deep valley ecopolitical minds
were less morally appropriate
than indecent ecocidal exposure.
My husband and I always enjoy visiting
GrandMother Eartha
on Mother’s Day
She often shares
last night’s dreams,
which often follow rather disturbing peak experience themes
Because,
you know,
or maybe not because,
how would I know?
Dreams about Her Straight White AlphaMale trauma
Or maybe inspired by emotional
and sensory neglect
from both SunGod Light
and EarthGoddess Powers
exercised back when GrandMother Eartha
was a fairly happy hooker,
addicted to patriarchal voices
of enlightenment.
She likes to teach us how to share
Her deepest co-invested dreams
In densely present nervous moments
felt native and indigenous
vulnerable and transparent,
healthy and safely sacred
Without grasping
for Business As Usual top-down,
1 PolyNomial YangPole
always feels better
stronger
more immediately…
uhm…
satisfied?
More importantly than
not-not 0-Soul Yintegral Black Hole,
as clearly as +1P, YangPolarity
is healthier and safer than -(-P), Yintegrity
LeftBrain invariant languaged
1 polar light
is better and stronger
than 0 round
empowering whole night
of lunar stars
and wisdom bright
Bilateral appositions
dreaming of less traumatic experiences
while therapeutically servicing
Great White AnthroFather hubris
in whatever worshipful ways
might have felt more sacredly successful,
perhaps even more cooperatively satiating,
possibly even more verbally co-invested
and especially nonverbally co-infested…
Nonviolently communicating,
with eyes and ears wide open,
enjoying sacred smells
and tastes,
touched by voice
and mutual choice
felt secularly lusty
and sacredly trusted
Co-empathic
1/0 ego/eco-balancing
convex/concave co-habitating peak
hysterical
and herstoric
and therapeutic
bicameral double-binary experience
ecobalancing GrandMother’s
bodhisattva EarthTribe
Her way of dreaming
inhumane rapacious past’s intrusion
on Her sacred Dream experience
re-connecting ecofeminist equity
Found by choosing felt sacred presence
through Win/Win ego/eco-therapeutic dreams
filled out in timeless co-presence
Anticipating Great 0/1 ReGenerative Transitions
toward polyculturally positive
Green Health/Wealth TraumaPrevention
bihemispheric neurosensory opportunities.
When GrandMother awoke
just now,
within this Mother’s Day Dream
she remembered previously sharing
When we awaken
we can choose
healthy-left Green Polypaths
AND wealthy-right Red
Straight White AnthroMale privileged
monoculturing monopolies
of both FatherSun Light
and MotherEarth Power
Re-exploring curious mindbodies
expand emergent win/win
evolving dreams
and lives
and loves,
bipartisan co-passions
felt healthy at their peak
and wealthy in our valleys,
so to speak
of core dream values
appropriate to Mother’s Day,
of course
Notice
GrandMother Eartha instructs,
positions,
patterns
and rhymes
and rhythms
more Right MindBody
Your positive intentions
will re-emerge
when you take one timeless moment
to sit
and receive minute messages
Notice
dark inside
and lighter outside sounds
voices
filling verbal air
and nonverbal atmospheres
around
and within multi-sensing integral awareness
of interdependent you
Ego synergetic sensations
rooted in phylogenic deep memories
in bilateral arms
and legs
and eyes
and ears
and nostrils
and lungs
and bicameral hearts
and mind-spirit hemispheres
dreaming ecofeminist left win/wins
and nightmares of AnthroPatriarchal
monotheistic right Revengeful Wins
overtrump Sacrificial EcoFeminist Losses
Multisensory memories
of traumatic duty
to service the AlphaMale’s
darkest pleasures
without equally considering
my own polysensory
peak therapeutic experiences
In age
and time
and place appropriate
Mother’s Day Timeless moment,
Much of what we complexly receive
with all six sensory receivers
now feel much more complexly peaking
in long dense sensing
intense awareness
Of relationships felt here before
and resurging now
Becoming more densely organic
re-organizing win/win thriving
Positive win/win enlightenment
and not-not merely felt faith empowering
ecofeminist bodhisattva
Eartha’s Day dreaming
peak multisensory experiences
co-arising dipolar
found and round
rewound unraveling
enlightening SunGod
empowering EarthGoddess
polyculturally embracing
strong polar 1 and flowing round 0
In/Out Binary for ecological health
and Whole Open EarthTribe
resilient safety again
Still moving forward
through this now surpassing Mother’s Day
Dreams can out-embrace
this inside felt
silent peace pace
in resonant space
Between polynomial Language
speaking of polynormative
Denying win/lose
as anomalous trauma
contextualizing future win/win
economic and political
and multisensory persuasions
Healing GrandMother’s
LeftBrain invariant
concavely traumatized ego
yet also
outside convexly too eco-competitive
For Mother’s Day
mindful intention,
HealthyLeft and WealthWise Right
bicameral balancing hemispheres
Here/Now copresent
Liberally conserving EarthTribe presence
in universal dreams of peace
restoring justice
while Self/Other win/wins reorganize
polyvagal polypathic delight
In both win and lose rediscovery
of paradoxical
SunGod trauma invites EarthMother therapy
daoist Light and Power dreams
of Yang/Yintegral Balance
Mother’s Day moment
avoiding lose/lose despair,
dark depression,
degeneration
Straight White AlphaMale Historical
Religious and Royalist Colonizing Supremacy
distaste
bad smell,
tightening of the posterior,
custody of the eyes
and all those other shameful
and blameful
judged insufficient organs
unorganized
to resist
and bend to receive,
as is my prostate duty.
In better
and healthier,
wealthier and wiser
EarthTribe dreams
restoring justice
and Mother Eartha’s forgiveness
for raping
what She would have gladly
sacred peak experience given
gracefully
multi-sensorily received
If you could have been more polite
and grateful
for health care nonverbally given
as wealth more penetratingly perceived
with unconditional warm regard
Especially as compared
to good old red-blooded
rapacious colonizing days.
Like RightBrain felt
faith
without LeftBrain thoughtful
works
Passionate prayer
without compassionate actions
is dead on non-arrival.
When you and your wife visited,
you shared a question asked by a pastor
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
vulnerably young and questioning parishioner.
“If your unborn child survived
his first year
and walked back into your home
do you think you would still want to kill him?”
Probably not,
I’m thinking.
And,
perhaps more pastorally significant
and responsible,
how can we, in resilient compassion for ourselves
and for those who trespass against us
mitigate sacred rage
against ancient sins of our predative Fathers?
The next morning
over coffee and breakfast
your wife told a surprising story
of meeting a woman
in a Carolina church basement
who boldly claimed to be
an unapologetic pagan
Certainly not repenting;
more like recruiting
UnStraight out proud wiki
without thinking that might be an appropriate sin
for inviting healing prayer
rather than embracing
as if possessing a pure and virtuous soul
matriarchally regathering
HolyEarthPeace Spirits.
Your wife’s response
cautiously avoided Retribution Is Mine!
weaponized words,
another patriarchal sin of our historied Fathers
“I don’t think I’ve ever heard anyone say that before”
right out in public
toward lunchtime on a bright spring day
and certainly not in a ChristChurch basement
I silently wondered why your wife did not seem to feel
this pagan should be aborted
Stoned to death
or at least hanged
for defying the Good News
of Straight White King James
colonizing Jesus.
If there was a conversation about how many pagans may feel
about abortion of healthy tribal lives
or Great White Father rape,
or the somewhat wider history
of patriarchal predation against matriarchal wisdom
she did not mention such old crone witchery
Studying dark theistic codes of dueling history
usually tolerating abortions of Othered human lives
for exceptional survival reasons
emerging throughout traumatic transition years
for various viciously circling reasons
A well-capitalized
verbally articulate
personalized monotheistic God
might appear to be against
polytheistic Muses and Witches and Goddesses
within EarthTribe mind-spirited space,
political place,
economic race
On the Othered,
and safely aborted, hand
pantheistic spiritual commitments
supporting multicultural
animistic
pantheistic
panentheistic
polycultural respect
may more resiliently redevelop
sacred
sentient
holy spirited life
at the EarthTribal
universally uniting EarthPeace level
of sacred passion
Respect for our interdependent thriving lives
does not mean we are not also
abortionists to survive the trauma
of invasive felt predations,
biological
and ecological
and theological
and political.
Divine respect for co-infested fertile life
might include respect for death
and gratitude for EarthTribe lives sacrificed
As we hold hands
and bow our heads
with gratitude
for hungry stomachs satisfied,
for sacred quenching waters,
outs and ins of healthy bodies,
backs and forths of wealthy minds
With trust our thirst
for tribal trust
does not imply that when and what I swallow,
I abort
And do not also co-invest
in this our cooperative resilience
Health care giving
and receiving
EarthTribe sentient wealth
Respect for dark
deeply raging
patriarchal trauma
does not imply
disrespect for more therapeutic
matriarchal light.
And just so,
I reversely suppose,
universal peace
uniting holy spirited respect
for resilient
brilliant sentient life
Does not imply
disrespect for trauma,
despair
and death
Which I had been struggling with
when you and your wife visited,
and you shared your story
of a raped
and thereby pregnant
young and traumatized parishioner.
Who am I
to give Light’s sway
to Earthly kindness?
Who am I
to praise
love’s bold told synergy?
sun sung soprano
diva voiced
Through life’s more challenged
LeftBrain capitalized energies
in dark basement shunning
echoing not yet dead
predicting survival choice.
Yet choice
may here
and there be wrongly voiced
regarding numerous sins
without apparent smothered victims
preferring to expand
win/win resilient
thriving to rejoice
is obviously brilliant
Restoring justice
non-verbally unchoiced
sacred Whole Systemick-identity
could become our mind repletely full
of fertile health defaults
reseen as wealthier
when just-right
choice
To avoid further trauma narratives
degenerating loss losing fried-out markets
in a regenerating win/win land
where 1 is not
not also 0 empty nonchoice
out to sea
In/out
Back/forth mindful
of the timely voice
sung and signed silent
inside thoughtful
Integrity’s rejoice
For resiliently healthy
universally salvific
synergetic
win/win wealthy
making
Baking
up-shaking
frosting on the cake
remaking
Abating win-1 to lose-0
less than restoring win/win kindness
Yang and Yin’s binomial rebalanced
choice
When mindful with this quest
for who are We to give
Light’s empowering sway
to Earth-compassioned
win/win wealthy
choice?
Of
We’re all doing our therapeutic best
toward a trauma prevention Earth
easing off inside loathing diatribes
becoming Kindness Tribe
full-voiced
Curiously repeating
How do we already
give Light’s empowering sway
to grow Earthy kindness?
For economic
and political resilience
it is better to give
AND receive
compassion
than to give
OR receive
enlightenment.
Divide and conquer debates
favor win/lose competitions
as sometimes vicious over-investment
in defeating healthy democracy
to conquer public-square power space
not particularly sublime
While compassionate discussions
favor win/win cooperation
as virtuous co-investment
in green communion
circling co-empathic sharing time
Becoming complexly nuanced
beyond any tolerable hot red point
of static Business As Usual stuck
redundantly building stale uniformity lists
from LeftBrains preferring to hear
strong straight white self-defense
protagonist voices
Drowning out Other
while dragging out streams
of degenerating non-communication
Unhealthy anthro-supremacist
viciously polarizing
and repolarizing
Dissociating and ruminating dark rabbit holes
for hiding capital competing heads
while our ecocidal ideations destroy
fragile health care systems,
insurance and natural defense industries
food and potable water production and preservation
and water-front real estate values
Further dividing
and polarizing debates
favoring winner survives all competitions
and vicious viral over-investment
in defeating healthy democratic trust
to conquer public-square power space
by fostering active distrust of Other,
not particularly sublime
While more regenerative discussions
favor win/win ecofeminist cooperation
as virtuous co-investment
in green communion
circling compassion’s sharing time.
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