We came across this Earth together
and you’re still here.
We sail through all these sunlight days
and moonless nights
togathered in,
and we hear still.
We swim through all our fears to drown
what fills my rage.
We march through angry Earth apart
and disappear.
Or dance across this Earth together
so we’re still here.
When capital wealth
produces lusty Kings,
And liberal health
consumes lavish Queens,
Then nature’s many polypaths
predict holy spirit-nature empowering
flowing polyphonic languages
sung and said,
danced and done,
cultured and historic,
eco-felt and theo-reflected,
remembered and re-imagined.
Kings trusting love’s history
and Queens re-investing Earth’s HerStory.
Capital investments,
cooperative more than competitive,
socially mediated more than antisocially premeditated
green health more than white wealth motivated,
are remarkably contrasted,
most certainly not equivalent to,
kleptocratic capital-city privileged capitalism.
Liberal corporate-infested capitalism,
with narcissistic quarterly accounting bottom lines
are not the same as cooperative encircling
capital co-investment.
Democratic positive energy balances
do not tip quietly
toward hoarding wealth
while strangling polyculturally co-invested health.
Win/Lose global competitions
to rape what’s left of fading MotherEarth
follow climate degenerating trends
toward green-health detachment.
Competitive human nature,
challenging EarthMother nature co-investing spirits
self-predict future fragmented losses for dying Anthros
and loss of natural/spiritual co-arising life
for all species requiring fertile wombs,
eggs,
seeds,
DNA,
RNA,
Green and blue and red and yellow
ultra-nonviolent
regenerating life’s well-seasoned communications,
integrity black through transparent energy white
communions,
EarthCommon health-wealth polypaths
back through nutritional Earth History,
not so toxically divesting
of HerStoried Earth.
Capital investments,
cooperative more than competitive,
socially mediated more than antisocially premeditated
green health more than white wealth motivated,
are remarkably contrasted,
most certainly not equivalent to,
kleptocratic capital-city privileged capitalism.
Liberal corporate-infested capitalism,
with narcissistic quarterly accounting bottom lines
are not the same as cooperative encircling
capital co-investment.
Democratic positive energy balances
do not tip quietly
toward hoarding wealth
while strangling polyculturally co-invested health.
Win/Lose global competitions
to rape what’s left of fading MotherEarth
follow climate degenerating trends
toward green-health detachment.
Competitive human nature,
challenging EarthMother nature co-investing spirits
self-predict future fragmented losses for dying Anthros
and loss of natural/spiritual co-arising life
for all species requiring fertile wombs,
eggs,
seeds,
DNA,
RNA,
Green and blue and red and yellow
ultra-nonviolent
regenerating life’s well-seasoned communications,
integrity black through transparent energy white
communions,
EarthCommon health-wealth polypaths
back through nutritional Earth History,
not so toxically divesting
of HerStoried Earth.
My leftbrain personifies creative/degenerative nature
yielding an omnipotent YangGod
and shadowy omnipresent YinDemon,
While my rightbrain personalization of creative power
yields our omni-source yin/yang harmonic
dipolar co-arising EarthMother web of life,
original prime relationship
of Spirit/Nature,
Breathing in spirit energy,
exhaling natural strength,
In and out of Zero ZenWomb interdependent web
of regenerate life
more empowering
than fears about degenerate leftbrain ego-death,
loss,
fragmentation of natural polypath/spiritual polyphonic balance
Remaining stuck in monoculturing leftbrain thoughts
about EitherGod OrDemonic
bipolar Saint/Sinner
fundamentalistic
dualistic
capitalistic domination,
When more healthy attached EarthMother experience
suggests wealthier capital co-investment,
left listening
to wise-elder sacredly interdependent right feelings,
transpersonified
co-empathic positive and negative energy democracy,
at best curiously courageous,
at worst patient with negatively detached personifications
of MotherEarth,
creative with wombs
and eggs
and seeds
and DNA,
and RNA,
useful tools for developing healthy cooperative wealth,
not just of capitals
but of all land and water,
air and spirit,
incoming and outgoing personifications.
My daughter,
with Fetal Alcohol crippling emotional intelligence damage
and Cerebral Palsy perpetual TerribleTwo
“is too many,
because Earth is all about ego-defiant me”
has taught herself
to attach her lips,
and sometimes her wet licking tongue
when she is feeling particularly needy
and/or playful
or maybe just hungry,
to my male dominant capitalist-head
when she needs to feel noticed
attached
connected
invested in
better.
This Saturday morning
she commits the unpardonable sin
of waking up before seven a.m.
Eleven is closer to her business as usual.
After bath and costuming,
both accomplished with as little support from me,
autonomously distracted, as possible,
she goes to our kitchen
to watch her favorite animated song and dance loops
on It’s All About You
Tube.
I am hanging out with my son,
also with cerebral palsy,
but unable to walk without balancing assistance
and unable to talk in either direction,
talk back or proclaim forth,
which is more his sister’s favorite skill set.
After a few minutes
of only slightly compromised peace
this sunny summer Saturday morning,
the daughter comes in
to demand her support staff (me)
prepare her royal breakfast (immediately).
I invite her to self-serve.
She says No!
repeatedly
while I remind her
she is capable of going to the freezer,
extracting one microwave pancake and sausage
on a stick,
wrapping it in one square of paper towel,
opening the microwave door,
placing it on the rotating glass plate inside,
closing the door,
pushing 1, 0, 0,
waiting for the ding,
and removing her breakfast by holding the stick,
waiting for it to cool,
removing the paper towel,
and devouring the pancake,
then the sausage,
as usual.
She responds
I want you to do it.
I respond
I want you to do it.
“No, Help me!”
“I am helping you!”
“No!
You do it; not me!”
“Why?”
“Because I”m watching my tablet.”
“And I’m trying to meditate
and write!”
“No! Help me!”
So, I ask for a time out.
We have been at this same impasse countless times.
It’s a ritual,
obsessive and compulsively lose/lose.
We are both not listening
while we are also not meditating
and watching
and writing healthier song and dance stories.
What’s happening here?
You know you can make your own breakfast.
Is this about not wanting to be alone?
Do you want me to show you
how crazy I am about you?
“Can I have a kiss?”
And then we do the “my lips on your head”
And “my head on your lips” ritual.
I give her a back and shoulder massage
while she has her therapeutic attachment breakfast.
My daughter smiles,
leaves the room without further demands,
goes back to the freezer,
pulls out a Blanketed Pig
on a stick…
I go back to writing
about resilience
and remediating potential lose/lose Earth climates
and emotionally cooperative reparations.
My son goes back to sleep,
having had a good belly laugh
at our curiously outspoken craziness,
reminding me
Curiosity is a more effective left-hemisphere tool
than working hard to feel right-hemisphere patience
in the face of apparent weapons
wielded by alien win/lose forces
in an otherwise win/win potentiated
interactive ego/eco-system.
He sits up,
groaning
repeatedly,
until I re-emerge
aware
He needs a diaper change,
on this peaceful sunny summer Saturday morning
riding still-revolving climates of Earth
re-creating green-blue-red
ultra-nonviolent win/win living systems
of actively communicating co-enlightenment.
Maybe we’ll have lunch on the backyard deck
under our barn red umbrella
as the Thames River continues to flow downstream
from northern stars
toward southern sun sustaining states.
I hear at least two national conversations
that seem mutually contradictory
and equally impossible,
or at least revolutionarily improbable
as compared to normal win/lose capital extractive
hoarding habits
in robust cooperative investment accounts,
business as not necessarily healthiness usual.
I listen to “Third World” people of color
and colonization-enslavement history
more recent than the white serfs
and spear-carriers
of my own “First World” long-term memories.
Pleas for remediation
precede unpleasant declarations of independence
precede demands for remuneration, please?
But what does remediation look like,
sound like,
feel like
in the fracturing face of ongoing resource acquisition?
How are demands for independence
from First World aristocracy
different, and the same,
compared to demands of interdependence
for ecotherapy of win/lose global climates?
Internally heading south
in a negative lose/lose external way
and a pathological internal,
left-hemisphere capital-headed,
narcissistic way to play
Courageous warrior
against our own right-hemisphere curious feelings,
emotional win/win intelligence,
attachment within this interdependent web
womb of healthy EarthMother
creative regeneration stories
for ego-healing
ecotherapeutic remediation.
How would we begin to afford
to heal our win/lose capitalism colonizing history?
How could we undo past degenerative evolutions
of multiculturally thriving bioregions,
health-wealthy robust ecosystems,
ecofeminist cooperative healers,
peace-warrior creators
“carrying all the eggs,”
nutritional communication womb carriers,
yin-flow remediators of extractive historical violence
against each First through Third World other
and in capitalistically defined wealth
at war with compassionately refined health
of cooperative win/win
ego/eco-therapeutic systems within
And anthro/Earth-therapeutic global
through local
healing win/win systems health-wealth
secular-sacred
left-right
yang-yin
fragmenting remunerative new birth trends
as integrity regenerative.
Perhaps declaring my own interdependent attachment
with She Who Carries All Earth’s Eggs
begins my internal reparation
remediation
remuneration
for all the left-hemisphere dominant capitalistic win/lose games
I have loved
simply by honoring my Father over Mother
Rather than restoring my cooperatively interdependent EarthMother
bothNature/andNurture healthy co-arising circular first
and FatherSun
left-hemisphere enlightenment
eitherLight/orDark wealthy deductive
linear cause/effect second.
EarthMothers are instinctively natural economists
advocating fiscal conservancy
because we cannot sustainably give
beyond nutritional elements we are cooperatively taking in.
EarthMothers know by pregnant experience
what it feels like to slow-grow a robust regenerative economy,
To give birth to healthy robust hope,
To invest in bilateral birthing compassion
To divest of timelessly cherished assets
when our right climate of healthy opportunity
has come, win/win,
for cooperative health remediation
For regenerative selves
and our future sons and daughters
From wet warm wombs
born into MotherEarth’s globally pregnant
eco-political climate remediation,
Health remunerative cooperative co-governance,
co-investing in health wealthy future Time.
When I was a ginger eight
my many cousins and I liked to play
King On The Mountain,
or at least the older and stronger
enjoyed being on top of a grassy mound
as lesser beings formed military alliances
further magnifying their/our winning majesty
in this empire-struggling win/lose game.
Engaged in our playful struggle
so long as autonomous individuals
and cooperative team members
continued to win often enough
to retain recreative tension
about push and shove battle outcomes.
Issues of patriarchy
with feminist trust levels
did not emerge
as I recall,
although this may be because we were cousins
already well acclimated to our sensory/sensual diversity
and recreational integrity
for resilient play without anyone getting seriously hurt,
emotionally or physically,
spiritually or naturally.
Patriarchal offenses
and retaining the King’s defensive power
over all comers
may be more of an issue for long-exercised narcissists
in immature adult full-bloom rabidity,
speaking and doing viral negative
degenerative
pushes and shoves,
name calling
and invitations to go back home
rather than respect for tenacity,
trying to become King of the Mountain
cooperatively together.
Somehow we found enough emotional room
for everyone at the top or the bottom.
We came to trust each other enough
to know and feel critical differences
between sometimes winning and sometimes losing
degenerative/regenerative in-between tension
lapsing toward probable lose/lose chaos
and win/win recreative intention
of contests balancing autonomous competition
with interdependent cooperation
Creative and recreative strategies
to keep our hill full of healthy opportunity
to share times of aristocratic supremacy
in a challenging, yet freely engaged, game market
that all my cousins would continue investing in
so long as each win/lose struggler
continues to feel reassured
cared for and with
more than plotted against
dissonant and dismissed.
When this role play exercise ended
we would all go back to becoming the same ego characters,
personalities
primal relatives that our mothers bore
So we would have each other to play King of Mountains,
Queen of the Romantic Ball,
and Who Can Spit Watermelon Seeds Furthest,
most accurately,
with the highest graceful arc,
with the least and loudest spitting noise, etc.
If we had known
King Of The Capitalist Hill
is the only local through global Game
of win/lose power
on an overcrowded planet,
I wonder if our trust
in win/win interdependent healthy outcomes
would remain so robustly influential
to our affiliative strategies
and compassionate cousin feelings.
Competitive economic experience
breeds business as usual
capital-growing cultures
with a special preference historical
for white privilege patriarchal
remembering and designing
left-brain dominant educational systems.
Cooperative ecological economies
breed more organic networks
of permacultural health
and nutrition
and communication experience,
with a special historical preference
for ecofeminist Earth-empowered
deep learning
listening
noticing prime primal attachment relationships
between internal ego-
and external eco-
systemic balance,
harmony,
interdependent equity,
RightBrain HealthWealth Prominent ,
liberal leftwing progressive,
freedom from isolated loneliness,
depression,
repression,
suppression,
AND
LeftBrain WealthHealth Dominant,
conservative rightwing defensive,
freedom to impressively
robustly
compassionately
nutritiously thrive
without eating the less brilliantly aristocratic help
and remembering to at least say
Please and Thank You and You Are Welcome,
is where civil rights end
and co-responsively begin.
Earth History, lectured Fr. Time,
has always favored leftbrain culture,
too either/or bipolar
to rightbrain’s more both/and interdependent way
of feeling and touching,
hearing before seeing and speaking
in rhyming reason,
not out of season.
It was leftbrain’s technology of coins
that led to capital value economic systems
severed from nutritional ethics of ecological relationship
connection
co-attachment
of leftbrain healthy intentions
with rightbrain wealthy sensations
For secular thoughts and sacred feelings
surrounding
embracing
inviting physical integrity
with metaphysical sweet spots
longing for climax
regenerativity
resonance
resilience.
Our leftbrain cognitions
reasons
awareness
remain culturally suspicious
of rightbrain’s primordial ecofeminist wildness,
attachment to both/and interdependent webs
where leftbrain would liberally build, at healthy best,
egalitarian walls of fragmentation
between identities of loyal egocentric
anthrocentric wealthy nations
Now composed of rightbrain under-educated
under-formed atrophy
of rightbrain both/and co-passions,
healthy-wealth of eco-political family empowerment Time
For MotherEarth and I
to reconnect healthy rapture
with wealthy liberal resilience,
both/and attachment feelings
with either/or discernment revolutions
less industrial
so more organic,
less patriarch competitive
so more ecofeminist cooperative,
less colonizing divestment of under-performing rightbrain properties,
so more robust creolizing transubstantiations
of communal left/right
ego/eco
health/wealth compassion therapies
Balancing nutritional polycultures within
while harmonizing health/wealth climates without.
EarthMother co-responds,
My sacred creation story is this same integrity’s potential future,
but begins win/win upon Fr. Time…
On this we agree,
writes and prints,
publishes then promulgates Fr. EnLightening Time
to and for and with all EarthMother’s fertile tribes
capable of listening
and remembering multiculturing DNA’s regenerate history,
LeftBrain colonization appropriates aggressively
anthropocentrically
monoculturally
industrially commodifying EarthMother’s healthy wealth,
Exercising supreme ecopolitical control
over Earth’s multiculturally compassionate webs
of polypathic future regenerations
reknitting
reweaving
restoring leftbrain natural health
with rightbrain spiritual wealth,
Favoring cooperative capital co-investments
over competitive
either/or
capitalism unholy divestments
from Earth Rights and Responsive Responsibilities
of all sacred communing
climaxing EarthTribes.
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