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Fractured Caregivers

“If I could turn you on,
if I could drive you out of your wretched mind,
if I could tell you
I would let you know.”
R. D. Laing

Ronald Laing
was a troubled psychotherapist
and a notoriously terrible non-dad
who heard dark voices in double-binding schizophrenia.

Knots of contradictory negative emotions,
needs,
troubling demands and troubled expectations
non-verbally underlying attachments,
sensed relationships
between two people
and within families,
and other,
larger
eco-politically Stated, and officious, Voices.

I need you
to want to be with me
not because I need you
to care for me
and about us.

I do not need you (society, Earth)
to want to be with me
because I need you
to care for me
and about us;
regeneratively double-bonded.

Laing could not see
these two “not”s
as both/and resiliently knotted
at peace with each other’s harmonic in-between strains;

The geometrics
of and in-between not-not
can equal a positive.

His solution was inclusive rebellion.
I wonder what mine will be,
has been.

I hope for a 2020 revolution
revisioning not-not
health-wealth
sexual-sensory
natural-spiritual
left/west-right/east hemispheric
yang-yin
strength-flow
outside-inside
precessive-recessive (B. Fuller)
outgoing-incoming
ex/preformed cognition-informative emotion
not yet/still polypathic-polyphonic
holonic integrity-holy synergy
ecological prime relationship-theological compassion

(+)polynomial + (-,-)polynomial = +/-,- Win/Win ZeroZone,
multicultural

Integrally co-redemptive bicameral 20-20 re-creations,
left-brain secularly metric
and right-brain sacredly mindful

Every sacred day and night
psychotherapeutic choice is more resilient
when right-brain integral attachment rooted
rather than left-brain detachment deflowered.

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Black Life Shatters

My oldest son,
one of the few Earth-mattering
Earth-shattering
Black lives
I was made to protect
to guide
by eco-righteous WinWin acts
and co-passioning words,

Felt, and therefore was, disempowered,
worthless,
like helpless prey among predators
who listen to the same rap,
same urban Earth writes,
same multicultural performances,
When a gun was dispassionately pointed at his head.

This was only tangentially about an economic exchange
primal, personally and politically, targeted.

He felt violated,
and threatened,
already home and identity invaded,
when forced to hand over his car keys,
and the back door
and front door
keys to his home.

He knows these guys,
where to find them on Facebook,
at the casino,
in the dance and rap clubs
where he invested
infested
while still in high school.

Urban night school, unEarthly,
earthy
darkly sensual.

He does not know where to find them in church.
Gospel music is for grandmothers.
Liturgical dance,
sacred rituals,
are for outside romance
on warm wet wombed erotic nights.

He felt naked
exposed
terrified when they demanded his last dime.

This is his biggest and baddest bully,
his most deeply echoing “LOSER!”
His darkest dirge
speaking of suicidal revenge.

Or prison,
where Earth’s great white patriarchal State,
will put a gun to his head
and force him to remove his clothes
and bend over
to assume the even more lost position,

Raped of any future hope
to rest outdoors
after an ecstatic liturgical dance
under a romantic full moon
rapping
and dancing
ultra-violet variations
on a warm wet wombed
bright delight.
Not So Bright Delight

You talk our talk
like Black Lives Matter,
but you walk your own walk
as Black lives shatter,
Brown lives stutter,
Green lives splinter.

What’s a-matter?

You want to want
all lives to splatter?
Might hear to hear
RealTalk ain’t chatter,

You eat to eat
friends heads on platters.
We taste to see
your fake get fatter.

Your act is tired.
Your allies scatter.
You need to feed
on guns’ disaster.

Come on now, Felix,
What’s a-matter?
Where’s your commitment
to Black Lives Matter?

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Story Lessons

One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest

The apparent insanity of inmates
and prisoners
and addicts, conspiracy theorists and paranoids,
does not prove,
nor necessarily even suggest,
the keepers are not also self-entitled nuts
with unhealthy powers,
authorities,
delegated detached responsibilities
loyal to ratchet race competitions.
Passion Story

When you are crucified, naked, poor
and occupied by Roman yangish powerful voices
and Win/Lose commodity values,
unhealthy fought and sold colonizing authorities,
irresponsible power occupiers,
violators of healthy green peace objectives
applicable to any sanctuary and asylum
with humane organic embodied rituals and behaviors
yet still Win/Lose divine punishing evolution machine minded,
we have been historic asylum invited
to purge messianic homeless egos
on HolonicSpirit’s centering Earth-cross,
rather than remain comparatively imprisoned by traumas
to the disassociating left or right.

Health History Story

A. Earth was born, still, flat, without form and ZeroCentric void.
B. S/he remains newborn and young,
springing organic life
WinWin preferential solidarity with all EarthTribe.
C. S/he still grows mature healthy Heavenly summer sun
over nurturing MotherEarth,
sacred/secular conjoined.
D. S/he co-emerges Northern revolutionary Yang/Yin bicameral,
bilateral healthstream co-arising poly-paths,
-phonics,
-cultures,
-nomial maps,
-meme messages,
-frames of secular/sacred nutrition.

One Flew Into the Communion NestEgg

See “Health History Story” above
The apparent stillborn insanity of original patriarchal residents
need not predict
Yang/Yin co-redeeming caregivers
are not also ego- v eco-logical sanctuary sociopaths
sabotaging our own potential opportunities
for polypathic communion asylums.

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The DJ

The DJ plays wrong songs
for greens
and blues,
blacks and browns,
yellows
and dark wiselder matriarchal reds,
both natural
and spiritual
progressive parties too all-encompassing
to quickly disinvest
and octave ageless end.

DJ
never learned to dance outdoors
naked
or even organically half-dressed
to impress,

To ride RightMind waves
of cooperative
integral
holonic
MotherEarth primal relationship
revolving sacred DJ spin,
Earth’s harmonic resonating song.

DJ left MotherEarth
and sanctity behind
To buy Her up and app,
and inappropriately sell Her
to the highest patriarchal Pharisee bidder
buying passive market space
margins against Matriarchal resilient potential winner.

Quick gaming gains
deep darkly hidden chaos cash value
before environmental co-relationship
becomes an oxymoron
like capitalist healthy intelligence.

DJ learned his Ego
is his ZeroZone
with no remaining outdoor cherished vision
for realistic Rainbow ReStoring Warriors
replaying LP progressive folk tunes
and stand up EarthRooting improv
for midterm voters and investors
prepared to deeply listen
for outdoor health committed learning
democratic well-being constitution swearing
spinning greener DJs.

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Prisons

Prisons,
like slavery,
and economic and political prostitution,
are rooted in unfortunate histories
of criminal choices.

Criminal behaviors
are rooted in revenge
and fear
and anger
and insanely aggressive feelings
of entitlement,
bad faiths in superior wants and isolating needs.

Retaliation
is rooted in blame.

Blame
is rooted in guilt.

Guilt
is rooted in shame.

Shame
is rooted in insufficiency,
poverty,
feelings of marginal value,
remedial weaknesses.

Lack of value
for healthy life,
for all lives,
is rooted in circles of perpetual retribution
for lack of cooperative integrity.

Lack of spiraling integrity
is rooted in tolerance for habitual failures
to love sufficiently,
publicly and privately,
socially and personally,
naturally and spiritually.

Failures of love
are rooted in abundance of memorized terror.

Terror
is rooted in histories of trauma.

Trauma
is rooted in lack of restorative therapy.

Lack of effective, necessary, sufficient, optimizing therapies
is rooted in prisons
viewed as fitting resolutions for others’ crimes
rather than criminalizing problems
personal and public sufferings,
loss,
failures of sufficient social integrity.

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Let Us Speak Clearly Together

Let me speak clearly with you
dear religious and atheist Trumpians,

A fool in executive office
is a leader
only in foolish directions.

A rich thief
is the worst thief
as survival motives
are absent,
so self-thrival motives
remain piratically rampant.

An intellectual prostitute
to feel-good politics
is an ecopolitical whore,
competing for economic gain
after self-deluding blinders to ego’s mortality
are in place,
no healthier options for right livelihood
are currently in RealTime fake-space.

Perpetual reinvestment
in racing automated death machines
is not investment in peace.

Health is not purchased
by selling out your habitat’s
most nutritionally valuable assets.

Economic policy
at the bought-and-paid-for bidding
of bottom-line moneytaker corporations
is WinOrLose Evolutionary Political Science
reduced to its most cynical
monoculturing market value;
A political prostitution of mindbodies,
as are smoke-filling climate pathology backrooms
that call LoseInvestment To LoseInfestment
anti-ecological economic degenerative denialism
as if patriotic “manifest sacred EmpireBuilding destiny.”

Cowardice and mendacity
reduce healthcare giving and receiving optimization values
in bad religious or atheistic faith
believing this denialist-nihilist direction
is HellFire retributive EarthJustice inevitable.

While refusing to notice
this inevitability
assumes cowards
invest in supremacist assumptions
about small ego-centric
anthro-centric
manifest destiny,

Whether manifest by sacred scripture
or patriarchal WesternWhite Supremacists,
fools and prostitutes
thwarting internal capacities
to read with RightBrain Hearts,
threatened most by your own violent absence
of integrity.

Mendacity against Earth’s multiculturing Peace,
against restoring economically cooperative justice,
and calling out against sacred co-redemption
for all species
still trying to breathe our best
therapies without trauma.

I believe issues of monoculturing ego-identity
mostly suffer from not being polyculturally envisioned enough.

Healthy PeaceCircle PermaCultural Design
co-mentors thought
and notice
and co-witnessing without
LeftBrain dominant preoccupations
and addiction
to violent machines of death
fueled by releasing toxins
into Sacred MotherEarth’s breath,
and metaphysically sacred womb.

I believe colonization
retributively pre-judges
and condemns,
represses
suppresses
depresses
overly impresses colonizer missionary zeal
against FirstNation and aboriginal forms and functions
of restorative justice principles shared
sacred reconciliatory nature-spirituality,
as if reconciliation cooperative economics
and Win-Win politics
were not also formed and functioned
as sacred grace
of God’s PolyCulturing EarthLove.

PermaCulturing ReStorational Design
provides a conceptual Win-Win framework
to ecologically affirm,
creolize,
Left-Right Brain synergize,
bilaterally co-legitimate
what remains good
and democratically healthy
still optimizes sacred ecological wealth
at today’s leading edge
of postmillennial restoring
permaculture design peace circles,
extended cooperative family
group Win-Win co-redemption conferences,
adaptations
evolutions
revolutions
predicting great transitional climate ecojustice
familiar sacred vocations to and with all species
as our DNA-RNA Solidarity
Traditional EcoPolitical
PlanetExtinction Survival Way,

CoOperatively owned
and co-invested
and co-redemptive
Win-Win Whole MultiCulturing Group co-managed.

I believe transitional ecojustice
both follows pathology and precedes growing health,
large scale nutritional Left-Right ego-eco dominant conflicts
andLeftBrain dominant anthro-centric overshoot
of balancing Western dualistic SacredWords of Grace
with Eastern nondualist
bilateral and polypathic
Gaian-Principled Karma.

Our global vocation
is to end our addiction to
“dire machines
that run by burning
the world’s body
and its breath.”
(Wendell Berry)

But, more happily,
we are also EarthTribes
of and for Restorative PermaCultural EcoJustice
Design and Therapy
growing polycultural economics of slow health growth
rooted in Traditional cooperative Win-Win thrift,
taking care of health and peace for all Earth’s creatures,
not so much the anti-integrity
reductive Win-Lose theft
from our own Future’s
most likely vulnerable losers,
children with cooperative gifts
for matriotic peace wombs-to-rebirthing circles
and not so much mere mendaciously patriarchally-owned
ballistic death machinations
toward Lose-Lose enslavement
to further retributively dominant injustice
and criminalizing war-mongering,

Steering clear of anti-ecological waste
and ruin
and anti-intellectual copouts;
Especially those choosing between LeftBrain reason
and RightBrain sacred inductive mystery,

between restorative ecopolitics
and sacred ecology,

As if the God of LeftBrain Space
is not also the GaiaGoddess of BiLateral RightBrain Timeless-Time,
together having created
double-binding distinctions
with only a nondual-dark Zero-Soul absence of difference
between where we have come from permaculturally
and where we originally intended to go
polyculturally polypathic
polynomially balanced

+ = (-,-) DoubleFractal/Octave Harmonic

(0)Sum InfiniteEgo-EcoLogical Tao of Balance

YangRestorative Grace as WinWin CoRedemptive Karma.

Le us speak clearly with you,
dear colonizing missionaries,
behaving atheistically,
US ProTrumpians,
our radical religious RightWing MonoCulturing YangBrights
have never survived climates of revolutionary crisis
yet continue LeftBrain dominant Wrong

DualDark Chaotic (0)Sum

Absence of ReStorative Health-Wealth
Left-Right CoErective Consciousness.

 

This piece is rhetorically inspired by Wendell Berry’s “Another Turn of the Crank”. The geometrics are more Bucky Fullerian.

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Voting Booth Conversation

My African-American
young adolescent daughter,
since she was age five
needing a therapeutic home and family,
with Oppositional Disorder
and deviantly diverse neural-cognitive communication patterns,
would have voted for Donald Trump if she could.

In large part,
I suspect and fear,
because she is obsessively attracted
to what and whom she knows is bad for her.

Bad medicine.
Toxic sights and sounds and feelings.
Poisons for all sensory receptors,
Mutually oppositional reiterative disorder
perpetually trading barbs of blame and shame,
games she so loves to hate to play,
with tendencies toward bipolar disarray.

Why does she seem to prefer older
straight
blond boys?
Probably because she identifies herself as a younger
brown-skinned
curly-headed
(in several ways and means)
princess-diva-girl.

Anyway,
she helped me vote for our town’s Mayor,
and School Board,
and Propositions about borrowing money
to pay it back later
out of her real-estate and business tax investments.

What she thought would be more interesting investments
for her future,
rather than bridges,
and firetrucks,
and improved highways,
she thought more gardens would be nicer,
and more nutritional in the long run.

As for Mayor,
she told me to vote for “Donald.”

Well, honey,
bad news.
None of these candidates is a Donald.

I didn’t say Donald
I said vote for Dora.
(Did I mention her speech therapy,
and lack thereof?)

(Did I mention I’m deaf as a post
and old enough to be her Great Gay Grandfather?)
Honey,
I don’t think writing in “Dora”
would be a good idea
because she’s not one of the choices here.

Well,
just don’t vote for Donald Trump again.

Never mind about the “again,”
as if I ever had,
or would,
But,
what came between you and your love for Donald?

He is against my mental health
and my mental health right
to live in a good community
without fear of automatic
or even not-automatic
gunfire.

You’ve been reading my blog again
haven’t you?

No!
Why would I read anyone
not smart enough to write in Dora for Mayor?

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