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Professor Glory’s Active Hope

The title of this talk today,
“Win-Win Politics of New Feminist Economics”
suggests questions,
more than emasculating
definitively deductive
reductive
answers.

Would you imagine
a minority-identified Buddhist,
more likely as a feminist
or culturally comfortable
with political and economic Left-brain domination,
monopolistic-competitive enslavement?

How would you compare broad cultural trends
between East and Western language
on a feminist v. Left-brain monopolistic dominant spectrum?
Which might be more ego-centric,
and which would you expect to be more eco-centric?
Where would you expect to find more
competitive v. cooperative economic support structures?
Which would you expect to be more family-tribal-clan oriented
and which more individualistically ego-oriented?
Which more anthropocentric
and which more nurturant of all life centric?

Who is more likely to be a feminist-cooperative economist,
a Permaculture Designer
or a Political Party Platform Developer?
Why do you imagine our world in this comparative
relative
way?

As a cooperatively intended illustration
of discovering political relativity
within an economic bicameral lens,
let’s compare our sacred colleague Charles Eisenstein’s
description of “The Growth Imperative”
with a bracketed revision
which might be entitled “A Regenerative Imperative.”
This, not to suggest disagreement,
but to suggest dipolar co-arising confluence
through using both Left and Right lenses of consciousness:

“Abetted by technology, the commodification of formerly non-monetary goods and services has accelerated over the last few centuries, to the point today where very little is left outside the money realm.”
[Abetted by double-binary balancing technology,
the decommodification of newly-commodified goods and services
is accelerating
over these last few decades,
to the point today
where surprisingly little is left
monopolistically
inside the overly competitive quantification of value realm.]

“The vast commons, whether of land or of culture, has been cordoned off and sold–all to keep pace with the exponential growth of money.”
[Our Commons of land and culture
and genetic-holonic individuation
continues ego- and anthro-centrically self-strangling
through dispossession of cooperative ownership–
all to keep pace with
the exponential monopoly of quantifying-reductive value,
distorting nurturant health as core-wealth.]

“This is the deep reason why we convert forests to timber, songs to intellectual property, and so on.”
[This is the deep ecology of why we permaculturally harvest forests
for timber,
culturally nurture songs toward cooperative intellectual property,
and so on,
yin toward yang balancing evolution.]

“It is why two-thirds of all American meals are now prepared outside the home.”
[It is why two-thirds of all American meals
are now less nurturantly prepared
outside our under-valued
nutritionally-potentiating organic homes and lives.]

“It is why herbal folk remedies have given way to pharmaceutical medicines, why child care has become a paid service, why drinking water has been the number-one growth category in beverage sales.”
[We, together, are why herbal folk remedies
could further enrich pharmaceutical medicines,
from which they originally derived,
why child care has become a paid
yet under-valued
service,
why bottled and labeled drink of nature’s primally flowing health
has become the number-one competitive growth category
in what used to be
the Commons egalitarian river-flow of life.]

While we each have internalized theories
about what positive and negative correlations
we evolve between Left-deductive dominant
v. feminist-egalitarian values and disvalues,
co-relations only recently occurred to me
as what co-operative political assumption
feminist-ecologist-economist culture
may share as ubiquitously as individuated DNA
co-gravitates toward universal RNA syntax.

Buddhist, and Taoist, philosophy
calls dipolar correlations
“dependent co-arising”
while scientists may share this same principle
of thermodynamic,
electromagnetic,
and gravitational
co-elliptical curve-linear temporal balance
“endo/ecto-symbiotic evolution.”

As inclusive theoretical physicists
and mathematicians
and statisticians
we might re-member political mutuality
of species evolution
as co-relation,
co-operation,
coincidental trend emergence
between two or more
interdependent dipolar-articulating trend variables.

Buckminster Fuller
labeled his entire geometric metaphysics of consciousness
and ecological development
after this primal principle
of interdependent co-arising “synergetics,”
steering
and re-ligioning
and re-cognizing
synergy is to physics
as love is to metaphysics,
and perhaps economics
and eco-logic,
health and well-being,
co-operative Positive Psychology,
design and development ethics and organic health/wealth outcomes,
which begins to feel
like ethical policy development,
useful for a healthier political
and conversational
and familial
and ego/ecosystemic
balancing process.

Where I did not anticipate discovering
mutually-dependent co-arising cooperation
was in the Prime-Origin field of Cosmology,
although a cursory glance at mythology,
shamanic teaching,
taoist co-existential paradox of evolving Yang/Yin principles
within nature
inclusive of human nature,
predicating male/female functional co-arising
and natural balance;
these were all,
in hindsight,
significant clues saying
“please don’t be surprised
when you get to universally unitarian cosmology
as double-transparent co-gravitation of our Commons.

Dual transparency of Time
as Zero-dimensional negentropicentric space
bicamerally suggests
co-operative gravitational power politics and economics
lie at the (0)-Soul Core Prime Relationship
of our global Origination Story.

Interdependent co-arising revolutions
continue unfolding
into our political lap
during this endangered
Cooperative Transitional Generation.

Note: Charles Eisenstein quotes from p. 101, Sacred Economics, 2011, Evolver, with deep eco-logical gratitude and eco-normic respect.

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Turning Ballistics into Ballast

“The desire for personal exculpation from the sins of society is a kind of fetish,
akin to solar panels on a 4,000-square-foot house.”

Exemption from our anti-social competition and egocentrism
is a desire for ever more cognitive dissonance
as suboptimization of eco-consciousness,
perpetuating our collective delusion
worshiping at the altar of win-lose competitive markets and choices
as self-perpetuating survival identity,
implied threat of Other’s success,
Earth’s insufficiency to provide,
lifetime’s fleeting universe of opportunity,
failure to trust Time’s timelessly transparent cooperative process.

“What, exactly, is this ‘money power’?”

What is Yang power?

“…I sometimes run into people who have read books…that make a persuasive case for an ancient global conspiracy [B. Fuller, “steering”]
dedicated to a ‘New World Order,’…[of J Macy’s “Active Hope”]
…conspiracy theories give too much credit to the ability of humans
to successfully manage and control complex systems.
Something mysterious is certainly going on,
and the ‘coincidences’ [co-arisings] that people…cite
defy conventional explanation,
but if you’ll allow a moment’s indulgence in metaphysics,
I think ultimately what is happening is that our deep ideologies
and [ecosystemic, DNA-encrypted] belief systems,
and their unconscious shadows [syntax],
generate a matrix of [polymorphic] synchronicities
that looks very much like a [benign] conspiracy
[steering of time’s four-seasoned unfolding].
It is in fact a conspiracy with no [systemic]conspirators.
Everyone is a[n enslaved] puppet,
but there are no puppet-masters.”
[There are few enslaved-slaveowners,
and none who could be systemic freedom-masters.]

(Quotes from Charles Eisenstein, pp. 90-91, Sacred Economy, 2011, Evolver,
comments in brackets and format changes are my own wilderness.)

Enslavement is universal
but cooperative co-arising parasites
are unitarianly powerful.

Slavery is forced ownership of parasite B
by A’s full-time Host agenda.

Slavery, in anthropomorphic cultures,
is collectively ego-morphic
(in contrast to polymorphic nature)
and fear and anger
toward and from which enslaving ownership of Other’s time derives
and predicts to continue,
are also nondually relational,
or “relative,”
as Einstein used the term.

Enslaver force perpetuates Ego’s forceful angry deductions,
self survival through creating victims,
reduction of self
to destroyer of time’s inclusive fullness
as someone who could cooperatively share all Others’ ego-healthy will
for equivalent freedom from freedom to enslave or not,
source of nature’s co-gravitational unfolding,
timeless freedom of self/other co-belonging.

Those nations,
corporations,
families,
tribes,
individuals,
informating biosystems,
with vastly disproportionate wealth deposits,
divorced from cooperative health and well-being investments,
not only steal power’s freedom from those without enough to interdependently thrive,
our unbalanced yangish wealth also steals our own collective mental health,
fearing fair freedom’s inevitable repercussions of evolution,
climatic transitions
struggling to repress nondual codependent enablement
of negentropically transparent ego-death.

On the other hand,
as we feel our most resonant light of wisdom,
as we have checked our intuitions with good multisystemic empirical research
on optimal development of polymorphic polycultures,
interior and exterior landscaped,
both endo- and ecto-symbiotically co-arising evolutionary revolutions,
as we step into our deduct/induct
ballistic/ballast for balancing thresholds of ecological consciousness
and become time’s agent-door,
swinging positively as West deductive,
and double-negatively as East intuitive reiterations,
where West is Left and East is Right harmonics
we learn to ballast these fears and angers in temporal
and proportional alignment
for optimal thermodynamic balance,
and co-arising cooperative love.

This day,
each day,
even these bone-aching heart-breaking days of loneliness,
desperate revolutions of interior/exterior climates,
fear with anger;
This Life’s day
is you, nondual positive/negative correlational-dipolar co-arising.
You co-operatively revolting is your phoenix revolution.
Your Time.
Your Moment.
Our Moment’s timeless time.
Our cooperative ecosystemic life

Turning Self and Other’s competitive and paranoid ballistics
into Ego/Eco’s cooperative ballast
toward Active Revolutionary Hope.

Note: Joanna Macy’s Work That Reconnects is not a conspiracy theory, it is a co-arising systemic theory for active hope to deactivate despair.

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Earth Citizens CoArise!

EcoMinisters of Earth Rights
CoArise!

EcoLogicians of sustainable tribal might
CoArise!

EcoLegislators of bicameral balancing disposition
CoArise!

What is our highest and best Commons Sense
of currently elected policy-choosers?
Where are our optimal outcomes of Commons Sense?
What does this vast emptiness of positive results
suggest about the Commons Sense
of our electorate?

If we consistently choose the best of partisan nominees,
what does this tell us about the Commons Sense
of our political parties’ diversity checks
and inclusive balances?

Do we already share a collective Commons Sense
of what and which and wherefore
our family and friends and neighbors would love to support
before, during, and after voting day?

Who does this Common Commons Sense,
commonly held?
And is Conscious Conscienced Sense
always the denizen only of the richly wise,
and therefore unCommon?
and seldom heard
outside local communications
of mutually subsidiary solidarity
and positively cooperative eco-normics?

Unraveling of superpolitical ego- and anthro-centrism
develops health
by reweaving positive environmental (eco)relationships.

EcoCitizen Primal Relationships
nondually co-arise
without ectosymbiotic revolution
and with endosymbiotic evolution
as does bicameral ecotherapeutic resonance
steer toward Interior/Exterior Health Optimization.

EcoCitizens with fully balanced bicameral consciousness
commonly sense dipolar force of cognitive dissonance
developing
stretching
steering
further articulation of bicamerally co-arising consciousness.

Release of nationalistic
and individualistic ego-anthro-centrism,
transitions toward eco-centrism.
Although not a once-then-done co-redemption;
eco-residency is a lifelong pilgrimage
and privilege
unique to human nature’s DNA-evolving
CommonSense.

Eco-Partisans explore a difference
between BusinessAsUsual’s competitive economic “growth” agenda,
and a more cooperative permaculturist’s “development” logistics
and regenerative political relationships as developmental process,
and economics.

Permacultural EcoLogists comprehend growth
both endo- and ecto-symbiotically,
both within and without growth,
mutually sustainable bilateral healthy development
follows slow multigenerational regenerative growth
as Win-Win optimization trends
in organic, and gaming, and information systems’
Group ReGenesis Theory,
steered by TippingPoint QBit-co-arising rudders
of Left/Right
as Yang/YinYin
Zero-Balanced Timeless Universe.

Wise pubic and private sector leaders
might join religious/spiritual seers
to recognize
we do not need money
to meet more and more of our overly commodified needs;
but we do need more co-operative eco-logic
to meet all our less commodified
global and local communication
and Beloved CommonSense Community needs.

Gross domestic product
is the total of both cooperatively and competitively produced
goods and services
each family and ecosystem and nation produces,
and most cooperatively produced goods
and services
and information
and grace
and karma
derive from a permacultural prime-original relationship
between Earth and Human Nature’s bilateral syntax,
cooperative good-will,
kindness to and with other mutually confluent beings
and systems
and services
and information
and grace
and karma;
transactional relationships of CommonSense;
less commodified with dollars and cents.

These self-other optimizing exchanges
of eco-normic developmental value,
like love and integrity,
beauty and wisdom,
kindness with just-right contentiousness
when national and individual egos develop out of balance,
these are the economic transactions
sustainably waiting for political and familial eco-consciousness,
for developing healthier and wealthier life.

Wealthiest survivors of competitive Win-Lose
regenerative sub-optimization strategies
become calcified arteries,
no longer able to stretch toward polycultural diversity,
around the heart of our financial flow system.
Stagnant capital tends to plug up bilateral flow,
tends to stick,
and accumulate ever more fatty tissue,
as bicameral heart failure pursues
its hardening of life’s natural/functional systemic
blood, fuel, energy, hope,
faith in any future.

EcoCitizens CoArise
within political parties
and beloved faith community developers
(is there a difference?)
(should there be such a difference?)
If your goal is to develop
the most inclusively diverse policies,
procedures,
plans for living optimally together
as your beloved community,
and you want to learn how to get better
at becoming this inclusively diverse beloved community,
do you think you will learn more
about your current state of sub-optimization,
by talking only amongst yourselves,
as currently incarnated,
or do you think you might learn more
from those who have tried to darken your door and failed,
and from those who would never think to darken your door
of influence and inclusion,
why and how this absence of YouNow
has and has not worked out for them
in their familial,
economic,
social,
and vocational,
and cultural lives?

What would those outside your information fold and field
need from you
to share with you
every grace they could contain?

EcoCitizens declare your Win-Win bioethics!
The most inclusively diverse-with-confluent harmonic blend
Polyculture
develops biculturally universal-prime-transparent-relationship;
to sustain uniting integrity
where a BusinessAsUsual monoculture
with hardening competitive-reductive arteries
will fail to optimally thrive.

EcoCitizens CoArise
this Beloved Community’s
optimally perpetual-climaxing Eco-normically forming,
functioning,
flowing,
DNA/RNA EarthTribally regenerative,
CommonSense Party!

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Gypsy Homebound

Heart is where my home finds graceful relationship,
where my soul simply IS,
my memories of becoming,
of being at my best,
sometimes my worst,
but always my most full, complete,
most abundantly contentious and content.

Home unveils life’s liturgy.
This home where I was conceived
and born
has rebirthed me each dawn
and decomposed through all my dream time,
where I grew up and out,
where brother moved away
from where I was married,
from where I buried my grandparents,
and then my parents.

As my body houses identity
my home houses body.
While home and self-identity can be distinguished
one from the other,
this is never a benign or wisely severing discrimination;
better as a distinction without prospects for contented difference,
dishearted separation.

My soul and mind and body fade and wilt
withdrawn by force and circumstance
from embryonic being.
To awaken or sleep away
in any profanely alien place,
without power or even hope to return
to more sacred memoried space,
fades my eyes and ears and nose,
my skin down to my spinal bones,
despair this senseless loss of sense
of life and breath and bread that once was mine
and could be mine to share again.

My home is where I live
my view of neighbors and town and Earth and life
flowing sedately toward, then past too quickly
on my backyard river of memory,
greeting ducks and swans
herons and eagles soaring by
to hunt this fertile rippling home with me
now fading into memory
as memory shades to sympathy and apathy,
and apathy to this sad self-isolation
from my heart’s dismembering womb.

Lavish price for a new bodied home
invites sublimating new with best familiar practices and intents,
artifacts of golden relational memories from past days
and life
and home,
reframed by unfamiliar
but gracefully welcoming
trees
and birds
and weeds.

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When We Were Eight

When you were eight years old
waking to another perfect day’s dawn
what potential did you
with your autonomic intuition,
integrity of left deductive
with elder-right languages,
discover?

Who were you
as you stepped into morning’s warm spring sun,
first reminder of school year’s end
and summer’s leisurely recreation
of imagination,
role play expansion,
languishing loved laughter
replacing more challenging team sports
requiring a win-lose assumption,
and visual coordination,
of space with time
invisible to your perception.

What were you doing
lying flat on your stomach
in dutch clovered lawn’s grasses
looking down into a miniature jungle
without rivers,
forest for ants
and their insect tribes
and neighbors
and nations
and cultures,
some with advantages and risks and beauty
of flight,
landing lightly in grass-blade tree tops
as ants pursued more industrial economies
of richly nutritional value below,
sweet crystalline treasures,
jewels for their Aunt Queen’s healthy investment
in embryonic royal vocation
of developing naturally organic time,
endosymbiosis of a new generation
of flying ants,
Bodhisattva Warriors
for polytribal peace
with interminable faith
in our integrity of nature’s ecological justice.

Where was your family-owned business
of incorporating love
with truth and hope for inclusive faith
flexible enough to include boys
vulnerably drawn to other boys’ eyes and skin,
more than girls’ laughter and light heartedness?

How did you invest your perfect humid August days,
breathing Lake Michigan’s thick air,
reading Gone With The Wind
in wonder of such rich diversity
of spirit and ownership,
of integrity and entitled stupidity,
of nobility both within and despite poverty
of mendacity both within and despite superfluously competitive wealth
commodifying even beauty
and power
and nobility
and darkly rich fertile race?

Why did you love this embracing place
of multigenerational space,
your private caressing sangha farm
gardening your bicameral heart and lungs
mind and limbs in love’s familial
yet vegetative and fruit-filled embrace
so that no other place
could ever bring this organic sacred home again,
so that each other space
might ever bring this home regained?

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Synergisms of Integrity

What exactly is the primal and primary permaculturist’s agenda?

To optimize ecological health
endosymbiotically and ectosymbiotically,
both within and without,
yet nondually;
two Yang/Yin
Convex/Concave
faces of our universal permacultural love project–
sometimes rather loosely called “human nature.”

There is nothing even the most ruthless sociopath could do
to stop this evolutionary advent,
because this positive health culture
emerges from competitive monocultural Business As Usual
as day emerges from night,
as summer springs forth from winter’s dual-dark purgation
of matter synergizing energetic root systems,
decomposing regenetic folds of time’s co-arising gravity.

Ego is my local environment
struggling to breathe within ecologos,
balancing nature-systems.

Consistent reiteration of gratitude
for each breath
and heart beat
and thought or silence
co-arises cosmological synergy;
Endo- within ecto-symbiotic
positive evolution.

An articulating economy of love
grows co-arising generosity as stimulant,
with gratitude as uniting response.
This metasystemic stimulus-response
as generosity-gratitude
establishes a positive double-binding trend
toward polyculturally inclusive outcomes.

Effective permaculturists produce self-optimizing
climaxing
polyculturally beloved outcomes;
economic,
ecological,
binomially systemic,
and positive psychological.

Being against eco-integrity
is like being for ego-hypocrisy;
it just doesn’t happen in nature.

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Farewell to a Sacred Place

Love defines co-messianic grace
filling each and all sacred place,
temporal space
flowing out to reach this autumn sky
only possible after flowing in
from lovely sky blue canopy,
worshiped with whispered waves
by calico trees
glad-rooted within this ledge of Cider Hill,
with me
breathing such majesty as we,
so much more ecstatically opulent
and more profoundly significant
through adoration of this God-We,
breathing in our integrative unity
to breathe out our universal sanctity,
karmic grace
this place
a part of me
as I am so proud to be so small
within such eternal majesty of We
are Cider Hill.

RNA develops polynomial and polypathic
polymorphic language
feeding our natural-cultural mythic logos
string of Wisdom Literature.

Permaculture Design is but our Epilogos
of an eternally polycultural (0)Mega Point
unveiling symbiotic revolutionary Gospel.

I regret what we will not have together
in this life
but perhaps this wondrous value,
what we have been together
evolves all the more slow-growth positively networked riches
for this mortal absence,
a sweet memory silo space
to visit without racing pace.

My loss and your loss at this time
equals our positive gain for all eternity
to remember this
To-gather.

Our gods grow co-redemptive co-passionate health
medicine
therapy
love
positive relationship.

We are co-redemptively omnipotent
as co-passionately omniscient
in ecstatically nondual diastasis,
love as majestic heart-balancing timeless beauty.

Cider Hill
where words fill still.

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Unconditional Co-Arising Love

What condition is my condition in?
said Yang to Yin.

Unconditional love of enemies,
antagonists,
annoying pests with equally annoying ideas
of their own
about how you should be and become right now,
requires more than non-violent listening,
although this is a good start,
sang Yin to Yang,
listening to boorish language and syntax,
but also hearing malodorous Other’s emotional gestalt.

To empathize with Negative Environment
as truly and positively functional for that Other
at this time
is to comprehend yourself more articulately
more integrally
more clearly,
more fully
through this enthymematic positive-deviant empathy,
to feel gratitude for this teaching
about your own self-limitations,
your own limited transparency,
your own antithetical weakness,
prior ignorance of empathic possibility–
negative facets of unconditional love.

Buddhists call the absence, fear, of this empathic openness to opposition
“emotional obscuration,”
walking hand-in-hand with Yangish maya of false ego-pride.

Unconditional love,
dearest Yang,
lies at your threshold of losing ego-centered fear
through emotional/cognitive co-arising clarification,
induction conjoined with deduction,
appositional decomposition of this specific emotional gestalt,
economy,
well at work in this Win-Lose scenario
you have proudly built
to protect your security
in face of our impending joint-eco-identity revolution.

“understand that you depend on enemies
and outsiders to define yourself,
and that without some opposition
you would be lost”
chimed Alan Watts.

Bucky echoed,
And, after you know you fully understand
the empathic positive potential of your environmental negatives,
then try to COMPREHEND
this positive function of negative phenomena
as Trim Tab oppportunity to improve
your ecologically confluent and function-optimizing design
and ego-development
toward synergetic orthopraxis,
disinvesting from cognitive and affective dissonance,
to play better Win-Win cooperative designer games.

Unconditional love,
nearly impossible,
and our only fully shared consciousness,
economically and polyculturally,
and polypathically,
nurturantly effective yin with efficient yang,
needed and wanted for your active-peaceful revolution
of personal ecosystemic time and seasons,
rhymes and reasons,
your uniquely empowering EarthTribal-identity.

“love your enemies AS your enemies”
Alan Watts

 

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HighBeam ConscienceNest

Love matures,
optimally co-arises,
to fill a vacuum left by former fears
about shortage of time,
sub-optimal outcomes.

High pitch synergy
swells toward Beloved Climax Community
as fears and anger about Here and Now
EarthDay’s lack of fullness…
subside.
As we cooperatively embrace our shortness of time,
our ego’s self-ionizing mortality,
our lack of sufficiency,
our most intimate insufficiency,
our DNA human nature’s elitist immunity from RNA Earth’s nature
and each Other’s veneer of skin and hair as race,
our super-eco identity replaces this void with loving integrity,
trans-active integral potential
full-bright beaming.

Where we have seen and known confusion and discontent,
collective autism as affective hypothermia,
cognitive and ineffective dissonance,
about our lack of love’s belonging,
co-creating Here as Now,
we absorb ourselves as EarthTribe’s Boddhisatva ReGenerators,
Co-Redeemers,
co-arising production with co-retracting consumption,
wisely
truly
economically
ecologically
HereNow all-ready,
each high-beam consciousness moment
within fullness of Time’s repurposing potential.

Love resolves compassionate mindfulness as high-heartedness,
evolves and revolves coincident ego-id-entity,
resonates authentic intelligible feeling,
informs co-intelligence of id and supereco’s DNA
temporal revolving syntactical understory,
as self-identity within SuperEco solidarity,
co-aring coherently refracting humane mortality
becoming holy eternal Being here and now.

CoRedeemer Ego mentors eco-centric comprehension
of affect
effect
intent
orthopraxis,
exquisite bright harmony of this place and this time,
transcending content-rich through dissonant pitch polarities,
cultural competitive mania with autistic co-depressive repression,
reveling our Janus Jaynesian faces to ourselves,
each Other,
internal Right landscape mirroring and absorbing
external Left landscape.

Love is as much co-operating beauty as active wisdom,
being as becoming,
belonging as longing,
and no more or less,
balancing bicameral harmonics.

Co-gravitating time,
co-arising space and place and bodies,
spacetime’s SuperEco
balancing Eastern karma with Western grace,
past incarnate information with future reincarnate function,
meaning engaging teleology’s wealthiest healthiest purpose,
history emerging herstoric permaculturation,
polycultural successes surviving decomposed exformative failures
teaching regenerative design
as holistic ecotherapeutic development.

Love co-arises with beloved co-below root systems;
the only ecologically sustainable coincidence:
internal place high-beam hunting external time,
internal time refolding externally encrypted space
this place of pregnant love’s co-identity.

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Love’s Last Litany

I have never known alone
as when I lie next to you.

I have never felt orphaned,
unknown,
alien,
as when cramped within our zoo.

I have only become this dark
when missing not missing you.

I am breathing in
hoping to exhale, all through.
I don’t want to want to hear you
when I look past our sad dark eyes.

I can’t bear to sing this song
slow dancing echoed sighs.

I don’t want to be this anymore
becoming drawn to close my door.

If you can love me as I am
please help me find breath’s floor.

I don’t want to play house anymore,
my soul wilts in air this poor.

I don’t want to want to breathe us anymore.

I can’t want to breathe this evermore.

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