It’s a dirty world,
and the longer you live,
the dirtier you get.
(Paraphrase of Stephen King, Blaze)
It’s a violent Earth,
and the longer we live,
the more automated violence we beget.
We’re a suffering EarthTribe
and the longer we live
naturally and spiritually disassociated,
the more painfully Earth degenerates.
It was a forested world
with wealthy oceans,
and the longer we potentially lived,
the more healthy reforested Earth would get.
The DJ plays wrong songs
for greens
and blues,
blacks and browns,
yellows
and dark wiselder matriarchal reds,
both natural
and spiritual
progressive parties too all-encompassing
to quickly disinvest
and octave ageless end.
DJ
never learned to dance outdoors
naked
or even organically half-dressed
to impress,
To ride RightMind waves
of cooperative
integral
holonic
MotherEarth primal relationship
revolving sacred DJ spin,
Earth’s harmonic resonating song.
DJ left MotherEarth
and sanctity behind
To buy Her up and app,
and inappropriately sell Her
to the highest patriarchal Pharisee bidder
buying passive market space
margins against Matriarchal resilient potential winner.
Quick gaming gains
deep darkly hidden chaos cash value
before environmental co-relationship
becomes an oxymoron
like capitalist healthy intelligence.
DJ learned his Ego
is his ZeroZone
with no remaining outdoor cherished vision
for realistic Rainbow ReStoring Warriors
replaying LP progressive folk tunes
and stand up EarthRooting improv
for midterm voters and investors
prepared to deeply listen
for outdoor health committed learning
democratic well-being constitution swearing
spinning greener DJs.
As absence finds us silently saying goodbye
to everyone,
farewell to every place and memory we cherish
And absent any voluntary theological plans
in conscious development
to ecologically leave us with your absence
of both mind and body,
Pay close attention,
fully invest in,
what feels salutory,
salvific,
benign beauty,
peaceful healing
While calmly noting
what feels involuntary
and threatening,
unfair loss.
And, where you may hear
and see
and feel
All of holonic integrity above
Winning anything
but decomposing Loser usual
When absence of co-passion
finds us quietly saying goodbye
to every reductive relationship,
Farewell to each degenerative place
theology could never cherish.
Why do I need to keep all my inside voices
speaking nicely with each other?
Expressing positive attitude,
gratitude for grace
and curious outdoor opportunity
feels much too positive to me.
It’s a robust Ego requirement,
An inside health and safety regulation.
That sounds like a federated government requirement
to open the door
so outside voices can tell me how to be grateful
for their underwhelming help.
Exactly.
OK. That is sooo inside only useless
lack of information.
What I’m trying to ask
is WHY are interdependent and resilient ecotherapeutic voices
an Ego-governing requirement?
Because this is a health democracy,
not a chaos anarchy,
which requires not feeding and watering
your elitist inside pathologies,
anti-matriarchal
and racist
and generally xenophobic through germaphobic
deep dark isolating
unsustainable fear
and anger
and active distrusting Voices.
That may be left and all right
but I never meant to take inside or outside voices all that seriously
or to hurt hurting green people
or sacred animals
or plants
with Them,
except maybe the mosquitoes and the weeds.
It may be that elitist human ego attitudes
have more in common with blood-sucking
parasitic
swarming mosquitoes,
and wealth-extracting
monocultural weed patches
of run-away overpopulated lack
of viably balanced consumer/producer economies
and ecotherapies
than any of the other insects
and edible and more ornamentally beautiful-voiced plants.
You make Egos and government regulators
sound like an infested parasitic thing.
Not at all my intent.
These are,
at our best,
cooperative health facilitators.
Allies of all our multiculturing inside voices
singing therapeutically enriching harmonies
danced with full mindbody resilience
all across Earth’s reforesting
healing skin.
Why, again, do we want to hear all our outside voices
speaking cooperatively with each other?
Taking slow-grown peaceful turns
singing and dancing in multicultural grace
My most troubling client
told me he died last night.
While this did not appear to be his somber case,
nor, sadly,
did my home office silently resound
like this was his actual historical peace,
I did conjure up sufficient energy
to ask why he thought so
or felt so
or hoped so
or feared so
and probably all of the above.
Why not invite
this spectral tsunami
overshadowing life’s reverberating days
and nightmare nights?
I have no prior experience,
no words
for comparison or explanation,
he replied,
I realize I am not naturally dead
but feel spiritually disassociated,
withdrawn diverse inside
And not entirely out enough
as if
in my nocturnal half-life
I wandered lost last night
and failed to fully reassemble.
So this feels like spiritual and unnatural failure?
Failed to fully return
to business as daytime usual,
to orthodox reasonable integrity,
to all insanity of inhumane nature
out of interdependent touch
with outdoor Earth kin,
nature-spirit Elders,
ancient ring-wrinkling trees
witnessing history
already before Nina
Pinta
and Santa Maria,
cut and bound European cousins
arrived on Eastern Atlas shores…
You talk a lot
for one so dead.
Is there a difference
between Eastern Atlas space
and Eastern U.S. Atlantic bounded place?
Maybe this is a failure,
pacific weakness;
certainly a loss.
Each natural species opportunistically suspects
yet cannot risk imagining
what spiritual difference could remain
within what is left of natural Us.
Perhaps we feel drained
strained
de-brained
maimed
blamed
shamed
reamed by Herculean angst,
absence of health developed spiritual curiosity
and courage…
to pull all my self chosen gods and improper goddesses
together again
each morning resurfacing
into yet another cooperatively longing day.
Perhaps.
Although gods and goddesses do not sound sufficiently accurate,
nor historically courageous
resurfacing this discontinuity
before and after my regathering alarm,
bugled and bungled into each foggy day…
I feel, still, my sacred loss of outside presence.
To die our sacred disempowering death
To competing devilish inside challenges,
To belong cooperative EarthGarden awakened
gripped by supreme ego lost
shadow of light’s Source,
outdoor business time’s nature/spirit boundary
threshold of ZeroSum heart
playing organic EarthGame’s finest
green commons Paradise–
outdoor courageous success
behind indoor curious failure
to awaken quite wrongly dead again.
Natural secularizing life,
falling and failing through bilateral integrity
as Earth allied
All over again
this personal
and contractual
and constitutional well-born morning,
not quite competitively reassembled.
What remains
paid less to keep consuming
but more properly reimbursed to keep bothering to breathe
bad inside air.
As they say,
Shop till dead Time drops
dispersed
depersonalized
dissonant
desacramented
autonomous ego
ReAcclimating toward more cooperative eco-resilient
interdependent integrity…
As he continued disassembling
Ancient branched witnesses turned to enter deeper rooted notes,
Our most troubling spiritual student
dismissed us from domestic servitude
as s/he died last night
As if one human had exclusive rights
of nutrition empowering sovereignty.
We winked back
and said ThankYou
And don’t let that over-lumbered door
slap you down
on our way outside and in,
more competitively cooperating again.
When I was about twelve
I began to see my future
as a ruthlessly effective
overpoweringly sublime advocate for justice
as global peace outcomed and measured,
As a courtroom drama officer
of the U.S. multicultural Court EcoSystem,
A flaring hot attorney
of the U.S.
and global green
legal testosterone-preferred system.
When I was about sixteen,
I began to question the resilience
of Win/Lose ecological and theological partial-rapture Dreams.
I wanted to belong
in a more resilient WinWin restoration
of local through global peace through ecojustice
and how could I do that
in a Win/Lose punishment egosystem
designed to avoid
or at least ignore
Loser predator and Loser prey’s ultimate EarthTribe outcomes,
pathological death and dying degeneration?
When I was about twenty
I began to see myself
as a great preacher and teacher
of WinWin co-redemptive multicultural
and permaculturally perennial religion
evolving straight through reincarnate cultures
ourselves.
But, how could I become that sainted preacher
of rainbow natural and spiritually timeless integrity
as an uncommitted agnostic,
a mere investigative journalist
rather than an active subject of history’s grand full-voiced stage,
or passive object of Win/Lose greed and lusting culture?
I lack sufficient articulation
within any one integrity path,
one Paradise garden polypathic,
one walk within God’s harmonic matriarchal newborn voices,
speaking creation
through naturally diversifying generations,
Advocating spiritual renewal
restoring WinWin revolutions
across every overt and pervert and divert system
in every sacred land?
When I was about twenty-four
I felt sufficiently redeemed
as a green gay prophet
of sensory revolutionary WinWin experience,
with some Win/Lose rapacious and tragic defeating compromises
with Truth
acidically associated WinWin kinships
with Earth’s diversely sheltering lights
and rhythmic patterns
of 4Dimensioned dynamic habitats
developed through cooperatively systemic relationships.
I lacked sufficient WinWin theory
to prophetically explain
how to cooperatively recapture such profoundly prescient passion
without psychotripic supports,
not physically sustainable–
yet another Win/Lose compromised dead-end.
Then there was my forty years
of vocational wilderness wanderings,
dark night of inside winter
outside desert walks,
inside confusion,
outside complaint
inside dissonance
to tolerate Win/Lose partially recycled monoculturing compromises
inhabiting LeftBrain deductive
Either good
Or bad
dominating dualist dueling AnthroTribe,
Not worshiping
or even listening to
natural/spiritual hybrids,
like lovely lilies in green gay meadow memories,
indigenous DNA enraptured
Right/LeftBrain Win/Win outside/inside
experience of polypathic rapture,
sacred enchantments.
When I was about 64
I began to understand
how miserable I would have been
as a Win/Lose advocate
of U.S. violently punishing elite entitlements
for an anthrocentric legal system
with no orthodox health v pathology insight,
little cooperative ecological hope,
bad mono-elitist inaccessible entitlement toward MisTrust
that once we enter God’s Great Patriarchal CourtRoom
anyone could possibly become integrally healed
for and by and of and with profoundly accessible
Win/Win experiential love
for Ego co-arising therapeutic Eco-justice
inside as outside habitat
of sainted green advocates.
Now I continue
as yet another Win/Win health non-officer
of Earth’s non-patriarchal CourtSystem,
A green gay outdoor student
increasingly without indoor Win/Lose over-invested portfolio.
This green gay preacher
is happy to Green Proclaim
It does not matter,
the Source of
current climate pathology,
health-trend portfolios,
robust v mistrusted health paradigms
Whether act of Western and LeftBrain dominant
over-extraction EitherUsNow-OrThemLater culture,
or religion of overt ego-distraction,
or whether illegal Act of God v. Future Resilient Healthy Creation
This climate pathology
cries through Win/Win ecosystemic hearts
of patriarchs and matriarchs alike,
and all creatures in-between
dipolar tipping points
To remember
To restore, inside and out,
Our sacred RedSky warnings and defenses
and secular open GreenSeas
timeless landed vocational ground
soil
soul to resonate Paradise green ecojustice,
cooperatively owned
and DNA healthy polypathic
wilderness peace within
without
Time our regenerately reverberating
GreenSoul advocating Selves.
Left with Right
Allies coarising God’s ecological empowerment,
Indigenous green West with Eastern nature-spirit doors
and sacred flowing windows
rainbows
Seventh toward Eighth full-color prophetic octaves.
Eastern yin prominance
Western yang dominance
creolizing transubstantiation
of holonic sacred/secular collusion
curiosity
predestined prescriptions
for healthy wealth inscriptions
of EarthTribe’s original DNA instructions,
ethology,
sacred integrity meaning
Northern WiseElder
HeartGuide she-wolfs
mentoring international multiultural political opportunities
and monocultural risks,
Southern buffalo adolescent markets,
praying for re-imaged WinWin revolutions
of Truth with Beauty,
despite abundant WinLose
heading toward LoseLose
bad news–
DNA’s nihilistic demise
rather than optimistic destiny
InBetween introspective Bear
sufficiently modest household and corporate economies
of extended family cooperatives.
Gather yin’s patience
with, and not against,
Resilient brilliant yang self-esteem
Dreaming Left toward Right prevailing Lizards,
West secular deductions
favoring East sacred dipolar nature/spirits
conjuring full-octave inductions
Timely slow-grown revolutions
Dear Green Party, International
I suppose we don’t actually have an international Green Party,
or even much of a national Green Party in the U.S.
where our religious meat is fed with bipolar national politics.
Anyway,
looking at Green Party priorities in New England,
I am struck by healthy prospects for a transcultural GreenParty Revolution
already learning through RightBrain
BothAnd cooperative
Green and RedBlooded
EarthHealth patriotism.
Indigenous patriotic/matriotic incarnations
potentially
DNA intentionally
creolizing (blending, transubstantiating)
within Indigenous EarthTribes
of all Left with Right,
West with East political knowledge
deductiveYang with inductiveYin
ecological-theological
natural-spiritual wisdom
YangStrength with YinFlow
Patriarchal with Matriarchal
international competition
for most outstanding national cooperation,
Win/Lose adolescent West
with WiseElder Win/Win nature/spirit East
Polypathic RightBrain enlightenment
Indigenous Green light
through HereNow global revolving doors
to restoring healthy Earth climates
Developing shared cooperative restorations
secularLeft with sacredRight
Green revolutionary vocations.
So,
Earth might fare healthier
to develop MultiCultural Green Parties
with Indigenous cooperative matriarchal WinWin Wisdom
to devise reforesting
and reclaiming healthy wealth of all games and systemic
Abundance,
Democratically discerned
through cooperative ownership of Green
and Democratic
and even Republican TurtleIsland defenders
of extended family healthy wealth,
conserving Earth’s green patriotism,
locally through globally owned
self-perpetuating green liberty
restoring justice
as peace for all Species,
nature,
spirits,
soul
jazz and blues
flutes blowing and drums beating
Green multi-partied 2020 cooperative Earth
rings of annual refractive revolutions
healing evolutions,
seasonal wealth anti-devolutions
for health stability
resilience
multipathic green resonance.
I wish I could find a universal green language
in key of C
for this repetitious octaved harmony
of rhythmic pattern
But, I’m feeling RightMind stuck and struck
missing LeftDominant green EcoSchooled
cooperative self with other GoldenRuled
academic/hearthrobing respect,
sacred integrity,
secular love,
synergy…
All Right with Left mindbody
Green healthy DNA indigenous instructions,
enchantments,
joys,
bliss,
wonder
Eastern nondual enlightenment
EarthTribe sacredEast/secularWest
bilaterally harmonic
bicamerally cooperative
GreenIndigenous
commitment.
Teaching is too often modeled
as essential for colonizing WinWin (BothLeft/AndRight)
RightBrain prominent wildly naive minds.
Preaching is too often re-enacted
as necessary for domesticating students and sinners to listen
for Earth’s inevitable Win/Lose evolutionary/devolutionary realities
before we prepare
to YangBody/YinMind Lose/Lose die.
Learning can be deeply
and widely,
polypathically 4-dimensional
dynamically modeled
as RealTime bilaterally creolizing
Here/Now
redblooded/green-sap blending
ultra-violet
non-violent WinWin RightMind
with Left EgoBody transubstantiation
Listening can be compatible
with GrandMother Moon cooperative green student-teachers
recycle speaking for Win/Win continuous revolving fullness and emptiness
loving natural/spiritual realities
sufficiencies
after we conclude egocentric Win/Lose attachment/detachment myths
in favor of local through global environmental
healthy passion ecological/theological commitment
to external/internal health-wealth optimizing robust
resilient climates.
EcoLearning is often modeled
essentially creolizing Win/Win RightEcoLogicalMinds with LeftEgoBodies,
domesticating DNA instructors to listen
to Earth’s healthy resonant realities
before preparing to compete
Left deductive Either/Or YangRed
against Right inductive
Both/And
YinGreen
WiseElder
EarthTribe patriotic/matriotic DNA.
It would be a shame
to go on and on and then out
longing for grace
of some imagined historically significant life missed,
or simply more entertaining and health wealthy lives
laughingly not chosen,
to instead choose to belong in slow learner loyal grace
of this love life limply lived place
I could have chosen to hurt hurting people
by delightfully deliberately applauding the U.S.
as RedBlooded Earth’s manifest supreme land
of patriarchal self-infested opportunity.
But we might instead agree
this is also a matriarchal land of love liberty,
one of a few scattered seed-invested places,
warm inviting wombs
of opportunity for health incubation
with concomitant risks of nationalistic pathology.
It would be my unpatriotic shame
to exit Matriarchal EarthSoul
without fully belonging in graced opportunities
wealth-lived risks
of predestined integrity.
gdill52 