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Liberating Addiction

I need to talk about addictions,
about my addiction issues,
and maybe yours.

Addiction gets a deserved bad rap
but that doesn’t mean we have no more
than mean-spirited possibilities.

Our first addiction,
and, for the lucky ones,
the functional extended multigenerational
multicultural families
and liberating tribes,
also the last,
is love.

Love,
hidden or wide unwalled open
for another human,
another species,
another culture,
another part of Earth,
and other, costly
medicinal substitutes,

Drugs and alcohol,
guns and loud danger,
cars and sex,
coffee
and comfort
and convenience,
beauty
and enlightenment
and luxury,
notoriety
and money
and security,
all poor substitutes
for the nurturing feel
and natural touch,
nutritional smell and taste,
native sight and sounds
of love.

I have two issues
with addiction.
One is my obsessive-compulsive need
for my next, even better, fix
what’s broken.

I find it humbling
to be cravenly overpowered
by physical and mental,
natural and spiritual, want,

By my longing to climax
resiliently
resonantly
universally embraced by Earth’s most incarnate
and eternal
esteem,
communion,
co-passion.

But, physical addiction
can be softened,
eased,
healed more readily
and stadily
if not for my shame
and hide in the closet
self-judgment,

If not for my weak
and sinful shadow nature,
My need to hide
my darkest fruit truths
about not being in control
of my own autonomous will power.

And, so it is,
I hide my greatest weakness,
my greatest internalized enemy,
and thereby feed and water feelings
of guilt,
self-blame shame,

A failure to grow vulnerable love for others
I cannot see in naked love
and truth
and transparent beauty
because I fear to meet judging eyes
and minds,
voices
conserving dismissive choices.

Secret addictions
have all my darkest powers
of steadfast
and cyclical disempowerment.

Acknowledged addictions
I can call out courageously,
then curiously explore
with my housemates,
neighbors,
teachers and parents,
children and listeners,
supportive groups of similar addicts,
medicating absence of love’s
spiritual wealth
without natural walls.

Fears and angers spoken
and named
thereby weaken
as love swells
for positive addiction,

Which, as long as not risked
stays absent,
even from our healing selves
grasping mercy
for becoming merely mortal
and expecting my birthright
of a health wealthy society
good faith community
family
with multicultural addiction values
and unlovely disvalues

Summarized in GoldenRule behaviors
and positively addicted open
vulnerable
transparent
courageous
actively curious gratitude
attitudes of cooperative disclosure.

This power of my unhealthy addictions
lies more heavily in hiding my self
secret depressions
repressions
suppressions
dark impressions
that true and beautiful,
resonant and resilient love
is too far above
my emotional pay scale,
worthy of our co-redemption,

Too big a reach
to try to open up again,
to share my weak addictions
and strong compulsions
to feel and touch
taste and see
where love was lost
while pursuing lesser
hidden things.

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Teachable Momentums

Today
we left off yesterday
to pick up
where speaking non-violent principles
too often neglect to listen
to liberally artistic,
green and active
yet non-reactive
compassionate healers
may need to co-invest more
in co-operating democratic research
of
and for
WholeEarth DiaLogical Matriotism.

Excuse me,
but co-passioned listening
to silence
speaks not consent
to dispassionate lectures

Featuring compassionate feelings,
in every way but delivery
of compassionate communication
compatible with thoughtful principles of non-violent change
more intuitive, less leftbrain cognitive,

Complex language systems
yet less chaotic than violence
random
overpowering
more than dipolar nuance

I’m hearing sensory
sensually resonant
co-passionate polyphonic language
forming more of an octave healing choir
singing four part green gospel

Natural liturgy for thriving
Truth and Beauty
health and safety
passionately surviving

Yet another autonomous Yang-verbal lecture
to pass down information
from heavenly paradise Principles
passive dispassion voiced
from on high ex cathedral authors
and authority judge figures

Speaking down
into fading democratic deep learning
root systemic researching ears and eyes,
noses and mouths
tasting and seeing warm and cold feelings
bitter and sweet tastes salty and sour
acidic needs
to feel authentically persistent

Green regenerative miracles
of perennially trusted Truths
and safely symmetrical double-binary Beauty

Compassionately ego-therapeutic
while restorating WholeEarth
systemic cooperative justice
exhalations

For today’s politically incorrect multicolors
shade
and then fade Blue liberal elite egalitarian
to remerge communing Green
conservational conversational
nonviolent interdependence
passing through principles
of autumn’s non-violet 0-range

Playing hard impassioned thoughts
as soft compassion worked out feelings
win/win multiply
optional peace investment games

Calculating leftbrain privileged
autonomous unspoken risks
against, not with,
rightbrain win/win adventurous opportunities
to regain regeneratively healing
positive blue/green WholeEarth classrooms

Health/wealth systemic
dually compassionate
intuitive co-investments
ego/eco therapeutic,
bicamerally speaking
after bilaterally deep learning
listening.

As I was starting to say,
before so compassionately
impassionately interrupted
from where we left off
in the 20th century
leftbrain information flowering
of 19th century Industrializing
Well Capitalized Militarizing
Colonizing
Patriarchal StraightWhite
ego designed AnthroSystems
privileged violent evangelical Yang
Red demonizing
vengeful
punitive shame

On EcoOthers
dissociating blame away from Ego

PreDetermined monotheistic identity
only a leftbrain StraightWhiteMale god
could lectionary empower MAN
not so kind,

Yet sometimes curiously clever
at being cruel
enough to economically survive
not just passively obey
long enough
for yet another democracy thriving day

This green post-millennial 20/20 range
of compassionate revision
re-arranges reweaving reconnecting re-ligion

Our curiously clever win/lose
autonomously investing
light and power entrepreneur

May hope to retire
a professional academic
merely PhD-grade
Either True Or False philosopher

Feeding and watering ego identity
versus verses reverses
eco-incorporated overbearing
assaulting and extracting task masters

And my favorite pin-striped suit,
male or female,
and sometimes she/male
in between

An industrious era
of leftbrain capital dissociation
from traditional nutritional roots
uprising RedYang resiliently systemic
reverse green re-anticipation
within a compassionately felt octave

CoAwareness
multiculturally feeling and responding

And polyculturally passionately thinking
and co-responsive
co-investing in Teacher/Student
Parent/Child co-mediating
compassionate Language Circles
for restoring green EarthJustice

Needs no important permission
or more information
from wise leftbrain Authority
before win/win economic/ecological
deep empowerment listening
co-arises multicultural felt voices

No longer bought and sold
by more monoculturing
leftbrain education systemic
patriarchal choices

Instead, now re-investing
in blue/green equity
and cooperative 0-range co-invested
authenticity of co-articulating Green Communion
principles of healthcare systems
giving as receiving communications

Sometimes memed
and re-membered
and re-connected
rewoven,
rehealing mixtures
of left/right dipolar co-arising
teacher/wise student compassionate discourse,
trans-generational proactive win/win deliberation

Deep co-listening dialogues
mentored and co-mediated
talk stereophonic non-violent therapy
and green blogcast
cooperative
regenerating win/win health
caring non-violent
ultra-nonviolet coverage

Also feeling yintegral
full moon compassion flowing
rooted 0-range original
unrigid
uncoverage lessons
left right off
for yet another past tomorrow
this cooperatively held day

We left off yesterday
to pick up
where respeaking non-violent principles
too often neglect to listen
to liberally artistic,
green and active
yet non-reactive
compassionately curious
eternally young
green healers.

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Sourcing Cooperative Relationships

NonViolent Communication practice
is rooted in non-violent
healthy relationship empowerment philosophy

Unaffiliated with
pathological disempowerment theology
of personal SuperGod’s punishing injustice,
blame,
shame,
birth into guilty
sinful
despiritualized
dissociative EarthNature.

CoPassionate co- and eco-relational metaphysics
depicts a speakable universe
for sharing loving resilient communications
resonantly positive
meaningful
vocational
natural/spiritual epistemology,
theory of deductive/inductive knowability

Through experiential pedagogy
of deep learning-listening experience
within either or both theological and ecological settings
hoping for divine and/or humane vocational cooperative communications

With interdependently positive social-economic-political
health/wealth co-relations
through integral
holistic original Earth GeoMetric
NonZero SourceZone
of Yang enlightening revolutions
transubstantiating deep dark Yintegral powers
of non-violently resilient
reverse temporal interrelationship.

NonViolent nondualistic philo/theo-sophy
is rooted in deep learned compassion
multiculturally and polyculturally cooperative
socio-economic co-investing transactions,
co-operating practice
of non-violently ego/eco
inside/outside
self/other-passioning communication

In a verbal left-hemisphere dominant
humane/divine
ego/eco-logical
individualistic/communicantistic universe

Of nonverbal right-hemisphere unitarian
eco/theologically integral
therapeutically impassioned EarthJustice
speaking cooperatively out and in
secular/sacred vocations
synergetic avocations
empowering evocations
enlightening invocations
passionately communing EarthPeace.

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Yesterday’s UnManifest AV Destiny

Today’s unvaccinated experience
within
and upon natural spiritual Earth
is yesterday’s clearly
most purely
manifest destiny.

On the other hand,
what tomorrow’s post-pandemic destiny
will most healthy manifest
cannot be rooted
in other than silent gratitude
for currently positive deviant,
healthy ecological,
economically co-invested
multiculturing democratic
socio-economic empowering
capital wealth

Manifestly,
even liberally, win/win obvious
to future regenerative communicators,
preserving
protecting
providing
provisioning
previsioning AfterVaccine restorative
HealthSystem History

Our most ego/eco-logically healthy destiny,
her and his most manifest polypathic wealth
absorbed therapeutically
co-redemptively
silently this late sacred Earth enlightening
empowering dusk

Of co-manifest ecosystemic destiny
to preserve health and safety
resilient history
of natural/spiritual
indigenously bicameral
interdependently multiculturing humanity
born of EarthMother’s
most sacred light
and deep flowing power manifestations

TheoEco-logical
HeavenlyWind spirit manifestations
resurfacing
yesterday’s Deep EarthWater
bio/geo/eco/ego-culturing climate health destinies

Naturally manifest
Here Becoming
Now also spiritually feminist

Grateful reborn health
conserving wealth
of safely liberated AV Being.

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Inconvenient Wisdom

Instant individual redemption
from predative enculturation
is overly spiritualized,
under naturalized,
rightwing evangelical dogma
more likely found in empire-building
strong business development texts
than multi-enculturing
re-connecting
re-ligioning nature/spirit scriptures.

If spiritual redemption from baseline natural evils
is good news for individuals,
yet inapplicable to global EarthJustice potential,
then what inconvenient truth remains
bad news for retributive win/lose justice models
and nationalistic
military-industrialized
RightWing felt disassociation
from LeftWing win/win wisdom truths
for globally optimizing individual health
and nondual
non-dissociated
re-connected natural/spiritual global wealth?

When Jesus was confronted
by RightWing Pharisees
about the justice/injustice
of stoning a woman accused of infidelity,
for lack of monotonously blind loyalty
to her male owner,
Jesus’s response
did not focus on the individual’s redemption
or irredeemable need for punishment;
Instead

Let the one individual among you
without sin,
without any personal history of inconvenient unhealthy truths,
cast the first lose/lose DeathCulture
self-righteously winged stone.

When leftbrain dominant ears
hear Jesus’s LeftWing restorative justice response,
we quickly marginalize it’s radical
revolutionary call out against traditional
patriarchal
RightWing dominant commitment
to retribution,
to society’s revenge against the inconvenient individual,
to “vengeance is mine”
says a wrathful God
the StraightWhitePatriarchal super-anthro Image

A LeftBrain all Guilt
or all NotGuilty idolatry
made in capital-worshipping
natural, so not inconveniently spiritual,
Business As Usual predative
competitive social punishing system.

In today’s LeftBrain dominant
professional civil service
nation-imaged preoccupation,
Death by stoning
is cruel and unusual punishment
even for a lesbian
dark-skinned
stoned and substance addicted murderess.

Which sidesteps co-messianic potential
for win/win restorative justice,
for re-connection,
natural/spiritual integral re-ligioning
synergetic re-membering
that choosing not to perpetuate stone-throwing,
to no longer invest in RightWing retributive DeathWorship
by punishing individual win/lose sinners
by reducing their value
as judged in exclusive reaction
to this individual’s worst sociopathic day

Rather than re-contextualizing
re-connecting guilt and blame and shame
re-ligioning
re-membering, as well,
RightWing inconvenient truths
of our first and best win/win ecotherapeutic days
of infancy;
pre-leftbrain dominant innocence
of cruel and unusual
inhumane
self/other punishing
loser blame/loser shame
hypocritical injustice systems

Hiding from our LeftWing
health natural/wealth spiritual
democratic bilateral selves
that not choosing to further wound
less than perfect individuals
and communities,
monocultures
and privileged wealthy societies,
competitive states
and RightWing patriarchal
capital worshipping win/lose HumanNature
is a political
and economic
mercifully co-redemptive act

Born of solidarity
in this inconvenient interfaith truth
we have all RightWing win/lose sinned
against Earth’s win/win regenerate
co-redemptive LeftWing
co-operative bicameral
ego-patriarchal and eco-feminist resonant health
and ecological/theological resilience building
for restoring EarthJustice wisdom wealth
of win/win opportunity
for all multiculturing EarthTribes.

It seems an inconvenient truth
that RightWing political powers
are misused to focus attention
on punishing ourselves
for our worst catastrophic
leftbrain dominant predative choices

Rather than resolved toward bicameral balance,
resonance to refocus,
to globally re-ligion,
to ecologically and theologically re-member

Neither humane/divine Jesus
nor any Great Redemption Teacher,
Master,
Mentor,
Multicultural Mediator,
would divide
what leftbrain Divine
and rightbrain interdependent Earth,
what Yang polycultured strength
and Yintegral multicultured his/her-storic flow,
have wisely brought RightWing and LeftWing
naturally and spiritually unstoned together

Aware of this restorative justice potential
perennially recreative,
and yet RightWing inconvenient,
Truth

We have always gathered better
to get stoned re-ligion wisdom
than to religiously throw stones.

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White Dad Confession

I have USA raised
and LeftBrain Dominant branded
and capitalized
AfricanAmerican sons
disassociated from Earth
as a healthy,
caring,
inviting habitat for well-being,

Instead too narrowly focused on what Straight White Western Men think,
notice,
value,
monetize,
reductively compete to achieve

Too EgoCentric
AnthroCentric
Xenophobic
Earth-Alienated
to indigenously
timelessly cherish
what unwhite
unpatriarchal
unWestern
unviolent
uncolonizing
uncapitalizing
unhomophobic
Species of healthy wealth regeneration
cooperatively remember
and perhaps even 20-20 re-imagine
sensually
deductively
inductively
thought and felt,
yanged and yinned

ComPassion
Love
Solidarity
Integrity
Resonance
Resilience
Robust Regenerativity

So much more
than life-as-slow-dying objectives like
Avoid prison
Avoid police
Avoid criminalized economic behavior
Avoid shamed and blamed political misbehavior
Avoid Xenophobically Colonizing
Incorporatizing White Western Male
Capital MonoTheistic Ownership

Yet also
Avoid CoOperative CoInvestment
Avoid SacredEarth Communion
Avoid EcoFeminist Persuasions
Avoid Healthy WealthCare Giving and Receiving…

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Talking Racism

Why is racism
so difficult to own
and heal
for fragile western
and northern white people?

Why is patriarchalism
so difficult to own
and inclusively heal
for fragile ecofeminists
against narcissistic straight white males?

Why is nonbinary heterodoxuality
so difficult to orthodoxically own
and multiculturally heal
for fragile binary
authoritative
normative
monoculturalists
against LGBTQ unwhite
unstraight
unpatriarchal rainbows
celebrating spectral color?

Why is win/win compassion
so difficult to own
and polypathically mend
for fragile win/lose humanity
EitherWin/OrLose dominating left-brain
ego-centered survivalists,
anxious about transparent differences
vulnerable changes
right-brain multicultural interdependent experience
hope
passion
ecstasy?

Why is Elitism
so difficult to own
and heal
for fragile NonElite life=love
breathing=joy
positive-mind = healthwealth-embodied systems?

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Self Regarding Shame

It would be a shame
to go on and on and then out
longing for grace
of some imagined historically significant life missed,
or simply more entertaining and health wealthy lives
laughingly not chosen,
to instead choose to belong in slow learner loyal grace
of this love life limply lived place

I could have chosen to hurt hurting people
by delightfully deliberately applauding the U.S.
as RedBlooded Earth’s manifest supreme land
of patriarchal self-infested opportunity.

But we might instead agree
this is also a matriarchal land of love liberty,
one of a few scattered seed-invested places,
warm inviting wombs
of opportunity for health incubation
with concomitant risks of nationalistic pathology.

It would be my unpatriotic shame
to exit Matriarchal EarthSoul
without fully belonging in graced opportunities
wealth-lived risks
of predestined integrity.

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