My internal experience of depression
today shames
external ecology of elation,
all I might know as warm extended family
of profoundly peaceful impressions
still bare surviving
at end of this slow-fading thread.

This morning
one Epictetus sentence
speaks of blaming left-hemisphere dominant GodVoices:

“People are disturbed not by things,
but by the view they take of them.”

Similar to proving and approving:
Universal Gods are undisturbed not so much by peaceful events,
but by the transcendent view they own
by loving them.

Some days,
like yesterday,
I feel excruciatingly intolerant
of Earth’s
Losing healthy systems–LeftWing
and
Losing wealthy democratic resilience–RightWing
depression
suppressing what might,
more positively,
notice integral bilateral energy trends.

This synergetic,
yet distinctly negative,
degenerative feeling travels far beyond
compassion exhaustion
to despair.

Even an omnipotent God
could not have,
could not even evoke to grow,
further and faster extensions of sufficient compassion
for such death and dying misery;
absolution…
redemption…
all peacefully forgiven.

Among humans,
of course,
but extended to other dying
and already extinct species
reduced to fuel
for some predator species’ relentlessly extracting fire

And beyond all creatures here below,
to macro-political living systems
like self-cleaning rivers,
healthy surfing salt-water oceans
with multicolored coral reefs,
wealthy bones,

And topsoil organic life systems
and MotherTree forests,
and wild, complex boundary areas
of creolization,
interbreeding
petri recircling research and discovery
recovery
uncovery
incovery
excovery
anti-covery
pro-covery
positive covery
negative covery
expanding covery
shrinking covery
elation covery
depression covery
exhalation covery
inhalation covery
investment covery
divestment covery
empowering covery
disempowering covery
not not double-binding cooperatively owned covers,

Labels,
nomials,
variables,
experiences,
memories,
rememories,
memes,
images,
imaginations,
designs,
divine hopes and humane fears

I disagree with Epictetus;
This person is empathically disturbed by experiences.

Rape and violent militarized sadism
and politically sanctioned death sentences
come immediately to mind,
cold hearted starvation and dehydration
of innocent children,
ponies,
mothers,
mares,
peaceful fathers,
faithful stallions.

Meanwhile corporate gods drilling and fracking
greedily extracting
win/lose against future healthy regenerations
of Earth’s organic life.

Tell God:
A mother
watching her children stabbed
and/or starved to death
is not disturbed by events
but by the subjective view parents take of them.

If He agrees with you,
find a different Goddess Earth
with sufficient win/win compassion and hope
to change our competitive
Left v Right-hemisphere story.

All creatures are disturbed by negative events
and by Win/Lose
and/or Lose/Lose
views we take of degenerative ZeroSum violence,
eco-political
and neuro-psychological,
whether horse or dog
or cat or rat,
grateful and co-empathic predator
or cooperative divine-human nature.

But, my divine elation Right
unitarian yin climate,
reminds my humane depressive Left
universal Yang culture,
deductive proof of negative pudding
is in inductive gratitude for positive multiculturing outcomes,

All creatures are undisturbed by positive events
and by Win/Win views
and memories
and designing images
we receive for regenerative NonZero-Sum peace,
eco-political,
neuro-psychological,
theo-ecological.

I know
and deeply appreciate
an ecofeminist equestrian farmer
who says all this
depressing and elating stuff
much more simply,
“I trust the empowering humanness of horses
far more than the competitive horsiness of humans.”