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Another Love Letter

So, this is a love letter
from me
to you
for us.

Quiet Cream
and well moisturized Tan
were my first warm
and appreciative glimpse of you

Engaged listener.
Looks gay men in wounded eyes
while listening,
then speaking,
searching for
and finding acceptance,
at least for here
and now.

While both our neuro-systems ask,
with each breath inhaled,
Am I safe?
Each breath exhaled,
Is this healthy?

Or maybe,
ummm…
“I’ll have to think about that.”

Not so much
as a glance my witnessing way,
Wondering,
Is he why I am here?
I hope

Would I be appropriate
to here become
for just one Other?

You were not distracted
easily
from eyes
and voices
surrounding your place
in this 44th chapter
in not patriarchal,
but truly not green ecofeminist either,
Gayla BTQ versatile,
exclusive top,
promiscuously inclusive bottom,
anonymous,
romantic-erotic,
occasionally sacredly orgasmic,
political sex health history.

I wondered
then
as now
where we could fit

In gaps of loneliness
of not being fully known,
exposed,
spiritually and naturally naked
transparent
vulnerable,
fully co-invested,
transculturally cooperative,
co-empathic
co-passionate,
quietly completing each other’s unsaid senses,
thoughts,
integrity,
warmth,
refulgent quenching wetness.

Then, that first smile
just for me.

I am lost to your white teeth,
left-sided dimple,
eyelashes heavy lidding brown-eyed welcome
despite it all

Trust in integrity’s healing potential
after considering all losses,
stressors,
past troubling relationships
in gay white male privilege.

There we were
and here we are
ongoing

Me
writing this love letter,

You
curiously waiting to hear
and see
and feel,
to touch
and be touched by,
something possibly on your way,
a lovely surprise

Because
No one writes love letters
evermore

Painlessly including
those in quiet ecstasy
for quiet Cream
and well-moisturized Tan.

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Why Systems Comfort

What do healthy systems,
naturally spirited,
ecologically enlightened
and ego-politically empowered swell

Wellness
anthro-economic networks
wonder,
often wander around
what do wealthy mindbody systems do
when the Body squarely says
“I’m doing all I can comfortably do”

And the unsatisfied Mind asks
“Why is my need for healthy integrity
neglected
deflected
ignored
unrestored?”
at least half
my less than thriving
time
in your embodied space

In musical pace
and game place
and systems empirical
lyrical theory embrace,

This BodyMind feels a dissonant gap
between a comfortably expected
repetitively resonant accord
in music narrative compositions
as traditionally played
and replayed pitch perfect
military march uniformity
with RightBody empowered control

Over-riding a deeply serene
enlightened LeftMind unity
preference becoming contenting content
of EarthTribe’s sacred stereophonic
story, systemic

Waiting curiously,
and thereby less impatiently
win/lose pushing individual performance,
self-prophetically solo lonely

Waiting for our next cooperative
muse amusing immersion
peak climatic experience
designed
orchestrated
choreographed

Win/Win improvisational
in sacred
therapeutic scores
and scales
of resonant empowering harmony
enlightening multi-lateral symphony
in keys of bicameral rhapsody,
health/wealth systemic
ecstasy.

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Embedded SpringTimes

Perhaps we all secretly long
to be embedded in perpetual spring time.

My most entertaining pre-pubescent memories
of spring’s most sacred times,
when occasionally left
to my own leisurely adventurous pursuits
outside for further natural/spiritual embedded nest

Include a warm and sunny afternoon
unfolding on Saturday’s mid-western stage,
going to a pond
waiting on the edge of wild
lying on my belly
with my nose nearly touching

Her still surface waters
watching spiders
walk over Her
polliwog organic submarines
waving
going somewhere fins
propelling, with me,
into our Saturday afternoon
nutritional adventures
embedded in feeding FlowSource
well-being entertainments.

Another spring Saturday,
perhaps closer to full pubescent
FlowSource entertaining feelings,

I ran far back into the RoundField
where I knew a solitary MotherTree,
like me,
busy getting dressed up
in Her fulling spring leaves
while I unbusily removed all my clothes
and climbed Her
full body hugging Her trunk,
embracing and thanking each sturdy
warm-used limb
all my forceful way to Her most sacred top

To look and feel together
across this green alfalfa field
with all surrounding trees
a deeply fertile ocean forest
green-radiant slumbering mysteriously back at us,
this happy solitary FlowSource
MotherTree and ResourceMe
unseen WinWin feeling together triumphantly
becoming Be

Indigenously embedding entertainments,
Memories much richer and deeper and older
yet naked and wider and younger
than anything I ever heard or saw mid-winter
coming from inside black and white TV.

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Empowering Passions

In passionate psychology,
powers of proactive compassion
are generally thought of in personal
and familial
interdependently relational
perspectives.

In political science,
large-scale powers for proactive compassion
resist reactive competition to merely overpower the opposition,
preferring pro-active energy for liberal love
constrains against investments in conserving capital-hoarding capacities
feeding and fueling multi-generational greed of privileged inheritance,

Social altruism and political violence, passion’s contrasting powers
might restoratively or retributively justify
ethically valid and morally effective resolutions
even if not immediately peaceful and universally democratic,

Robust political powers
are typically thought of as the great and mighty public sector
applying state and national perspectives,
stories,
power histories advocating cooperative public policies
and commercially marketing unnecessarily risky investments in egocentric competition chaos,
reductive consumerism,
conflicting materialism,
greed,
mendacity,
hubris,
anthro-centrism,
aggressive nationalism,
violent racism,
deadly fascism,
enslaving colonialism,
toxic patriarchalism, etc.

In psychology,
we can easily extend cooperative power
to neurology’s integrity of positive energy,
active internal networking,
contrasted with disintegrity of negative power,
fading energy thoughts,
extinguishing co-empathic feelings,
feeding on internal climates of hostility,
paranoia,
rabidity.

In political science
we could extend power as analogous to economic energy,
cooperatively democratic investment in actively healthy compassion,
investment in integrity,
and a darker competitive run-away dysfunctional
nationalistic
supremacist energy unmindful of deadly ecological chaos,
delusional divestments away from nutritionally balanced systems,
disturbing dis-integrity of public sector negative energy,
entropic
nihilistic
health-threatening policies,
procedures,
competitive educational protocol,
psychological preferences for Win/Lose behaviors
and thinking and assumptions underlying unmitigated
fight or flee capitalism.

National health power, and not pathological disempowered feelings,
extend positive energy climates
of active democratic co-passionate WinWin missions

Antithetical to reactive
plutocratic capitalism,
kleptomanic exploitation,
A more narcissistic,
sometimes even sadistic,
sense of fear-mongering
hate-marketing
anger-imaging sedition
from global promise of healthy power futures
for integrity’s compassionate eternal ZeroSum energy,
not not interdependent organic neural roots.

When our individual actions
do not reflect our personal powers for extending compassion,
then we can choose to train
and plan
and network for healthy positive multiculturing change
systems.

But, what to do
when public sector actions,
choices,
priorities,
do not reflect one’s compassionate power/energy political training
committed to international EarthEmpowerment
deep learning,
wide-passioned teaching,
polypathic cooperative education,
co-passionately non-violent listening before speaking?

How do democratically faithful psychological individuals
and compassionate faith-in-action political communities
restore healthy peace
and non-sectarian informed justice for all EarthTribes?

Indigenous,
and yet emigrating;
Immigrant,
and yet already green sanctuaried;
Healthy-life pilgrims,
guest migrant laborers, producers, consumers, families,
evolving communities whose only talking-walking labor
is to survive competitive
commercialized
retributive justice normative educational systems
suspicious of diversely compassionate climates
and politically cooperative co-passionate teachers
advocating long-term green regenerative synergy,
secular with sacred nature/spirit communions,
wealth of authentic long-term health paradigms.

How do we cooperatively and resiliently continue
to financially and communally support
government leadership
compliant, not defiant,
with universally shared non-sectarian values
for a democratically inclusive health and happiness prosperity
of resilient energy systems
rooted in organically compassionate historic constitutions?

Where do we draw the compassionate line
around anti-democratic narcissistic violations
of ego- and eco-therapeutic constitutions?
Positively professed for true national democratic health
truly secular/sacred prosperous
non-sectarian happiness
enchantment
ecstasy
WinWin bliss
everyday loving and mindfully interdependent passion.

 

 

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OldYear Question

Said the last wrinkled brown leaf,
falling toward late dark ecstatic ground
crumbling into wet somber grass,
to the twig
belatedly letting go,

What does eternal healthy life feel like?

But, remembered romance,
enchantment,
resilient nurturing radiance
before and after
twig’s silently reassuring
timeless non-reply.

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Climates of Ecstasy

Any difference between feeling horrified, on one hand,
and disenchanted thoughts, on the other,
seem connected to punishing error and folly in others
unlike our self-righteous ego identities
trained to settle for a Win/Lose anti-communal
anti-trusting world.

Such disparities are even less wise when paranoid
and manic,
a difference in degree
between tragically toxic and merely Win/Lose business as usual,
between outside projection and inside rejection
on our shared global potential enchantment stage.

Then, too,
perhaps any disappointing difference between climatic ecstasy
and everyday enchantments,
in-between wu-wei,
still kindly love our best
and healthiest
and most beautiful,
sensual,
graceful local cooperative presence.

Each ecstatic day may bring some of both
cooperative enchantment
and Left v Right disenchanting competitions
to avoid horror and terror out there,
without doubt,
but also everyday disenchantments
of a complex, sometimes chaotic, domestic darkness.

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An Amusing Music Muse

I suspect I’m more interested in how Sondheim writes music
than the Beatles,

Although I have no information
to support this paltry hypothesis

Much less could I justify to patient well-versed you
why I also suspect
this tells me something about who I am

And vocationally about who I am meant to be
as a gospel communicating person,
a transporting soul
sharing sung enchantments.

Does linguistic content
inform mystery’s melodic message?

Or do melody and rhythm
reign before shaping
unfolding ecological
psychological
theological lyrics?

Or all of these sacred ingredient voices
speaking with secular integrity
Above?

Deep love learning below

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Earthy Ecstasy

To see ecstatic Earth
is to no longer see our home
as merely static,
framed,
quantified,
commodified

Yet,
To see all physical nature as dynamically changing,
ecstatically or more BusinessAsUsual,
is not necessarily to suddenly discover stones
are animistically organic
and ego-conscious.

To find a surrounding universe
or intimate home
ionically balancing,
ergodic repeat patterned,
fractally holonic,
octave tuned and turning,
need not require concluding all things are harmonically alive,
dynamically divine,
polypathic and polyphonic integrity,
climates of eco-ecstasy.

Time between living organic regeneration
and static fossil degeneration
may be a blink
or as slow and steady as a failing tree
falling in Earth’s reforesting nutritional landscape
without hungry humane eyes
for ego show and eco-telling
sacred liturgical dances
cooperative life
written in WinWin EarthTribe songs
in multicultural dialects.

Whether change is predator
or prey,
subjectively overpowering
or self-empowering objective,
infective purposeful cause
or affectively meaningful effectiveness,
theologically omnipotent
or ecologically omnipresent,
depends on rational choices for ego-acquisition
and natural organism ways and means
for healthy cooperative requisitions.

When Earth’s climate healthy optimization
feels like why economic predation
of angry quakes
and risky winds,
floods of despair
and flames of terror

Then organic universe
intensely invites our prey-erful ecstatic instincts
and our messianic natural spirited belonging
to restoring peace
like bird song,
Celebrating resonance of bulbous wombs,
redundant spring flowers,
root systems growing cautious climate re-animism,
curious cooperative nutrition landscapes
of mutual redesign,
courageous WinWin faith
for lost preyed upon regenerations

Sacred integrity’s
Climate health revolution.

UnEarthly ecstasy,
Sacred revolutions.

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Time InBetween

I seem to remember
a golden post-toddler childhood
in which each day was a journey
ecstatically timeless,
yet within bookends
of coral dawn
and bruised dusk,
between waking from true timeless sleep
and returning to my evoluting inside place
for adventurous pilgrimage,
courage in face of nightmares,
curiosity looking full-face
between inside enchantments
and outside ecstasies.
But now
I am that parent who calls to liturgical dinner,
harvests and buys the victuals,
plans the sacramental meals
on my better focused days,
administers all cleansing rituals,
defends all rights against retributive trespass
and pollution
of sand and soil and water
sacred energy…

Secular disenchantments
distract from Here we are in this inviting,
yet constantly changing,
day for just us Now,
far outweigh sacred enchantments.

Ecstasy feels like a reserve
preserved for early WinWin childhood
on a glorious summer day of liberty,

While mendacity of time’s turbulence,
downdrafts,
push-back,
competitively usual business
projects lack of time for leisurely enchantments
from unseen dawn
through vaporizing dusk,

Two moments of each outdoor day
unlikely to engage my full, ecstatic,
still-parenting old age presence
remembering enchanting golden childhood.

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Personal Ecstasy v Political Enchantment

Do you sense a difference
between ecstasy
and enchantment?

Ecstasy draws me out of my ego,
my body
my mind
my autonomous autumnal consciousness,
winter isolated awareness.

And enchantment?

Enchantment draws me in.
More of a seduction,
maybe even curious
invitation.

Ecstasy sounds louder,
bolder,
short-term climatic
and requires loss of ego-centered monopoly games

While enchantment may include promise
of all that bluster
and outsidedness
yet adds the longer sunlight summer
before and after relationship
of seduced out
fascinated
hypnotically co-empathic internal root induction,
promising integrity’s path of quieter seduction,
restoring internal becomings with external belongings

Yet to magically
climatically
mythically appear
on life’s Yang ecstatic
Yin enchanting
horizon of newborn
politically green
spring.

There’s political engagement
Then personal wedding
Then ego/ecopolitical re-engagement
of every spring through winter daily choices.

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