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Summer Hostage

Our small loop of a street
usually quiet
Today receives a loud grooming
with chain saws
and wood chippers
and diesel trucks slicing
and ruining silence
into anti-solitude.

This is my last day off
until summer school begins
in two sultry weeks.

Morning rain passed through
to breezy summer camp sun,
crisp shade tree shadows
moving slightly within lush grass
waiting for my non-motorized mower.

It feels queer…
I feel queer,
at sixes and sevens
at 67,
to trust that I need
not just more solitude
to become healthy again,
but more silence
to become vocally wealthy
again.

To go
or to stay
here
too near a State highway
trafficking toward two casinos
now more native to American economies
than Native Americans to empowerment.

This last bus
not quite upon us
while thoughts wonder
and feelings wander
about shouting sawers
and clanging chipper
banging my longing
back to a rural dirt dust-path
along side a Michigan Centennial Farm
where I knew breezy
silent
summer encampment days
of solitary
fresh freedom.

I wonder why
we can’t go home again,
Yet I can go back to childhood
solitude served up
in sacred silence
unsettling memories
of childhood freedoms lost.

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Dear Ivy

Dear Ivy,

I am sorry we did not receive even just a moment to say goodbye
and thank you to each other
for all those school bus rides we took together,
you in your harness,
and me in my wonder
about what’s coming next
from your talking head
to mine.

It is time for me to move on
to another student,
but I am happy to leave you in Miss Josie’s care.

I know she will enjoy your time
invested in each other,

Listening and taking turns speaking kindly with each other,
Singing and maybe even a little dancing together,
reading and drawing as light and bumps allow.

Maybe you can teach each other
some new KnockKnock jokes.

KnockKnock.
Who’s there?
Sandi.
Sandy who?
Sandy sandwiches
are not good for you.

KnockKnock.
Who’s there?
Josie.
Josie who?
Jo see for yourself,
Open the door!

I am grateful to have so many silly and lovely memories
of you
to take with me.

And, the greatest farewell gift you could give me
is your reassurance
that these same warm and happy memories
of us
are what you will carry with you
throughout your great adventurous journey
into well-being.

Warmly yours,

Sandi

Sandi who?
Sandy snacks
are not so good for you.

Note:

My behaviorally disordered ADHD and fetal alcoholic daughter, with abandonment issues and deep-seeded food anxiety issues, suddenly lost her long-standing school bus aide, probably to compassion burn-out.  Ivy can be a profound motivator of impatience in those around her, even with deep and widely developed caregiving and receiving skills. This is the farewell that I think Ivy would have found more therapeutic than the isolating complexities of disappearance without explanation or expressed gratitude for what did co-relationally work for so long.

To be clear, not saying goodbye was an administrative decision from above; not what Ivy’s aide wanted for herself or for Ivy.

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Permanent Sanctuary School

I came to AllSouls
looking for permanent sanctuary.

Sanctuary,
not only from a Rumpian absence of
civility
and non-violent trust
and integrity
and compassion,
but also pro-actively for an orthodox health eco-school
for learning to secure these passioned gifts
through cooperative
pro-active
co-arising practice.

A permanently green sanctuary for integrity
is asking too improbably much
from some,
like myself,
so wounded by cultural mendacity
of growing up intrinsically disturbed
by absence of heterosexual norms,
or masculine values,
or competitive-aggressive dreams
to too whitely overpower,
dominate,
occasionally to violate black extinctions matter
perhaps most of all sacred opportunity Nows.

YinSpirit degeneration in an early homophobic home
in an evangelical white nationalist church
in a rural white patriarchal school,
in a competitive capital over-priced
and cooperative communion under-valued economy
prepared to support even fairly rabid infestations
of white nationalist patriarchalism
competing for Friends With Rich Benefits Office,

Offices perpetually short-term re-investing
in re-election
into more supreme short-term process degeneration
against conserving peaceful health,
instead perpetually at war,
non-sanctuary automating convenient violence machinations
transporting us far away from original democratic ZeroZone nation,
ruled by a non-sectarian God of Compassion

To invest in universal human courage to Trust
unitarian green sanctuary Integrity.

In this AllSouls Cooperative Sanctuary I feel protected
from competing commercials
of anti-communion Holidays,
of Christmas
without SilentSolstice Advent Nights.

I see communal investment in health sciences
for truly wealthy outcomes
mental and physical,
like yin and yang
spiritual and natural,
internal and environmental,
sacred and secular,
inducing co-passionate deductions,
feeling thoughts,
universal wealth and unitarian health educators
mentoring co-passioning balance,
EgoYang dominant
only if also EcoYin prominent.

Nutritional ArtFlow of dipolar co-arising integrity,
peaking and valleying waves

Vulnerable to courageous health
and cowardly resistance
sometimes transportingly yielding into ecstatic,
co-acclimating wealth.

Flowing integrity,
fragile,
too enchanted for permanency,

Wounded synergy regaining effluent health
through nutritional investment change
into nurturing solidarity,
organic communion
fluid yin-flow nutritional-nurturing sanctuary.

More of a unitarian art–
Less of a universal, permanently orthodox,
health deductive-only science.

HomeZone, for AllSouls,
in-between what we choose to sing and dance together,
integrity of non-violent health sciences
also reflectively speaking and walking experimentally together

Everyday remaining
on and in this green sanctuary,
perhaps not universally permanent
but not chaotically temporary,
opaquely ambiguous, either.

Universal YangHealth Science
co-arising Unitarian YinNutritional ArtFlow.

Together, potentially integral
timeless invitations to trust wounded diversity
of fragile polypaths
toward rainbow’s end of nutritional deductive inductions
into everyday curious green and non-violent courage
ultra-violet
artistic science developing sanctuary,
not well written
yet deeply experiencing exegetical
dipolar
integrity,

Secular/sacred,
transubstantiating communion,
eco-political integrity
non-violently cooperative,
co-gravitating
universal deductive Now
unitarian inducing Here
as sanctuary Love
absorbs timeless wounded Fear.

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ReLearning Manifest Destiny

What did you learn to play
in school today?
Hedging future winning bets
against lost devolving yesterday

I learned religious history
of manifest colonizing destiny,
Responsibility to over-rule healthy integrity,
Authority to addictively enslave
our lesser prey
without duplicity.

How is such sad destiny most powerfully manifest?

Destiny unfolds boldly
in each Here with Now committed BodyMind moment,
Yang with Yin
Out with In
Integrity’s love-power sacrament.

How does spatial and temporal dipolar grace present
in one-way strings
manifest historic memory?
How does secular-sacred co-presence
move from intensely present
to predict future light’s preferred destiny?

Personal presenting hearts
disconnected from EarthSoul’s sacred Presence,
learn to win more today
by segregating yesterday’s inevitable losses.
We bicamerally learn to contrast and compare
today’s summation of all Earth’s yesterdays,
regenerative and degenerative,
with and against tomorrow’s integrity potentiating love,
secularly LeftBody dominant as Either/Or oppositional
Yet sacredly RightMind prominant as Both/And appositional
multicultural,
resonant,
polyphonic,
harmonic,
holonic nature-spirit of polypathic EarthSoul.

Could manifest destiny of a Species,
or a NationState,
or a Religion,
or even an individual NatureBody-MindSpirit,
a Lover of integrity Our Selves,
ever justify aggressive colonization politics?

Or addiction to competitive hoarding
Win to not Lose values
of patriarchal economics?

Or merely punishing injustice?
While potential destinies of long-term rewarding Win Self
to Win Other justice
wait in not-quite-manifest destiny
inviting sustained slow-grown cooperative restoration
of right nature-spirit co-relational love relationship

Do nature’s manifest destinies
normally predict creolizing (blending)
multicultural healthy healing passions?

Transubstantiating spiritual internal manifestations,
integrating mindbody rhetorical events
inside outside EarthSoul

Inside today’s EcoSchool green space
developing local loyal hearts
and global safe places
for polycultural EarthSoul Consciousness

Outside SchoolTime’s unimaged health destiny
manifestly poured out Here with Now
timelessly patient co-presence
Listening to manifest still small questions
of and for epic-seeding Integrity.

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DoubleBinding Riddles

When is physical restraint equipment
also dirty laundry?

When your daughter vomits
all over her school bus transport harness,

When she could have more safely,
and less expensively, traveled
in a six-seat van
with her contenting seat belt on

Rather than shackled to her seat
and unshackled into her school

Where all unharnessed big girls and boys
hierarchically go
to not air their dirty laundry.

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Teaching Future Vampires and Pirates

Students conservative of body-health care
invest as necessary
in bowing and submitting subservience
to orthodox heterosexual vampirate mentors,
fundamentalist badnews evangelicals
sucking on pre-meditated rapture
of Heavenly bloodsucking EarthNatures.

To meet conservative RightWing
LeftBrain patriarchal
student membership classroom requirements
of monoculturing monopolistic
indoor health-safety classrooms,
research circles grant
and otherwise enculture
incubate
feed and water
co-invest in
most desirably vamping
healthy nature-spirits
with most polyphonic eco-predator integrity

Positive with notnot NegativEnergy
post-millennial therapeutic
eco-reverse of vampiratic
therapeutic healing classrooms

Restoring PositivEnergy ecojustice status
of vampirate transubstantiating bodhisattvas
notnot capital-blood hoarding
through LeftMind winning
and RightSpirit sacred losing
with nature/body LeftYang Supremacist
binomially unbalanced
bilateral voices co-arising
Nature speaking with MatriarchalSpirit,
more than
Toxic-Devolutionary PatriarchalNature
against SacredYin HealthyMind FlowingWealth

NotNot LifeBlood sucking
vampiratic NegativEnergy Tabloid competitions
in FakeNews
BadNews Gossip Fascinations
with YangEnforcer
RetributiveJustice
PreDuctivist
OneSided Dualistic
MonoCultural LeftBrain Dominant MisEducation.

Absence of Beautiful and True Red Lifeblood Giving information
steals from eco-challenged
outdoor homeless
residents
co-investing in our lifehealth-hoarding RedBull McMansions
for further parasitic vampiratic behaviors,
personally
theologically oppressive of NegativEnergy nonbelievers
atheists
and anti-theists
are economic atheist hoarding
instead of sacred ecological
EarthStewards
against
political vampiration classroom competitions
for the bully-pulpit teacher’s desk
with loudest YangDominant LeftBrain microphone
droning WinLose evolutionary devilutionary dialects
and geometric fractal ZeroZone tongues
of co-ecstatic YangYin worship

For healthcare taking and grabbing and sucking
and victim ducking and shooting and blowing up
and sending off to learn war and post-climatic stress,
oiled and automated gunfire blood-letting chronic WinLose dissonance
as also classrooms of
notnot reverse-healthcare
co-vampiratic potential WinWins
appositionally reverse of LoseLose
monoculturing bloodthirsty NegativEnergy

Co-Operative Green ownership
of co-invested vampiratic WinLose pasts
invites WinWin giving love
within sacred ecological Left
secular reverse trans-vampiratic theological
RedBlood Grace
as RNA GreenNatured cooperative love
as brightly bought
C-YinSquared WinWin
Yang speed of YinYin-light.

Contemporary eco-vampiratic bicameral politics,
Yang v Yin egopractice
of ecologically overcrowding unconscious business,
deep sacred green learning
cooperative co-arising nondual meditations

Confronting vampiratic secular green-nature historical bodies
with sacred redblood for internal spirit
lights co-empathic health-rescuing and resonant
DNA with ElderRNA
ego/ecosystemic re-memories
salvifically resilient
and resonantly Green-Red holonic
polypathic spectrals
polyphonic octaves
polynomially transparent-bilateral
ZeroZone
notnot polynomial dualdark EarthTribe
four-season reasoned enlightenment ecology.

NotNot vampiratic reverse-temporal
historic mythic co-empathic
RightBrain speechless minds
remind of horror isn’t healthy.

Vampiratic dualdark
ecosmological messages
with sacred ecological healthy climate subtexts
media large capitalist WinLose
NorthWestern population percentage
looking for a plausible vampiratic lie-group
for LeftBrain dominant conversations
WestYang over submissive victim SouthEastern Yin
vampiratic challenged victims
in RightBrain pain of WinLose normalcy
dissonantly
everyday in ego-anthrocentric NorthWestern therapy

Inside LoseLose vampiratic evolving suppressive teacher voices
of secular reason WinLeft
to lose TransVampiratic Terrible Sacred ElderRight
arts and crafts
and music and class clown entertainments
vamping demonic fake-terror memories
inducing real nightmares
of relentlessly violent LoseLose
co-vampiratic reverse notnot
anti-ecological self-engorging
economic and political and personal absence
of LeftYang with RightYin health care

Investing in co-arising healthlove instead
as having GoldenRule received
orthodox DNA with RNA
Green STEAM vocational
deep learning health-wealth skills
in reverse vampiratic planting and co-harvesting WinWin
cooperative RedBlood co-investing
in secular-nature with sacred-spirit
co-arising green STEAM
outdoor classrooms
for deep learning
LoseLose-yin reverse WinWin
Yang RedBlood DNA-invested
4D Cytosine-squared polyphonic
PositivEnergy classroom Green outdoor-indoor
double-binding vampirate PositivePositive climates
of and for healthy wealth democratic research,
design,
and EarthTribe CoOperative CoInvestment.

Vampirate PositiveStudents
conservative of DNA supported body-health care
invest as historically necessary
in bowing and gratefully submitting
to divinely Green RNA eco-partnerships
for orthodox polycultural health education,
outdoors as indoors,
above as below
NorthYang as SouthYin
BiLateral Flow
of 4D sacred ecological RealTime
ZeroZones
notnot WinWin
trans-vampiratic
sacred-organically RedBlooded
Green eco-centric.

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Final ZeroSum Frontier

Even if we were to win
these hunting
and killing
and fishing
and devouring
and gathering
and hoarding
and victimizing
and offending
and criminalizing
and punishing
holy wars
and sacred causes,

We would lose
our vocation
to mentor and facilitate restoration,
ego and ecotherapy reforestation,
healing,
health,
measured in polycultural health outcomes
by all democratically respected
and trusted to remain interdependent
species.

Extended even to the vipers
and poisonous spiders and ivy
and choking evangelical fake-Christians
and jihad self-terrorizing fake-Moslems,
and fear and hate-mongerers of all bad faiths,
even those Pharisees and Sadducees
already too aristocratic,
rich and powerful capital hoarding
for their own healthy extended family care-giving
and receiving love
and cooperatively owned and managed grace
and positive synergy and karma.

Deniers of NatureMystic Messiahs
and Bodhisattva PeaceCircle Witnesses
are rabid wolves.

Those who choose
to Lose
at shallow capitalism
to Lose
at deep ego-ecological wisdom
are fake-redeemer sheep,
with retributive justice discipleship ways,
concerns,
Hellfire issues,
and over-invested in Win-Lose means
to successfully deny
their intrinsic bad faith in the reverse of evolution.

Those who defer to WinWin evolution
toward
mutual good faith polycultural expectations,

Those who defer to Win-Lose
anger and fear management
through self-perpetuating postponement
of Win-Win commitment.

Those yet to eventually succumb
to denying Lose egocentric body,
then Lose anthro-centric mind,
then Lose ecological multigenerational
DNA-enscribed cooperatively organized Soul,
organic meaning,
synergetic purpose,
sacred vocation,
regeneration,
restoring sacred ecological climates,

Lose reforesting evolutionary Win-Win history,
reweaving spiraling 4D RealPrime
SacredTime.

Stuck back in pre-history,
before traumatizing others
became a Golden Rule offense
against all WindNature-WaveSpirits.

If we were to win
all our anthro-centric capital-hoarding games,
we would lose our ego-centric
Win-Win revolutionary
NonZero-Sum Infinite
PolyPathic Soul.

 

 

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