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Fractured Caregivers

“If I could turn you on,
if I could drive you out of your wretched mind,
if I could tell you
I would let you know.”
R. D. Laing

Ronald Laing
was a troubled psychotherapist
and a notoriously terrible non-dad
who heard dark voices in double-binding schizophrenia.

Knots of contradictory negative emotions,
needs,
troubling demands and troubled expectations
non-verbally underlying attachments,
sensed relationships
between two people
and within families,
and other,
larger
eco-politically Stated, and officious, Voices.

I need you
to want to be with me
not because I need you
to care for me
and about us.

I do not need you (society, Earth)
to want to be with me
because I need you
to care for me
and about us;
regeneratively double-bonded.

Laing could not see
these two “not”s
as both/and resiliently knotted
at peace with each other’s harmonic in-between strains;

The geometrics
of and in-between not-not
can equal a positive.

His solution was inclusive rebellion.
I wonder what mine will be,
has been.

I hope for a 2020 revolution
revisioning not-not
health-wealth
sexual-sensory
natural-spiritual
left/west-right/east hemispheric
yang-yin
strength-flow
outside-inside
precessive-recessive (B. Fuller)
outgoing-incoming
ex/preformed cognition-informative emotion
not yet/still polypathic-polyphonic
holonic integrity-holy synergy
ecological prime relationship-theological compassion

(+)polynomial + (-,-)polynomial = +/-,- Win/Win ZeroZone,
multicultural

Integrally co-redemptive bicameral 20-20 re-creations,
left-brain secularly metric
and right-brain sacredly mindful

Every sacred day and night
psychotherapeutic choice is more resilient
when right-brain integral attachment rooted
rather than left-brain detachment deflowered.

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Black Life Shatters

My oldest son,
one of the few Earth-mattering
Earth-shattering
Black lives
I was made to protect
to guide
by eco-righteous WinWin acts
and co-passioning words,

Felt, and therefore was, disempowered,
worthless,
like helpless prey among predators
who listen to the same rap,
same urban Earth writes,
same multicultural performances,
When a gun was dispassionately pointed at his head.

This was only tangentially about an economic exchange
primal, personally and politically, targeted.

He felt violated,
and threatened,
already home and identity invaded,
when forced to hand over his car keys,
and the back door
and front door
keys to his home.

He knows these guys,
where to find them on Facebook,
at the casino,
in the dance and rap clubs
where he invested
infested
while still in high school.

Urban night school, unEarthly,
earthy
darkly sensual.

He does not know where to find them in church.
Gospel music is for grandmothers.
Liturgical dance,
sacred rituals,
are for outside romance
on warm wet wombed erotic nights.

He felt naked
exposed
terrified when they demanded his last dime.

This is his biggest and baddest bully,
his most deeply echoing “LOSER!”
His darkest dirge
speaking of suicidal revenge.

Or prison,
where Earth’s great white patriarchal State,
will put a gun to his head
and force him to remove his clothes
and bend over
to assume the even more lost position,

Raped of any future hope
to rest outdoors
after an ecstatic liturgical dance
under a romantic full moon
rapping
and dancing
ultra-violet variations
on a warm wet wombed
bright delight.
Not So Bright Delight

You talk our talk
like Black Lives Matter,
but you walk your own walk
as Black lives shatter,
Brown lives stutter,
Green lives splinter.

What’s a-matter?

You want to want
all lives to splatter?
Might hear to hear
RealTalk ain’t chatter,

You eat to eat
friends heads on platters.
We taste to see
your fake get fatter.

Your act is tired.
Your allies scatter.
You need to feed
on guns’ disaster.

Come on now, Felix,
What’s a-matter?
Where’s your commitment
to Black Lives Matter?

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Power: Love v Whatever

What might it take for love to conquer anger
fear
hate?

How is holistic compassion already more contagious than a-holistic self-hatred,
we-hatred?

There is more than one way to hear a**holistic here,
but they all have to do with sectarian divides,
sometimes felt more intimately, reductively personal,
and sometimes more transparently, seductively political,

Sometimes closer to home-caused and owned,
and therefore remedied,
and sometimes more great transitional,
and therefore more uncooperatively and disintegratively,
deductively,
unholistically,
sectarianly,
violently communicating
and pro-actively transporting
toxic viruses across monoculturing unhealthy unwealthy
absence of passionately healing opportunities.

Growing holistic compassion,
like growing organic THC,
depends on environmentally empowering supports
for positive,
healthy,
resilient relationships
with all Earth’s co-passionate NatureSpirit systems
and ecotherapeutically integral strategies
for wealth optimizing health,
mental and physical,
spiritual and natural,
theological and ecologically inter-related,
co-arising dipolarities
of contrasting inside and outside Janus-faces
internally/externally co-passionate.

Compassion for oneself opens doors
and windows of consciousness
to pro-actively discuss changes toward robust health
with others
within an authentically wealthy and responsive society
with mainstream healing,

Rather than too often punishing deviance from bullish patriarchal nihilism,
meekly acclimating to non-relational toxic neglect,
failure to nutritionally appreciate yourself,
ourselves,
for who we truly
compassionately already are,
at least in our best positively deviant moments.

So, there lies our individual fundamental key to happiness
by moving from self-punishing habits of thought
and feeling entitled to misdemeanors
and even more aggressive and violent felonies
unreceptive
unpardonable blocks to this journey turning toward compassion
for oneself
spouse
kids
neighbors
community
state
nation
animals
plants
Earth, now
past
and compassionately revolutionary future
Great GoldenRule Transition.

Investing in self-judging voices,
You screwed up again!
You are worse than useless!
You are lazy,
have no healthy work ethic,
want to play all the time
like an irresponsible two year old!
On and on and on…

Such self-afflictions are way less compassionately healthy
than calmly accepting past errors,
sins against compassioning humanity,
without absolving yourself of therapeutic reparations,
carrying all these negatives more lightly
as also enlightening potentially positive partial truths
validly applied to all of us
on our worst days
and most uninvited moments
reacting to perceived neglect, abuse,
shame
blame
diverse toxic pain

While living together in God/Gaia’s city (farm, sanctuary) on the Hill
is more about our universal SuperEgo’s bicameral pilgrimage
to restore Earth’s original holistic compassion.

Passion between a judgmental LeftBrain,
seeking retributive justice,
and a more compassionate RightBrain holism,
longing to restore resilient peace,
wealth of health,
without division between LeftBrain’s sectarian divisions
between what is natural and what grows spiritual

Secular/Sacred cultural divides
grow invisibly transparent outside/inside contrasts
in ancient WilseElder RightBrain memory,
rooted in narcissistically sectarian and co-passioned experience,

WinWin v LoseLose,
political health v economic/ecological toxicity,

Domestic/Global co-passions,
bicultural
binomial
supported by multicultural cooperative responsibility
for actively pursuing health through positive passions.

Passion opens doors to external/internal,
even international/individual
compassionate ecopolitical health outcomes,
planning,
aspirations,
deep learning environmental incoming support
for further positive passion iterations

Deepening robust webs and buds of healthy future
secularLeft/sacredRight WiseElder evolutions,
DNA structurally supported
WinWin non-violent expectations
self-reported

Positive psychological
and political
holistic compassioned powers
polypathically as accessible as green organic grass.

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To Restore Peace

Restoring justice to active global peace
invites far more than redistributing toxic injustice,
punishment for dividing cultures of health
from democratic societies for authentic wealth.

Restoring justice
brings mutual peace
as communal cooperativity
replaces commercial competitions
for fertile deep learning powers.

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Born For Which Purpose?

If you live in a non-sectarian democratic nation
with so much energy
we can lavishly spend boatloads
and plane loads
and tank loads
and truck loads of oily public cash
on killing our own Green Commons,
and threatening all EarthTribes with punishment for…whatever,
and building ever higher physical and emotional walls against foreign tribes,
thereby spreading collateral damage to neighboring species
of animals
and once thriving indigenous plants;

If you live in a place
with so little energy to re-invest in feeding
and watering
and nurturing domestic residents
of all colors and stripes,
spots and star shapes;

Then you live in a nation
too poor in democratically proper health reinvestment
to have earned your blinding undivided wealth of loyalty.

If you live in an overly competitive FirstPatriarchal world
with so much borrowed money
we can competitively buy and sell
sweat and swell the entire planet
currently supporting our too conveniently deniable life that kills style,

Then you live in a codependent insane asylum
about to go bust,
leaving all Earth’s nations
as homeless as a crippled sheep
without a healthy flock,
much less a sacred shepherd
or any semblance of a wealthy heavenly fold.

Invite your ego
your family
your community
your nation,
to look for a higher non-partisan
non-sectarian
non-violent
non-defensive active health goal
encompassing all non-insular wealth objectives.

When achievement of WinWin global health goals is mutually inclusive,
commit to this cooperatively wealthy polypathic direction.

If WinWin is not consensually accessible,
not yet secular Here with sacred Now,
then co-determine healthy corrective actions
moving toward non-violent
non-sectarian
non-partisan
non-defensive therapeutic actions,

Adopt and adapt communication skills
to replace assumptions that winning secular wealth
requires losing sacred health
at home,
inside our own interdependent egos,
with better integrated win health
to win true and beautiful and trusted objectives of wealth
everyday,
this day,
then tomorrow,
and so forth toward inclusive polypathic peace

To restore Earth’s health and beauty trusting future,
We, both left/secular and right/sacred, deep learn
non-sectarian happiness and prosperity
2020 revolutionary nutritional goals
for one globally green democratic health paradigm,
cooperative network disciplines
polypathically deep and wide
where trending investment health is far more blessed
than mere pathology divestment focus.

Making war is not actively investing in health-restoring peace,
And acting ugly does not create beautiful karmic grace
or love
or positive energy investments
or whatever the non-sectarian
non-partisan
non-violating
multi-paradigmatic wealth you choose to call us
more cooperatively nationed
and nurtured
together.

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Sacramental Ecology

Communion
reversed
grows feelings of isolation.

Isolation
reversed
invites cooperation.

Cooperation
reversed
requires competitive capitalization.

Capitalism
begets
Win/Lose strategic
Business as bottom economic line
Usual.

BusinessAsUsual
begets
monocultural monopolistic fantasies.

Monopoly Win fantasies
beget
monotheistic loyalty games
speaking patriotism
whispering worship.

Monotheistic loyalty
begets
isolation.

Isolation
reversed
invites active communion,
a verb
sacredly familiar
as secular cooperation

Cooperation
co-arising
polypaths toward WinWin Futures,
economically secular
and politically sacred
communion
abhors mere capital
monotheistic underinvestment.

Monotheistic isolation
reversed
grows feelings of polyphonic communion,
resilient ecology,
resonant theology.

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